Okay just wanted to say thanks for all the reviews they make me feel all warm and fuzzy lol. And with regards to the last chapter I just want to say I actually do like the twilight novels I just didn't think Naomi would be a fan, I'm just more of a Jacob fan(werewolves for life lol) because Edward really does creep me out. But anyways enough rambling, I hope you enjoy even though its a bit sad, keep reviewing :)

Chapter 10

Emily arrived at school on time for once, as she didn't spend the night at Naomi's. She loved staying at her girlfriends but it had a tendency to make them both late as neither one ever wanted to move out of the others embrace, and Naomi would usually suggest they shower together to save time when she knew full well that showering together would only serve to make them more late. But this morning Emily had a chance to walk leisurely to College rather than running in like her and Naomi so often did. Opening her locker she tossed her books inside before her eyes caught sight of the small folded piece of paper hanging in front of her. Reaching her hand up she pulled it down quickly unfolding it and reading the poem written inside. This was the forth one this week she had found one each day since Monday, they were never signed but she assumed they must have been from Naomi. Who else did she know that would quote Shakespeare and Keats so beautifully that it made her knees feel weak? It did seem a bit odd of a gesture for Naomi who never seemed sentimental but Emily wouldn't complain and besides Naomi had seemed to be exuding a softer side as of late and Emily assumed this was a symptom of that.

"Whatcha got there?" Emily heard being whispered in her ear as two arms snaked around her waist pulling her in to a tight embrace.

"Why don't you tell me," Emily said with a smile feeling Naomi nuzzling against her neck.

"How would I know?" Naomi whispered in her ear.

"Don't be modest," Emily said turning in Naomi's arms and pulling her close whispering," They were beautiful," before kissing her.

"Not that I'm complaining, but I honestly have no idea what you're talking about Em," Naomi said.

"You've been leaving me notes in my locker little poems," Emily insisted.

"I haven't been leaving you any notes Em," Naomi replied," I mean I wish I had but its not me."

Emily was confused she was sure it was Naomi and she was still waiting for Naomi to drop the charade and admit that it was her after all.

"Are you sure, I mean they quote Shakespeare and I don't know anyone else who reads him, and I mean who else would leave me a love note?" Emily said.

Naomi shook her head again, she really hadn't been leaving Emily any notes but she had an idea of whom it might have been. Someone who was studying Shakespeare right now in English lecture and who would have known Emily was a sucker for that type of attention.

"I can think of someone," Naomi said with a scowl.

"Christ Naomi don't start please," Emily sighed dropping her hands from around Naomi's neck.

"What it's the obvious place to go Emily," Naomi insisted.

"How many times do I have to tell you that Lucas has no interest in me that he's happy with Katie!" Emily exclaimed.

"Well who else would be leaving them?"

"I don't know I just know its not him okay, he's terrible at English I've seen him try to decipher Shakespeare and quite frankly he's shit at it so there's no way this could be him," Emily explained.

"Whatever you say Em," Naomi said.

"Look I have to go," Emily muttered grabbing the books she needed from her locker.

"Em I'm sorry okay I just don't like that someone else was leaving you these poems or whatever, I mean that's meant to be my job yeah?" Naomi said," I don't want to leave things like this."

Naomi was looking at her sincerely her blue eyes boring holes through her own and Emily was powerless to refuse not to mention she was a little weirded out that someone else was leaving her these notes as well they didn't seem as nice now that she knew they weren't coming from Naomi.

"Me either," Emily smiled as she grabbed the note and tossed it into the rubbish bin," They don't matter anyways."

"Good," Naomi pulled her close again giving her another kiss," I'll see you later then."

"Bye," Emily said returning Naomi's wave as she walked around the corner.

Naomi stood still for a moment calming the thoughts in her head that were willing her to go hunt down Lucas and settle this once and for all. She was brought out of her musings by Effy who had unknowingly found her way in front of Naomi and was waving a hand in front of her face.

"Hello in there," Effy finally gained Naomi's attention.

"Oh hi Ef, sorry I'm a bit distracted," Naomi admitted.

