Title: Feels like Tonight
Author: D Sollers
Subjet: Season 5 BL fic- Minor spoilers. "I always saw us in Tree hill. We had a big house and an even bigger family and nothing else would matter because we'd be together."
Disclaimer: I own nothing to do with OTH. Thank God :-) And sadly, "Feels like Tonight," is a song off of Chris Daughtry's album. So I don't own that either.
Author's Notes: Okay first I wanted to say thanks again for all the reviews, I am actually trying to finish this story within the next two weeks but not before I give you plenty of BL goodness! Also to BPDavis- I loved your review and I agree with you 110. I hope you enjoy this chapter and I think it deffinitly shows both the type of person that Brooke is and Peyton is and that even though they both do LOVE Lucas, only one is for non selfish reasons.
ALSO! I know that Lindsay was supposed to have dyed her hair blonde (Peyton blonde) because of her insecurities. But I am not doing that because I kind of like my version of Lindsay, she's upset and scared and she has a right to be. Mark could have handled this triangle (even the LLP one) a hell of a lot better than what he has planned. So this is me... liking Lindsay. Not liking Lindsay & Lucas but simply liking Lindsay. Now onto the story!
Chapter Ten
I got him ready for you
Tree Hill, 2007
"How's the leg?" Brooke said as she leaned against the porch.
Peyton smiled up at her. "Ugh, it'll be okay..." She glance up at her friend.
"How's the boy?"
"It'll be okay," Brooke said sadly.
Peyton nodded her head. "Oh!" She was about to tell her friend something when Brooke cut her off.
"I'm sorry Peyton," Brooke admitted, crossing her hands over her chest.
Peyton knew that if anyone should be sorry, it should have been her. But Brooke didn't need to know about the kiss in the library because it didn't mean anything, at least that's what she kept trying to tell herself. "Why?"
"Because I shouldn't have left you," Brooke said sadly. "I thought that you were behind me."
Peyton sat up. "Brooke don't do..."
"No, I should have made sure."
Peyton smiled. "Okay, you're my best friend. You want to know what made me feel better when I was trapped in that library? It was knowing that Brooke's okay, my best friend- she's safe."
"I love you for that P Sawyer but there was something else that made you feel better in that library. My boyfriend," Brooke added finally.
Peyton looked down at the ground. "And I guess that I can't hold it against him, can I? I mean the boy I love protected the girl I love. And it's the girl he loves too."
"Brooke..." Peyton began to protest.
Brooke shook her head. "No we both know it's true."
"Okay," Peyton said, taking a moment to stand up after making sure her leg was okay. "Come here," Peyton said, taking a step and allowing Brooke to hold her up. Peyton placed her hands on Brooke's arms and smiled down at her. "I want you to listen to me, I care about Lucas and I always will."
Brooke nodded her head, loving Lucas was something that they'd both always share. "But he's insanely in love with you," Peyton smiled. "And you know what? So am I, you're my Brooke!"
Peyton looked at her friend and smiled. "I'm not going to hurt you again," she promised.
"Okay cause I really don't want to hurt again."
Tree Hill, 2011
Peyton pulled a box out of her closet and glanced inside. It was filled with things from years ago, presents she had been given, pictures that had been taken and a scrapbook that Brooke had made her for graduation.
As she pulled out the scrapbook, Peyton's eyes landed on a photo of Jake tucked inside of an old book. She pulled the photo out of the book and stared down at it as her eyes began to well with tears.
Peyton could remember the last time she had talked to him as if it was yesterday. He had told her to follow her heart and she had followed it back to Tree Hill. Her thoughts drifted towards Jenny as she realized the little girl would be seven or eight years old.
"Peyton? Are you home?"
Peyton pushed the photo back into the book and opened the scrapbook. "I'm in here Brooke," she yelled for her friend. A few seconds later her bedroom door opened and Brooke peeked her head inside. "Hey," Peyton smiled at her friend.
"Hi," Brooke said as she stepped into the room. Peyton glanced down at the dress Brooke was still wearing and was about to comment but Brooke cut her off. "It's not what you think."
Peyton patted the bed beside her and Brooke climbed in, pulling the covers up over her body. "Taking a trip down memory lane?" Brooke asked, pointing towards the photos.
