"I'm crazy, I'm crazy, I'm so fucking crazy right now" Santana said to herself as she paced back and forth infront of her hotel waiting for her Taxi to pull up that she had ordered to bring her to the show. What am I thinking? What if she see's me? What if someone I know see's me? How do I explain that I just stopped by to see my ex girlfriend who I hardly remember, preform in her first Broadway role. How do I tell someone that I'm here because I'm so fucking proud of her and I don't even know why. I knew she'd always make it here...
When she arrived at the Theater, Santana sat in the cab with her head in her hands, thinking. That was until the driver asked her if she was getting out.
No... She wanted to reply, but instead answered "Yeah, How much do I owe you?"
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When she took her seat in the front row, she released a breathe of relief when she saw the stage lights. No way was Rachel going to be able to see her when the house lights went off because of the bright lights that were shining on stage. She remembered how Rachel used to complain that she was never able to see her audience with such bright lights, but that's what being a star was all about. As Rachel always used to say after Glee performances when the group would complain about being blinded 'Hearing the reaction was the main thing, seeing it was only a bonus'.
The house lights flashed and she heard the 'ping' of the warning that the show was about to start. She tried to focus on her deep breathing exercises that she had learned from her therapist. She was prone to Panic attacks since her mother had died. I guess it's a result of finding your mother hanging from the shower rail Santana thought but then shook her head, trying to clear the mental image from her mind. She didn't need those depressing thoughts in her head. Her mind had to be on Rachel...
Rachel
Santana smiled at the thought of her girl...
Not my girl anymore She frowned a that thought but the house lights went out and a spot light shone in the middle of the stage as a boy walked on distracted her once again.
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It took 14 minutes and 33 seconds until Santana's heart basically stopped. Rachel had just walked on stage and was now taking part in a group number.
Santana's eye's didn't leave the girl once during the show. Even when Rachel was being felt up by her male co-star and her breast were on display, Santana didn't look away like the majority of the audience. Not in the pervy 'oh my god, free boobs' kind of way, but in the 'oh my god, my girls a star' way. Santana was just... so proud at that moment in time.
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When it came to the end of the musical, and Rachel was left on stage alone, singing her last solo number to the audience, she saw the girl look down into the crowd. Santana looked straight into Rachel's eyes before the actress looked away. If she had seen Santana, she wasn't reacting. But Santana's heart sure as hell was. She wondered if anyone else could hear her heart beating.
From either panic or adrenaline, she quickly got up from her seat and ran up the center aisle. As she exited the room, she heard Rachel belt out the finally notes, flawless ofcourse, before the entire room erupted in applause for the girl. But Santana was too busy running to the bathroom.
When she got in there, she leaned over the sink, dizzy and started to take deep breaths. Images of Rachel flashed threw her mind as she held her eyes shut tight.
Rachel in Kinder garden when she had helped her up from the ground after Karofsky had pushed her. Rachel's smile. Rachel in Glee. Rachel on their first date, her jaw dropping when they both saw each other and realized that they were each others dates. Rachel's glowing face the morning they woke up after their first time. The concerned look in Rachel's eye's when Santana had fallen from the top of the pyramid, when Brittany had sneezed and caused everyone to tumble down. Rachel's face when she had chased the Diva around her background with the hose, only for both of them to get their legs caught and fall ontop of each other, where Rachel grabbed her face and they stared into each others eyes before Juliana cleared her throat loudly and they jumped apart from each other. Rachel's laugh when she had caught Santana dancing around her bedroom to Britney Spears in her underwear, singing along in her hairbrush. Rachel's face as she watched Santana say goodbye to the twins. The multiple looks of concern every single time she had jumped into a swimming pool or lake after Brittany. Rachel's eyes when she saw Santana beat the shit out of Karofsky after he attempted to throw a slushie at Rachel outside the local 7 11. Santana had frightened the boy by yelling his name right before he was about to throw the drink. She then punched him the the face and kicked him in the nuts, making the boy fall to the ground. Rachel's eyes as she looked up at Santana as she kissed her swollen knuckles. The look on Rachel's face all the mornings they had woken up after a sleepover. Her laugh whenever Santana would demand that Rachel gives her her morning cuddles away from Quinn, Tina and Brittany's view because they always laugh at her. Rachel on Graduation Day when they had shared their last kiss. The blurred image of Rachel screaming and crying while Santana laid on the wrecked car after the accident. Rachel's frightened and hurt looking face when Santana woke up and didn't remember their love.
And then it hit her. That love. That love she felt for Rachel. The love she had forgotten how to feel. How did I forget that? The love in Rachel's eyes, the warmth and protection. She saw those eyes again only moments ago when she looked into them on stage. And then everything went Black...
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Quinn Fabray was currently doing a summer internship at JLC Hospital, located 4 blocks from the Theater where Spring Awakening was opening. Unfortunately, she had had to work and wasn't able to get out of it to go see Rachel's opening night, but she had tickets for tomorrow night. She had just gotten off the phone to Brittany, who was currently at home taking care of Beth. Her and Britt were gonna go see the show tomorrow , leaving Beth with Puck, who was at the show tonight, so that Quinn could help Brittany so the dancer wouldn't have to risk anymore injury to her ankle.
Quinn and Brittany were still going strong, still dating and happy since they had gotten together the same summer that Rachel and Santana had. And Brittany loved Beth so much so Quinn was especially happy.
*FLASHBACK TO THE MIDDLE OF THE SUMMER*
"Hey " Quinn said as she stepped in the front door carrying Beth's carrier on her arms.
