Disclaimer: I do not own Teen titans this is just inspiration from the much loved series. I also do not own any of the songs refrenced in this writing.

This chapter is clean but the next will not be so I hope you enjoy the innocence.

Chapter 10: Reflection Part 1

Terror.

Undeniable and inescapable terror.

That's the only thought that crossed through Beast Boy's mind as he sat on the bottom bunk of his bed with Robin and Cyborg crowded and watching a horror movie on the small screen of Cyborg's tablet.

Beast Boy's room was completely dark save for the light coming off of the tablet screen.

The boy's faces were equal looks of fear as they stared at the screen in shock and even sinking feelings of chills.

They shouldn't of watched the dumb scary movie.

When the credits rolled the boys just glanced at each other.

Beast Boy heard a faint sliding noise across his room and he held onto Robin.

"Did you hear that?!" He whispered and Robin nodded slowly as they heard it again.

"It's just the movie got us scared that's all..." Cyborg stammered.

Cyborg held his arm up defensively as the door creaked open painfully slow.

A green faced monster stood at Beast Boy's door and the three boy's screamed in terror grabbing onto each other.

"The horror!" Beast Boy cried out.

Starfire flicked on the light and winced at them with her avocado mask on and her pink pajamas.

"Have you seen Silkie around here friends? Friend Raven and I were in my room engaging in a fight of the pillows when I lost Silkie," she told them calmly as they struggled to breath normally.

"Ah! There you are!" Starfire picked up the squirming little Tamaran monster from the ground and hugged him tightly before leaving the room with a smooth door shut.

"Okay...no more scary movies...ever..." Robin told the two boys finally.

Beast Boy looked at the door, his thoughts on Raven.

He couldn't shake the strange feeling he got and it wasn't because of the movie.

Suddenly he got hit by a pillow and he landed on his dresser.

Cyborg and Robin took a pillow and got in formation by the bunk bed and grinned.

"Pillow fight. Titan style," Robin said and Beast Boy grinned grabbing his own pillow.

Oh it's on.

Raven laid on Starfire's large bed with her head hanging off the edge, her braids hitting the ground.

She watched the alien girl in an upside down vision as Silkie slid over her stomach.

"Please get your Tamaran monster off of me," Raven muttered, her face green with avocado (that Starfire forced her to put on) as Silkie crawled over her thighs now.

Starfire was painting her toenails carefully, her face still green with avocado.

There was a dark shadow that passed by the hall and both girls looked at each other in fear. Raven sat up and walked slowly over to the door, Starfire trembling behind her.

"Maybe it's the boys attempting to startle us..." Starfire whispered.

Raven stuck her head out the door and looked around the hall.

Empty.

She stuck her head back in and shut the door firmly.

"It's getting late...we should go to bed," Raven told her as her stomach sank.

Robin and Beast Boy stared at each other as they laid on the top bunk of the bed.

Awkwardly.

Cyborg had taken the whole bottom to himself and was sleeping heavily, his snoring steady and loud.

Their pillow fight had been pretty epic but now Beast Boy's room was trashed and they were worn out.

"You know...you never really talk to us about your time with Batman.." Beast Boy whispered.

Robin shrugged and turned to the ceiling, "Because there's not much to say...we fought crime together...took down the bad guys...the same thing we do together. Except...Batman and I never really were close..."

Beast Boy winced as Robin went on, "When you said you felt like I treated you as less...I remembered how I felt when I worked with Batman. He and I never were really a team. ..Just a hero...and a sidekick.."

Beast Boy never knew...Robin, his strong and smart leader had ever felt that way.

"I bet you guys never had a cool sleepover like us," Beast Boy grinned.

Robin grinned back, "No never."

Eventually they passed out but soon Beast Boy's eyes opened slowly and he winced as he looked around his dark room.

Raven had woken up.

He could feel it. Why now..?

He shifted slightly and Robin's brows furrowed. He couldn't move without waking Robin.

