Woohoo we are on double digits now. Sorry I didn't update yesterday I wasn't feeling the whole writing thing I guess, so here's you a chapter for today. Still not beta'd and all grammar mistakes and punctuation mistakes are my own. I hope you enjoy the chapter.

Dean gets home the next morning, his mom is sitting outside at the patio table. He grabs his mom as he walks up scaring her.

"Hey," Dean says and kisses her on the cheek.

"Did you just get in?" His mom asks.

"Yeah," Dean says.

"Well thank goodness I didn't know. I would have panicked." His mom says.

"Sorry," Dean says.

"Dean were you with Castiel? Dean be careful. He's the reverends son. Please." His mom says.

"Mom it's different with him okay?" Dean says.

"It's different with him?" His mom asks.

"Yes," Dean says.

"It better be different with him." His mom says.

Dean just smiles at her and shakes his head.

"I was doing laundry the other day," His mom says as she takes a paper out of her briefcase.

"And I found this," she says as she unfolds the paper.

"Examine a moon rock, go to college, and get into medical school." His mom says.

Dean looks at his mom.

"Honey these are beautiful ambitions. They're but you're going to have to work really hard," his mom says.

"I can do that," Dean says.

"Yeah you can," his mom says.

"Castiel he has faith in me, you know? He makes me want to be different. Better." Dean says.

Dean and Castiel stroll down the street later that night hand in hand. Castiel is staring straight ahead not saying a word, his face blank. Lisa and Pam come out of a store nearby and totally ignore Cas and Dean when they walk by.

"From citizen high to Citizen Low," Dean says.

Dean finally turns his attention toward Cas, who is still looking forward with a blank look on his face like he's lost or something. Cas has been fighting with himself about telling Dean what is going on with him.

"Are you worried about college applications?" Dean asks.

Cas shakes his head slowly "no," he says.

They walk into the alley somewhere along the way they stopped holding hands.

"I'm not applying to college," Cas says.

"I thought you said," Dean says.

"No you assumed," Cas says.

"Gonna take a year off? Try the peace core thing?" Dean asks.

"No," Castiel says softly.

"Okay," Dean says.

They stop walking and Cas turns towards Dean.

"What are you going to do then Cas?" Dean asks.

Cas doesn't answer Dean right away and Dean looks at him worried.

I'm sick," Castiel says.

"I'll take you home, you'll be better tomorrow." Dean says.

"No. No," Cas interrupts him shaking his head.

"Dean," he pauses before continuing "I have leukemia," Cas says.

Dean kind of laughs thinking he can't be serious.

"No. You're 18. You're perfect." Dean says.

"No. No. I found out 2 years ago. I've stopped responding to treatments." Cas says.

Dean bites his bottom lip.

"So why didn't you tell me?" Dean asks.

"The doctor said I should go on and live life normally as—best I could. I—didn't want anybody to be weird around me." Cas says.

"Including me?" Dean asks.

Cas's eyes well up with tears.

"Especially you," Cas says.

Dean doesn't say anything.

"You know I was getting along with everything fine. I accepted it. And then you happened." Cas says.

He stares down and sucks in a breath.

"I do not need a reason to be angry with God." Cas says.

Dean stares at Cas his heart is heavy and he's not saying a word. Cas turns around and runs from the alley leaving Dean there alone.

Dean gets into his car, and drives to his father's house. He gets there and gets out and starts banging on his father's front door. His dad steps out on the porch.

"Dean?" He asks.

"I need your help," Dean says.

"What's wrong? Are you ok?" His father asks him confused.

"It's my boyfriend, Castiel. He's—"Dean says.

"He's got cancer. Okay? I need you to come see him right now." Dean says.

"Okay will you calm down?" His father asks.

"Can you help me or not?" Dean asks.

"I don't—I don't know his case. I don't know his history. I'd have to talk to his doctor. I'm a cardiologist. I can't—." His father says.

"You know, just forget it. I knew it." Dean says.

Dean turns around and leaves. His father is calling after him.

"Would you wait? Dean, wait!" His father yells.

Dean is driving home making the long drive and listening to You by Switchfoot. He's staring at the empty road and trying his best not to cry. How the fuck is this fair. He finally finds someone he loves and now they are going to die.

Dean is standing in the backyard later that day alone, when Sam approaches him.

"Hey," Sam says. "Your mom called me talked to me man."

"About what"? Dean asks.

"You and Castiel," Sam says.

"What's there to talk about? He's the best person I've ever met." Dean says.

"I didn't understand," Sam says.

Dean looks at Sam for a minute then answers.

"It's ok Sammy, its ok." Dean says.

Over the next few days Dean goes to Cas's house a lot. He leaves flowers for him every day and today is no different. He sees the Reverend outside talking to a neighbor.

"Dean," The Reverend says.

"I'm not going anywhere, please tell Castiel that," Dean says.

Dean leaves the Reverend to contemplate that as he drives off.

TBC

Ok so I am pretty sure I said there was gonna be sex in this chapter but I lied –laughs- it will however be in the next for sure. If you read this please review it. Thanks.