The Lonely Truth
Written by Sharon, Melissa (T&M Fan) and Angels
"Am I in love with Blair…Bo, what kind of question is that…I'm not a,"…Tea stated, before Bo interrupted her.
"Before you answer, think about it…Do you think about her at odd hours of the night…Do you wish she was there with you…do you miss her smile…her laugh…her infectious personality…do you worry about her…wonder if she's happy…Does your heart skip a beat every time the phone rings…hoping it's her…afraid it's her…do you lose your focus because you can't take your eyes off her…how beautiful she is…how completely amazing she has always been…do you kick yourself for throwing away the best damn thing that ever happened to you because of stupid, foolish pride…and now…when you know she's being played for a fool, do you blame yourself for never having the guts to stand up and fight for her…for making her feel like nothing simply because it was easier then taking the risk that you might get hurt again…Because THAT'S how I feel about Nora Tea…and now that she's in trouble, I can't stop thinking of how I want to be there to make everything okay for her again…and now that she's pregnant…"
"What are you saying Bo…Do you want to be a father to that child?"
"I'm saying that John doesn't deserve to be anyone's father…he doesn't deserve to be Nora's husband…I know why she turned to him…I hurt her…I broke her heart so completely that she was vulnerable to his lies…she's got the biggest heart of anyone I know…and she's a lawyer…You're a lawyer too…you know what lawyers need when they've been hurt and betrayed…"
"Evidence…They need evidence…You're going to have to give Nora evidence that John can't lie his way out of…evidence that is conclusive and decisive…"
"What about you Tea…You never answered my question…Are you in love with Blair…?"
"I'm not sure I know the true meaning of what that kind of love is…The kind that you and Nora have…real, honest to goodness love you till it hurts love…but when you break it down like you did…then yeah…yeah I guess I do love Blair…I'm…I'm in love with Blair…"
"And…and you're not going to blame Nora for this are you…I need to know Tea…If you're going to help me bring John down…and save Nora and Blair from him… then she doesn't get the brunt of responsibility…she's just as much as of a victim as Blair is…he lied to them both…"
"I know Bo…and I think in some ways this will be worse for Nora…she married the guy…she took vows with him…vows that he had no intention of keeping…Nora and I haven't always gotten along but I don't blame her for this any more then I blame Blair…I blame John…Neither of them deserve this.."
"Okay…Then we need to start thinking of ways to bring John Mcbain to his knees…"
"You got any bright ideas on how to do that…"
"I've got the perfect idea…First thing we need to do is make him desperate enough to retaliate…and when he does then we'll be ready…And in the meantime, we have to do something we may not want to do…we grovel at their feet…we beg their forgiveness for being wrong about John…"
"Have you lost your mind Bo…?"
"No…I'm just smart enough to realize that they don't want to hear the news about John right now…we either grovel or we get shut out completely…what would you rather have?"
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Nora's blood pressure had gotten dangerously high and the doctors had given her a sedative to calm her down. She was drifting in and out of consciousness as she dreamed of holing her daughter for the first time. She dreamed of being able to share her happiness with her friends. She dreamed of making love to John and bringing their daughter home. She dreamed that he wasn't always leaving her. And then she dreamt of the video tape she saw of Tea and John and she shot up from her bed like lightning…
"John, John where are you…I need you…John…"
She was sobbing uncontrollably as she looked for her husband and found him nowhere in sight. She started thinking of all the doubts that she had and she was halfway out the door when suddenly John was rushing to her side…
"Where do you think you're going baby…You're not strong enough yet…"
"Where were you John…why weren't you here…are you…are you having an affair…Do you not love me anymore," she cried?
He pulled her against him passionately as he carried her to the bed. "Of course not baby. I love you...Only you… I'll prove it to you. Over and over again, I'll prove it to you."
She was sobbing against his chest as he pulled the hospital gown over her head. His lips trailed across her breasts as his hands moved down her thighs and into her womanhood. "John…John, please," she moaned as she cummed on his fingers.
"It's so hot when you burn for me like this," he said. He replaced his fingers with his dick as he rammed into his wife hard and fast over and over again…with every thrust, convincing her of his love and erasing her doubts…until she climaxed in his arms exhausted and blissful. When he was satisfied that she was asleep, he whispered words of love and devotion and promised that she'd be safe now as he slipped quietly out of her arms…
It wasn't until he was in the waiting room where his life came to pieces…
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"You're absolutely right Bo. I'm going to call Blair right now so that I can apologize, Tea stated.
She called Blair's number, but it rang and rang without any answer.
"There's no answer, I'm just going to drive over to her house so I can apologize in person...hopefully John won't be there. I really don't want to apologize to him too."
"Good luck Tea. I'm going to go apologize to Nora right now. I'll be in touch."