Robin was a light sleeper of course.

Beast Boy morphed into a fly and slipped under his door and morphed back quickly.

His heart was beating roughly and he walked down the hall steadily looking for Raven.

He was still on edge for some reason and was relieved when he found Raven standing by the large window in the hall. She had her head resting on the glass and was looking out at jump city illuminated in light, the city reflected in her violet eyes.

Beast Boy joined her and he wiped off some left over avocado on her cheek.

"Can't sleep," she told him with a sigh.

He nodded, "...hey...I'm sorry about the beast today...I didn't mean to scare you."

She shook her head, "Don't worry about that..it's okay...you always suppress him...before it gets too far..."

Beast Boy nodded, remembering their hot moment in the woods and Raven glared at him, "You know I can see what you're thinking right now right?"

He blushed, "Don't pry! I can't control my thoughts..."

"I'm not trying to pry. Your thoughts were directed towards me..." she frowned but continued to think,

"I've been trying to figure out how to make a mirror for you...but it can't just be just any mirror. It has to have importance to you...almost like a relic. For example my mirror was a gift from my mom...but then Azar altered it and made it a portal."

"I don't think I have anything like that tho-" Beast Boy was cut off by the sound of footsteps.

Raven grabbed Beast Boy's arm and she divulged them in shadows.

They waited but saw no one.

They emerged from the shadows and Beast Boy shivered, "Is it just me or did you get chills to?"

"...something is off.." she whispered back to him firmly and she motioned for him to follow her down the hall.

Beast Boy broke out in a cold sweat and he felt he was in a horror movie as they made their way to the elevator hall.

The elevator doors opened slowly and revealed a girl with long dark hair, her back turned to them.

Beast Boy felt his stomach drop to his feet, feeling his face lose some color. When he saw Raven step forward his eyes widened and he shook, the girl in the elevator motionless and unsettling.

"Raven no..! Come back!" He whispered in a panic but she was set.

Oh god this was like a real life horror movie.

The girl in the elevator twitched and the elevator doors shut and opened.

The girl had disappeared.

"What the hell was that!?" Beast Boy cried out and put his arms around Raven's small frame, his body trembling.

Raven just shook her head and looked at him, "Don't be scared...that wasn't entirely real...That came from my mind."

Beast Boy watched Raven as she bought food from a Mexican food truck , the sun beating down on them while they passed the local park.

He had invited her out and she had refused him over and over but eventually she caved in.

He promised her food.

God this girl really ate.

The Hispanic teenage guy serving Raven her food gawked at her but didn't make any move to talk to her.

Beast Boy couldn't blame the boy. Raven was really entrancing with those purple eyes and her small but plump lips. She was dressed casually in high waisted jeans and a t-shirt, her hair loose around her.

Guys looked at her, thats what guys did with her.

They looked all they wanted but never approached her. She was beautiful in a way that was hard to understand.

She was intimidating.

She walked back to Beast Boy's side shoving her spoon in the white cup filled with corn.

"Rae we are literally on our way to eat pizza," Beast Boy told her in amusement.

"Your point?" She asked monotonously with a raised brow, still eating her eloté.

"Where does the food go? You weigh like 115 pounds and are like 5'0 how is that possible when you eat like a truck driver?" Beast Boy laughed.

Raven just continued eating, "I train everyday and fight crime and evil for a living." She said matter of factly.

When they finally reached the pizza place they took a seat outside the restaurant and she dumped her cup in the trash, finished.

"How come you told me you'd only go out at 3 o'clock?" Beast Boy asked her.

She shrugged, "The only time of the day I like is the nighttime. But if it's during the day, I only like to go out at 3 o'clock. No sooner and no later."

"Why?" Beast Boy asked in confusion as he looked over the menu.

She shrugged again calmly, "Because before 3, it's too early to go out...and after 3 it's too late to do anything...but at 3...it's the right time of day to go out and do something. It's the perfect time of the day."

