"There's nothing as nice as someone who shares your laughter, your secrets, your wishes and cares; someone who's there through your good times and bad times, and to catch all your tears."

"W…w…what do you mean?" stuttered Tori, all confused and stuff.

I stopped crying enough to spit out, "Just like you heard," but then I started to sob again, "I killed my baby and I hate myself for it."

Although I was crying uncontrollably Cat and Tori understood what I said. They both grabbed me and sat me down on the couch. They both hugged me tight and consoled me.

"Jade, tell us everything, we want to help you and don't hate yourself, we love you," Cat said with concern tracing her every word.

"Yea Jade, you're our friend and even though you and I might not always get along, I love you and you are one of my closest friend," Tori said, wiping the tears from my face.

It took me about five minutes to calm myself down completely, and when I did I told them everything.

"Jade you can trust us," Tori reassured me as I was about to speak.

I nodded and began to speak, recalling everything, every detail, it was so fresh in my memory as if it had happened only yesterday.

"Beck and I found out I was pregnant about six months ago," I started.

"That's why you were always sick," Cat cut me off.

"Yea, and well after I told Beck and we talked about it, we came to the conclusion that we weren't ready to become parents at sixteen," I told them. "So after we reviewed our options, we decided to have an abortion. And about three months ago, I…I….I had an abortion," I cried.

"Did your parents or anyone else find out you were pregnant?" Tori questioned.

"No, they just thought I was getting the flu or something, and well no one else found out either, we didn't want anyone else to find out," I explained to them.

"Now it all makes sense," Tori said. "Andre had told me you looked chubbier, but I just brushed it off, I didn't suspect a thing."

"That's why you always wore a sweater," Cat chipped in.

I continued, "Yea, I didn't want anyone to know I was pregnant, especially because I was going to abort it, the last thing I needed was people running their mouths."

They both just nodded and I continued.

"Ok, so even day of I was feeling ok about everything," I began. "I told myself it was what I wanted and I went through with it and it wasn't until afterwards that I just fell apart," I finished with waves of tears flooding my eyes and falling down my cheeks.

"Oh Jade, why didn't you tell us," Cat said, with tears in her eyes.

"We could've helped you with anything ," Tori said, as she rubbed my back trying to comfort me.

"I…I…I just don't know, I didn't know how to tell anyone and well I thought I was going to be ok with everything , because well you know me I'm a heartless bitch with no emotions," I said, wiping the tears off my face.

"Jade! Shut up you are not a heartless bitch," Cat yelled at me as she looked into my eyes. "You just have a difficult time giving into your emotions, that's all," she finished.

"I know and well now I just feel so down all the time, I feel like shit, like nothing matters," I cried. "I hate myself for what I did and all I think of now is that I want my baby back. All I think about is what if I had kept my baby, he or she would be close to being born , I think of what he or she would've looked like," I cried hysterically. "But most of all I hate that I took away my baby's chance at life, I hate that I wasn't strong enough to keep my baby, I'm a horrible person and I hate what I did, and wish everyday that I can turn back time and undo what I did!" I ranted.

They were both really shocked at my confession, but not one of them judged me or told me I was a horrible human being. Instead they listened to me and reassured me that I wasn't a horrible person and that I was a human being who makes mistakes.

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