"Oh Hello Quinn! Brittany is upstairs in her room waiting for you. But can I speak to you for just a moment?" The older women asked as she motioned for the girl to follow her.
Sitting down in the kitchen, Ellen Pierce handed Quinn a bottle of water and then sat next to the girl who was placing a sleeping Beth next to her on the table.
"So Quinn... I just have to tell you that I'm really glad that you and Brittany have gotten closer this summer. It's good for Britt to have more friends then just Santana. Not that I don't like San, that girl is a savoir in our eyes for helping Brittany" Ellen smiled at the girl infront of her. She could see that the girl loved her daughter, whether she knew it or not.
"And I just want to talk about you and Brittany. I understand that you two have grown closer and I just want to know what your view is of your relationship. Not to out my daughter, but I know that she is quiet smitten with you, so to speak" Ellen said slowly, unsure if she should continue talking about her daughters feelings towards the girl or not. She had noticed the loving looks that the girl always gave her daughter. She had heard the reassuring words the girl had spoken when Brittany was upset because Santana was no longer spending time with them. She had felt rejected, but Quinn was there for her. She also saw how uncomfortable and hurt looking Quinn got when Brittany blurted out that her and Santana had once slept together, obviously that was an awkward dinner, but the Pierce family were used to that with Brittany.
Quinn sat in the seat, with wide eyes. Until recently, she hadn't thought of her feelings towards Brittany. That was until she sat down with Puck the other night after he had taken care of Beth and they got talking. He made her realize that she did infact have feelings for the other blonde, but she knew that she couldn't act on them. Her parents would surely disown her again. They had just gotten used to having Beth in their family, being gay was not an option.
"Quinn" The older blonde said, reaching her hand across the table and holding the girls hand. "I know your parent's. I understand what your going through. And I know that you've been through so much this past year with Beth and that Puckerman boy and how your parent's have treated you. But I want you to understand that if you have these feelings, then Mark and I are 100% behind you if you do indeed have feelings for Brittany like I suspect you do." Quinn dipped her head down, looking into her lap. A couple of tears fell from her eyes as the womens kind accepting words sunk in.
"Hey Mom. Is Quinn and Baby Beth here yet?" Brittany said as she bounced into the room. When she saw Quinn's sad posture, she quickly ran over to the girl and gathered her in her arms.
"Quuuiiin sweetie, whats the matter?" Brittany asked in a concerned voice. Quinn wasn't usually one to get upset. She was the one who cuddled Brittany when she missed Santana. She was the one who kissed her finger after she caught it in the door. She was the one who saved her when she took her swimming last weekend. Quinn had continued what Santana started when trying to teach Brittany how to swim in the deepened, since the girl was never around anymore.
"I.. I" Quinn stuttered out.
Brittany quickly turned her head to her mother who was watching the two girls.
"What did you do?" She growled out to her mother with an angry frown on her face. Ellen raised her hands in defense.
"No Britt." Quinn said as she hugged closer to Brittany, who continued to kiss the top of her head and was moving down her face trying to console the girl. Quinn then moved her face up and left a small closed mouth kiss on Brittany's lips.
Both girls froze and Ellen held her breath while she looked at the girls.
"That... That's why I was crying" Quinn said as she looked at Brittany. "Because I like you B, I like you so much" Quinn said as she looked up into Brittanys big puppy dog eyes and a tear rolled down her cheek.
"I like you too Q" Brittany said as she leaned down and placed another kiss on Quinn's lips. When she pulled back, she smiled at Quinn and then looked towards her mother who also had a big smile on her face.
Ellen got up, walked around the table and hugged the two girls, placing kisses on both of their foreheads.
"Sweetie, you are part of our family no matter what. And little Beth here" The women said as she motioned towards the sleeping child in her seat. "And it's okay if you don't tell Judy and Russell. Isn't that right Britt?" Ellen said as she looked up at her daughter.
"Yeah, like totally. So does this mean that we can have lady kisses now cause your lips are really soft?"
"Yeah B, we can have lady kisses" Quinn smiled and laughed at the girl.
Brittany did a little happy dance before she bent down and connected her lips with Quinn's again.
*END FLASHBACK*
Quinn was knocked out of her memory when she heard a commotion coming from the main door. She thought to call security. That was until she heard a voice, threatening things that she had only ever heard Sue Sylvester threaten. Worried that it was indeed Sue, She stayed hidden around the corner, not wanting to come face to face with her old Coach. Then she heard the Spanish ranting and the insisting that she was fine. That voice was defiantly familiar.
Santana.
Coming around the corner, she could see the girl sitting up on a stretcher, trying to get off of it, but was being stopped by the EMTS.
"Jesus fucking Christ, how many times do I have to tell you that I'm okay. Just let me fucking leave" Santana yelled at the EMT who was currently trying to take her blood pressure. She had woken up in the back of an ambulance and these goons wouldn't leave her the fuck alone.
"Miss I'm sorry but you have to wait until you are checked out by a nurse or doctor" One of the main Nurse's said as she moved closer to the girl. "And can you please control your language. There are children present" She said motioning to the many children who were sitting with there parents in the waiting area.
"Marie, I can take her" Quinn said as she approached the 2 women.
"Fine, Be my guest" The women mumbled as she walked away from the Latina and intern, happy to be rid of the Latina.
"San what are you doing here?" Quinn questioned as she walked towards the examing area and Santana was moved to the bed by the EMT's. She was still fighting them.