He blinked, "...okay weird."

He ended up ordering a large pizza one half vegan and the other half supreme although he doubted Raven would be satisfied with 6 slices of pizza.

When the waitress took their menus she smiled at them, "Enjoy your date."

Raven frowned, "Oh this isn't a date and we are not boyfriend and girlfriend. We are just two people settling their differences in public."

The waitress nodded somewhat weirded out and left quickly.

Beast Boy gave Raven a look and they stared at each other.

"...can we talk...about what I told you the other night...by the carousel..." Beast Boy sighed as he asked her, knowing she'd be difficult.

Raven sighed back, "...no Beast Boy...I know what you want me to tell you...but I already told you I can't. You want me to say it back to you...and I can't...we should just...leave it at that..."

Beast Boy just nodded trying not to feel hurt.

Raven sensed his pain and felt a hit of guilt.

This whole situation they were in was complicated but she knew it wasn't the poor guys fault he thought he fell for her.

Her the worst possible person on earth. She was sure he was just confused.

He couldn't really love her...could he..?

In any case, it wasn't his fault she was a terrible person.

Their pizza finally came and they pulled their slices silently.

"I'm sorry...I wish things could be different," she told him finally.

Beast Boy nodded solemnly, "I'm sorry to...

...sorry that you just took a bite out of vegan pizza!" He laughed as Raven's eyes widened and she choked on the pizza.

"You idiot!" She glared and hit his arm but was fighting a smile.

He grinned at her like the Cheshire Cat, his green eyes sparkling as he bit into a pizza.

God he got on her nerves.

"...have you used the portal in your mirror yet?" He asked her as they ate.

She shook her head, "No not yet. I haven't gotten the chance. We got really busy this week. And my mind isn't clear enough yet to get through. I'd have to be really relaxed...and I've just been stressed lately."

Beast Boy grinned at her leaning in closer, "I can help you...relax..." He rubbed his leg on hers under the table slowly, their eyes set on each other. He leaned in close and kissed her hotly making her skin tingle.

Raven tensed slightly and her watch's timer went off suddenly making the both of them sigh.

As much as Beast Boy loved her watch, it got on his nerves right then.

"Times up for us, we need to hurry up and get back before Robin suspects our laundry errand is a date. Which it's not by the way." Raven smirked.

Beast Boy smirked back as they put the pizza in a box, "This is definitely more like a laundry errand."

Beast Boy stood outside the titan tower with Cyborg the both of them dressed exclusively in white.

The mayor's wedding party. Supposedly the titans were guests of honor.

Beast Boy was pretty sure the real reason was to serve as extra security at the wedding but still, free food and drinks were great, maybe even a little dancing to.

Beast Boy wasn't used to dressing so fancy as he wore white dress pants and a white button up with a white vest. His hair tamed slightly but still tousled. Cyborg opted to be dressed in a full on white suit and Robin would be wearing a tux.

But Boy Wonder was taking forever to get ready at the moment.

Finally Starfire emerged looking radiant in a tight fitting white dress with slits on the legs, her hair was straightened and she wore a bold red lip color. Pretty stunning as she stood at the top of the stairs.

Robin took Starfire's arm and side smoothly, with his tux and slicked back hair. He and Starfire glanced at each other with wide grins their eyes sparkling.

Beast Boy took a moment to appreciate their love and another moment...to envy it.

They got to love each other freely.

"Where's Raven?" Robin frowned checking his watch.

As if on cue Raven stepped out but she had herself completely covered in her white cloak, hoodie over her head hiding her face in shadow.

Starfire frowned, "Friend Raven I did not do the makeup on your face for you to hide yourself! Why are you hiding?"

Raven glared at everyone, "Just be glad I'm even going okay?"

Beast Boy gazed at the mysterious girl as she glared.