The blonde nodded her head as she turned towards Brooke. "Lucas kissed me last night," Peyton admitted quietly. Brooke's mouth fell open in shock and she waited for Peyton to explain. "He was jealous about Jason and then he just... He kissed me."
"What about Lindsay?" Brooke questioned sadly.
Peyton shrugged her shoulders. "I'm not sure what he was thinking," she sighed.
Brooke sat up and shook her head. She knew what she was about to do was going to hurt but she had to say it before her friend did.
"He's thinking that you're Peyton Sawyer, the girl he's been in love with forever and now you're back in his life, permanently. He's thinking that you're all he's ever wanted."
Peyton looked down at her friend a small smile on her lips. "Are you sure?" Peyton asked.
"Just promise me something okay?" Brooke asked, taking a peek at the photo of the five of them. Peyton nodded her head and Brooke laid her head back down on the pillow. "This time when he goes to purpose, do us all the favor and just say yes."
Tree Hill, 2007
Brooke entered Peyton's room and Peyton looked up at her. "Where'd you sleep?" She asked, turning her attention back to the computer.
"In my car," Brooke said as she tossed the bag onto Peyton's bed. "You see I had this horrible dream last night where my best friend told me she had feelings for my boyfriend. Only it wasn't a dream was it?"
"Brooke..."
Peyton stood up and turned around, not knowing what to say to her friend. Brooke grabbed a bag out of the closest and moved toward the bed. "Why now Peyton? Why would you tell me you had feelings for my boyfriend now when I have so much going on in my life, stuff that you don't even know about!"
"Well so do I," Peyton let out. She threw her hands up into the air and shook her head. "But trust me, okay? I didn't wish for this okay? I wished for Jake."
"Right, you wished for Jake. After you wished for Pete and then Lucas..."
Brooke held back a laugh at the irony of the situation, Peyton having had many relationships but Brooke's heart only belonging to one boy. "I can not believe this is happening again."
Peyton shook her head. "It's not, okay? It's not. Okay it's just the last time..." Peyton tried her best to explain but was cut off by a furious Brooke.
"The last time? Do you hear yourself right now? The last time you tried to steal my boyfriend," Brooke yelled. She pointed towards the door with his name on it and walked towards it.
"He's on the door Peyton." She slammed her hand against it and continued, "he's on the damn door under me!"
Peyton shook her head as the tears fell from her eyes. "I don't want to steal him okay?" She cried.
"But you like him," Brooke reminded her.
She waited for Peyton to say something, anything that would let her realize that her biggest fear was not coming true. "Brooke I am not going to do anything about it okay? I'll just bury it."
"You can't," Brooke said angrily. "It's out, it's like the time capsule. And you could have buried it and not said anything to me so what is that about?"
Peyton sighed. "I don't know, alright? I just wanted to be honest with you."
Brooke smiled at this, honesty was never something that Peyton had been good at. "I didn't want to make the same mistake that I did last time. You even said last night at Tric that you didn't even miss him."
Anger raged inside of Brooke as she brought her hand up and slapped it across Peyton's face. "Don't you dare," Brooke yelled as she pointed at Peyton. "Twist my words around to make yourself feel like you are not a backstabbing two faced bitch Peyton because you are."
She took a step back and looked at the girl she used to call her best friend.
"And you know it."
Brooke grabbed the things she had managed to gather and walked out of Peyton's bedroom not even bothering to notice the look on Peyton's face.
Tree Hill, 2011
"Hey Haley, what are you doing here?" Peyton said as she looked up from her desk. Haley entered the office and shut the door behind her, making her way across the room. "Is everything okay with Jamie and Nathan?"
Haley looked down at the floor nervously. "This isn't easy for me," Haley said as she stared at her friend. "I haven't even told Brooke yet."
"What are you talking about?" Peyton laughed, looking up from the computer.
Haley took a deep breath before looking up at her friend. "Lucas purposed to Lindsay last night," Haley admitted sadly. "He's expecting us to throw some sort of party at our house for him this weekend."
"What?" Peyton laughed. "How is that even possible, we were with them until like twelve."
Haley nodded her head and opened up her phone. She clicked on the picture message and showed Peyton. "Lindsay sent me the picture this morning," she explained.
Peyton stood up and shook her head. "I can't believe this is happening..."