"San, chill. Just sit on the bed atleast. Thank you boys" Quinn said to the EMT's who also seemed more then happy to have the Latina off of their hands.
"I woke up in the back of an ambulance with those two meat heads and they wouldn't leave me alone" Santana said as she inspected her manicured nails.
"It says here that you were found passed out on a bathroom floor. Do you know what would have made you pass out? Did you have one of your panic attacks maybe?" Quinn asked as she looked up from the forms that the EMT's had left with her.
"Nah. I faint sometimes when I get memories of Rach-" But Santana cut herself off when she realized what she had just said to the girl. As far as she knew, Quinn and Brittany were still roomies with Rachel. Meaning that they were probably still the best of friends.
"Memories of Rach? You remember Rach? Since when?" Quinn asked, completely shocked.
"I... I.. I sometimes get them... Memories" Santana stuttered out. She hadn't meant to tell Quinn anything, but now that the girl knew, there was no point in Lying.
"So you remember things about her? When did this start? What do you remember?" Quinn asked as she took a seat infront of the girl, waiting for an explanation.
"Back before Graduation... I was in a bathroom at school and I saw something that reminded me of Rach. It happens alot. I'll be somewhere and I'll remember something. I remember our friendship though. When I started to get close to Tina, I started to remember how much time the 5 of us spent together. I remember Kenzie and Megan. I met them on my plane to Lima. And I remembered the Berry's. They were thrilled" Santana laughed at the memory of both men squealing and jumping around with tears in their eyes when she told them that she remember them.
"So you remember alot then. But... why haven't they told Rach? " Quinn asked.
"Because I asked them not to. It wouldn't have been fair to Rachel if they told her that I could remember them and not her. She's probably moved on, and I didn't want to interfere in her life. Plus, at the time I couldn't remember her. It was only tonight that I remembered her after I saw her in the" Once again, Santana stopped talking as she looked up into Quinn's questioning eyes.
"I.. I was at the Berry's this morning. And I heard a message that she left for them about how her show was opening tonight. And then I found myself on a plane here and then I went to the show. I saw her Quinn and she was amazing. And she was so happy and she looked down and I looked into her eyes" Santana struggled to speak as the tears in her eyes rolled down her cheeks and her voice was laced with sadness. But these tears were actually happy tears. Proud tears. "My Rachel was a star up there. And I... I just. I couldn't stay there. I went to the bathroom and all of these memories came back. I remember everything. Everything. How much she loved me and How much I love her." Santana began to weep.
"Oh San" Quinn said standing up and then wrapping her arms around her crying friends neck, pulling her into a hug.
"Quinn, you can't tell her" Santana whispered as she pulled back. "I may love her and remember how much I love her. But she... she's probably moved on. She was so happy on stage. And I made her so sad. I heard her that day in the bathroom. Remember, when she called me baby? I heard her cry and what she said in the bathroom. And I can't be the cause of her pain anymore. She's finally accomplished her dream. She's finally a star. My superstar. But I have to let her be happy. She's moved on in life" Santana said as she stood up and wiped her eyes.
"I need to go, I need to get back to the hotel. I have to check out early for my flight in the morning. Quinn, promise me you won't tell her. Please" Santana pleaded with the girl. She was so broken, but she needed Quinn to promise. She couldn't allow her to tell Rachel and risk them reuniting only for her to hurt Rachel again.
"San you should tell her. She's still the same Rachel. Sure now she's finally on her way to being a star, but she still loves -"
"Promise me Quinn" Santana interrupted again as she began to walk towards the curtain so she could exit.
"I.. I promise. But San I should really check you out. You were after all found unconscious on the bathroom floor and -"
"Don't worry about it Q. It happens. My dad got promoted to Chief at the hospital, he's already had me checked out loads because when I remember something big I just to pass out. It's all to do with my breathing. I'll be fine. It was good seeing you Q" Santana said, taking one last look at her blonde friend and then quickly exiting the hospital building before the blonde could stop her.
Quinn sat back on the chair she had previously occupied and exhaled a loud breath.
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Oh My God! Baby! Are you crying?" Rachel said as her voice broke from the tears she was wiping away from her cheeks.
"No" Santana answered, trying to look away from Rachel so that she couldn't see the tears spilling down her cheeks.
"You TOTALLY are!" Rachel said as she bounced from her seat next to Santana, onto the girls lap. "Aww baby!" Rachel said wrapping her arms around the Latina to comfort the girl.
"Don't say it Rach" Santana groaned as she looks at the smile breaking out on Rachel's face.
"But San you -"
"Rach"
"But San I t-"
"Don't"
"'You are totally crying because of P.S I LOVE YOU even though you said you wouldn't" Rachel blurted out before Santana could interrupt again.
Santana dropped her head against Rachel's chest, embarrassed that she had gotten caught crying. Before Rachel put on P.s I Love you, she had warned Santana that she always cries during this movie and that it's okay if she cries also, not to be embarrassed.
Santana had responded by stating that Rachel had enough emotions for both of them and that it's going to take alot more then a stupid movie to make Big Bad Ass Santana cry.
"Wasn't it so romantic though San? I mean, he wrote her letters to keep the love alive until she was ready to let him go! " Rachel said clasping her hands over her chest.
"You really think that was romantic... I think it was a bit creepy... "
"Babbbyyy it was soo romantic! You'd write me letter's right? Like if you were dying, which ofcourse you wont anytime soon, but if you were, you'd write me letters wouldn't you? To let me know how much you love me?" Rachel asked hopefully, as she looked down on the girl beneath her.
