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Chapter 9
Increasing Pain
Edward's POV
A/N: Anything underlined is a quote from Twilight
She was out the door before I could stop her. My body would not move. My empty hands stung, as if someone had ripped my heart out and smashed it to pieces. Why did she leave. I could feel the hurt and shock on my face. I could barely stand at this point so I let my body fall to the ground. I laid there in the forest thinking about everything I did. Could anyone forgive me? I did so much wrong. I should have never have let her go, but I did. I would have to live with all this regret, but I just couldn't live like this. Without her, I'm an empty shell. She has chosen to not to be with me. I dry sobbed.
I remembered every little detail, of every little moment we shared together, but it was all in the past. It would never happen again. I mind as well be dead. My family surly won't kill me. I need a way to kill myself, but it isn't possible. I frowned. Why did it have to be so difficult to die?
Bella's POV
I ran and ran. How could I live now? After that kiss my thought wondered. What would I do? When he said 'I knew you still loved me,' he sounded so relieved. I must have imagined that. I needed a way to die, and fast. I was an empty shell because he had taken my heart with him. It was scattered every where, but when we kissed it was as if all th pieces found it's way together for that one moment.
It finally came to the point where I couldn't run anymore because I was hurting emotionally so badly. I need to stop. I took a deep breath and sat on a rock. I put my hands to my temples and began to think of ways to die.
I only knew of but few ways to die. One of which was being cut into pieces and being burned. however there was a flaw to that; no vampire was able to defeat me. Another was to have werewolves to rip me apart. The problem with that was that I did not want to die in the hand of those filthy wolves. The last one, the only one I had never tried before. The one I never ventured through, that I was earning the money for. I remembered that day when Edward had said 'Anyway you don't irritate the Volturi, not unless you want to die,' but I did want to die. My last option; the volturi.
A/N: Sorry for not updating in like 9 days. Plus, sorry it's so short. Btw, I sort of digging myself into a dead end. I'm working my way out of it though. Now I apologize to everyone in the library who may be with Kawaii-Inu-mimi at this time. BUT! Kawaii-Inu-mimi ISH AWESOME! hehehheheheh is secretly not sorry