He had just kissed her last night, how was it possible that he purposed to Lindsay just moments after? She laughed, refusing to believe what Haley was saying. "Lucas kissed me last night."
"Peyton I'm sorry to spring this on you," Haley said sadly.
The blonde looked down at the floor and sighed. "I need to talk to him," she said finally as she reached for her coat and headed out the door.
Tree Hill, 2007
Lucas clapped his hands together as he entered Peyton's bedroom. "Now this is more like it," he said with a smile. Peyton turned around to face him and smiled. "Listen I just wanted to say I'm sorry that we didn't get to spend more time together."
"How did it go with Brooke?" Peyton asked.
Lucas stared at the beautiful girl in front of him and smiled slightly. "I realized tonight that it's over between me and Brooke," he admitted. He had been so careless with her heart that by the time he realized he was losing her, she was already gone.
"She realized it too," Lucas added.
Peyton's smile fell as she stood in front of the boy she had loved from a distance for so long. "I love you Lucas," Peyton admitted out loud.
He smiled at her. "I love you too Peyton."
"You don't understand," she smiled. "I've been holding this in for a really long time. So I just... wanted you to know. I love you," she repeated. "I'm in love with you."
The smile on his face fell as he stared down at her, the confession felt as if it was coming out of nowhere. "Oh..." He struggled with what to say.
Tree Hill, 2011
Peyton banged on his house door, waiting frantically for him to open. She couldn't shake the anger that she was feeling and even though she knew she had no place stopping by, she knew she had to say something. Lucas was about to make one of the biggest mistakes of his life, she couldn't let him do that.
Lucas opened the door and stared at her.
"Peyton, what are you doing here?"
He opened the screen door and walked out onto the porch.
"What the hell are you doing Lucas?" She finally managed to say. He looked at her in confusion as she continued. "You kissed me last night, a kiss that mind you was incredible and then you go and purpose to Lindsay?"
Lucas shook his head as he pushed past her and sat down on the steps.
"When I purposed to Lindsay, it had nothing to do with you."
"Then what is it Luke?" Peyton asked, she sat down beside her ex and turned to him. "Because that kiss was real and it confirmed every thought that I've been having, every dream that I always thought were too far out of our grasp."
Lucas glanced down at the steps and groaned.
Broody & Cheery.
The nick names were in plain sight, as he supposed were his feelings but people were just too blind to really pay attention. He looked up at Peyton and smiled sadly. "I know that the timing is off," Lucas went to explain.
"You can't marry her," Peyton said finally. "Please Lucas, I am begging you here. This is a mistake."
He shook his head as he stood up and sighed.
"You should go."
Peyton nodded her head as she stood up, her eyes still staring at the step in front of her. The names were staring back at her and she wondered quietly to herself why she had never seen them before. Her eyes darted up to Lucas in confusion.
"I understand Peyton," he said taking her away from thoughts of Brooke.
"Just so you know...I do understand what you're saying."
Tree Hill, 2007
"Open up Peyton!" Brooke said as she slammed her hand against Peyton's front door.
The door opened and Peyton stood, a smirk on her face. "Or what? You'll huff and you'll puff?"
"Yes pig," Brooke barked. "Chase broke up with me are you happy now?" She questioned.
Peyton smiled. "I don't know did you tape it?"
"The thing with Nathan and I happened a long time ago and you guys were broken up," Brooke said as she turned around.
Peyton followed after her. "Well in case you don't remember Nathan and I broke up all the time."
Brooke turned around and started to laugh. "Really? How could I forget that's all your relationship ever was Peyton, just a string of miserable one night stands strung together."
"Now you're describing your relationship with every guy in Tree Hill."
Peyton turned around and began to walk up the side walk as Brooke followed after her.
"It was one time and it meant nothing," Brooke yelled.
Peyton turned around to look at her, shaking her head in disgust. "Well it means something to Chase and it meant something to me."
Brooke walked up to her. "You know what meant something to me, Peyton? You and Lucas having an ongoing affair behind my back, because PS we weren't broken up either time that you went after him!"
Peyton threw her hands up in defeat. "See, I was stupid because I thought I ruined our friendship. When you ruined it a long time ago," she said as she slammed her house door shut.
