A/N: So yes, like I promised, here's chapter ten. In case you haven't noticed, the rating went up. To M. So, that's my warning to you. Because hopefully you know what 'M' stands for in a fanfic.

Also, a few weeks back, I learned how it feels to become a shipping. More specifically, when they ship you with your best friend. I am officially, a shipping. Great.

Also, I ship Mason and Harper from Black Ops II. NO REGRETS.

ENJOY!

Disclaimer: I obviously don't own Call of Duty or the characters except Natalie, Alex, Manuel, Allison, Madison and Liz-in-a-teacup owns Lieben.

Warning: This story might/will contain romance, humor, angst, hurt/comfort, sexual content, strong language, light yaoi (boy x boy), blood, gore, and mentions of rape.

You have been warned!

OoO- Same time, just switching POV.

XxX-Later on that day or time has passed by.

·Hate Isn't Far From Love·

Chapter 10: Imagine

Ghost has been in a bad mood since we got back from my house (It's been three days by the way). He would snap on everyone, except me, I mean, he wouldn't talk to me unless I would ask him a 'yes' or 'no' question or if he had to give me an order. He would still hug me around my waist while resting his chin on my shoulder (which caused the rest of the men to start gossiping) but he wouldn't talk to me. He would come to my room or I would go to his at night, he would sit on the bed, his back against the wall, while I sat between his legs, using my laptop sorting files out or reading a book and he would just look at what I was doing and randomly kiss me here and there. He never took off the balaclava though, probably didn't want me to see how his face bruised up.

I haven't been able to contact my friends since then, right now, debating whether or not I should try to pull them in to webcam with me or take a nap instead. I mean, a nap sounds wonderful right now. Don't judge, we had a practice drill in the morning, four in the morning to be exact. Since these days have been pretty slow, Soap and Ghost announced a drill, I remind you, at four in the morning.

It's not fun. Going to sleep at midnight then being woken up by alarms and shit was not fun. Nearly falling off the bed, stumbling in the dark, quickly getting dressed, getting weapons and grenades, and the best part-running out to face the enemy. The only problem was...there was no enemy. That's when Soap and Ghost mention it was a practice drill. I swear I just wanted to flip a damn table. What did Ghost say once we were all outside?

"That was too slow. We're going to have to do drills more often," I died a little inside. "But now that you're all awake and ready, why don't you all run the course for me and run a few laps on the track now that we're at it?" Grunts were heard from a few. "If you don't keep your mouths shut, I won't hesitate to make you run around base instead!" No sound was heard.

So yes, I was in somewhat of a bad mood this morning. But it wasn't all that bad, while we ran the track, it gave me a chance to catch up with Yuri on things. Which was kind of bad since I was able to feel Ghost glaring holes into my back the whole time. At least the guys that were on duty didn't have it as bad, they were awake and armed already. Just walking around base, watching, securing, and trying to stay awake. Which reminds me, Soap said I would have to be doing the night-shift soon. That caused that little part of me inside to die just a bit more.

I fell back on my bed and turned to look at the clock. I might as well go to sleep, it was already nine-thirty anyways. But then I remembered, Ghost said he wanted to come over tonight, so I can't fall asleep. I let out a sigh. A beeping noise came from my laptop. I quickly sat up and opened it, a smile spreading on my face. It was my girls, the guys weren't there. They were dressed in pajama pants and tank tops, Madison with a pony tail and Allison with a messy bun.

"Hey girls, what's up?"

"Just wanted to see how you were doing?" Madison smiled sweetly.

"Well you know, just doing my job and stuff. How's Alex and Manuel?"

"They're...fine." I sighed.

"I really am sorry for what happened, I told Ghost to-"

"You have nothing to apologize for, Nat. Alex lost control and was the one to provoke him." Allison interrupted.

"But you know how he is, over protective, we grew up together, he was trying to protect me like he had all these years."

"But Alex gave a bad impression of all of us. Like, 'oh? We have guests over? Let's lose our temper and start a fight!' I mean, I understand Manuel and him only want what's best for us but he needs to understand that you're with Ghost now..." Allison explained. Before I got a chance to reply there was a knock to the door, and it wasn't in my room either. Both girls looked at each other before Madison got up to open the door. After a few seconds, Madison appeared with Alex next to her.

"Allison-Madison, mind if I speak with her alone for a minute?" Allison nodded.

"Yeah, no problem." Allison stood up and took hold of Madison's wrist, both hurrying out the door. I let out a small smile as he took a seat. As I looked at him closer, I noticed his bottom lip was still slightly swollen.

"Hey, Alex. How you doing?"

"Alright I suppose, you?"

"I'm fine." There was silence for a few seconds before Alex let out a sigh.

