Hello my lovely readers! I am sorry I didn't get to update sooner like I said I would but I was busy this weekend.

I just adopted a kitten from the humane society :) Anyways! Here it is chapter 10, did you all recover from chapter 9? This is tough to write now, but I know what I want to happen so bare with me! Also let me know if you enjoy the flashbacks :) yay or nay?

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Caroline had silently watched Stefan walk down the hall. His eyes were filled with tears, his body was rigid. Caroline wanted to just hug him but she knew he needed to be alone right now. Caroline briskly shook her head of the memory of Stefan after Elena had left.

"Stefan hi! It's Care, for the tenth time now, um, so pick up your phone. Please," she sighed, "so at least I know your alive, and you know breathing...okay I'll call you later. Love you, bye." Caroline slammed her phone on the table.

Damn Stefan for keeping everyone out of his life. He can't be like this forever, at least not with her. It's been about two months since the wedding blew over and about eight days since Stefan last spoke to her, or she spoke to him. He barely even said a word, he just stared into space, consumed by his own thoughts. Caroline groaned. Damn Elena for not telling her where she is, ughhh she better be freakin alive so I can kill her myself. Caroline grabbed her keys and ran out the door frustrated.

She got in her car and started to drive.

She stomped up to the boarding house making sure her heels make an echo sound. She tried opening the door. It was locked. Eff him. She tried pulling on the ancient bell. She sighed waiting, tapping her feet numb.

She started to hear foot steps and straightened up, the door started to open and she pushed herself in.

"Why thank you for inviting me over," she said in a mock appreciative tone.

Stefan just stood there slumped, completely unamused. "What do you want Caroline?" His words slurred. He was already day drunk. Great. Caroline gave him a tight grin.

"Oh I don't know Stefan? Maybe I'm just checking to see if my best friend is still alive? Or to see if he's taking care of himself properly so he doesn't end up dead?" She snatched the beer bottle from his hand and through it behind her out the door.

He reeked of booze, she started to shove him towards the stairs, "Shower. Now." he tried to resist but then stumbled in the direction of her push. She pushed him into the shower and stuck her hand behind the curtain as he handed her his clothes. She wrinkled her nose at the tinge.

She went into his room and found all of the pictures of him Elena all over the walls. His entire room was covered in Stelena. Her heart ached at how perfectly happy they were.

She heard him come in, "Are you trying to torture yourself?" Her voice croaked as she turned to see him clean of all the grime. He had bags under his eyes and his eyes reflected hurt, and pain. His face held an expression of brokenness. Caroline helped him get dressed and got him to lie in bed.

"You are not living your life anymore." She shook her head sadly. Her eyes threatening to spill tears.

"I don't have one to live for," Stefan quietly shot back.

Caroline cringed, "Okay you need to sleep, " she got the covers out from under him and pulled it over his body.

"I miss her Care," His voice cracked, and was filled with need.

She laid down next to him and started rubbing his back, "I know, I do too," she fought back her tears.

Stefan turned to face her, "It hurts Caroline, I miss her so much," he shook his head crying, "it hu-rts." His voice croaked against her shoulder.

Caroline's tears spilled over as he eventually fell asleep in her arms.

Caroline came back to reality as the door to Elena's room opened. Stephanie stumbled out and ran to Caroline's arms.

She started to cry and Caroline silently cried with her, "My mommy told Stefan to never to come back," She started to sniff and looked up at Caroline. "Why?"

Caroline slowly shook her head, "I don't know," she lowered her head into Stephanie's hair, "I don't know..."

Truthfully Caroline didn't understand why Elena was being so reluctant in telling Stefan about his connection with Stephanie.

Elena walked up to Stefan's office, she hesitated but opened the door. "Stefan?"

Stefan looked up surprised, "Elena? What are you doing here?" He got up and rushed to her side, "Your suppose to be resting," He shook his head as he brought her to sit down on the couch.

Elena quickly shook her head and remained standing, "I need to tell you something." She nervously fumbled with her hospital gown.

Stefan caught her eyes, and nodded, holding her gaze.