Cyborg eyed the two, "Hey B you mind taking your ride to the party? I've got some tools in the back of the T-car and we might not all fit..."

Beast Boy caught his look and nodded, "Yeah...I'll take Rae with me."

Raven's eyes narrowed, "No."

Robin frowned and Starfire hugged him, "It is not of inconvenience! Let us all go now then before we arrive late!" The alien girl pulled their leader in the car and Beast Boy grabbed Raven's arm and pulled her on the motorcycle with him and he kicked it to life, flying off the road.

Raven ground her teeth together and held her cloak to her face as they flew through the road, the wind making her cloak fly.

She felt so silly and weird with the make up she was wearing, it wasn't a lot but it still felt strange...and her dress...what was she thinking?

The sky was dark, the sky a canopy of stars as they zoomed by. Raven held a hand out slightly, feeling a rush in her stomach.

Would she...always feel that way after she got her feelings under control?

She inhaled sharply, Beast Boy's warm smell pleasant. She shifted her arm as she held onto him.

When they pulled up to the circular entrance of the mayor's grand white mansion, they hopped off easily, Raven gripping her cloak close to herself.

As they walked inside the expensive and luxurious home together Raven grew anxious. She really hated parties of any kind.

"I'm going to find a bathroom..," she whispered to Beast Boy.

He frowned, "I know you're trying to hide..but before you do...here...I kinda got you something.."

He handed her a small velvet burlap sack, "So don't punch me but when I was in your room that night we fell asleep I saw you still had that penny on your dresser the one I gave you when you had to fight Trigon..so I took it..."

Raven turned red and glared, "You what?"

"Well I was touched that you kept it," he grinned, "But I knew it was kind of useless so I got it turned into something more useful for you...Cyborg helped me make it and uh Starfire gave me some metallics from Tamaran to uh...I uh...hope you like it.."

Raven took the bag and nodded solemnly, "Thank you." She said in a sincere way that made Beast Boy's green eyes gleam.

They turned their separate ways and she ran off into one of the fancy bathrooms and locked the door, her heart pounding. She slipped her hood off and looked at her reflection in the mirror.

She wasn't wearing a lot of makeup but her features were more dramatic and pronounced, her cheekbones gleaming, her skin glowing. Her small lips full with a dark nude lipstick.

Starfire had really gone all out with the highlighter.

Raven could even pass as...pretty...she supposed...it was so...weird...

She put the burlap sack on the sink and opened it, her eyes glinting at it.

Beast Boy was so...cheesy.

Beast Boy was on the dance floor twirling around a tipsy girl in a short white dress. Trendy music was blasting through the speakers, wealthy people all around them with wine glasses. Decorations of crystal and lights draped on the ceiling of the huge dining hall.

He loved to dance. He really did, it left his heart pumping wildly and he wanted to go faster and faster. He was pretty good at dancing to.

He hadn't sat down since he stepped foot in the party.

In a way he was a lot like the life of the party.

This girl was girl number three. He looked around the room spotting Starfire and Robin talking to the mayor and his new bride, Cyborg near the dj.

Where was she?

Then it happened.

Everything felt like he had just stepped into a movie.

Everything seemed to slow down around him as he stopped and flickered green eyes to the top of the stairs.

Raven stood at the top of the staircase, her hood slipping off as her hands unclasped her cloak. She wore a silvery dress that resembled the moonlight, it had a halter top style and came to her mid thighs at the front in a tulle style, cascading to the floor in the back.

Thats what she was. A rule breaker.

A silver star in a white haze.

Since this was Raven, she wore flat sheer silver thigh high boots. Her hair was in loose dark Violet curls, her face shining bright and angular, eyes dark and mysterious, lips full and dark nude. She was literally glowing..

Beast Boy stared in awe losing all feeling, his senses all on her.

The chorus of a slow version of TRNDSTTR playing in the background as she stepped down the stairs, cloak on her arm.

She looked straight out of a movie.