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John walked into the waiting room where he saw a ghost from his past. He had heard that she had survived, but he refused to believe it. The truth was that he wanted her death to be an excuse of why he was never able to commit to anybody...why he was always looking for the next best thing.
"Caitlyn," he gasped as he saw her sitting next to a nine year old girl that he knew was his.
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"Yes, it's me," Caitlyn said.
"You're not going to walk away from me, are you?" she demanded when it looked like John was about to run away.
"I thought you were dead. I thought he killed you," John said quietly. He couldn't take his eyes off the little girl he knew he was his - the child Caitlyn had been carrying when the psycho grabbed her and supposedly killed her. His child. The one that he had told Caitlyn he wasn't ready to be a father to.
Caitlyn too saw him staring at Michelle. "I am alive and so is Michelle. This is your daughter, John," she stated.
"Michelle, say hello to your father," Caitlyn prompted the nine-year-old girl.
"Hello," Michelle said softly.
"Give your daddy a hug," Caitlyn insisted of her daughter.
"Caitlyn..." John said with a frown as it was obvious the girl wasn't ready to embrace him yet. The child didn't even know him!
"What's the matter, John? Don't you love us? Don't you want us both back in your life?" Caitlyn demanded.
"I am married," John revealed. "And my wife is having our baby."
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Tea arrived in Port Charles and knocked on Blair's door. "Please open up," Tea begged as she stood outside in the snow.
A few more minutes passed and finally Blair answered. By then, Tea had snowflakes clinging to her dark hair. "What do you want?" Blair demanded with red swollen eyes. "Just go away!"
"I need to talk to you, Blair. I need to explain everything!" Tea insisted.
"I don't want you here! You tried to steal John from me... and I thought you were my best friend!" Blair exclaimed as she tried to shut the door in Tea's face.
"No, Blair. I am your best friend. I care so much for you. I love you!" Tea cried out as she placed her foot in the door so Blair couldn't slam it closed.
"What? You don't love me! I caught you naked in the arms of the man I love!"
"I did that to show you what a snake he is... that he's nothing but a two-timing jerk!" Tea explained. "Hell, he's sleeping with more than TWO women. He's fucked half of Llanview... and who knows how many women he's fucked here in Port Charles!"
"Don't talk about him that way. He fathered my child," Blair said with a sob.
"Blair, you know you have terrible taste in men," Tea pointed out. "Look at the men who have hurt you... Tomas, Eli, Todd... and you know John has hurt you before... Remember when he left you for Marty?"
"Why do you want to hurt me, Tea?" Blair asked tearfully. She placed her hand on her bulging stomach. She couldn't take much more. She was about to collapse.
"I don't want to hurt you, Blair. I love you... I really love you..."
"What do you mean by that?" Blair asked with a sudden frown.
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"What do you mean you're married," Caitlyn whined. "You were supposed to marry me… Why didn't you wait for me?"
"For Gods sake Caitlyn, I thought you were dead…what did you expect me to do…become a monk?"
"It would have been nice," she said. "So what's she like…your wife…Is she anything like me?"
"Actually she's the polar opposite," John said. He wanted to tell her that where she had been weak, Nora had been strong, where she had been jealous, Nora had been trusting, where she had been dishonest, Nora had been nothing but loyal and where she had been high maintenance, Nora had been easy to love, but he didn't say that because that would lead to more questions…questions he just couldn't afford to answer…instead he said…"She's beautiful and smart and feisty…she keeps me on my toes every day…" And makes me have to jump through hoops to lie, he thought, but didn't say. "But I guess the most important thing about her is that she made me fall in love with her."
"Well she must be pretty spectacular if she can get you to use those words…you could never let your guard down enough to say them with me…and now you have a whole new family huh…what does that mean for me and Michelle…we survived all this time to come back to you…are you really going to turn us away?"
"Caitlyn…"
"Never mind…I'd like to meet her John…I'd like to meet this woman who took my place with you…who stole my life right out from under me…"
"You aren't going anywhere near her," John stated, a little more bitter then he intended.
"What's going on John…what don't you want your wife to know?"
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"Tea, what do you mean by that," Blair asked again?
"I think you know exactly what I mean by that Blair. You just don't want to admit it."
"And what exactly would I be admitting Tea?"
"That you don't really love John… you want to love him…you've even convinced yourself that you do love him…but he's just a convenient Mask to cover up what you really feel…"
"You're crazy Tea…Of course I love John…I've loved him for a long time."
"You did…but then he left you and you got over him…How can you possibly love him now Blair…how can you love him when you feel so much for me?"
"You have done nothing but try to break us up…why would I feel anything for you," she asked?
"Because you can't help yourself…because the connection is too strong…because you love me too."