She swallowed, "It's about Stephanie..." she trailed off unsure if she was doing the right thing.

Stefan slowly nodded, "Is she okay?"

Elena licked her lips, "Yeah, she's perfectly fine, its about..." She bit her lip as Stefan closely listened to her.

"It's about her father..." Elena looked him in the eye.

Stefan's forehead wrinkled, "What about him?" He looked confused.

She began to fumble with the ring Stefan gave her, she always keeps it on to remind herself of how she messed up everything with him.

"Your," Elena blinked her eyes quickly, pushing the tears back, "your her real father." Elena watched his face flash with understanding.

He gave her a grim look, "thats why she looks so much like me." He shook his head surprised and he started to shake it with a disgusted look on his face.

"How could you keep something like this from me? How could you keep me from knowing I had a daughter for seven years!" He shouted at her. Elena's lips began to tremble, "You selfish bitch, you thought you could leave me and have yourself a happy little fairytale?" Stefan eyes raved. He was gonna blow.

"Get out!," he turned away from Elena, "I don't want to look at your face." Elena quickly nodded as tears streamed down her cheeks, "I'm so sorry," she whispered and then ran out the door.

Elena trembled her head felt heavy, she shook her head, "I'm so sorry," she felt sobs take over her body, "I'm so sor-ry Stefan."

"Elena!" Elena felt someone shaking her shoulders, her eyes flew open terrified.

"Caroline?" Elena's eyes widen, shocked.

"Yeah, it me," Caroline's face looked spooked, she licked her lips, "you were having some sort of nightmare," She shook her head, "one with Stefan..." she studied Elena's tear stained face.

Elena sighed, "It was only a nightmare?" She lifted her hand to her chest, her pulse returning to normal. "Thank god," she shook her head at Caroline, "Thank god it was only a dream," her voice cracked as she shook her head quickly as tears began to stream down her face.

Caroline leaned down and held Elena, "Ssh, it's okay," She rubbed Elena's shoulders, "it was only a dream..."

Elena continued to tremble her heart racing at the possible outcome of the situation.

Around noon Stefan sat on the couch. He barely got out of bed. Now he started to call in sick most days. When he got hungry to a point he couldn't avoid it he has cereal for meals. He went through the album Elena made for him for their one year anniversary. All of their moments together in one book was enough to light a fire of need and want. He was depressed. He missed Elena so much his heart felt like it was dead.

Stefan had lost her once again. He cringed at the familiar feeling. He felt like he was reliving the same pain all over again.

"Hello?" A woman's voice rang through the house.

Stefan didn't move, but groaned. Why did he ever give her the spare key?

"Stefan, I know your-" Caroline came to stand in front of the couch.

"Nice to know your alive," She gave him a tight grin.

Stefan moaned, "Go away."

Caroline laughed, "Uh...no." She sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. She pulled up her feet and leaned on Stefan's shoulder. Her eyes closed.

"Why is life so complicated?" Caroline sniffed.

Stefan shrugged, "Dunno..."

Caroline pursed her lips, "Go after her." Stefan furrowed his eyebrows.

"Go after her Stefan." Caroline's voice was persistent, "Go talk to Elena."

She looked at him from the side, "Hurry! Before Paul gets home."

Stefan thought for a moment, "Okay," He got up,and he ran to the kitchen and grabbed his car keys.

He drove until he recognized the mansion, it looked much different in the daylight.

He walked up the stairs and rang the doorbell, and waited. He looked around tapping his foot.

The door swung open, and a little girl stood in the doorway.

"Stefan!" Stephanie cried and ran into his arms.

Stefan automatically smiled, "Hey baby girl," He kissed her forehead. "Is mommy home?"

Stephanie nodded, "Yeah but she's in her bed all the time." Stefan's chest clenched.

"Can you take me to her?" Stefan put her down as she pulled him into the house, and up a grand staircase. She stopped in front of a bedroom door and pushed him in, then she quickly ran off.

Stefan stumbled in and saw Elena laying in bed, she looked up startled. She sat up straight, her eyes wide.

"Stefan? What are you doing here?" Her face burned with anger but her eyes rang with excitement.