Tree Hill, 2011
It had been a long day for Brooke, who decided that she wanted to spend the evening soaking in her tub. After grabbing a glass of red wine from the kitchen, Brooke made her way towards her bathroom. She laid out clean towels and her robe as she waited for the tub to fill.
There was a knock on the door and Peyton peeked her head inside. "Can I talk to you for a minute?" Peyton said as Brooke took a seat on the base of the tub. She nodded her head and Peyton shut the bathroom door. "Have you been drinking?" Brooke asked with a laugh as she took a sip of her own wine.
"Yeah," Peyton mumbled as she leaned against the bathroom counter and shook her head. "Which we know isn't a smart thing," she added.
Brooke smiled at her friend as she reached for her hand. "What happened today?" Brooke asked.
"Lucas."
Brooke looked towards the floor, trying her hardest not to show how his name really effected her. She wondered quietly if there was a chance that for just one of their conversations for his name not to be mentioned. "What happened?" Brooke questioned, after deciding it was the right thing to do.
"I don't think you want to know," Peyton laughed. Brooke rolled her eyes and waited for Peyton to continue. "He purposed to Lindsay."
Brooke couldn't believe what she was hearing. In an effort to comfort herself and Peyton, she went to stand but accidentally dropped the wine glass. Both Peyton and Brooke stared as it hit the tile, breaking into pieces in front of their eyes.
The room fell silent as both girls bent over to pick up the remains of the wine glass. "Brooke," Peyton said as the brunette looked up at her. There were tears in both of their eyes as she waited for Peyton to continue. "I never thought it would end like this..." Peyton admitted.
"How'd you picture it Peyton?"
She leaned her back against the cabinets and put her head in her hands. "I guess I never really thought about it. Lucas and I never planned our life together." Her voice was just above a whisper as she continued. "And then I remembered something, I had forced myself to forget."
"What's that?" Brooke said as she stood up.
Peyton looked up at her friend and smiled sadly. "I remembered a conversation that Lucas and I had, back when the two of you were dating. Lucas told me he didn't care what college he went to, as long as you were with him. He said that he would have followed you to New York if you wanted."
"That was a long time ago Peyton," Brooke reminded her friend. So much had gone wrong since then, both Peyton and Brooke were fully aware.
Peyton nodded her head and she smiled sadly. "He let me go to California," she explained. "I wanted him to ask me to stay but he told me to go."
"He knew you needed to go."
Peyton looked to the floor at the broken glass. "I'm sorry Brooke," Peyton whispered. She looked up at her friend, who didn't understand what she was trying to say. "I loved him so much that I didn't care who I hurt in the process. Even if it was my best friend."
"Peyt, that's behind us now!" Brooke said as she bent over so that she was eye level to her friend. "Whatever happened back then, happened. We've both done things that we're not proud of. We can't live in the past, we have to think about the future."
Peyton nodded her head. "That's what I'm trying to do."
"Good," Brooke said with a smile.
Peyton watched as Brooke stood up and she cleared her throat. "I don't think you understand Brooke," Peyton said honestly.
"I'm going to fight for him."
Tree Hill, 2007
"Brooke, do you have a second?"
She turned around from the group of guys that she was trying desperately to pretend to be interested in. "It kinda feels like deja vu," Brooke said with a slight smile.
"Not really," Lucas replied coldly. He looked at the guys she was standing with and then back towards her. "You told me to fight for you and I did. But you never fought for me."
His eyes found hers and in that moment, Brooke realized that he had given up. It saddened her but she knew it was the only way to save her heart.
"And I'm not going to," she said finally.
He glanced down at her, the words his biggest fear. He nodded his head in understanding and with a deep breathe he continued. "Well then I guess I was wrong," he said sadly. "I'm not the guy for you Brooke Davis. She's all yours."
Tree Hill, 2011
"I thought I'd find you here."
Skills made his way towards Lucas and brought his friend into a hug. "I guess congratulations are in order," he said with a laugh. Lucas didn't say anything as he continued to dribble the ball across the court, a place where he had always found comfort.
"What's going on man?"
Lucas threw the ball towards the net and watched as he missed such an easy shot. He looked at his his friend and groaned. "I never miss that shot," he said angrily. Skills tossed him the ball and Lucas tried again, once again missing it. "Damn it!" He cursed.
"Luke," Skills said with a laugh. "Are you sure this is about the game?"