"About what?" Effy asked

Naomi chewed on her bottom lip pondering the question a moment.

"Someone's been leaving Emily love notes in her locker," Naomi answered," I just have a bad feeling for some reason."

"You think its him?" Effy wondered out loud.

"Who else would it be?" Naomi replied.

"I suppose, Naomi I honestly wouldn't think anything of it Emily isn't naïve enough to be blinded by some stupid notes or whatever and she loves you," Effy pointed out.

"I know, I just have this weird feeling that keeps lingering," Naomi confessed," But what the fuck lets just forget about it yeah."

"Yeah," Effy agreed," Lets go Christ knows we can't be late for another riveting lecture,"

Naomi nodded and followed Effy down the hall towards their classroom trying to forget about the new turn of events from this morning. She threw herself down in her seat attempting to get lost in the lecture and take her mind off of things but it didn't seem to be working. The worst thing was she was in a lose lose situation, if she went to Lucas and kicked up a fuss over this he would win because Emily was obviously growing tired of the possessive routine, but if she didn't say anything he still wins because he's getting one step closer to Emily. The thought of ever losing Emily scared the living crap out of Naomi, the idea of needing someone was so foreign to her and now that she allowed herself to need the red head she hadn't the slightest clue what she would do if Emily ever left her. It would be as if a vital part of her was missing, the best part of her because there was no denying it as she had said it before when she is with Emily she feels like a better person.

Effy was staring a Naomi intently, it was as if she could see the wheels turning in the blonde's head and it didn't take a genius to figure out that it wasn't the lecture that was sending her mind into over drive. She hated seeing Naomi like this, she had watched Naomi and Emily skirt around each other all of last year and she didn't want things to go back to that. It made her think of Freddie though most things do, she thought of how painful it was to watch him with Katie flaunting his relationship right in front of her and she wouldn't wish it on anyone especially not Naomi, it was definitely time she stepped in and did something here.

By the time lunch rolled around Naomi had generated quite a headache from all her thinking. Her mood lightened incredibly however when she received a text from Emily asking her if she wanted to meet her outside for the period. Rapidly opening her phone Naomi's fingers moved at super human speed typing a reply and accepting Emily's offer telling her she would be waiting on the front lawn for her. Weaving her way through the crowd of students in the halls Naomi finally made it to the front doors only to look outside and see Emily already there waiting for her. Naomi walked up behind her and placed her hand over Emily's eyes ghosting a kiss on her cheek after whispering, "guess who?"

"Hmmm," Emily hummed contentedly," Tall blonde and beautiful I'm assuming?"

"Well flattery will get you everywhere," Naomi chuckled feeling a smile tug on the corners of her lips for the first time since the morning.

Emily took Naomi's hand from over her eyes and brought it to her lips kissing it quickly before dropping their twined hands to her side.

"I was thinking under the tree over there? The sun is fucking hot," Emily pointed across the lawn

"Sure," Naomi agreed allowing Emily to tug on her hand and pull her in the direction of their destination.

Before long they were settled in, Naomi lying with her head in Emily's lap doing her best to not wince from the throbbing she felt in her head. It was no use however as Emily was now looking at her with a look of concern as she absentmindedly ran her hands through Naomi's hair.

"Nai what's wrong?" Emily asked

"Nothing," Naomi said," I just have a headache is all nothing to worry about," She added when Emily shot her an unconvinced look.

"You're sure that's all it is?" Emily pushed.

Naomi thought about spilling everything for a minute, she thought about taking Emily on a little walk through her neurosis from the past couple hours but decided against it. There was no need of ruining a perfectly good lunch so she rolled so she was on her back looking up at Emily.

"Ya I'm probably just tired I don't sleep well without you beside me," Naomi conjured up

"Likewise," Emily replied, the pad of her thumb tracing over Naomi's forehead as if she was trying to heal her headache with her touch, and maybe it was working a little because Naomi's eyes involuntarily fluttered shut her face forming a relaxed smile.

"Its not going to work you know," Effy spoke cryptically walking up behind the blonde boy who was staring out the window.

