Sup guys! Ok I'm not sure if this is going to be done and uploaded by today but I want you to know that I have family and children over (The children keep touching me -_-) and I need to spend time with them. I'm going to try to upload it today so yeah, Here is chapter 10!
Amu's P.O.V:
Tuesday was no better at school, everyone kept bothering me. I heard whispers throughout the hallways and sexual notes being passed to me in class. Though it was terrible, I had my friends and my boyfriend there with me, so it wasn't too bad. The six of us all started walking to the club, I recived many text messages from Tadase, but Ikuto took my phone and deleted all of them, and I didn't want to read them anyway. Tadase told my secret and I couldn't trust him anymore, fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. We finally got there and went through the usual procedure, make-up, clothes, and practice, while the boys just watched. It was some song I never heard of, but I kept dancing. We went backstage and waited for out cue, we finally got called up and went to the stage, but something weird happened. My feet were frozen, everyone in the crowd just kept looking at me, their eyes just glued on me. Then I imagined something, I saw all of our classmates in the audience. Laughing and yelling stripper and slut, Saaya was even there with Tadase, laughing the hardest. Tears filled my eyes, I felt dizzy, I saw one look of Ikuto's concerned expression. All the lights went out in my head, and I fell to the floor, I fainted on stage.
I woke up on my bed in my room, with my five friends surronding me. "Amu, what happened?" Nagi asked, worry in his voice. "I-I..." I didn't know how to answer, that the rumors are getting to me? They would just tell me to get over it, and I cant just do that. "I'm a little sick, I have a headache, so you should probably leave me alone for a while." I said, trying to sound as nice as possible. They all nodded and headed out the door, except for Nagi, who just started looking around my room. "I left my phone somewhere, I'll catch up with you guys later." He said, scratching the back of his head. The group finally left and Nagi came up to me with his arms crossed. "Now Amu, we both know you're not sick, so what really happened?" Nagi asked, he always read me like a book, I can't hide anything from him. I brought my knees up to my chest and hugged them, putting my chin in between them. "The rumours are getting to me, my feet completly froze, I saw our classmates laughing at me and calling me names, I even saw Tadase and Saaya laughing the hardest." I explained, tears welling up in my eyes again. Nagi's are you serious expression turned into a worried one, like he understood what I was going through. "And why didn't you tell anyone?" He asked. "Because I knew the responses I was going to get, and I didn't want to worry anyone." I responded sadly. "Well what did you think we were going to tell you?" He asked. "That I should just forget about, they're just stupid rumours." I whispered, but he heard me. "Well Im not going to tell you that. Listen, since you can't just stop dancing, just look into my eyes when you're dancing, or Ikuto's, and even Kukai's, just imagine we are the only ones in the entire audience. Also get extra practice, it will make you more confident in your dancing which will help you." Nagi explained, and his advice wasn't too bad. "Thanks Nagi, I can always count on you." I said, giving him a hug. "And if you should at least tell Ikuto, he is probably the most worried right now." He said, with a sincere smile. I nodded and he left, Nagi can always help me with these kinds of problems, I'm lucky to have a friend like that.
It was Wensday morning, 5 a.m. when Sanjo walked in with a concerned look on her face. "Amu, what happened last night? I've never seen you like that on stage." She asked, sitting next to me on the bed. I started explaining what happened at school and what Nagi told me, I knew I could trust her because she was like a second mom. "Amu, you have to telll a teacher if students are doing that, its getting out of hand." She told me, wrapping her arm around me and pulling me into a hug. "And be the most hated girl in school for telling? No way, the rumours will die down, and I'll just take Nagi's advice." I told her, getting up and and starting to put on make-up. "Ok, but if it gets too out of control, please tell someone Amu." She said, getting out and closing the door behind her. I sighed and laid down on my bed, would the rumours go away? Will her friends keep taking the abuse they are for being her friend? Will she ever dance again?
Walking to school was a disaster, boys who passed me smacked my ass, girls kept whispering, and I didn't even bother to fight back. I felt terrible, my courage was gone, out the window, and I didn't feel like jumping and getting it back. Everytime I didn't punch a boy are curse at a girl, the students saw me as weak and the actions would be worse. Yesterday I got pushed down in a hallway and no one helped me, none of my friends were there at the time. Rima and Utau told me that they keep getting gross notes from boys and that they kept getting bumped into in the hallway by girls on purpose. Its all my fault, they should just stop being my friends for their own good. I saw Ikuto run up to me, but I just wanted to ignore him so he wouldn't get bullied like me. "Hey Amu, you won't believe what happened to me. Some guy just tried to get into a fight with me." He said, with a little annoyance in his voice. "Why?" I asked, trying to hide my depression. "They mentioned that you were a whore and asked me if they could bang you, I kicked them in the crotch and got detention for a week." He said, smiling at the last part. I stopped walking, he got detention because he was protecting me, it was my fault, everything was my fault. "Ikuto." I said, looking at my feet and clenching my fists, he looked at me concern. "Amu?" He said, getting closer to me, I quickly pushed him away. "Ikuto, we need to break up." I said, I couldn't hold the tears, they were spilling out fast. "Amu, did I do something, I'm sorry." He said, I lifted my head and was shocked to look at him, there were tears in his eyes. "Ikuto its for your own good, I swear, I will never forget you." I said, the tears were forming a puddle on the ground. My heart dropped, I really did love him, it pains me so much to see him like this. I started running back to my house, I never ran so fast, I wanted to give in and apoligize but I had to think what was best for him. I looked back to see him sitting on the ground, tears falling on the ground. Everything is crumbling down, nothing was supposed to be like this, everything is turning upside down.
