Chapter 10

Growing Feelings/Old Reminders

A warning on this Chapter the Scott POV dream is kinda rough. There is also a part where Scott thinks about Sophie in a sexual way. A note on this subject, guys who are molested tend to seek control, Scott attraction to Sophie is a reaction to his abuse.

This is a short chapter but didn't fit with the next one. Feel free to let me know what you think.

Scott made it back to Horizon the next day and spent two days in the school's infirmary. Sophie visited him regularly as did Peter, Roger and the rest of the Cliffhangers. As much as he didn't want to be, apart of the group, it was nice feeling connected to something again. Shelby was the only one who made him feel uncomfortable, her seductive glances and conversations with double meanings made his skin crawl. If she had dark hair and eyes, she'd be a younger version on Elaine, not that her actions didn't make her seem that way to him. Aside for his dislike of Shelby, it was nice having visitors, but it was Sophie he yearned most to see. Each visit by her strengthened his resolve to know her better.

Not long after Scott's return to Horizon, the Cliffhangers left for a three-day hike. Scott found himself alone in the Cliffhanger dorm just after nightfall. Roger volunteered to stay in the dorm with him but Scott declined stating he enjoyed the peace and quiet, besides Peter's consequences for his action in Sophie's classroom was an essay on how feelings aren't wrong just the actions resulting from them that can be, plus journal writing until farther notice by Peter. Each would keep him busy while the Cliffhangers hiked. Roger nodded to him and left Scott alone. For a while, Scott wrote on the essay but soon tired and fell asleep on his bunk.

The creaking of a door opening as a shadowed figure of a woman stood at the entrance to the room.

"Scotty are you awake?" Asked Elaine in a whisper.

"NO," I replied hoping in vain Elaine would leave me alone.

"Scotty, you don't mean that," Elaine added knowing she would win. She always did where I was concerned. Nearing my bed, she watched me bury my face in the pillow.

"You said no more," I pleaded.

" Scotty, you know you want me." Elaine said pulling the cover back and running her fingers down my back. My body was already betraying me just with this simple act.

"No I don't." I replied wishing I could disappear. Elaine had a way of wearing down my resolve, tonight I knew would be no exception.

"Oh your lips say no but your body always says yes" Elaine seductively said while reaching for the fold on my right leg just below the hip bone, rubbing her fingers in the fold knowing it was a ticklish spot on me.

I turned slightly trying to break her contact, which gave her enough access to reach my balls and give them a squeeze.

"Damn, Elaine stop it. You're hurting me." Tears beaded in the corners of my eyes as pain shot from between my legs.

"Scotty, you know I play nice when you do as I ask. Now roll over or I squeeze harder." Elaine said firmly.

Complying I turned over giving her access to my body. She released my balls and removed my boxers. I felt her kiss my lips, her hand on member. Everything became surreal as though this were happening to someone else. She continued to kiss my lips…

Suddenly awaken by a noise outside, Scott jetted up in his bed, sweat beaded on his forehead, he tried to calm himself, thankful he hadn't "cum" in his boxers this time. He ran his long fingers through his hair, knitting them behind his neck in an effort to relax himself. Looking over towards the door, he heard it open and footsteps coming towards him.

"Scott, you alright?" Roger asked. He was concerned hearing Scott cry out. He walked over to Scott's bed and sat on the empty one next to it. Although it was dark, Roger could see fear in the boy face.

"Yeah," replied Scott, unsure what to reveal to Roger.

"I came to check on you and heard you cry out. I just wanted to be sure you were alright here by yourself." Roger stated hoping Scott would open up.

"I had a nightmare is all," Scott tried hard to sound casual but was sure Roger could tell he was upset.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Roger hoped he'd built enough trust with Scott that he'd reveal what was bothering him.

You're kidding, I don't want to talk about it to you or anyone was what Scott wanted to say. Nevertheless, he chose his word carefully and responded. "No I don't want to talk. Roger I'm tired and my heads starting to hurt ok?"

"Alright, Scott but if you ever want to talk I'm available." Roger answered, disappointed Scott still didn't trust him but hoping in time, he would trust someone with the truth. Whatever Scott demon, one thing was for sure; it took all his energy to keep it inside.

Roger got up and walked towards the door, opened it and left Scott alone once more.

Throbbing temples didn't help as his headache mounted. He tried focusing on something other than his nightmares of Elaine and he found his thoughts drifting to Sophie

"Why couldn't I dream about her?" Scott said aloud while throwing his pillow across the dorm room.

How much better he'd sleep if he dreamt of making love to Sophie rather then the nightmares of Elaine and him having sex. Getting up he walked the width of the dorm retrieved his pillow then walked back to his bunk laid down.