"Sorry?" Lucas said turning around.

"Whatever you're trying to pull its not going to work," Effy reiterated

"What the fuck are you on about?" Lucas said his eyes squinted as he tried to read Effys steely gaze.

"Its going to take more than a few comments here and there and a little poetry to break that up," Effy pointed out the window to the spot Lucas's eyes were glued to only a few seconds ago.

He reflexively turned and gazed out the window again seeing Emily happily running her hand through Naomi's hair as the blonde laid on her lap, Emily's free hand gripping Naomi's and resting on the blondes stomach. It made bile vise up in his throat, they were just so openly affectionate and it was becoming blaringly obvious that he was making little headway in his quest. If it was possible his hatred for Naomi grew ten fold at that moment, he didn't understand what Emily saw in her she wasn't anything special what so ever that he could see.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Lucas said after finally tearing his eyes away from the seemingly happy couple.

"Your shit doesn't work on me," Effy said with a smile," I just thought I would let you know how pathetic your efforts are in hopes that you'll just gracefully bow out already."

Lucas looked at her dumbfounded, there was something about Effy that he couldn't understand and he didn't like the way her gaze lingered as if she was able to read his mind or something though her face always remained cold no emotion present.

"What kind of drugs are you on?" Lucas spat

"Just take my advice Lucas," Effy said with a smile," Maybe pay attention to your girlfriend rather than fantasizing about her sister."

Lucas was going to retort but he never got the chance because Effy walked away as soon as the comment had left her lips. Sure he could go find Katie, get a fix to take his mind off of things or maybe just try and forget about Emily and try to be happy with Katie. But he had come to far now to just give up and turn around, he had never lost a battle in his life and he wasn't about to start now. But Effy was right; his attempts had made only a small dent if that, if he was going to make any progress he knew he was going to have to step up his game and take some more drastic measures. Seeing Katie walking his way he quickly jumped back into boyfriend mode enveloping her into a big hug with a kiss to the top of her head.

"I don't want to go back in," Naomi said with a smile, her eyes still closed.

"Me either," Emily sighed," Is your head feeling any better?"

Naomi nodded before sitting up off of Emily's lap smiling at the pouty look that had taken over her girlfriends face.

"We should get back in there or we'll be late, one of the unfortunate parts of having Kieran as a teacher and almost step dad he knows when I'm skipping," Naomi sighed.

"True enough," Emily agreed accepting Naomi's hand to help her up keeping it in her own as they walked back towards inside.

Once inside Naomi stepped in front of Emily halting her and taking her other hand holding both of them tightly.

"So i'll see you after school then?" Naomi asked.

"Of course," Emily replied instantly," Meet you at your locker?"

"Sounds perfect," Naomi bent down capturing Emily's lips her hands leaving Emily's to reach up and cup her face.

The kiss felt different to Emily, it was desperate almost as if Naomi was kissing her for the last time and wanted to make in memorable. She just went with it though, her hands gripping Naomi's hips hard pulling her closer. Emily could sense Naomi was in an off mood and she would never complain about Naomi kissing her like this as it was pretty much heart stopping. When oxygen was needed Naomi finally pulled away gazing lovingly into Emily's eyes her finger tracing her lips softly.

"Wow," Emily said breathlessly making Naomi smile.

She bent in giving Emily one last peck.

"I'll see you after," Naomi said before heading towards her classroom.

The afternoon went torturously slow for Emily. She sat in class next to Katie as usual but didn't pay attention to her she was to busy running her last kiss with Naomi through her head. Something about it was unsettling her making her feel anxious to get out of this room and find her girlfriend. She was so lost in thought that she didn't even hear the teacher dismiss them, it took Katie smacking her on the arm and muttering a profanity to make her realize she was free to leave the room. She followed Katie out of the classroom and said goodbye after Katie informed her that she was meeting up with Effy and Pandora to go shopping which struck Emily as a little strange since Effy really wasn't big into shopping and Katie was still awkward around the brunette, she supposed this was both of their ways of making an effort with a compromise. Emily joined the crowd of rowdy students all excited to get out of this building for the night no doubt. She had one more corner to make it around before she reached where Naomi would be waiting but all of a sudden she felt a hand grab her by the arm and drag her forcefully inside a classroom.