Lucas shook his head no as he watched the ball hit the rim but bounce off. "I'm confused," he admitted. Was Peyton right? Was marrying Lindsay a mistake that he was going to regret?
"Don't be dawg," Skills said as he grabbed a hold of the ball and tossed it into the hoop. "You have nothing to worry about cause you always follow your heart."
Lucas laughed to himself, not really believing what Skills was saying. He couldn't remember the last time that he had listened to his heart, let alone acted on it. But still as he stared at the ball in his hands, he couldn't help but believe Skills words. Maybe he would be able to follow his heart, to wherever it would lead.
Tree Hill, 2007
"I guess we never finished that conversation," Lucas said as he leaned against the table where Brooke stood. He smiled down at her, the beautiful girl that he had been lucky enough to call his girlfriend.
Brooke smiled. "Dance with me?"
She took a hold of his hand and walked towards the dance floor, her head finding comfort against the beating of his heart. "Did you miss me while you were away?" She questioned as she looked up at him.
"Everyday."
He smiled down at her, not knowing how to explain what he truly felt. "I was just angry and upset about Kieth that I just needed to be alone but that doesn't mean that I didn't miss you Brooke. Because I did."
"I needed to hear your voice," she admitted. "There's just so much stuff going on with me..."
Lucas looked down at her and saw the pain in her eyes. "What kind of stuff?" He questioned, wanting nothing more than to take it all away for her.
Brooke saw the love in his eyes as she stared up at him and she leaned up to kiss him. It wasn't a kiss that meant she forgave him or even just a simple kiss that didn't mean anything other than I love you. To her, it was a kiss goodbye, a way of letting Lucas go.
She wasn't ready to pull away from him yet, to end their relationship. Brooke placed her head against his heart once more and shut her eyes, in effort to pretend that their love could last a lifetime.
Tree Hill, 2011
As Brooke pulled up in front of Lucas' house, she couldn't help but wonder what she was doing here. She wasn't like Peyton, she couldn't confess her feelings for Lucas because he was going to marry Lindsay. His heart meant more to Brooke than that, she realized as she stared down at the gift bag next to her.
Brooke pulled the bag off the seat and opened the car door, taking only a few seconds to get to his door. She lifted her hand to knock on the door but she couldn't do it. Knocking on the door and giving Lucas the gift would mean that she accepted that he had found someone else.
Not just Peyton but someone else.
Someone whom she hadn't let him go for.
"Damn it," Brooke said angrily as she knocked on the door. She waited for a moment and was about to turn away when the door opened slightly.
Lindsay opened the screen door and walked out onto the porch. "Brooke," she smiled warmly. "What are you doing here?" She laughed.
Lindsay was beautiful, Brooke took note. It wasn't something that she hadn't noticed before but today was an exception. Lindsay was glowing and Brooke knew it was because of Lucas, she had seen it before in not only herself but with Peyton as well.
Brooke looked down at the gift in her hands and then smiled slightly. "I stopped by to say congratulations," she said as she handed Lindsay the bag.
Lindsay looked down at the present and then to Brooke. "You didn't have to..." Lindsay said honestly. She smiled slightly and then looked up at Brooke. "Thank you."
"It's my pleasure," Brooke admitted. She hesitated for a moment and then laughed. "I don't have a close family, you've seen how my mom and I relate..." Brooke looked at Lindsay before she continued.
"What I'm trying to say is Peyton, Nathan, Haley, Lucas... They're my family. And I know that this is hard for you."
Lindsay laughed but nodded her head in agreement.
"But if you love Lucas than," Brooke paused. "I guess what I am trying to say is welcome to the family."
Lindsay leaned against the banister and stared at the girl in front of her, the one that she knew on some level still loved Lucas. But Brooke was genuine, maybe it was the tone of her voice or the glint in her eyes... Whatever it was, Lindsay knew that it had been hard for Brooke to show up and congratulate her.
"Thank you," Lindsay said.
Brooke smiled fully and pointed towards her car. "I have to get back to the boutique but if you need anything, let me know." She waved goodbye and made her way down the side walk and toward her car.
TBC...
Okay ladies, what are you thinking? You hating me yet? Because honestly even with the Lindsay/Lucas engaged thing everyone knows that it is going to lead to Leyton... Or will it:-)