"Yeah baby, sure I will. You know I love you, anything to make you happy" Santana said as she smiled up at her girlfriend.
"Promise?" Rachel asked.
"Promise" Santana answered, shaking her head and leaning up, leaving a small kiss on Rachel's forehead.
*END FLASHBACK*
Dear Rachel.
Remember that time we watched P.S i love you and you asked me that if I ever knew that I was going to die, that I would promise to write you letters? Well this me writing you a letter. Don't worry, I'm not dying. But I'm probably dead to you in a sense... Does that make sense? Probably not.
I don't even know why I'm doing this. I ran into Quinn tonight. I went to see your performance and I ended up in hospital. But I'm okay, still not dying.
You were amazing Rach. You were just amazing... I'm so proud of you.
Santana x
Santana looked down at the hotel note pad where she had just written the note to Rachel. The moment she had got into her hotel, she had gone straight to her room, to the desk, sat down and then wrote. The memory just came to her as she wrote. It was a distraction. But it only lasted a few minutes until she had completed the note and then she stuck it into her folder.
This folder... it's getting big. 6 months worth of memories. Looking through the book, she realized that there didn't seem to be a single memory missing from the book now that she had gotten her memory back.
Santana closed the folder, placed it back in her bag and then slipped off her dress that she was wearing.
She crawled into bed, set her alarm and snuggled up in the sheets. This bed... Me and Ray shared this bed. We made love in this bed
That night, Santana dreamt of the memory of her and Rachel's passionate night of love in that bed after they had their anniversary dinner.
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When Santana got off the plane, once she had returned to Lima, she was met with Tina standing at the arrivals gate.
"What the actual fuck Santana! Where did you freaking go? Your lucky you left your email unlocked on my phone so that I could see that you had bought a fucking plane ticket" Tina exclaimed angrily, but still pulled her best friend into a hug.
"Ti... She was.. She was so amazing" Santana cried into Tina's neck.
Pulling back, Tina looked at Santana with questioning eyes.
"I saw her on stage. And Tina she... she was just... shes so amazing. And she's finally made it Ti! She's actually made it! I always knew that she would and she was up there on stage. My baby that I love so much was up on stage and I saw her and I looked into her eyes and I remembered. I REMEMBERED Ti! " Santana exclaimed as she smiled insanely.
Tina was still trying to figure out what the hell Santana was talking about.
"Santana... we're talking about Rachel, yeah?" Tina felt stupid for asking once the words left her mouth. Ofcourse they were talking about Rachel, Who else does Santana love!... Wait a second...
"Santana... You remember? You remember you and Rach?" Tina asked, now tears were sliding down her cheeks as she saw Santana nod her head with what she guessed were happy tears sliding down her own cheeks.
"Did you tell her? Are you back together? How was the make up sex?" Tina questioned, earning a glare from the security guard that had just walked past them.
Santana's face dropped. "I... I didn't speak to her. She didn't see me. She doesn't know I was there. S-she doesn't know that I remember" Santana said as she looked down at her hands now that she had removed herself from Tina's embrace.
"WHAT? But you said that you looked into her eyes -"
"I know what I said, and I did. She just didn't see me. I was... I was in the front row and I know that she couldn't see into the front row because of the lights. Remember how she used to complain in Glee club?" Santana laughed at the memory and wiped her running nose. The memory that came to her so easily. After months and months of having memories come to her at the most awkwardest times, now she could just remember... everything.
"So how much do you remember now?" Tina asked. She didn't know what else to say.
"Everything. It kinda took alot out of me to be honest. When I looked into her eyes I just.. I just knew that I had to get out of there so I went to the bathroom and I remembered looking into her eyes and all of these memories just came rushing towards me and I just remembered. Remembered everything. And then I woke up in the back of an ambulance, I guess i passed out again. And then they brought me to the hospital and Quinn was there. She knows. Oh shit... I told her not to tell Rachel but she'll probably tell Brittany and we all know that Brittany can't keep anyone's secret! Remember that time we were having dinner with her parents and she blurted out that we had had sex? Talk about awkward." Santana said as she frantically routed threw her handbag in search of her phone.
"Santana, calm down. I talked to Quinn this morning. Now I get why she was asking me so many weird questions about you. Don't worry. She didn't hint anything even to me so I doubt she's going to mention it to Brittany. Now come on, I've got you bags with me. I knew that we were going to meet up her when your flight landed. Since when do emails only tell you the dates and times? Like seriously, I didn't know if you had gone to New York or Ireland, because they were the only Planes to take off at the same time" Tina said as she and Santana moved through the airport.
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Curled up in each other arms, Santana and Rachel were shaken awake. Literally.
Sitting suddenly up, Rachel screamed and Santana looked around confused. Santana moved quickly, throwing a morning gown to Rachel and putting on her own that rested on the chair in the corner of the room.
She flung open the bedroom door and grabbed Rachel, placing her underneath it in fear that the roof would suddenly. This was after all, the first earthquake or whatever it was that was happening.
Hiram and Leroy appeared at their bedroom door, both panicked also.
"You girls okay?" Hiram asked concerned. He could see Rachel trembling and remembered the faint sound of a high pitched scream. Even if the girls room was soundproof, her scream still managed to be heard in his room.
Santana nodded and then kissed Rachel's forehead as she kept a tight arm around her waist and another supporting both of them against the door frame. After a few moment's, the shaking stopped and car alarms could be heard outside.
They stayed still for a few minutes until they all felt it was safe.