It all happened so fast in a flurry that Emily barely had time to respond. She was pushed into the wall beside the door and a pair of unfamiliar lips were pressed somewhat roughly against her own. The large hands were now on her back lowering to rest on her arse as a masculine body pressed into her. She started reacting, trying to pull her face away from the over eager boy who she discovered to be Lucas when she opened her eyes. This only fueled her anger as she began pushing against his chest eventually causing him to take a step back and look at her confused.

"What the fuck," Emily tried her best not to scream

"Emily?" Lucas said," Fuck i'm sorry I thought you were Katie."

"What?" Emily said still a little out of breath from fighting him off.

He took another step back sensing that she was feeling uncomfortable with the closeness of their bodies.

"Fuck I saw red hair and she was wearing this shirt last week so I just assumed it was her," he said convincingly

Emily looked down at her shirt realizing it was one that Katie liked to steal from time to time, she wiped her hand over her mouth itching to get the remnants of him off of her.

"Christ take a better look next time, and generally when someone starts pounding against your chest it means stop," Emily said still quite angry.

"Look i'm sorry, Katie likes it a bit rough you know," he said causing Emily to gag this was far to much information about her sister for her to be hearing right now," Look please don't tell Katie," he pleaded.

Emily couldn't help but think he must have been on some serious drugs if he thought she was going to tell anyone about this very awkward encounter especially not Katie. She would have to live in hell for how ever long it took for Katie to stop holding a grudge over it and she really didn't feel like living in a hostile territory right now, it was bad enough with her parents being standoffish Katie was the one thing keeping her sane at home. Not to mention she didn't want Naomi finding out about this, she would take it the wrong way and Emily knew no amount of explanation would convince her that it meant nothing. The blonde had been harboring not so secret fears of this happening for months now and Emily didn't want to hurt her.

"I wont tell her," Emily promised," I don't want anyone to know about this."

Lucas knew by anyone she meant Naomi and he smiled as he looked out the door and saw someone quickly skirting around the corner who had just witnessed the entire encounter, someone who would no doubt-idly tell Naomi. This was going to be easy he wasn't even going to have to lift a finger.

"Okay so we're on the same page then," he replied his cheeks flushing in what Emily took to be embarrassment.

"I wonder what Katie would be more upset about, the fact that you kissed me or the fact that I look good enough in this shirt to be mistaken as her?" Emily muttered almost to herself trying to lighten the mood.

"I'd say it would be a tie between both," Lucas agreed.

"Okay i'm going to go but nothing happened right?" Emily said making sure one last time.

"Nothing," he assured her and then watched her walk out of the room with a smile before following her out taking out his mobile to dial Katie it was time to end things with her he felt.

Emily quickly ducked into the bathroom wanting to rinse out her mouth, she shuddered thinking about how aggressive he was that was probably one of the main reasons she never felt much attraction towards men.

Naomi stood waiting at her locker, leaning against the hard metal continually looking at her watch. She heard some rustling down the hall and assumed it to be Emily so she turned to face the direction it was coming from but realized it wasn't Emily when she was literally ran into by JJ. He was nearly running, appeared to be having a bit of a fit or something but seemed to be snapped out of it when he saw that he had knocked Naomi to the ground. Taking a couple calming breaths he looked at her apologetically and offered her a hand to help her up which she accepted.

"S-sorry Naomi I should have been looking," JJ said once Naomi was on her feet again.

"Its okay," Naomi said," Are you alright Jay you seem a little flustered or something?"

"Im fine," he said a little to quickly

"Okay," Naomi replied," Well have you seen Emily, I'm supposed to be meeting her here but she's late which is unlike her."

"Tell me about it," JJ said quickly," I couldn't believe what I just s-saw."

"What you just saw? What are you talking about JJ,"

His eyes widened in shock, he had said to much again. He brought his hand up to his head as he wondered why he kept doing this to Naomi and Emily it must have seemed like he had some sort of desire to destroy their relationship.

