Chapter10

"Erza," Lucas spun the bottle and it gestured the redhead. "Did you ever think of dating some guy in the guild?"

"No, no they are all weird."

"You are insulting us!" Gray said as he looked at her. She ignored him and went to the bottle already.

"Lucas," she called his name out and he looked at her. It was a coincidence for the one who asked to get asked from the same person. "… What did Natsumi mean about being friends?" Silence spread in the room. Lucas kept staring at the redhead while Natsumi was staring at the ground knowing how hard is getting to hear something like that coming out from her and she was the one who was advising her in the past. While Gray was thinking of a way to tell her that she has to stop asking this question.

"You didn't answer… -hic-"

Lucas took a deep breath and stretched his arm out and drank another cup ignoring the redhead as she felt angry because of what he did.

"Tch…" she crossed her arms watching the mage spins the bottle. It went to Gray…

Later, the three mages Erza, Gray and Lucas were completely drunk swaying while spinning the bottle. But Natsumi was lucky to not get asked embarrassment questions and she didn't drink that much as they did. For Erza who was telling the truth in her answers was entertaining herself with drinking more so she got herself drunk more. And now, it was her turn to spin the bottle again and it gestured the poor girl.

"Natsumi~" she called her name out catching the girl's attention. Natsumi looked at her with a frown hoping not to get mixed up with weird stuff.

"What?"

"Why are you so stubborn about being with Lucas? He really loves you… he really does. –hic-"

Natsumi's eyes widened as she kept looking at her and then she heard a laugh coming from the boy's mouth.

"You are right Erza, I really do –hic- but she never listens." Lucas said looking at the redhead and then moved his body to look at the shorter mage female. Natsumi moved her head to the ground as she kept listening to both of them.

"Stop annoying Natsumi guys –hic-" the black haired ice mage said as he sat on his knees frowning at them getting laughter from the blonde.

"So you still love her Gray? You lied to me the other day." Erza grabbed Gray's collar cloth.

"I don't love her! I hate her!"

"You... hate her! -hic-" the blonde said as he moved to where the mages stood as he kept looking at both of them.

"Yeah, while I loved her so much,... she loved only you! -hic-" the black haired let go of Erza's collar as he grabbed Lucas's one. "You were the reason of our break up!"

After fighting together, Erza and Gray lost conscious and Lucas kept looking at them.

That was really shocking for Natsumi who was trying to control her feelings over something like that because they were drunk but the problem that, they are telling the truth. Erza always wanted to tell her these words but didn't want to hurt her. Lucas loves her but he can't tell her because she was so angry at him and never gave him the chance to express himself. And Gray, he hates her because he loved her in the past while she didn't give him what she wanted. She knew that was all her fault being stubborn and bad friend. It was all her fault because she always escapes and she wishes to disappear so they won't gets hurt because of her. Natsumi's tears fell down on its own because she couldn't hold them anymore. She wanted to hide from her. She wants to be forgotten, she wants to disappear.

Lucas caught a glimpse of her tears and spun his body to look at her face to realize that she is crying and without a second of thought. He held her to his chest and hugged her tightly. Natsumi was speechless and helpless. She couldn't neither hold him nor stop her tears.

"I might be drunk… and I might not remember what I said when I wake up." He took a deep breath through his nose inhaling her smell as he moved his head closer to hers. "But I'll definitely remember this warm embrace I got from you."

Yeah, that's right. She was hurt and she was hurting them. But what should she do so they won't be hurt? She doesn't want to hurt her friends nor hurt Lucas. He was precious to her even though he was neither her friend nor her lover.

Lucas let go of her and stared into her eyes trying to force his eyes open. She looked down at his chest placing both hands on it and trying to push him away. But he didn't let go of her as he kept wrapping his arms around of her waist. He loved her so much even when he was drunk. He loved her so much that he was seeing her as the best girl in the world. He loved her so much that he could see her in between million people.

Lucas leaned down and pressed his lips against her right cheek making her eyes widen. He broke the kiss and fell down unconscious as he started snoring. But the girl kept staring at the space not knowing what did happen to her. Lucas kissed her, he just kissed her. Natsumi pressed her fingers on her cheek.

She looked down at her legs and blushed more. 'Why did he do that anyway? He won't remember when he wakes up?'

Natsumi sighed and looked at her friends. It won't change the fact that she is still thinking the same. She wants to disappear for awhile so her friends will be good without her. She took a deep breath and started walking to the house's door. An s-class job will be okay for her to disappear for awhile. She needs to push herself so she won't to be thinking about the same thing.

The dragon slayer went to the guild confirmed a mission of 2 weeks and then went to her house packing her things. After finishing packing things she sat down on her hammock swinging it a little. This decision is gonna be hard for her but a little while will be alright even when she can't stay away from her friends and even Happy but she won't be able to wait to see him as she will leave him a letter only.

She hopes her life will get better.