Before Blair had a chance to protest, Tea pulled her into a passionate kiss…Tea got all the answers she needed when she kissed her back. She started to lead her towards the bedroom. She wanted to prove to Blair that she could have more with her then she ever could have with John…she wanted to make love to her now.
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Bo closed the door of Nora's hospital room and tried to hide behind the flowers he brought her.
"I'm here with a peace offering…you don't have to throw the ice chips at me," he said.
"Don't tempt me," she replied.
He put the flowers in water and sat by her bed. "This isn't easy for me to say but…" He bit his tongue and lied. "I was wrong about John and I'm sorry. The truth is I can't stand to see you hurt. I know you don't believe that but it's true."
"You're right Bo…I don't believe you…you've hurt me most of all…I would think you would relish the chance to hurt me again."
"I don't relish any of this…I hate to see you in pain…If I could take it away from you I would…I just don't think you can be truly happy with him…"
"Oh here we go…I knew your so called peace offering was a bunch of malarkey. You just want to rub it in my face how bad you think he is…"
"all right, fine…you want the truth Nora…I'll give you the truth…John Mcbain is nothing but a vile, repulsive, worthless, cheating bastard, who doesn't deserve to shine your shoes, let alone, be married to you and have the honor of fathering a child of yours…"
She slapped him across the face then. "How dare you stand in judgment after everything you did…"
"It's because of what I did that I can stand in judgment…and you are only fooling yourself if you think that you will ever be happy with a man who spends more time away from you then with you…you deserve better then that Red…you deserve the world…you deserve a man who can really appreciate you for who you are…a man who will love you and only you for the rest of his life…who would risk everything just to see you smile that million dollar smile…did you know you have about a million different smiles Red…Does John know which one means 'kiss me' cause I do…It's this one right here…the one you are trying so hard not to give me but can't help yourself…admit it Red…you want me to kiss you and take the decision right out of your hands…all right…I'd be happy to oblige…I know the meaning of each and every one of your smiles and this one means 'shut up and kiss me.'"
She was about to go off on another rant when suddenly his lips were on hers…pulling her into his arms…slipping his tongue into her mouth and devouring every part of her like he was starving…she should have pulled away…she knew the right thing would be to pull away…and yet…she kissed him back…as much as she loved her husband…and she did…there was still a part of her that ached for the man in her arms…she ached so bad that she let him kiss her much longer then she should have…she wondered if she would have the strength to pull away as the kissing grew deeper…
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"What don't you want your wife to know? Could it be that you don't want your precious Nora to find out that you abandoned your child Michelle to the hands of a serial killer just so you could sleep with my best friend?"
"Caitlyn, that's not what happened," John stated trying to defend himself. He didn't want his daughter to get the wrong idea about him.
"Or maybe you don't want me to tell her that you've been fucking Blair behind her back and you managed to get her pregnant as well," Caitlyn continued to taunt.
"How did you know about that?" John asked.
"I've been following you for a very long time John, I know a lot about you. I could tell Nora everything I know about you if you don't please me."
"Nora will never believe you."
"I've got proof...photographs,video tapes of your infidelities, not only with Blair but with many others, that I'm more than willing to share with Nora and Blair."
"Please don't tell them..I love them both and I don't want to lose them," John pleaded.
"I won't say anything as long as you keep me happy."
"What do you want Caitlyn?"
"I want you John...I own you and I want you to be my love slave. I want you to know what it feels like to be fucked with. So what do you say John? Will you come home with me and Michelle and be my love slave?"
"Lead the way," John stated as he licked his lips. He had no other choice and the idea of being a kinky love slave was making him all hard. The sooner they got to Caitlyn's the sooner he could release himself.
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Tea led Blair to the bedroom as she continued to kiss her. Blair hesitated for a brief second as she thought about John, but she couldn't resist the temptation of being intimate with Tea.
Blair and Tea ripped off of each others clothes in their need to find sexual fulfillment.
Tea pushed Blair down on the bed and then straddled her. She sucked on her breasts as she pushed her finger in and out of her as Blair continued to purr with excitement.
"Cum for me Blair," Tea ordered as she flicked her swollen Clit.
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Nora couldn't pull away as their kiss turned deeper. Her feelings for Bo were too strong to be denied any longer. "I need you Bo," she heard herself say.
"I know you do sweetheart," Bo said, as he pulled off his pants. He lifted up Nora's hospital gown and pressed his swollen cock against her opening.
"Is this what you want sweetheart?" Bo asked, as he slid into her snug hole.
"Oh god...yes," Nora said.
Bo thrust in and out of her as he nibbled on her neck. "Cum for me," he whispered in her ear. He was so close to cumming and he wanted them to experience their orgasms together.