"Fuck," he shouted.

"What did you see JJ," Naomi said now getting impatient," You owe me JJ!" she reminded him pulling the guilt card.

"W-well don't over react," Naomi's eyes squinted preparing for the worst but hoping it wasn't to bad," I was walking...and I saw Emily in a room...with Lucas," JJ fumbled.

"Studying, she was in a room studying with Lucas right," Naomi pleaded with JJ feeling a lump forming in her throat when he shook his head sadly.

"Kissing," he replied," T-they were...kissing."

Naomi felt as if her heart had just been ripped out, like Emily had taken it and stomped on it giving it back to her a mangled mess. Her stomach was tense and her head was spinning for a minute she thought she was going to faint but she leaned back against the lockers for support holding herself up but dropping her bag to the floor. JJ was standing there awkwardly not knowing how to deal with a girl having some sort of a breakdown.

"I'm sorry," he offered with a sympathetic look before walking away and escaping the situation that was making him anxious enough to be willing to pop a couple of the new pills he received earlier in the week from his doctor.

Naomi slid down the lockers pulling her knee's up to her chest as she sat on the floor. Her worst fear had come true, her jealously wasn't unfounded like Emily so often assured her and Emily had done the one thing she promised to never do, Emily had hurt her. Only a few minutes later Naomi saw Emily coming around the corner walking swiftly an apologetic look on her face and Naomi couldn't help but wonder if the look was for her being late or for the reason she was late in the first place. She tore her eye's off Emily when she felt tears brimming in them and looked straight ahead trying to get some sort of control over her emotions. She would have given anything in this moment to transform back into the old Naomi, the one who would just shake everything off with a look of indifference and just walk away, but she wasn't that person anymore and she couldn't pretend to not care.

"Hey sorry I'm late," Emily said as she stopped in front of her girlfriend.

Naomi didn't respond she just kept staring straight forward still trying to control the tears that were threatening to spill over her eyes.

"Nai what's wrong," Emily knelt down beside her placing a hand on Naomi's shoulder feeling confused when Naomi pulled away shaking her hand off.

Naomi turned and her eyes met the brown ones that were looking at her with a mixture of confusion and pain and she felt a whole new wave of tears building.

"You..." Naomi trailed off not really wanting to say it.

"What?" Emily said softly

"You kissed him," Naomi finally choked out.

Emily reeled back taken aback by Naomi knowing, it had only happened a bit ago how could she possibly know that quickly Emily wondered. She was brought out of her thoughts when she heard a sniffle and saw Naomi trying to silently wipe away the single tear that was trailing down her cheek. Emily felt the first pangs of guilt, she didn't want to see Naomi like this not alone be the cause of it.

"Its not what you think," Emily said pleading with Naomi to look at her.

"So you did, you kissed him," Naomi shook her head

"He kissed me," Emily insisted," I didn't kiss him back."

"JJ saw it differently," Naomi said still not looking at Emily.

"JJ," Emily said under her breath," I swear Naomi he kissed me and I pushed him off me JJ saw it wrong!"

"Well JJ's never lied to me before," Naomi said coldly causing Emily to recoil slightly from her comment.

"I'm not saying that he is lying I'm just saying he saw it wrong," Emily explained," And are you implying that I'm lying?"

"Wouldn't be the first time you lied about spending time with Lucas," Naomi pointed out

"I thought we had moved past that," Emily said now feeling slightly irritated.

"Well I thought we were exclusive...I guess we were both wrong," Naomi replied

Emily was a little taken back by the tone of Naomi's voice, she hadn't heard her talk like this in a long time since far before they had gotten together and she didn't know what to make of it. She looked up into Naomi's eyes and saw they were empty and sad, her face was contorted into a scowl it was obvious anger had taken over from sadness.

"What are you on about? We are exclusive," Emily insisted

"Well why are you off kissing other people then," Naomi looked Emily square in the eye as she said it feeling a little braver, a little more like the old Naomi all of a sudden.