"Listen, sweetie, I just want to apologize for how I acted that day. I know you don't leave base often and when you do, I ruin your trip..." I waited for him to continue. "I want to apologize for ruining your trip, for what I did to Simon, and for not saying goodbye the morning you left. All in all, for being a total asshole."

"You're not an asshole, you're a very sweet, over protective, caring guy with a little of a temper who has the purest intentions to protect the girls and me. And not to mentions how great of a friend you are, I wouldn't trade you guys for the world." Alex smiled.

"Neither would I," he murmured. "It's just that...I don't want to lose you..."

"And what makes you think you'll lose me?"

"When you joined the army five years ago, we basically lost you for a while and now, we can barely get a hold of you. You have new friends now and...Simon." I shook my head.

"Didn't I just say that I wouldn't trade you guys for anything? I mean yeah I've met some great friends and now I'm with Simon but you guys are a huge part of my life, you guys can never be replaced."

"I'm so glad to hear that. By the way, is there by any chance a way that you can bring him here? I need to speak with him." I bit my lip.

"He did say he would stop by tonight," there was a light knock on the door, how convenient. "That must be him, hold on." I got up and opened the door, sure enough, it was him. He slipped his arms around my waist, hiding his mask covered face in the crook of my neck.

"Ghost?"

"Yes?" His voice was muffled though.

"Alex wants to speak with you," I heard a low growl deep in his chest. "He's on webcam, please just listen to him, okay?" He pulled back and looked at me, he sighed before giving a nod. He walked inside and I stepped out outside, closing the door behind me. I leaned back against the wall and tried to listen, but they were speaking too low, I couldn't make out what they were saying. But look at the bright side, at least there wasn't any yelling. I paced around the hall trying to calm my nerves, Meat and Archer passed by, joking that Ghost had locked me out of my room. Idiots. After a while, he finally came back out.

"Ghost!" He chuckled.

"Yes?"

"What happened? What did he tell you? Is he still on webcam?" I rushed out, trying to look behind him to look at the laptop.

"No, he had to get off but both the girls and him told me to tell you goodnight and to please take care," he tucked back a few strands of hair behind my ear. "He apologized to me, said he'd like to start fresh, that it'll be great if we can go back to the house when we get another chance." Woah, I didn't expect that from Alex.

"That's it?"

"No, he also said...that if I'm what you really want, then he's willing to give me a chance. Oh, and to keep an eye on you at all times." I rolled my eyes. He would say something like that but you don't know how relieved I am to hear that. I can't wait until he gets a girlfriend, I'll give him as much of a hard time as I can. Just like him.

"Hey, Ghost? I have a question..."

"Hmm? What's on your mind?"

"Well, you know, a few days back when you gave me my dog tags back...how did you take them in the first place?" He chuckled and lifted his mask, placing his hands on my face then leaning down to kiss me. This kiss wasn't like the others-sweet and gentle, it was rough and teasing, gently biting my lower lip. It was one of those kisses where I forget about everything and everyone, one of those kisses were I forget how to breathe. He pulled back to soon, giving me that sexy half smirk, leaving me completely dazed.

"Like that." I blinked.

"What?"

"That's how I took them off. That day when we were in the shooting range, when we kissed, I took them off without you noticing." He explained as the dog tags hung from his fingertips. I frowned at the ground. He unclipped my dog tags.

"That's not fair." He chuckled and placed them around my neck again.

"All is fair, my love. I'm guessing you're really tired after having to wake up so early..." I shook my head.

"Please, never pull up a practice drill on us that early ever again." He laughed.

"No promises," he leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on my lips. "Sweet dreams." He pulled down his mask and turned around, leaving back to his room. I walked back inside and sat on my bed. Confused, yes, but happy.

Alex...approved.

7 months later

It's been seven months. A lot of things have happened in seven months, apart from going in and out of missions and near death experiences. General Shepherd stopped by again but only talked to Soap and Price, something about an enemy in Russia, but the information I was given was limited. I'm sure I've mentioned this before but, I don't trust him.

By the way, remember when I said Soap mentioned I would have to do the night shift? Yes? Well, it sucked at first but then Ghost was willing to trade with Yuri so he would take the night shift with me. On the bright side, we had another chance to go to my house but it was only for two days. I must say, it went much better this time. Alex was willing to listen to Ghost this time, all the guys seemed to get along perfectly. Which was a huge relief. Oh! Guess what? Soap finally told Ghost about his relationship with Roach. The conversation went a little like this~

"Why didn't you tell me before?" Ghost asked.

"I was afraid to lose my best mate." Soap admitted. Ghost laughed.

"Lose me? You know I'll always have your back, John. No matter what."

