I Disclaim: I have no rights to or association with Degrassi or any of the characters used in this story, except of course Mykel , and Alexia, they're mine and you can't have them.

A/N: So I considered breaking this up into two chapters and posting the other next week but I decided I couldn't be that mean. So I warn you now this is a long chapter. I don't know if it's my favorite either but it is kinda key to the plot development. Oh well let me know what you think!

I don't know why I kept it on my desk, but I did. Perhaps it reminded me of a time when my life could have taken a different path. I still remember the day I got it. It had been over a year since Craig had left. Three years since Sean and I had moved in with each other. It took me a very long time to forgive myself for betraying Sean that night. I knew that if he had ever discovered the truth he would die inside. To this day, I don't know why I did it. It was something about seeing Craig in group, knowing that he was just as crazy as I was. I would take that night back in an instant though if I could. Still, keeping it on my desk reminded me of what could have been. The day the postman brought it, I began to wonder. Was it more than a fling, were there feelings truly involved? It had been the only correspondence I had received from him since he drove off that day, and the only one I would receive until I saw him in person years later. A damn snow globe, it was all he could send me. He was too afraid to call, to afraid to write, to afraid to even look me in the eye when he left that day. I hated snow globes, but It was uniquely different. It encased a blue sapphire earth with little clouds floating around when you shook it up. One thing truly made me want to keep it forever though, and that was it's music. It played the song he wrote for me, he wrote it that night when we... damn those soulful artist type, they can get the best of us to do the worst things.

"Up awfully early eh," Marco smiled as he stepped through Ellie's cracked door around 6:30 the next morning.

"I was working on this book," Ellie continued to type away as Marco sat on the edge of her bed, hoping she would open up to him about the previous nights events.

"Hmm, am I the dashing protagonist Ms. Nash, I mean Cameron," Marco still wasn't used to Ellie's "new" last name.

"I'm not using real people in the story," Ellie laughed. " It's based on a portion of the truth, but mostly fictional." Ellie finally looked up at Marco, he was so adorable wearing one of Dylan's old jersey's as a sleep shirt, perfectly matched with green flanel pants. He had never completely moved on from their break-up years ago. "Why are you up so early anyway," She questioned.

"The couch is not my friend," Marco laughed as he rubbed his neck. "Plus Craig kept talking in his sleep." Ellie rolled her eyes and went back to typing at the mention of Craig's name.

"I'm gonna start breakfast in a little bit," Ellie said as she read over what she had already written. Ok, maybe her book was a bit more factual than she was letting on, but only she knew that. She knew that Marco wanted her to talk, but she didn't really know what to make of last night. It was a very strange experience for her, and the first major fight that she and Sean had ever had since Kelly was conceived! She was stressed, and to top it off Mykel's third birthday was in four days. "What do you want me to make? I feel like making a big breakfast, cooking..."

"Relaxes you," Marco said finishing her sentence. He looked at his best friend with pleading eyes.

"You know me to well Marco." Ellie smiled as she closed her laptop. "Don't worry about it. I'm gonna talk to Sean when I'm ready." Truthfully Ellie hated not having Sean's arms around her last night. She could barely sleep, and she never wanted to experience a night like that again. If she had any doubts in her mind about her love for Sean they were erased after the previous evening. " Do you wanna crash in my bed until breakfast is ready."

"You want me to sleep were you and Sean conceived your daughter? I don't think so." Marco teased.

"oh well, too late for that Marco you already did." Ellie smiled as she slipped her foot into her fuzzy black slipper.

"You actually did it on your mother's couch!!" Marco said shocked.

"Oh please Marco we have done it in every room of this house," Ellie laughed.

Marco gasped."Even the baby's?"

"Well, she wasn't home at the time." Ellie said as she turned a little red.

"Mrs. Eleanor Nash Cameron, I for one am shocked. Who would have thought that our little Ellie, was a nymphomaniac." Marco laughed while his mouth still hung open .

"Marco, I am not a nymphomaniac," Ellie laughed as she threw a pillow at him. "For your information, Sean and I love each other very much, we just like to express it physically... often, so there".

"So, why did you register for University without talking to him." Marco said cautiously just as Ellie was about to walk away.

"It's not that simple Marco," Ellie said looking down as she went to sit in the chair in her room. "I love my family, but I want more out of life." Actually, Ellie wasn't really sure what she wanted anymore.

"You have plenty of time to go to University Elle," Marco got up and sat on the floor in front of his friend. "I am not discouraging you by any means, but you once told me that you would give up University a million times over for Kelly. I think you have the drive to do whatever you put your mind to, but Kelly is still young, and it is going to be hard balancing her, work, school, and your extremely active sex life." Marco teased. Ellie snapped her blue rubber band knowing that everything Marco was saying was true, she just wasn't ready to admit it to herself yet. " Just think about it for a while Elle," Marco smiled as he got up and went to jump under Ellie's covers.

