A/N: I think this title is actually just 'When You're gone' but oh well. haha. This chapter is something slightly better than what the last two have been :3 Not to mention, you guys are awesome! 200 reviews for only nine chapters!!! thanksomuch!!

Little story for you! My friend, foreverinlove17, and I were talking and she showed me this REALLY great song and no matter WHAT we couldn't find it ANYWHERE to download. We both said that as soon as we'd get it we'd both write. So we never got it. And we got really sad. And I've downloaded like, everything in limewire looking for it. Soooo we're writing anyway haha. But, its depressing :P

This title is by The Cranberries

Chapter Ten: I Miss You When You're Gone

I wiped my eyes again, without any need to. I shut the window against the cold blackness of the night sky. How long had I been here now? Too long. I was cold and shivering. I felt yucky from crying and thinking too much. I listened at the door. Edward was still there. I felt my lips twitching a little, knowing he was waiting. He must have meant what he said. I pulled off my clothes as I went into the bathroom, throwing them into a laundry hamper and climbing into the warm shower.

Once I was there I began to daydream again. I made no move to actually clean myself. I stared at the pretty blue and green tiles, trying to form patterns with them. There really was no rhyme or reason to it, so it didn't matter anyway. Eventually my mind wandered again. I thought about everything that had happened. I couldn't really hate Edward for what he had done. Everything he told me made sense to me now. If he couldn't control himself and didn't remember than who was I to blame him? I had forgotten all of my memories, too. He had stayed away from me at the start to protect me. I smiled a little again.

It still hurt though. A part in my chest ached. I had been terrified for years. I never knew anyone, never had anyone to help, for eighty years I have been alone. This life was forced on me. It was a complete accident. I should have been dead long ago. I decided to dump some of the shampoo on my head. I worked it in furiously, lathering up my entire head until I was sure I looked like some mad scientist. I stood directly under the water, letting it all flow over me. I stared at my hair as it formed a silky curtain around me, miraculously keeping the soap and water from coming into my eyes. Maybe I had overreacted a little? It was understandable, I thought. After what I had gone through. I have a natural fear of what I am.

But the truth was, I just loved him so much. I stepped out of the shower and wrapped myself up. I went into my room and pulled on a pair of jeans and a sily red shirt. I rubbed my hair with the towel and let it dry by itself. I stared at the door. He was out there, waiting for me. The idea of someone waiting for me like that was so thrilling. It had never happened before... as a vampire, at least. Lots of men had told me they wanted me, but no one had said 'I want you and you alone.' It was something exciting and I wanted to have it so badly. I bit my lip nervously, my eyes fell on the door again.

If I opened it, would he be willing to have me back like he seemed to want before. If I opened the door, would he hold me and tell me it was okay? Would he promise to never ever let me go? Because I wasn't going to let him. After what we had. We were meant to be together.

I knew for sure, I was sick of being without him. I wanted him and all of him, right now. I missed him too much. I found it shocking that he had such a strong presence in my mind. Whenever I tried to think of what had happened Edward's face appeared. How beautiful it was, how close, how his lips felt against mine. There was a sick feeling in my stomach. This must be what it feels like to be without something you want so badly. Like starving. I felt empty, and it hurt.

But, I love him, don't I? That should be enough. That is enough to get us through anything that life throws at us. Any twists or turns, forks in the road. Any obstacle that blocked me from him, I would overcome. If it came between me and him, it wouldn't be there long. Knowing that this was what I was like without him, and that he was going to be out there for me no matter what, was exactly what I wanted. Exactly what I needed.

He had made a mistake, one I thought I could never forgive. When I had never known who had done this to me, I hated him. With all my heart, I hated him. I had learned to accept the cards I was dealt, living this life happily. Now I knew why I was here, and who had done it. And I loved him. So much. I missed him too much to do this anymore.

I stood up and took in a deep breath. I stared at the door. I reached for the golden handle, knowing that my future and forever was waiting on the other side.

A/N: snap! aw i ended it. how sad. :D But, this marks the beginng of longer chapters as well! isn't it strange how something always marks the beginning of something else... OO haha oh dear. So the next chapter I am looking forward to :) I haven't got a song in mind yet though. It will probably be a while until its up. I have a lot of homework. I probably just lied too. I am too much of a slacker to write a speech in french and read an entire book. pffftt!!!

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