"I'll check the news and see what's going on" Hiram said as he moved back into his bedroom and the sound of the tv could be heard.
"And I'll call the hospital to see how they are down there. If it was an earthquake, then I can guarantee that we'll have people in the ER tonight with the snow on the roads" Leroy said as he also moved into his room.
Santana looked down at Rachel, who still had her head buried in her neck. "Baby, you okay?" Santana said, as she moved with Rachel back into the room and sat them down on the bed.
"Yeah.. I just.. I just got scared you know?"
"Yeah baby. I know" Santana said as she leaned down and kissed Rachel's temple. They sat in silence for a little while until Hiram and Leroy both came into the room.
"Girls, the news says that it was, in fact an earthquake. Nothing major though. We're both going to head down to the hospital. Hiram's going to go help out in the children's ward to lend a hand. Most nurses are going to be needed in the ER. Juliana's coming down too with your father Santana. They're both okay" Leroy said as he smiled at the two girls, wrapped in each others arms.
"Thank you Leroy" Santana said, nodding to the man. Her father and step mother hadn't even crossed her mind she had been so worried about Rachel, who was now more focused on her phone.
"Okay, call us if you need us? Love you" Hiram called out as the two men left the room.
"Who you texting?" Santana asked as she peered over Rachel's shoulder.
"Glee people. They've all replied saying that they're okay. Quinn said that Beth woke up crying and Brittany had been so frantic that she ran into the wall. Brit's mom and dad are taking her to the hospital now because they're worried she may have a concussion or if she might have just taken more cold medicine then she should have. Q said she'll send us an update"
"Poor Britt" Santana said as she leaned over to kiss Rachel's shoulder, slightly laughing. It wont be her first concussion and it won't be her last. Brittany tends to run into things in a state of panic or confusion.
Trying her chances, Santana moves Rachel's morning grown down her arms, exposing her naked body. She continued to kiss her neck and shoulders.
"Baby, we have to get up in the morning and drive to the beach house. Or I have to drive, while you sit and watch" Rachel said as she moved her neck and let Santana continue kissing her neck.
Ignoring what Rachel had just said, Santana push ed the girl down on the bed onto her back and opened the bathrobe up, removing it from Rachel's body completely.
She gently rubbed Rachel's let breast in a seductive motion, running her hand across the hardened nipple and down to where the softness disappears into her ribs and then back up again, her breast filling the palm of Santana's hand, overflowing against her fingers.
"Come on baby" Santana says as she takes off her own gown. "Earthquake Sex"
Rachel looks at her skeptically. "Earthquake sex?"
"Ofcourse. Earthquake Sex can be as good as Wake Up Sex" Santana said as she began to kiss her way down the valley between Rachel's breast.
"But baby I have to drive in the morning"
"Do you realize what a rare opportunity this is? What are the odds of another earthquake in Lima anytime soon?"
"Only slightly better than the odds of you getting any right now" Rachel said with a yawn, rolling over and closing her eyes.
"Come on. I'll make it worth your while"
"Sorry. I need sleep"
"But Babyyyy. I'm all worked up! I have my needs" Santana whines as she shakes the other girls shoulder.
Rolling over back onto her back, Rachel opens her eyes and looks at her girlfriend. "We had sex three hours ago"
"And wasn't it just great?" Santana said breathy, flopping back on the bed as if swooning.
"The earth moved" Rachel said, looking at her smirking girlfriend and giggling.
Santana moves over and straddles Rachel. Leaning down, taking the girls earlobe in her mouth and sucking slightly, before leaving it go with a 'plop'.
"Well then there you have it" She smirks at Rachel who is rolling her eyes.
"Goodnight Santana" Rachel says as she leans up, kisses her girlfriends cheek and then lays back down, putting her arm over her eyes, in attempt to sleep.
Not taking no for an answer, Santana leans down again and continues to kiss Rachel's neck, nipping and biting as she moves along.
By the time she reaches Rachel's breasts with her tongue, the diva hands are in Santana's hair, eye's fluttering and mouth open, moans escaping.
Slowly Santana reaches down to Rachel's legs and rubs her fingers teasingly over Rachel's slit. Rachel rocks her hips to try and get some friction, but Santana moves her hands back up to the other girls breast.
"Baby, no. Don't tease" Rachel whines as Santana bites down on one of her nipples.
"Oh, so now you want me to touch you? What happened to you having to drive in the morning?" Santana grinned as she saw the lust in Rachel's dark eyes as the shorter girl grabbed her hand and placed it between her legs.
Santana felt the abundance of moisture between Rachel's legs. "That was before you made me so wet. I need you" Rachel cried as she moved her hips again. This time Santana complied as began to run her fingers over the swollen clit.
"Baby.. your so wet" Santana said before she moved her finger down to Rachel's opening, waiting for a moment before she pushed it all the way in, up the her knuckle. "And so tight too"
But Rachel couldn't reply. Words were the last thing on her mind as she moaned in response.
"Oh Baby"
"San... ummm"
"Santana... mmm"
"Santana"
"Santana, Santana"
"SANTANA WAKE THE FUCK UP" Tina yelled as she nudged the girls shoulder again. She had been trying to wake her for the last 10 minutes and there was no way that she was going to be late for class because of her.
"Hmmm... Tina? What are you doing in my bed?" Santana asked as she yawned and stretched. Fuck.. it was a dream. No wait, a memory. MEMORY! Santana thought, with a smile on her face. That was until she felt Tina's eye's staring at her again.
"Yeah why are you in my bed?" She asked, confused.