Stefan licked his lips, "I came to talk to you," he looked into her familiar chocolate eyes, "before it's too late." Elena's lips parted a little. "It's something I should of done right after you got out of the hospital. I should have, after you ignored my flowers." Elena turned away embarrassed, she remembered the hundreds of white roses Stefan had sent her the week she was at the hospital, she could barley make herself look at them without bringing tears to her eyes.

"I'm sorry," Elena looked up at him. His face was broken and bags traced his eyes from lack of sleep.

Stefan took a step closer to her bed but hesitated, "May I?" His green eyes bore into hers and his dirty blond hair was perfectly messing, making him irresistible. She slowly nodded subconsciously, though she really shouldn't let him.

Stefan softly sat on the bed next to her, a couple of inches away. Her eyes trained down the tight fit black v-neck he was sporting. She looked up at his face. His jaw was perfect, his lips were a light pink, slightly parted. And his eyes. They could make her go crazy. She remembered how the first time they met, thats the first thing she noticed.

Stefan looked down at her hand, at the ring on her middle finger. "Why do you still wear that?" She had said she wanted him to leave her alone but he wasn't going anywhere, not without getting some answers.

Elena's eyes suddenly rimmed with tears, "you know why..." She played with the ring, spinning it around her finger.

Stefan moved closer, "because you loved me," he looked up at her, his eyes seeming to become a more deep green. Elena quickly shook her head, "no," her voice cracked and Stefan's face fell a little. He was about to move back when suddenly Elena's hands cradled Stefan's face, making him look up.

She licked her lips, "I still wear this ring because I loved you, still love you and will love you for the rest of my life." Elena's breathe caught in her throat, "I don't know how I will live without loving you." She shook her head as tears spilled over her cheeks. She rest her head on Stefan's chest, quietly sobbing. Stefan gently moved closer, so close that Elena was practically in his lap. He closed his eyes as he kissed the top of her head.

Elena looked up and gave him a grim look, "I'm sorry, Stefan. I keep pushing you around," she looked down, "I don't know how you keep on putting up with me." She looked down at their hands intertwined. " But it's just so complicated." She hated herself for doing this to him, but she had no other way to save the truth from him. Though it never works because her feelings keep on taking over her every action.

Stefan gave her a half smile,"Because I am completely in love with you," he looked down at her, "I love you so much, you can't even imagine," he shook his head laughing, "I think thats why fate brought us back to each other," he furrowed his eyebrows, "We are meant to be together Elena." Elena's heart melted right there.

Elena slowly closed her eyes as Stefan brought his lips to hers. He gently pushed her down against the bed as he began to kiss her. At first he was really slow, then when Elena began to pull at his hair and to kiss him harder, he lost total control of his emotions. Stefan began to kiss her with a burning passion, one he has been pushing away for the past week, the past eight years. All of this time it had built up to this moment. Elena pulled away as she pulled Stefan's shirt over his head. She took a moment to take in his beautiful shaped abs, before Stefan pulled her back to his lips. She quickly got in control and rolled them over, she lifted her head to catch her breathe. Her heart was racing as Stefan began to plant gentle kisses on her neck and shoulder.

Elena quietly watched Stefan's eyes watch hers. His fingers softly pulling through her hair, something he would always do.

"Stefan!" Elena shouted as Stefan continued tickle her. Kissing her every time she laughed.

"Never," Stefan smiled against her shoulder. He pushed her into the grass, grabbing at her hips as he continued to kiss her neck and shoulders. Elena giggled, "Oh my god," she dug her nails into his arms as he began to tickle her sides. Stefan laughed, "Your so weak," He kissed her forehead. He pulled away and Elena pouted, "I am not weak." She looked away, taunting his soft spot.

Stefan's heart immediately sank, "No your right," Stefan tried to turn her face, "your not weak." He came next to her ear, "You are the most-" quickly Elena spun around and jumped on top of Stefan.

She started to tickle him, "I got you!" She giggled as Stefan's eyes widened as he tried to stop laughing.