"Thanks, mate." Soap and Roach looked relieved.

"I will admit, you did catch me by surprise, the thought of you being...gay never crossed my mind." Soap and Roach burst out laughing.

"We're not gay." Roach said.

"We still find women attractive." Soap winked at me. Ghost wrapped a possessive arm around my waist.

"Yes, well this girl is completely off-limits." Soap and Roach laughed again, I giggle escaped my lips.

"We know that, Ghost, I was just trying to make a point."

After that, it just went back to shits and giggles. As time went by, Ghost came over to my room more and more, then one night he stayed over, then more nights until we decided that I should just move in to his room completely. We've been sleeping together for months now, no, not like that. But now that we're talking about sleeping around (no, not like that either) I was able to talk to my girls again after months of losing absolute contact with them due to having to go do missions across the world and going undercover for a few days. It sucked really, having to camp out in the woods or staying in a poor excuse for a hotel watching and following the enemy. But back to my point. I talked to my girls about a month ago, the guys weren't there that time, which sucked since it been months since I last talked to them. Anyways, out of all the conversations we had that night, there's one I could stop thinking of...

"So you guys are sleeping in the same room now? In the same bed?" Madison asked.

"Hmm, yup." The girls smirked.

"Are you guys sleeping together?" Allison asked. My face flushed.

"N-No." They frowned.

"You can't possibly think we'll believe that. You guys have been together for a little more than seven months and are sleeping in the same bed but haven't had sex?" I fidgeted with my hands.

"We haven't."

"Who's not interested? Him-you or you both are just not interested?" Madison asked.

"Well he has hinted it but he's never actually said anything." It has happened a few times over the months. I would slip into bed and he would too, turning off the lights then throwing an arm around me. He would start off with gentle kisses then things would get heavier to the point where he would draw one or two moans out of me, I would stop him and tell him that we should probably get some sleep, he would have a hint of disappointment in his eyes but wouldn't say a word, just nod and turn around to go to sleep.

"And your denying him why~?"

"It's just that...I don't know..."

"Wait! Don't tell me you haven't told him that you believe in the whole 'no sex before marriage' thing." Allison asked.

"No I haven't. I'm just afraid he'll laugh and stuff...and I'm not planning on marrying any time soon."

"He wouldn't do that, he loves you dearly, he shows you every day doesn't he?" Madison smiled, I nodded.

"See? Plus, before you joined the army, it was nearly impossible to get a boyfriend because of Alex and Manuel, so you have an excuse."

"Also, he'd probably feel special if he knew he's your first. And I clearly remember you said that you believe in the no sex before marriage thing but that you would make an exception if you found the right guy. Is he the right guy?" I didn't know what to answer. I know is that I've never felt this for anyone before...

"Okay, let me put this easy for you. Imagine that hard body, strong hands, gentle touches, soft kisses, and the thought that he's only yours."

Yeah, only mine. But I still felt self-conscious. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair, I was already dressed in my black sweat pants and black tank top. Ghost would be here any second; it was already ten-thirty. I'm ready, I know I am, Ghost is that person I've been waiting for. Oh gosh, I sound pathetic. I jumped at the sound of the door opening. Ghost walked in and closed the door behind him, locking it as usual along with taking his sunglasses and balaclava off.

"You're still awake? I thought you'd be asleep by now." He frowned.

"Y-yeah, I was just waiting for you." He looked at me closely.

"Are you okay? You look nervous."

"I'm fine." I answered too quickly.

"Hmm." He took his jacket off and placed it on a nearby chair. He sat on the bed to take his boots off.

"Bollocks!"

"What?"

"I forgot to take some files to Lieben." He stood up, I panicked.

"Can't you take them tomorrow?" He shook his head.

"Soap will kill me. I'm sorry, go to sleep, I'll be back in a while." Maybe tonight wasn't the night. I nodded and got under the sheets. He turned off the light and climbed the bed.

"Goodnight." He leaned down to kiss me but before he could pull back, I quickly slipped my arms around his neck to keep him in place. It seemed that I caught him off guard but he didn't pull back. The kiss got heavier until we both had to pull back to catch our breath.

"So, do you still have to take the files right now?" I panted.

"No, they can wait until tomorrow." His eyes were filled with unmistakable lust. He kicked his boots off and climbed on top off me. He wasted no time to kiss me, pulling the sheets off me, I tucked on his shirt to see if he would get the hint. He did. He pulled back and took hold of the end of the shirt, pulling it off and throwing it to the ground.

