Don't worry the Bolivia will come at some point, but this story is mainly about Olivia moving on from Elliot and David!

The next morning Olivia went into work wondering if Elizabeth had called Don yet. She knew that the woman had to because of both of their jobs. Elizabeth worked as an outside advisor for the NYPD so she had a duty to call Cragen and Olivia had spent the evening wondering if that's why she had gone to see Elizabeth Olivet instead of a complete different shrink.

She didn't have to wait long. She was typing away replying to an email when Don Cragen called her into the office.

"Take a seat." He told her as she closed the office door.

She did as she was told and took a seat in front of the desk, watching her Captain intently.

"How much did she tell you?" Olivia asked impatiently.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked ignoring her question.

"Why should I have told you?" Olivia replied shrugging.

"Olivia… she told me if you told the shrink at the psych eval what you told her you never would have been allowed back to work so soon, this could have all been dealt with months ago." He told her and she shrugged and sighed.

"Look Don, I told the psych at the evaluation what he wanted to hear so I could get my gun and shield back because I needed to be back at work thing haven't been bad in weeks it's just …" She broke off awkwardly.

"It's just?" He asked.

"David and I breaking up has made everything come back." She explained. "I was ok and then… then the break up made everything come back but I'm getting help Don I'm not denying that it affected me anymore."

"I have to put you on modified." He told her and she sighed again.

"Fine." She replied.

"And … Olivia seeing a shrink is one thing but are you going to do whatever it is she tells you?" Don asked knowing what his Detective was like for ignoring orders from psychiatrists.

"Do you wanna know what I did after leaving Olivet's office yesterday?" She asked. "I went to Church… I went to Church and I spoke with a Reverend and I lit a candle and prayed, I did it partly because she recommended it and partly because I thought it would work and you know… I think it has… last night was the first night in a long time I had gone to bed stone cold sober and didn't wake up with a nightmare." Olivia replied.

"Ok." Don nodded. "Why did Olivet suggest you go to church and pray?" He asked confused.

"Uh well…" Olivia felt oddly uncomfortable talking to her Captain about this. "She thinks that I haven't uh grieved for Elliot." She explained awkwardly.

"Uh ok." Cragen replied unsure what to make of that.

Olivia climbed out of her seat and started pacing behind the chairs.

"You know I still haven't heard from him." She said coming to a stop and looking at her Captain again.

Cragen said nothing, he wasn't sure if he could say anything without upsetting her.

"Twelve years." She said firmly. "Twelve years I saw him almost every day and when we weren't working together we were texting, he'd send me pictures of his activities with the kids and then… then nothing." She replied angrily, it was the first time she'd felt anything but sad towards Elliot Stabler, she'd been brooding after him for so long and now she was angry.

"It can't have been easy for him Liv." Don said.

"Don't you dare protect him!" Olivia yelled. "I know it was hard for him but it was hard for me too! I gave him space after the shooting, when I took the week off I let him be and thought if he needed me he'd contact me but when I came back I called him, left messages for him but he wouldn't call me back and all I got was the medal through the post. Twelve years Captain, you don't just stay partners in twelve years and I trusted him with a hell of a lot more than my life!"

Don for the first time saw how bad Olivia was, he hadn't expected her to be like this, the animosity he saw now was huge compared to what he'd seen when Nick Amaro first joined the squad and she'd been hesitant to trust him.

"You know, it's nice to see you angry." Don said and Olivia glared at him. "You've been brooding after him for months Olivia, now you're mad, I'm no shrink but I'm guessing its progress."

"Maybe it is but if I ever see Elliot Stabler again I hope it's not when I'm carrying a gun." She hissed before marching out the office.

She went straight to her desk and her backside had barely touched the seat before Don was beside her.

"I need your Gun." He told her and she stared at him.

"Are you serious?" She asked and he nodded.

"I was going to ask you for it before you threatened to blow Stabler's brains out." He explained and Olivia took off her gun and slammed it against the desk before storming off.

He watched her go and grabbed the gun shaking his head, he'd never understand what was going through Olivia Benson's head and he didn't expect to either.

Olivia sat in the car with her eyes closed. She was conflicted and confused. A knock on the window made her jump but when she saw who it was she sighed and unlocked the door.

"Hey." He smiled opening the door and sliding into the passenger seat.

"What do you want?" She asked and he chuckled.

"Always welcoming." He replied.

"George not that I aren't always pleased to see you but what are you doing here?" Olivia asked.

"Saw what happened with Don, thought you might want to talk. Did you really say you'd blow out Elliot's brains?" He replied seriously.

"I said if I ever saw him again I hoped I wasn't carrying my gun. Didn't say I'd shoot him…"

"But it was implied." George replied and Olivia laughed weakly.

"Yeah." She said.

"So how did it go with Olivet?" He asked changing the subject.

"That's privileged information." She replied dryly.

"I know." He nodded. "I'm just looking out for you Liv." He replied.

"My name's Olivia." She replied. "I've been Liv for years and I've always hated it."

George was surprised, everyone called her Liv and she'd never mentioned it before.

"Ok Olivia." He replied wanting to dig further but knowing that if he did he could push whatever Olivet had achieved with her back.

"Are we done?" She replied.

"You going somewhere?" He asked.

"No but I am supposed to be working." She replied dryly. "Even if I am going to be stuck behind a desk for the foreseeable future."

"Ok." He replied opening the door. "Just remember Liv… Olivia… I'm your friend, if you just wanna talk I promise I won't shrink you."

"Thanks." She replied climbing out of the car.