Except this wasn't a movie. This was real life.

The girl dancing with Beast Boy frowned waving a hand in front of his face, "Hello?"

He shook his head as if shaking from a spell and continued to dance with the girl but Raven was all he thought about.

Raven sat at table 12 with Cyborg as Beast Boy flew past them with his latest dance partner, the mayor's daughter. Raven took Cyborg's glass of Hennessy and he gawked at her, "Since when do you drink Hennessy?!"

She smirked at him, "Long story."

He eyed her, "You know you should be out on the dance floor. Having a little fun and enjoying yourself."

She watched as Starfire and Robin danced delicately, laughing and eyes twinkling. Natural and happy.

"I don't dance," she muttered as she drank from her cup and felt out of place.

Cyborg raised a brow at her, "Beast Boy could make you dance."

She glared at him past her glass.

Her glare was more dramatic now with her smoky eyes.

Starfire and Robin went up to them then looking like a million bucks.

"Raven you look like a star in Tamaran's galaxy!" Starfire grinned but Raven shrugged and Starfire looked at Cyborg.

Beast Boy.

"Friend Cyborg...shall you dance with me?" Starfire asked pushing Robin towards Raven.

Cyborg nodded getting her plan and they went off in a swirl, separating Beast Boy and the mayor's daughter while they spun.

Robin rubbed his neck awkwardly, "We could dance..?"

Raven glared at him and he smiled grabbing her arm and dragging her to the dance floor.

She flushed and looked around, "Robin I don't know how to dance.."

"Just follow my lead...it's just like training..." he told her as they danced slowly.

She was really uncomfortable but this was Robin so she calmed down eventually.

"...hey...I'm sorry I've been pushing you a lot lately...I've just been worried about you. I know it can be hard for you." he told her softly.

She nodded, "It's fine I understand. You're my leader."

He shook his head, "No not just your leader. You're like my sister. I know...you aren't used to having a father figure in your life...someone to look out for you...I didn't either. So I know it can be hard. That's why I look out for you."

Raven felt her throat close up, "I know...thank you." She smiled slightly at him.

There was a tap on Robin's shoulder and Raven's eyes widened.

Saf.

"May I cut in?" He asked Robin smoothly.

Robin narrowed his eyes.

"It's okay," Raven told Robin and he relaxed, still untrusting but nodded, giving Saf Raven's hand.

Saf pulled her close, "You look radiant tonight." He told her smoothly making her shiver.

He looked good to in his white suit, dark brown hair tousled back, Violet eyes shining.

It was Beast Boy's turn to watch now.

"What are you doing here?" She asked curiously as they waltzed around.

Starfire and Beast Boy waltzed around them, Beast Boy boiling in anger, "Why is he here?" Starfire just smiled nervously.

"The same as you. An invited guest," he replied as he twirled her around gracefully, people glancing at them as they stole the dance floor. His hands resting at her hips and he held her close.

"Saf..I need to ask you for a favor..." She began but she felt herself being ripped away from him and she was looking into emerald eyes.

She was mad and thrilled at the same time, her stomach knotting up.

"What is wrong with you?" She whispered harshly at Beast Boy as he spun her quickly.

"I could ask you the same thing, dancing with Aladdin boy." He said in her ear hotly as he pulled her leg up against his and dipping her so she could feel everything he packed down there.

She flushed and continued to glare at him as he spun her wildly, his hand going up her thigh.

She had to admit he was a really good dancer and she felt a rush as he spun her and led her, her breath hitching.

She didn't know how but he had a way of making her skin feel more like skin.

"I thought you didn't dance," he smirked as they went back and forth in a tango movement.

"I don't. But I train," she smirked and did a backbend slowly and a spin around him as knocking on your heart played around them.

Everyone watched and it was just them two at the center of the dance floor, not so much dancing as doing aerobic training.

"Did you like your gift?" He smiled at her as he looked at her neck, his gift on her bright as he carried her and turned.

