A/N: Here we go with another chapter!
Disclaimer: I don't own BH 90210!
Dylan held onto Brenda as they both cried. He wanted to talk but he knew that if he did right this second that his voice would break. He wasn't one to give into his emotions all that much but this time he had no choice. He felt sick because he knew what had been done to her but yet she still wanted his touch.
After a while he pulled back and he said "Brenda are you alright?"
Brenda shook her head. "No, Dylan I'm not alright. I am not sure that I will ever be alright again. Thank you for coming in to me. I wasn't so sure that you would."
Dylan's mouth dropped open a bit at that. "Of course I would Brenda. God I'm so sorry that this happened to you. I just want to find the person who did this to you and tear them apart slowly and limb by limb."
Brenda smiled a little at that. "Dylan, you can't do that because then you would end up in jail. I need you now Dylan more than I ever needed you before. I feel safe with you. I know that Mom, Dad, and Brandon would all protect me but I feel safer when you are by my side. Will you stay here with me tonight? I would understand if you didn't want too. Hell I wouldn't want to stay with me if I was you. I'm broken, damaged and dirty."
Dylan shook his head and said softly "Brenda you are in no way, shape, or form dirty. You didn't ask to be hurt the way you were. I never want you to think that I find you dirty because I don't. Yes, what happened to you was terrible but you are still the same girl that I love. I have always loved you Brenda even when we weren't together. I can't stop loving you and I don't want to stop loving you. Of course I will stay with you tonight if that is what you want. I only want you to feel safe Bren. I would do anything for you. Don't you know that by now?"
Brenda had tears streaming down her face. "How can you love me Dylan? How can you love me after what happened to me? How can you love me after I let what happen to me?"
Dylan shook his head and said sternly "Brenda you didn't let it happen to you! Stop blaming yourself for something you had no control over baby. You didn't asked to be sexually assaulted! You didn't ask to be beat! My god Brenda you didn't ask for any of this to happen to you. It's my fault not yours! If I would have been the man I should have been you would have been out with me tonight and not out on your own. So if you want to blame someone blame me God damn it but don't every fucking blame yourself!"
Brenda looked at Dylan in shock. She couldn't believe what she had just heard come out of his mouth. She couldn't believe that he was blaming himself for what happened to her. She never once thought to blame him for what had happened to her. She never even thought that he would blame himself. She saw all the pain and self reproach in his eyes and she knew that it was aimed at himself and not her. She loved him even more at that second than she ever loved him before.
She took one of his hands in hers and whispered "You are not to blame for this Dylan! If I can't blame myself then you can't blame yourself. I love you Dylan. I have never stopped loving you. I am going to need your strength and your love to get through this. I am going to need you to hold me up when I no doubt fall apart because I know that I will. Will you help me through this Dylan?"
Dylan leaned forward and brushed his lips across Brenda's forehead. "I will do anything and everything that you need me to Bren. I will help you through this. I will hold you up when you feel like you are going to fall. I will be your strength when you need it or when you need me. I'm not going anywhere Brenda. We will get through this. We will get through this together. I'm just so sorry that something like this has happened to you."
Brenda gave Dylan a sad smile. "I am too Dylan but I can't change it. What is done is done and it can't be undone. The only thing I can do is not let the bastard win completely. I can't let him know that he has broken me. I need to be strong and to do that I need you. When I have you by my side I feel like I can do everything. God Dylan all I wanted the whole way to the hospital was you. I would have thought that just thinking of you or any other guy would have sent me through a tailspin but when I thought about you and having you beside me everything seemed so much better. It was like I knew that I could get through this. It was like I knew that I would be able to pull through this even if all I wanted to do was give up because I had you by my side. Does that make sense to you? It does to me but then again I am a bit drugged up."
Dylan chuckled at that. "Brenda it makes perfect sense to me. For so long we have been there for one another that it is natural that you would want me. I will keep you safe Bren. I will not allow anything or anyone else to hurt you and that includes your mom. I love you Brenda and I will always love you. When we get you through this we are going to sit down and have a long overdue talk. I'm tired of not having you as my girlfriend."
Brenda smiled at Dylan and brushed her lips across his cheek. She has loved this man for so long and so much that she had no doubt that once she was through this that they would end up back together. For some reason that thought didn't scare her like she thought it would.