"Oh now you want to sleep in my bed." Ellie laughed.

"It's so comfy, plus I've slept on worse," Marco laughed.

"I don't even want to know," Ellie shook her head as she walked into the hall pulling the door to.

" Call me when breakfast is ready," Marco yelled through the door.

" Ok Marco, go back to sleep." Ellie smiled as she walked across the hall to her daughter's room. Maybe Jay was right, her life was pretty good already, she was starting to rethink her University decision.

Ellie peaked in her daughter's room expecting to see her angel peacefully sleeping but was terrified when she wasn't there. She began to panic and ran into the room searching the closet and under the bed. When she didn't find her she frantically ran down the stairs and checked the living room. Where the hell was Craig? She was about to run to get Sean when she heard Mykel's laughter coming from the family room. She hastily slid the door open to see Craig laughing with Mykel as they watched Saturday morning cartoons while she threw cereal in his mouth.

" Hey Ellie your up early," Craig looked over at a pale Ellie and smiled.

"Mommy," the toddler yelled happily as she jumped off the couch and ran over to Ellie once she noticed her standing in the room.

"Come here sweetie," Ellie said as she hugged her daughter tight then lifted her up and held her protectively around her hip.

" Uncie Craig is cool Mommy, he has magic powders." Mykel said extra hyper, chocolate still around her mouth.

"You gave her chocolate at seven in the morning." Ellie said annoyed, now understanding why her child was so energetic so early, something completely out of character for Kelly.

" What's the big deal Elle, my dad gave me chocolate when I was little for breakfast all the time." Craig got up, ruffled his hair, and yawned.

" Come on sweetie, do you want to help mommy make breakfast?" Ellie said to Mykel as she turned around and started towards the kitchen.

"Breakfast!" Mykel screamed.

"Whoa, Kelly people are trying to sleep still. We have to use our inside voices, now." Ellie said sternly, now she was really pissed at Craig.

"Sorry mommy," Kelly whispered before running back and forth in the kitchen happily once Ellie had put her down. Ellie took a deep breath trying to contain herself as she practically pulled the contents of the refrigerator out onto the counter. She didn't even look up when Craig walked into the kitchen.

"What's wrong with you Ellie, ever since last night you have been treating me like crap, I mean why would you put me out of your room like that, I'm not the one who hurt you." Craig said as he sat down at the kitchen table.

"Why are you really here Craig," Ellie said as she began to crack several eggs into a large bowl.

"I told you my benefit concert." Craig said nonchalantly.

"Why are you here at my house." Ellie said just as Kelly began to pull on her shirt.

"Mommy, mommy, mommy," Kelly said, her energy showing no sign of breaking.

"What is it Kelly," Ellie could have punched Craig in the face for giving her that chocolate.

"Can I watch cartoons pwease, pwease, pweeeeeeease." She begged jumping up and down.

"Go ahead but be quiet, remember people are sleeping." Ellie began to beat the eggs vigorously as Kelly ran off and Craig stared at her dumbfounded.

"I am sorry for never calling Ellie. I thought about us everyday while I traveled the world on tour; about how much you would've loved it. I thought about the song I wrote you, and obviously you did too. I know that's the reason you kept it, but I never thought you would keep it out so you could look at it everyday. I bet you didn't even tell him where you got that snow globe from did you." Craig sad quietly but sincerely, he wanted to be with Ellie and needed her to realize that.

"Craig I love Sean, and I love my daughter. Nothing is going to make me leave them especially you. Whatever we had between us, that happened in the past ok. We both need to move on." Ellie turned her back to Craig as she poured her eggs in the pan and started on her waffle batter being careful not to let her eggs burn.

"This isn't over Ellie, you know we still have something between us as much as I do." Craig said as he raised from his chair. "I'm going back in the den with Kelly to watch T.V."

"Did you wake her up this morning?" Ellie asked still not looking at him but tossing some Canadian bacon (A/N I wonder if they just call it ham up there ) in the frying pan.

"Um no. I heard her downstairs, so I decided to keep her company." Craig lied.

"Funny, I didn't hear her come out of her room." Ellie said not turning around to look at him.

"Well you were talking to Marco, how could you have noticed." Craig said a little too quickly.

"How did you know that?" Ellie asked as she forcefully began chopping potatoes with her butcher knife.

"Be careful with that knife," Craig said as he backed up a little.

"How did you know we were talking Craig?" Ellie asked again.

"I just figured, since Marco wasn't there when I woke up." Craig said as he began to sweat a little. "Look call us when breakfast is ready, cartoons are waiting." Craig said as he jogged off into the other room. Ellie didn't know what was going on really, or what Craig was up to but she did know he didn't want to mess with her or Sean, or Jay and Alex for that matter, especially when Mykel was involved.

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