Chapter 10

Finn placed a hand on Rachel's shaking leg. "Rachel, relax. It's not like you don't know her."

"I haven't talked to her in a while. And I'm worried about Liam. I've only been leaving him to go to school and that's difficult."

"He's with Sam and Santana and Mercedes. He's fine and he's probably playing and having fun." Finn said as he took her hand in his.

"Rachel, you can come on in." Dr. Romano said as she opened her door.

"Can my boyfriend come in today? Just for today?"

"Of course." She nodded and Finn and Rachel made their way into the room, taking a seat on the couch.

"This is my boyfriend, Finn." Rachel introduced and the two shook hands.

"I've heard a lot about you." Dr. Romano smiled.

"Oh god, you probably think I'm a horrible person." Finn laughed.

"I'm a therapist. I don't judge people. I've heard some bad things, but that's changed. She's told me how amazing you are." Dr. Romano grinned as she sat in her chair. "So it's been a while since I've seen you."

Rachel glanced down at her hands and nodded. "Things got a little hectic with Liam. I wasn't really doing anything for myself. Everything was about Liam and I didn't want to be selfish and take time for myself. But now…I'm pregnant."

"So you've come back for the health of the new baby?" Dr. Romano asked.

Rachel nodded. "Dr. Stevens and Finn convinced me. They said the stress isn't good."

"Stress?" Dr. Romano questioned.

"I…J-Jason k-kept me captive for nine days. He and his friend. I-I don't even know which one is the father." Rachel bit down on her lower lip and felt the tears begin to spill out from her big brown eyes.

"They both raped you?" She asked and Rachel nodded. "What else did they do?"

"They b-beat me constantly. And t-touched me. They burned me with a cigarette once and they were just so rough. The r-rapes…they were horrible. It felt like they were never ending and they were so violent and rough. It hurt so badly and no matter how much I begged, they just kept going. And they would tell me I was a slut and a whore and I was worthless and only good for one thing." Rachel said, choking back a sob. "And they had this twisted plan. They had my phone hacked and got into my menstrual cycle app. They planned to take me while I was ovulating because they wanted to get me pregnant. Then they made sure to keep me for at least a week so the doctors couldn't give me emergency contraceptive. It just…baffles me why they did that."

"Rachel, they both have twisted minds." Dr. Romano said softly. "How are you dealing with all of this?"

Rachel let out a humorless laugh. "Not very well. I'm trying so hard for Liam, but when he's not around, I'm a mess. I feel like a horrible mother."

"Rachel, what you are going through is very difficult. You are not a horrible mother. You are strong. I've had patients who have just given up and don't even try for their children. And I am not saying that is horrible because they are dealing with such a horrible thing, but you are trying."

"But it just kills me when he asks me why I'm sad. I've explained to him that the bad guys made a booboo my heart, but still. He hates seeing me upset and then he gets sad and that kills me even more."

"But Rach, most of the time you pretend to be happy for him. He only sees you sad sometimes." Finn added.

"Rachel, your son loves you. He doesn't think you are a bad mother because you feel sad. He loves you so much and that's why he gets upset when he sees you sad. But he loves you with everything he has. I've seen him with you. You are his life and nothing is going to change that. And when he gets older, old enough when you can explain to him what happened, he is going to honor you even more. Because you are being so strong, pushing through to take care of him."

Rachel wiped at her eyes. "I'm also really worried how he's going to react to the new baby. He's excited now, but what about when he realizes the baby needs a lot of attention? I mean he's used to being the center of attention in everyone he knows lives'."

"Most children do have a hard time adjusting to a new baby, but I think Liam will do fine. Let him help with the new baby. Have him put on the bib or get you the baby's diaper. Also explain that babies need a lot of attention, but you love him just as much as the baby." Dr. Romano explained. "I guess you're keeping the baby. How far along are you?"

"Eleven weeks. And yes. I couldn't imagine doing otherwise, especially after Liam. And I love this baby so much already." Rachel said, resting her hand on her small bump. "But I'm really nervous. I'm only seventeen. How am I supposed to take care of two young kids?"

"You are very young and I admire your strength and devotion. But you are going to do fine. You are amazing with Liam and you have a great support system with your fathers and it seems to be Finn is here for you too."

"Oh Finn is amazing. He is helping me raise Liam and he is just…he said he wants to be the dad and I just…I love him so much." Rachel shot him a loving smile and leaned in to kiss her head. "And my glee club has been wonderful too. They just don't know about the pregnancy yet. Only two of them."

"And how has school been going?"

Rachel scoffed. "Horrible. It took me over a month to go back and I thought everything was going fine, until I was going to meet Finn at the cafeteria. A cheerleader and football player stopped me and told me I was lying for attention and that I had been…b-begging to be t-touched. She was saying other means things and he was t-touching me. Puck and Santana saw and came to stop them, but then I had a flashback and panic attack. Nothing has been as bad as that, but everyone's always whispering and staring at me. The cheerleaders have confronted me a few times, calling mean names, and telling me this is just a cry for attention."

"That is horrible. And they clearly don't understand how serious this is. But Rachel, I want you to ignore them. They are nothing to you. And I want you to understand that what happened wasn't your fault."

Rachel nodded, not quite convinced. "I'm also really worried what's going to happen when the school finds out I'm pregnant. It's only going to be a matter of time. I'm showing. I can hide it under baggy shirts, but that won't be enough soon. And I can't leave school again like I did with Liam. I really need my high school diploma."

"The bullying might get worse, but you have your friends and Finn to protect you. And don't think that telling a teacher or the principal is tattling. I want you to remember that this is for the health of your baby too. Stress is not good. And we don't want complications like you did with Liam."

Rachel nodded again. "Thank you Dr. Romano. I'm going to continue to come back."

"Good. I just want to ask you one more thing. How has Liam been coping after what happened?"

"He's been great. He's really only worried about me disappearing again. I hate leaving him for school and he hates it too, but we're beginning to adjust. I was actually going to ask you if you would see him though. Just to make sure he is okay."

"Of course. I want to see you once a week."

"Okay. I'll call to make an appointment. I have to check my schedule."

"Finn, drag her back here if you have to." Dr. Romano laughed.

"Oh I will." He chuckled as he stood with Rachel's hand still in his. "Thanks."

"Thank you again." Rachel said.

"No problem. Good luck and call me anytime you need me. Hang in there."

Rachel nodded and she and Finn left. They made their way back to the car and Rachel took in a deep breath as she pulled the seat belt over her chest.

Finn glanced at her. "You okay?"

"Yeah. I will be. It felt good to talk to her."

"See. I like her. She's very nice and helpful." Finn said, bringing Rachel's hand to his lips.

"Yeah she's a big help." Rachel nodded. "I'm going to continue to go back, I promise."

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P.S. Holy crap! I hope Marley is okay! Kitty needs to stop bothering the poor girl!