"Actually you're in my bed. We fell asleep here when we got home last night. You were upset, remember?" Tina asked as she finally managed to get herself out from under the Latina.
"Oh yeah. I remember. I remember Everything" Santana said grinning. Remembering that she actually does remember. Everything!
She got up out of bed and grabbed Tina's hands. "I remember. I remember. Oh yeah! I remember" Santana sang as she did a little happy dance *THE NAYA DANCE* , with Tina staring at her like she had completely lost it.
"Okay... I'm going to pretend that you aren't crazy. Because we have to be in class in like 20 minutes. Think you remember how to get dressed?" Tina smiled at the girl. She was seriously delighted that Santana had gotten her memory back. She wanted to celebrate with her friend. But it was still 7 am and Tina still hated mornings.
Santana continued her happy dance around her room as she got ready. Singing her own little version of 'Valerie' and 'Don't stop believing' at the top of her lungs to annoy Tina.
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*NYC*
Had she seen her? Was Santana really sitting there? No.. She couldn't have been, it couldn't have been her. But had she seen her? Maybe that shot of whiskey she took before the show hit her harder then she had expected... But those eyes...
Rachel was knocked from her thoughts when she was tackled almost to the ground, but then in the opposite direction, into the air, by strong arms.
"Noah... Can you put me down now?" Rachel asked as she tried her best to breath.
"Sorry Princess! But you were just so amazing" Puck said before he grabbed Rachel into another hug and kissed her cheek. "I'm so proud of you" he whispered into her ear before he pulled away. She smiled at him with loving eyes and was then joined by the rest of her cast mates.
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When Rachel got home that night with Puck, she was met with a sleeping Brittany who was still on the couch, as she had been when Rachel left this morning, with a sleeping Beth in the armchair, covered in a blanket also asleep.. And a pacing Quinn in the kitchen. The 4 of them... Or 5, if you count Beth, shared the 4 bedroom apartment. They had gotten the place pretty cheap, since when they moved in, it was a dump. But working together, the first room they set up was Beth's. Puck had gotten a job in a local bar a couple of blocks away from there, so he was always on hand to work on fixing the place up a little more each day.
Brittany was attending Juilliard with Rachel, but had managed to get a job teaching dance class to younger children in the local studio in their community. She wasn't much help in construction when it came to the apartment, but she was always very helpful when Beth needed taking care of when the other's were busy.
Quinn had been studying, night and day, taking as many classes as possible and that were available to her at NYU. She had joined the 'Move On' program, which basically confirmed that she would only need 3 years of Nursing school until she would graduate with a Bachelors Degree. Right now she was doing early internship in a hospital for the summer, meaning that the care of Beth was mainly split between Rachel, Brittany and Puck.
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"Hey Q, how was work?" Rachel asked as she walked into the kitchen.
"It.. It was good Rach. Oh has your show?" Quinn asked as she looked behind Rachel, spotting Puck coming into the room.
"It was great, I -" Rachel began but was cut off when Quinn pushed past her and moved to Puck instead, grabbing his arm and pulling him out of the room. Rachel looked at the backs of the two but decided to leave it and not ask questions, she'd find out sooner or later when they need her help, like always.
"Ow Quinn, it's only an arm I have" Puck said, rubbing his bicep where Quinn had grabbed him to pull him into his room and shut the door.
"Oh shut up" Quinn snapped at the boy while rolling her eyes. "Guess who came into the hospital tonight after being found passed out in a bathroom of the theater where Rachel's show was on!"
"... I dunno... Lady Gaga?" Puck said as he pulled off his suit jacket and loosened his tie.
"No you ass" Quinn said as she smacked his arm. It's a good thing Beth seems to have gotten my brains and looks. Now if only she hadn't gotten his love of mischief.
"Ow! I'm not gonna play a guessing game with you!" Puck playfully said as he rubbed his shoulder. As much as he loved his baby momma, he could do without all the bruises she received from her. Actually... he receives alot of bruises from her, Brittany and Rachel. Even Beth had started.
"Santana" Quinn whispered to Puck, who was now leaning over his drawers, looking for a t-shirt to wear, but as soon as he heard the name of the Cheerio, his head snapped towards the blond girl.
"What?" he whispered back, smart enough not to let Rachel hear him. "You have got to be kidding me! What was she doing there?" He asked, forgetting the shirt and sitting on his bed, patting it, motioning for the girl to sit next to him.
"She remembers Puck. She remembers Rach and the Berry's... She remembers everything. And it was all because she looked into Rachel's eyes or something like that at the show" Quinn whispered. Puck could hear the deep breaths that she was taking. He himself had felt the air escape his lungs as he heard her say Santana's name and explain what had happened. It had been a long time since he had even heard Santana's name mentioned from any one's lips except Rachel's.
He'd heard Rachel say her name alot. Especially those nights where the name was one of the words that the small brunette would scream during her night terrors... always about the car crash. Always the words 'Santana remember me' and 'Santana I love you'. Always screamed until Beth would wake up and the entire apartment would come to life. Quinn ran to calm Beth. Puck ran to calm Rachel. Brittany just ran to the living room and realized she had no one to calm down and then usually went back to bed... well that was if she didn't fall over her slippers when trying to get out of bed or ran into a wall or a closed door because of her Duckie covered sleeping mask.
