Here I am again!
I am sorry for the long wait but I had a lot going on in my life and didn't have time to write and I wasn't in the mood either.
I hope you still like me and the story and that you will keep reading it.
Love y'all!
What do you do in a situation like this? What do you say? What do you think? How much time do you have until it's too late? What is he expecting? How do we work together if I tell him no and he hates me? Can I even tell him no? Or yes? What are my feelings for him?
All of those questions were running through Beca's head and she didn't know the answer to one of them.
She was in her apartment, sitting on her couch with a cup of tea in her hand. The tea was already cold. She has been sitting there like this for about two hours and didn't move.
Come on Beca! Get a grip of yourself, this aren't you! You never were the one to sit and think about a guy all day!
But this isn't jus a guy we are talking about, it's Jesse.
Her thoughts were interrupted when someone knocked on her door. She slowly stood up and walked over to the door. On the other side was Michelle.
"Hey there." She greeted Beca warmly. "Can I come in?"
"Sure." Beca stepped aside to let her friend in. "So do you want anything in particular?"
"Not really. We just haven't spoken in a while and when I stopped by your work one hour ago they told me you were already home. What happened?" Michelle was looking at her with a serious and worried expression at the same time.
"What do you mean? Nothing happened."
"Oh come on! We both know that you never leave work early. Remember the cold you had the first week you got here? You were constantly coughing and felt like shit for three days and went to work anyway."
"Okay stop you are being creepy with everything you know about me. I just don't want to put all my problems on you. I never was one of the girls who told everyone else their issues."
"I understand and respect that but you can't keep it all to yourself. After a while it will eat you from the inside and if it gets too much it will break you."
"Aaand there is the creepiness again."
Both girls started to laugh hearty and sat down on Beca's couch.
As their laughter died down Beca became serious again.
"If I tell you, you have to promise me to not tell anyone."
"Of course I wouldn't. I would not betray you like that." Michelle gave an assuring smile.
"Well alright then. Jesse is back. He was my boyfriend at university. And he seems to want me back but I don't know what to do. I'm just so confused!"
Michelle looked a little puzzled. "What's there to be confused about? Either you still have feelings for him or you don't. I mean it depends on how you broke you. Did you broke up with him or did he ended it?"
"Well….. no one really ended it. Look this might sound strange but he kind of pretended he was dead so I would take the job offer and come here to LA."
"What? No way! What kind of person does that? Wait a sec! Is he the guy you once told me about, this dead boyfriend that you cried over for months?"
"Yes." Beca said shyly. She was a little intimidated from Michelle's outburst.
"Oh my gosh I can't believe it! This is like one of those romance movies! But anyway, you have to decide what to do. I mean, do still have feelings for him? Are you willing to forgive him?
That was the basic question. She knew that, deep down; she still had feelings for Jesse. But could she also forgive him for letting her live in her personal hell for months? That was what she needed to think about…