"Naomi for fucks sake will you listen to me," Emily growled," I was walking in the hall coming to you and he grabbed me and pulled me into a room and kissed me, I pushed him off and it was over I didn't want him to kiss me."

"Well maybe now you'll listen to me when I tell you that his interest in you isn't strictly friendly," she saw Emily shaking her head," Christ what excuse are you buying now, what he tripped and fell onto your lips did he?"

"No he thought that I was Katie, he felt quite bad about it after actually," Emily replied

"For Christs sake," Naomi lifted herself up off the ground watching as Emily did the same now standing in front of her," How can you not fucking see it, I don't know if he's into you or if its all a game but he's got some interest in you!" Naomi's voice was raised now slightly, she was angry that Emily wouldn't accept that she had been right all along.

"Are you ever just going to let it go," Emily raised her voice to match Naomi's," The jealous thing it was cute at first but its getting tiring."

Naomi glared at her girlfriend, there was no way she was going to allow Emily to turn this around and make it about her, Emily was the one who had fucked up this time not her.

"So this is my fault how refreshing, Naomi fucks everything up once again right?" Naomi said

"I'm not saying that I'm just saying that I think your paranoia about Lucas is making you make this into a bigger deal than it really is," Emily attempted to regain control of her anger.

"It is a big deal," Naomi exclaimed," How would you feel if I kissed someone else huh, if someone else's hands were on me?"

Emily closed her eyes for a minute, she knew what Naomi was doing. She was trying to get a reaction out of Emily so she could feel like she had the higher ground and Emily wasn't having it.

"There is nothing that you could ever do that would make me not want to be with you," Emily said with conviction.

"Well the difference is I would never put you in this position," Naomi countered

"What do you want me to say?" Emily pleaded.

"Look I can handle him looking at you, leaving you love poems, I can handle him dancing with you at the club that time, heck I can even handle that you told him private things about me and our time together," Naomi started," But I can't fucking handle you kissing him."

"So what are you saying? You want a break?" Emily spat not backing down even when she saw the flash of hurt in Naomi's previously angry eyes," You know what maybe thats a good idea seeing as you definitely don't trust me."

Naomi looked dumbfounded, that was the last thing she expected Emily to say. She figured they would just have it out and then make up like they always did and everything would go back to normal. It took Emily a minute to think about what she had just said, taking a break was the last thing she wanted her life didn't work without Naomi and everyone could see that. She went to take it back, to say she was sorry and that she wanted to work things out but she was too late, Naomi was already speaking.

"If thats what you really want," Naomi said willing back the tears that were threatening to escape and putting on her best scowl," Fine."

And with that she picked up her bag and walked away ignoring Emily's voice that was calling out her name. She made it out of the school before she started crying thankfully as she didn't want to run the risk of seeing some one she knew and having to explain what just happened, she needed time to process it herself first.

Emily was frozen to her spot, she had tried to run after Naomi but her legs wouldn't cooperate and when the blonde didn't even flinch at her name being called Emily felt defeated. This was the last thing she wanted, she felt hollow without Naomi and the worst part was she had no one that she could talk about it with because she couldn't tell Katie the reason for the fight without pissing her off as well, she was truly alone. All at once her legs collapsed and she fell on the floor leaning against the lockers she adopted Naomi's position from earlier her legs pulled up in front of her body and her head resting on them as she made no attempt to stop the tears that were now flowing down her face.

They really had traveled back into last year, Emily was alone, scared of her sister and pining for Naomi while Naomi was building up walls and pretending she didn't care. This regression was not how either of them had hoped the day would turn out.

Pulling out her cell Emily scrolled through her contacts hovering over Naomi's name for a moment but deciding against calling her, they both needed time to cool down, instead she dialed another number.

"Hey can we meet up?" Emily said

Lucas wondered if Emily could feel him smiling through the phone because the grin on his face was enormous at this point.

"Sure," he mustered up the saddest voice he could do at the moment.

After hanging up the phone he collected his things and prepared himself for his meeting with Emily, it was time to put phase two into motion.