Chapter 10: Realization

I had finally decided that I would join the real world after I found out about Edward and face the fact that Caidan will no longer be with me. Since they couldn't find Caidan body they just had a memorial service for him back at home. When I saw his mother she pulled me into a hug and broke down. I myself broke down with her. I considered her my other mother and she always called me her daughter. I couldn't bear the fact that he was no longer going to be with me. I knew it was going to tear me up inside but I knew it would tear his mother part every single day that she thought about him. I didn't understand why is had to be him of all people. I didn't understand why the sweetest most caring guy had to leave this earth because of a stupid wolf.

I didn't understand many things, but now that Edward and I were growing to be better friends I would ask him about what happened to Jacob the night Caidan died.

I was sitting on the train with Edward and everyone else from our group heading back to Hogwarts after the service. I knew Emmett and Alice were somewhere else on the train with us. I watched the scenery went by. While everyone was talking amongst them I thought about all the great times we had with Caidan and how I would miss him greatly. I felt a few tears form at the corner of my eyes. I closed my eyes and felt an arm around my shoulder. I knew it was Edward right away from feeling the coldness. I turned and burrowed myself into his side thinking about Caidan. He rubbed soothing circles on my back. I heard everyone go silent.

I must have cried myself to sleep because the next thing I knew I was being picked up from where I was laying on the seat. I opened my eyes a little bit to see who would be carrying me and saw that it was Edward.

"I can walk." I slurred, trying to open my eyes all the way so I could see where we were going.

"It's ok Jayden." He said softly. I wasn't quite coherent enough to try and argue with him so I fell back to sleep in his arms.

"Thank you." I whispered. I felt something cold press against my forehead before I heard a small chuckle.

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I knew I must have been dreaming, because there was no way that someone else was in my bed with me. I could feel whoever it was with their arm around my waist. I opened my eyes without moving. It was dark out still and there was a full moon that was shining in through the window by my bed. I couldn't take the suspense anymore so I turned over and saw two golden eyes looking at me. I nearly screamed from the closeness but, as if they could read my mind, pressed their lips to mine, to stop me from screaming. I closed my eyes and the feeling. It was cold and soft.

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I sat up gasping. I knew who was in my dream but I didn't understand why he was in it. I looked around me and found that I was in my bed back at Hogwarts, but this time when I looked around there was no one with me. I sighed in relief and confusion. I was fully awake despite the hour. I decided that I would just grab my book and head down to the common room to read. I threw on a sweatshirt and walked out of the dorm and down to the fireplace that was still going. I saw that I wasn't alone. There was someone else up and by the looks of the way their head was, they were reading as well. I walked over slowly to the couch in front of the fireplace and gasped. It was Caidan!

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I sat up and screamed. There was no way Caidan was alive! It was just a dream. I told myself trying to calm down.

"Jayden?" I heard someone ask groggily in the dark. I could tell it was Madeline.

"I'm fine. Go back to sleep." I told her laying back down in my own bed. I had to be a dream. There was no way after that wolf got him that he would be alive. I would have to ask Edward to make sure that he wasn't. I would be really glad if he was alive but I didn't know what he would be like.

After a few minutes of trying to go back to sleep I gave up and decided that I would read. I got up and pulled on a sweatshirt and walked out of the dorm and down to the common room. Once I reached the bottom of the stairs I looked around to make sure that I wasn't dreaming again. I sighed in relief when I saw that there was no one else in the common room with me. I walked over to the fireplace where the fire was still going, and stared at it for a while. For some reason fire had always fascinated me to no end. It thought it was so cool that you could add something and change it a different color. I must have sat there and stared at the fire for a few minutes until someone cleared their throat over by the stairs. I spun around to see who the other person was. But since it was dark I couldn't see anything. My heart started speed up thinking it would be Caidan like my dream. I wasn't hopeful because the Caidan in my dream looked awful. The person finally started to walk towards me. I was hoping it was Caidan but not the Caidan from my dream.

"Jayden?" the person asked. That was definitely not Caidan's voice. I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. The person finally came into the view of the light. I sighed. It wasn't Caidan from my dream; it wasn't even Caidan at all. It was just Edward. I smiled at him.

"What are you doing?" he asked coming over to stand in front of me. He didn't look the least bit tired.

I shrugged, "I'm not tired, I guess. How come you aren't sleeping?" I asked walking around him to sit on the small couch that was in front of the fireplace. He followed me over to the couch and sat down as well.

"I don't sleep." He said still standing up by the fire. I looked down at my book and felt the couch move when he sat down.

"Are you okay?"

I looked up at him at found him staring intently at me. "Yeah. I'm just thinking about my dream I just had." I said nodding. He nodded as well.

"I saw." He said quietly. I blushed. I didn't know if he saw the first one or not. I didn't want to ask and find out or anything I would just go along with it.

"Yeah. I thought you were Caidan." I said chuckling a little bit. His eyes turned pained at the mention of Caidan. I frowned. I didn't understand that. "What's wrong?" I asked him.

"You miss him." Was all he said. I nodded. I couldn't cry anymore. I was out of tears. I had been crying the last 3 or 4 days.

"Edward?" I whispered, still looking at my book in my lap, "is there any way that he could be something else?" I asked him hoping he would tell me I would be able to see him again, but there was nothing but silence. I looked up at him and saw that his eyes had gone black. I guess he didn't want to tell me what ever was running through his head. I didn't blame him. At that moment a song came into my head that I had heard on the radio a while back. I didn't know why it came back to me but it did and it kinda fit for the moment.

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me

And you'll never go

Stop breathing if

I don't see you anymore

"Edward?" I asked after the song finished playing in my head. He looked up at me. "What happened to Jacob that night?" I asked. Again he seemed reluctant to answer me.

"Well…" he started trying to figure out either how he was going to word it or how I was going to take. "Do you remember the myths that you were talking about when you asked what I was?" he asked me. Of course I would remember them. They are a part of everyone's life now. I just nodded instead. "Well, he is one of those myths." He said looking me straight in the eye, like he was telling me that I had to figure out what in the world he was talking about. I must have tired, because my brain wasn't processing what he was saying. I was trying to think back to that day we talked about the myths. I knew he was a vampire. I also knew that there were elves, goblins, dragons, werewolves…my mind trailed off.

Was it possible that Jacob could be a werewolf? Well I guess anything is possible in this world seeing as I am sitting in a room with a vampire and I am a witch. But there wasn't a full moon the other night when this happened.

"But there wasn't a full moon." I said quietly. Edward just chuckled at me.

"He is the type of werewolf that doesn't need the full moon to change. And simple insult could suffice." He said shrugging his shoulders. I nodded I guess it all made sense now. Caidan had said something to royally piss of Jacob and Jacob attacked. But they still didn't mean anything. Jacob should have better control. He has to deal with people almost every day that are going to piss him off. I shook my head. I was never going to forgive Jacob for this. I didn't care what anyone would say, he was a murderer in my eyes.

yea srry to all you jacob fans out there. i got my butt chewed when i was writting this by my friend who is in love with him.

but yea dont worry!

more suspense to come!

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