I didn't go to school for a week, I couldn't bear to see anyone. If I left to even go to the store, I heard people whispering rumours that I commited suicide then the other person would either reply with a laugh or a good, that whore deserved it. It was the 12th and everything was covered in christmas decorations, including the club. I told my uncle that I had mono and he didn't even question it, so I didn't have to dance. I heard the door being banged on everyday by my friends, even Ami and Ikuto came and tried to get me to open the door, but I never answered it. Sanjo tried talking to me, I just kept silent. This is the only way to protect my friends from bullying, I had to stay distant. When Utau and Rima came to dance to at the club, I locked myself in my room so they wouldn't try to talk to me. I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror, my hair was a pale pink and my skin was also paler then it should be, my eyes had lost their glimmer and my lips had lost their pink and plump look. I was home alone, so I went downstairs to make breakfast, cereal.
I was sitting and eating cereal, when all of a sudden my door slammed open, shit, I forgot to lock it. I screamed and ran up the stairs, trying to get away from two teens that were chasing me. I got up to the hallway where they tackled me, I started screaming bloody murder until the second boy covered my mouth. "Amu! What the hells wrong with you, its us!" I heard the boy who was on top of me shout. I turned my head and tried to read out his face, it was Kukai. I looked at the boy who was covering my mouth, It was Nagi. I can't belive I haven't seen them in so long, I couldn't figure out it was them. "Get off me Kukai!" I shouted, trying wiggle out from under him, total failure. "Not until you tell us what happened to you! You havn't come down from your room when Utau and Rima dance, and you haven't come to school for a week, and this all happened after you broke up with Ikuto, now tell us whats up!" He shouted at me, looking more angry then I have ever seen him. I started crying when he mentioned Ikuto, I missed him so much, my heart yearned for his voice. "Amu, I didn't want to do this, but I'm calling Ikuto to tell him to get his butt over here." Kukai said, taking his phone out of his pocket, Nagi just kept looking at me, noticing the loss of color in my face. "NO! Hes gonna get hurt, and you two are too if you don't get out!" I shouted, wiggling again. "What do you mean hurt?" Nagi asked, finally speaking up. I looked into his eyes, they wanted the truth, they made me want to tell the truth, but I couldn't, they would wanna stay with me. I started shaking my head and yelling, Nagi covered my mouth again, he looked so worried. "Ikuto, ya I need you..." Kukai started talking on his phone, I interrupted by slipping my hand free and knocking it out of his hand. "Fine! I'll tell you!" I yelled. "Kukai! Is that Amu?! I'm coming to the club, hopefully you guys are there!" I heard Ikuto shout from the phone, then just a dial tone, no, he can't come over. "I'll tell you! Nagi, lock the door, I can't see Ikuto yet, it will hurt too much." I yelled, yet whispering the last part. Nagi nodded and ran down the stairs, Kukai got off me and pulled me up.
We went over to the dining table and I started to tell them everything, the thoughts in my head and the abuse I was getting, I filled Kukai in why I couldn't dance that one night. Once I was done, they finally understood my situation and the reason for why I didn't speak to anyone. "Amu, we..." Kukai started, but I knew what he was going to say. "No Kukai, don't say that you guys are going to be there for me, because thats whats gonna start to get you hurt and in trouble." I told him, he quickly closed his mouth. "Amu, the rumours stopped, you can come back to school." Nagi informed me. "What about the rumours about me commiting suicide? Besides if I come back, it'll just remind everyone." I told him, they both stayed silent for awhile. "Well what are you going to do? Just not go to school?" Kukai asked. "I can transfer to another close by or I can be home schooled by Sanjo, she works here anyway." I told them, jsut making up more reasons for me not to go back to that hellhole. I started to hear banging on the door, I knew it was Ikuto. "Kukai, I know your in there! I heard Amu on the phone now open the fucking door!" I heard him shout, I motioned for the boys to be quiet, they nodded and kept their mouths shut. After five minutes, the banging stopped, a kick was heard, some silent cursing, and crying too. "Amu, if you hear me, we can get through this together, I know your scared to trust me and I understand that but please." I heard him shout, cries in between some words. I heard him walk away and I burst into tears, my heart was killing me, it kept getting heavier and heavier. Kukai and Nagi started comforting me, it wasn't helping, I need something to give me courage, I needed go back to school and tell everyone that no one can mess with Hinamori Amu, but I just needed something, but what?
Wow, everything is just turning to shit, what will Amu do? Read to find out! Thanks for reading!
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