It was a choker, a coppery colored Tamaran metal used as the band. The penny refined and brushed down so it was just plain and smooth, glistening on her neck.

"It's really pretty and shiny," she admitted as they ended the dance with an epic dip and they gazed into each other's eyes, breathing hard as everyone clapped around them.

"Just like you," he told her softly and she felt her stomach knot up all over again.

Then he was being pulled away by another girl again and she was being pulled to, her stomach sinking in disappointment.

Saf was leading her away from the dance floor and up the steps of the staircase. She felt like Cinderella fleeing the ball and she turned to look at Beast Boy who was talking to the mayor's daughter.

He was busy.

She turned and let Saf lead her away.

Saf led her to a fancy guest room in the far end of the mansion and he shut the door swiftly behind them. Raven felt her heart pound in her chest roughly. The canopy bed seemed huge next to them.

"Now that we are alone..What was the favor you asked of me?" Saf asked her with that rich voice.

She shook lightly at being alone in a room with the beautiful titan and pulled out her handheld mirror from her under her cloak.

"This mirror is a portal...into my mind. It was a gift from Azar, a monk who raised me. I'm going to use it tonight. To go into my mind." She told him slowly looking at him through the darkness.

He raised a brow as music played in the distance, "And what does that have to do with me?"

Before she could answer him the door opened gently, Beast Boy stepping in casually.

He shut the door behind him smoothly and locked it.

Oh god.

Raven looked into his green eyes.

He was angry.

Raven got in between him and Saf before he started something.

Stop. You know nothing was going on. She thought to him.

Then explain before I kill him right now. Beast Boy thought back, glaring at Saf.

"...Saf this is Beast Boy...Beast Boy this is Saf," Raven said between her teeth, her temple pulsing.

They just glared at each other and Raven ran a hand across her face.

Raven sighed and looked between the two boys, "I've been having problems with controlling my emotions lately...and it's been affecting my powers. Theres a lot I can't explain Saf but my point is I'm going to use my mirror to go into my mind and I want you to come with me."

Beast Boy's eyes widened and he laughed pulling Raven close to him, "No the hell he's not! He is not going anywhere near your mind. What are you thinking Raven? You barely know this guy and you're just going to let him in your mind like that?"

"He's the only other person alive who can help me figure this out Beast Boy. I don't have the time to fight with you," she retorted and pulled her arm away.

Beast Boy looked at her in the slight darkness of the room. Now that he had her in front of him he appreciated her illuminated face, the shine of her dress.

She was a star.

"I'll do it," Saf looked at Raven and Beast Boy glared, "I said no!"

Raven glared at him, "My mind is set Beast Boy."

He crossed his arms, "Fine but the only way he's going is if I go."

Saf laughed, "A simple mortal in a half demons mind?"

Raven sighed, "..actually...I hate to admit it but he's been in my mind before.."

Beast Boy glared at Saf, "I'm not a simple mortal. I'm a beast." He growled and Raven rolled her eyes.

"Okay enough. It's settled...The three of us will go into my mind then. " she said somewhat unsure of herself. She glanced at the boys in front of her, emerald and Saphire eyes in the dark.

These two guys were about to enter her mind. Great.

She shook lightly as she held the mirror and they stood on either side of her.

The three of them stood around the handheld mirror waiting for to be transported into the realm of Raven's mind through the fine glass of the mirror.

Finally their images began to change and cut as they slipped into another dimension like a dream,

until their was nothing left of their reflections.

Thank you so much for reading! Sorry for this being an uneventful (and unsexy) reading but this was going to be too long to be one chapter so I have to break it into two chapters.

There is a lot that will happen in the next chapter (it will be sexier to lol) so bear with me please. I appreciate the love and support and I'm sorry if I'm not as frequent I've been sick still but writing helps to get my mind off things.

Thank you again and I hope you are all great!