Imagine that hard body,

He was perfect but at the same time so imperfect. I placed my hand on his chest, then down his abs to his sexy v-lines, admiring the fading scars, the scars of a true soldier. The moon light making him look ever more perfect. He leaned back down, kissing my neck as his hands slipped under my tank top, I lift my back a little so he can take it off, slipped it off me, and threw it over his shoulder. He slowly kissed me down my neck, to my chest, then to my stomach, his hands on the waistband of my sweat pants, slowly pulling them down, slipping them off completely, running his hands up my legs, and gripping my waist.

Strong hands,

A shiver went up my spine as I closed my eyes, he went back to kissing my stomach, I opened my eyes and he pulled back, undoing his belt, and unzipping his pants. I noticed the growing bulge in his pants...I will admit, panic struck me hard but I forced myself to calm down. He slipped his pants and boxer briefs off all in one, next thing I knew, my panties and bra were off too. I can feel my face heat in embarrassment, feeling self-conscious about my body. My body isn't perfect, I have those scars too.

"An absolute beauty." He murmured, admiring my body with a small smile on his lips. The clothes were scattered on the ground, completely forgotten. I looked at him and couldn't help but feel worried, this was going to hurt. He gently griped my chin and leaned down to kiss me, feeling his hands on my thighs, gently and slowly spreading my legs.

Gentle touches,

Everything was going great until he slipped a finger inside me, I tensed, he told me to relax, and I did. It felt weird though, but not unpleasant, after a while, it felt good. The second digit stung a little and the third hurt, but it was nothing I couldn't handle. He was watching my every reaction so I was careful not to show any pain. As he pumped his fingers a bit faster, the pain slowly started to disappear and pleasure came in. I should probably tell him that I'm still…a virgin. I closed my eyes.

"Oh, Ghost..." I moaned.

"Hmm, yes?"

"I-I need to tell you-oh!" His fingers hit something inside me and man did it feel good. I pulled him down for a kiss, running my hands through his hair. He kissed down to my ear.

"What do you need to tell me?" He whispered hotly into my ear.

"P-Please, hurry." I begged. Obviously that wasn't what I was going to tell him but I needed him to hurry up.

"Hmm? Hurry in what exactly?" I can almost hear him smirk.

"Please, I need you inside me..." I heard him let out a low growl. I opened my eyes and the sight was too much. His eyes were screwed shut in absolute pleasure, using his free hand to slowly stroke himself.

"Ghost..." I whine.

"As you wish..." He pulled his fingers out, feeling a bit disappointed at the loss. He quickly positioned himself in my entrance, leaning down to kiss my neck, he thrusted in in one quick move. I bit my lip and fisted the sheets, tears building up in my eyes. I was right, it did hurt, but again, it was nothing I couldn't handle. I heard him hiss in my ear.

"So damn tight." He muttered. He pulled back and lifted my right leg onto his shoulder, moving his hips forward slowly, closing his eyes for a second as he let out a low deep growl. He started off with slow movements, then picked up the pace, the pain washing away causing moans to involuntary slip from my mouth.

"If only you can look at yourself right now, looking so tempting and...desirable," His voice was different, it was still that deep sexy accent but it had a different tone to it. "The way you respond to my every touch, the noises you make, and the way you say my name." He leaned down and placed soft kisses on my cheek, forehead, and neck.

Soft kisses,

"Riley..." I breathed.

"Your mine and no one else's," he growled, thrusting a bit harder, making me pant and gasp, wrapping my legs around his waist trying to bring him closer. A few more thrusts in and he hit this certain spot again that made me see stars, arch my back, and scrape my nails down his back. Right there and then, I forgot everything and everyone, I forgot my name. He bit my neck and shoulder, scraping his nails down my sides. The dog tags around his neck making clinking sounds to the rhythm of his movements. "As much as I'm yours and no one else's."

And the thought that he's only yours.

XxX

I'm awake. I mean, I haven't opened my eyes yet but I'm consciously awake. I know Ghost is awake too since I can feel him sliding his fingertips up and down my back. The memories of last night flashing through my head, bringing a small smile to my face. I opened my eyes and I had to blink a few times before my eyes could adjust to the sun. I was comfortable, my head resting in Ghost's chest, while he stroked my back. I looked up at him, his blue eyes weren't the usual cold and angry ones, they were...peaceful.

Last night was the best night of my life, as corny as that might sound, it's true. But, out of all the things we did last night, there's one memory in particular that makes me smile, something I won't ever forget, when...

He looked down at me and smiled. "'Morning."

He whispered 'I love you'.

A/N: I tried not to make it too detailed for consideration to those who told me they preferred the flashbacks. But I'll probably show you flashbacks (a continuation of what happened) in the next chapter. Maybe. It's really up to you.

I hope you enjoyed. [Insert reason why you should review here.] Thanks! [Smiley face.]