They all knew not to say Santana's name or even talk about Santana related subjects around Rachel, unless she brought them up. Because if someone slipped up and said Santana's name, usually it was Brittany, then Rachel would get that heartbroken look on her face and would become distant with everyone for days. Everyone except Beth that is. The 3 other 'adults' in the apartment would often hear over the baby monitor, Rachel's long conversations, picture showing of the couple and retelling memories to Beth, who would smile every so often at the diva and then continue playing with her toys. Some nights when Rachel would be the one to put Beth to bed, she would tell stories of two princesses who fall in love, only for the evil world to tear them apart. But Rachel would then catch herself and make the story into a happy ending so that Beth wouldn't hear the negativity's of the world that she would soon face just yet. After all, she was talking to a infant who had yet to speak.
That was another thing about Rachel and Beth's interaction. Rachel spent most of her time trying to get Beth to speak. It was odd and worrying that the 3 year old had yet to say any words at all, Quinn and Puck had taken her to many doctors who all said the same thing. She would speak when she's ready. But Rachel still tried every night. Sure the little girl put other toddlers to shame when it came to the fact that she was already writing her ABCs', thanks to her auntie Rachel. And could already strum the basic notes on a guitar and play nursery rhymes on a piano thanks to her Daddy Puck. And Ofcourse was already dancing ballet and hip hop (beginner ofcourse) thanks to her Momma Brittany. But ofcourse she got her looks, which she was admired by compete strangers on the street or passing in the mall, from her mommy Quinn.
"So what's going to happen now?" Puck asked after his moment of thought on what he had just heard.
"Nothing, i guess. Santana swore me to secrecy that I wouldn't tell Rachel" Quinn answered.
"Well she didn't swear me to shit so I'm just going to go tell Rach and then we can -" Puck said standing up, but Quinn grabbed his arm and yanked him back down on his bed.
"You won't tell Rachel anything. Puck, this will kill her. Santana made it clear that she wasn't going to tell Rachel. I guess she thinks Rach has moved on or something, but we can't interfere" Quinn said, almost pleading the boy. He was silent for a moment before he answered.
"Fine. But if only Santana knew how wrong she was" He said shaking his head. Quinn got up, nodded at him and then left the room to go move Brittany and Beth to their beds.
Puck sat on his bed, with his head in his hands, elbows resting on his knee's. Slowly he pulled his hands down his face, something he did often when he was stressed. If only Santana knew how wrong she was He thought, before he flopped back on his bed.
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The apartment was quiet when Rachel finally got out of the bathroom after removing all of her stage make up and cleaning her face. Obviously her skin was going to suffer some damage from all the heavy make up that she was going to have to wear for the next two years... two years Rachel smiled as she remembered her contract. Her contract to a Broadway musical! The thought of the reviews the next morning excited her.
Crawling into bed, Rachel pulled her journal out from her night stand where she kept a picture of Beth; a picture of herself, Quinn, Noah and Brittany; A picture of her and her fathers & then, in a really small frame, she had a photo booth picture of her and Santana from high school. Back when Santana used to kiss her head lovingly like she was in the picture as Rachel buried her face in Santana's shoulder trying to hide from the camera.
*FLASHBACK*
"Baby pleeasseee, this is the only thing I'll ask you to do today!" Santana begged as she pulled Rachel closer to the machine.
"No Santana! Pick something else! How about we go to Claires. I hear they're having a sale!" Rachel said as she tried to free herself from her girlfriend to flee in the direction of the accessories store.
"Baby come on! Since when do you run from the camera? Think of it as practice for when you're a big Broadway star and the paparazzi won't leave you alone!" Santana whined, still trying to pull the shorter girl into the booth.
"San I have a huge zit on my forehead! I dont want any photographic evidence for when I become a huge star that I had bad skin! Barbra has flawless skin!" Rachel said as she struggled against Santana. Having a girlfriend that is taller then you isn't a good idea when they are over powering you.
"The zit is tiny and I have one on my chin so we're even! And I need a picture of you and I for my wallet so I can show you off!" Santana said as she finally got the girl into the booth and trapped her with her hands around her waist.
"Sannn nooo! You cannot show these pictures to anyone! And besides, I refuse to even take the picture so can we just leave now?" Rachel said as she pouted.
"No. Now stop pouting, you'll get wrinkles" Santana said as she put the dollar into the machine and laughed at Rachel, who's eyes widened at the thought of wrinkles and the pout disappeared from her face.
"How about this, the one I put in my wallet will be of you and I kissing? Romantic enough for you?" Santana asked, turning Rachel on her knee towards her face.
"Santana that is such a cliche! And why do you have a wallet? Only guys have wallets..." Rachel said but then whispered "Oh I forgot your the dude in this relationship" Which earned her to be attacked by Santana's fingers at her sides, tickling her. Only when the flash went off did the girls stop and look up at the picture that was on screen. Two smiling, happy and laughing girls.
"Awww baby! You look so cute" Santana said as she looked at Rachel on the screen to the Rachel sitting on her lap. Leaning in, they shared a loving kiss as the flash went off. Looking up, Santana whispered "Yeah, i think that's my wallet shot" earning a smile from Rachel who seemed happy with the picture also.
"You know for doing this, you might receive a reward" Santana said before she leaned in closer to Rachel and whispered into Rachel's ear.
Shocked, eye's widened and mouth hanging open, Rachel was blinded by the flash that went off once again. When she regained her sight, she looked up to the screen which showed her face, with Santana behind her, laughing at her reaction. The picture was actually rather humorous, because of how much Rachel resembled, what Santana would later say was 'the little boy from the grudge whenever he opened his mouth'
"Or maybe this is the wallet shot" Santana managed to choke out between fits of laughter.