"Please show me some mercy," Stefan mock pleaded, he gave her his puppy eyes. Elena pouted and stopped tickling, "Okay..." A smile came across her face.

Stefan's followed right after, "What?" His voice was playful.

"Stefan can you do something for me?" Elena's voice consisted of a tone of innocence and sweetness.

Stefan's eyes softened, "Anything," his eyes sparkled as Elena's face brightened at his words.

She bit her lip and laid her head on his lap. She looked up at his face and laughed, "Play with my hair."

Stefan gave her a kiss on head, "Of course," He smiled down at her as he began to pull his fingers through her dark chestnut locks.

"I love you," Elena whispered, she bit her lip at his reaction.

He was startled but extremely happy. Stefan wanted to say it first.

But he smiled down at her, "You have no idea, how much I love you." He bent down to her face and gave her a slow kiss.

Stefan continued to play with her hair, Elena sighed content. "What do you think it would be like?"

Elena turned her head to face Stefan's. "If I didn't leave," she bit her lip, "if we got, married that day in September."

Stefan's mouth parted a little, he couldn't think of a time when he didn't think about what their lives could have been, would have.

Stefan looked into her eyes, "we would have had an amazing wedding," he laughed, "just like Caroline and Bonnie had planned." Elena smiled remembering Caroline's obsession with the wedding.

Stefan closed his eyes, "we would have had the best honeymoon in Paris," Elena's chest clenched, she remembered how excited he was to show her the world.

"A year or two after our wedding," Stefan opened his eyes to look at her, "we would have a beautiful child," Elena's eyes started to rim with tears, she licked her salty lips.

"Would we have a girl or a boy?" Elena asked quietly.

Stefan didn't hesitate before saying, "it doesn't matter, as long as their healthy." She felt her heart break into a million pieces and melt like chocolate in the sun.

Elena quickly collected herself and blinked away the tears, "Then what?"

Stefan raised his eyebrows, "Well we would have four more of course," he smiled as Elena's eyes widened.

"You want five kids?" Elena's mouth gaped open. That is forty five months of being pregnant.

Stefan laughed, " I would want hundreds of kids with you," he gently caressed her cheeks, "if it were possible." Elena's eyes sparkled. Their life would have been perfect.

Stefan gradually lowered his head to touch his lips with hers. Elena froze, "I can't." Stefan quickly leaned back. His eyes full of hurt. Elena began to apologize when he shook his head.

"No, your right." He furrowed his eyebrows, "You shouldn't," He shook his head, "I shouldn't be kissing a married woman." Elena cringed. What she and Paul have is hardly a marriage. But she can't be with him for so many other reasons.

Stefan gently lifted Elena's head off his lap and got up from the bed. He put on his shirt and looked around the room before looking at Elena slumped on the bed.

His eyes glazed over, "I'm sorry," He looked at her ring, "I shouldn't have come."

Elena quickly began to shake her head in disagreement. Stefan raised his hands, "No, I can't keep on thinking everything can be as they were before," He closed his eyes, "I have to let you go." Elena's heart felt like it was ripped out and stepped on. She ruined everything. Stefan looked up to see Elena's face, he knelt forward and kissed her forehead. He then turned around and left the room.

Elena sat there frozen on the bed, her skin tingling where Stefan had touched her. Her heart aching for him to come back. Her body wanting her to go after him. And her head telling her how bad she messed up her fairytale with the most perfect man ever.

So Elena and Stefan still love each other after everything? Shocker! and hey they are Stelena :)

Oh Caroline you care so much. Guys Stefan and Elena are like her brother and sister so she's like their older sister in a way :) they are super close

Stephanie and Stefan...just AWWWWW and adorable STEFAN ARE YOU BLIND BOY?

i know i know fluff fluff fluff, and aw their future life, made my heart melt

And there they go, stefan leaves...and Elena is the one that is left behind...will she do anything about it? or is she just a coward?

Thank you my lovelies for the reviews! keep on doing what you do and I hope to satisfy you all :)

also anyone want a proposal flashback? I sorta have a cute idea for that but I wanna make sure ya'll like flashbacks

MUCH love

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