"Sannnnn don't laugh" Rachel whined as she buried her head in Santana's shoulder, suddenly shy and embarrassed.
Santana looked down at the amazing girl in her arms. Her amazing girl. "I love you, no matter what hysterical face you pull" Santana said before she leaned down and kissed the top of Rachel's head.
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Once they had received the picture's, Rachel demanded that the funny face one be destroyed and that she should get to keep the last one. Santana happily handed it over to the diva, but kept the other 3 pictures for herself, placing them all in her wallet, with the kissing picture in front view and the other two, unknown to Rachel, stacked behind.
*END FLASHBACK*
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*Time Jump To Christmas*
"Yo Lopez! Get your ass over here and help me with these Cheetos!" Tina called from the snack food aisle, earning her a glare from a mother who was walking past with a little boy who had a pout on his face. Tina stuck her tongue out at the women when she walked past and the little boy giggled when Tina sent a funny face his way, which he returned with an even funnier face before he turned the corner. Laughing to herself Tina turned back around to see Santana pushing the cart her way. The two were taking part in their first shopping trip since they moved into their new apartment.
Having both transferred to schools in New York city, they had decided to once again. Santana had decided to take on another course. Photography along with her entertainment Law/media studies. Tina had decided that after her year of Accounting, she wanted to go in a complete different direction. Theater.
"Slut I ain't got all day. I wantz my cheetos" Tina said as she watched Santana walk slowly down the aisle.
"Seriously? Your calling me a slut? I haven't had sex since Rachel... And who is the one who I caught doing those two chicks from my new study group that totally asked me for a threesome before I turned them down? Seriously Tina, I'm glad that you've figured out your 'bi sexuality' and what not, but please don't seduce my entire study group! Wait a minute... You also slept with Kenzie's girlfriends brother David after I rejected him! WTF T? How are you getting all my rejects?" Santana asked as she stopped next to Tina, who put her precious cheetos into the cart.
"When you reject them, they come running to mama" Tina smirked.
"Okay one, Don't call your self mama. It's creepy. Two, bitch you bez getting my rejects, you can't have a song and dance about that, that's sad! Three, you really need to slow down on this whole 'I'm finally out of the closest so imma screw everything with a vagina and a penis, just cause I can' and Four, you spend too much time with me because high school Tina didn't like pussy or speak like Santana 2.0" Santana laughed as she realized just how much she had rubbed off on Tina. Well.. not rubbed off because they hadn't done that! Ew.. No! Best friends don't do that. Well... except me and Britt that one time... But no, ew. I haven't rubbed off on Tina like that... I haven't rubbed off on anyone like that since high school...
Suddenly Santana was knocked out of her thoughts by a high pitched squeal of her name and something running into her legs and clinging on.
"Santanaaaaaa" She heard again as she looked down as a small child was clinging onto her legs. The child looked up, meeting Santana's eyes.
No fucking way
"Santana! Up!" the little blond girl said as she lifted her hands up, indicating that she wanted to be lifted.
Wide eyed, Santana bent down and lifted the girl up.
"Beth?" she slowly questioned. The little girl nodded.
"You know who I am?" She asked again, then looked at Tina with wide eyes, as if to confirm if this was actually real.
"Uh huh. You Santana! Aunty Wachel talk bout you allll the time" The little girl squealed as she rocked back and forth before leaning forward, closing her arms around Santana's neck and placing a slobbery kiss on her cheek.
"Beth! Yo little chick where are you?" A mans voice could be heard, and then a womens voice. "Baby? Where are you? Dammit Puck, she's just like you!" A third voice was also added into the mixture. "Little B. Where are you? I have a duckie for you"
Turning around, Santana was met with 2 blondes and a overgrown manchild with a Mohawk.
"Mama, daddy, Mommy. Look it's Sanny! Yay!" Beth cheered clapping her hands.
"SAAAANNN" Brittany squealed as she ran towards her old friend and crushed the Latina and the little girl who was still in her arms, in a giant bear hug. Once Brittany left go, Santana looked over to the two other people standing in the aisle, with their eyes wide.
"Q, Puck... Don't get too excited to see me" She said jokingly when she realized that they were still starling at her and standing wide eyed and speechless.
"Beth. Baby, what did you say?" Quinn asked, a tear spilling down her cheek.
"Look It Sanny Mommy!" Beth repeated as she smashed Santana's cheeks together.
Brittany gasped. "Little B! Your speaking!" Brittany squealed as she bounced up and down. Quinn and Puck moved forward towards the girls. Puck took Beth from Santana's arms and threw her up into the air, a giant smile visible on his face.
"What? The kid doesn't speak?" Santana asked confused.
"Nope. We've tried everything. Bringing her to doctors after doctors. Speech therapist. Physiologist. Everyone that we could get a hold of to figure out why she wasn't speaking at the age of three. But they all just said that she'd speak when she's ready" Quinn explained to Santana and Tina and then turned to her daughter who was in Puck's arms. "And I guess your finally ready, aren't you sweetheart" Quinn cooed to her little girl, smiling with tears still visible on her face.
"So your telling me that your daughters first word was 'Santana'?" Tina asked in disbelief.
Brittany, Quinn and Puck all nodded.
"Dammit. She didn't need that ego boost" Tina complained before she pulled Brittany into a hug of her own. It was the first time in 2 years that she had seen any of the three of them.
"Errbody. HUUUUUGS" Beth squealed opening her arms wide while Puck still held her. The four women moved in to surround the man and child.
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