Baby I'm a leavin' you

by hanspan96

Future Fic: Finn and Rachel Have a fight and start an unofficial game to make the other leave.

10. Hitting Rock Bottom

Sorry about the long hiatus, it's just... this is the last chapter and I just don't want it to end :(

Disclaimer: I do not own glee in any way or form. At least not yet –insert evil laugh here-

Chapter ten: Eight months of pain

Seven months later...

"Are you excited?" Finn asked as he and Rachel sat in the doctor's office waiting for their turn. She looked up from the two year old issue of People magazine and slightly smiled before looking back down. He took in a deep breath as he slipped down further into his seat and rested his head on her shoulder, causing her to elbow him in the ribs and push him away. He had no idea why she was so distant. They were having a baby together and he had thought that things were perfect between them ever since the night he found her at Shelby's apartment…

Flash Back. Seven months ago…

"Rach... Rach I know you're in their" Finn said as he banged on the door. He wasn't expecting an answer and was surprised when he saw little Beth standing at the open door with a frown on her face. Memories flowed back into his mind as he remembered how much it hurt when he found out that his little girl wasn't his and that she was the result of betrayal. From just looking at her you could tell that she was Quinn's daughter. She had her long, flowing blonde hair, her beautiful facial structure and sporty body structure. But there was one thing that could only come from her father. One thing that showed most prominent of her visual appearance. One thing that added to her beauty. She had his dark brown eyes that showed that she could be bad ass, but was the nicest and most caring person you will ever know. Her frown disappeared as she saw his face.

"Finny!" She yelled out as she wrapped her arms around his legs. He had thought that she would have forgotten all about him, but he was wrong. She remembered everything about him. She remembered the way he looked, the way he spoke, the way he smelt and the way he would smile sweetly at her when she laughed that cute little laugh of hers. "I have missed you so much"

"I know." He had no idea why he hadn't wanted to see her face. She was an amazing child that shone bright and was the smartest nine year old he knew. She knew how to stand up for and to other people, she had one of the kindest hearts and he loved her like she was his own. It was a mistake to tell Rachel that he couldn't stand seeing Beth and that he wanted her to never come back here ever again. "Is your big sis here?" Beth nodded her head and led him to the lounge room where Rachel was sleeping in her mother's arms. Shelby glared at him and he knew that Rachel had told her everything.

"What are you doing here?" She hissed in a hushed tone, slowly moving Rachel onto the lounge beside her. He looked at his girlfriend and smiled at how cute she looked while she was sleeping.

"I'm here for Rachel and you can't stop me from seeing her."

"I can do whatever the hell I want because I am her mother, go to your room Beth, Finn and I need to have a little talk." Beth nodded her head and skipped off to her room singing born this way, causing Finn to smile as he remembered performing the song for glee. "I do not want you talking to my daughter anymore, got that?" Shelby spat out her words as she looked him up and down. She couldn't see how Rachel could love someone so terrible.

"Since when did you have the right to choose who Rachel sees?" Finn said in the exact same tone as the woman before him.

"I have the right because I am her mum, remember? I carried her for nine months and I gave birth to her, ring a bell?" Finn pulled a phoney smile as he placed his giant hand on Shelby's shoulder and looked her in the eyes.

"I'm not stupid; I know you're her mother... But you aren't her 'mum' you didn't raise her because you gave her away for money, you were just some little slut who had sex to give two men the joy of life. You will never have that connection with her because you don't know her. Leroy and Hiram taught her everything she needed to learn in life and all you taught her was that people will leave her and make her feel empty inside. Tell me, how does it feel to know you let her down so many times it isn't funny? Do you know how hard she cried when she found out that you had moved to New York and had adopted Beth?" Shelby shook her head with tears in her eyes. "I thought so. Would you like to know how hard she cried? Actually, I don't need an answer to that because I'm going to tell you anyway... She cried enough to fill Lake Eyre. You know that giant lake in Australia that barely ever fills up cause it's so big? And guess who held her the whole time she cried. Me, I did! I was there for her when you let her down. You can think that you're her mum but you never will be because you have never been there for her, it was always me. I remember when her dad's died she had told me that she wanted to see you, I remember that exactly because I had called you and Beth's baby sitter picked up. She said that you were on a date with an extremely hot man and wouldn't be home till late. I remember calling your mobile phone and you telling me that you were busy and won't be home till late and to call you then. I figured that since you weren't willing to come over for her when you didn't know the reason then knowing her dads were dead probably wouldn't matter to you. You see the moral to my little story here is that I was there for her when she needed you most, and I couldn't help but cry myself that she didn't have that much support from you. So don't think that because she and I were having some problems that you can just waltz back in and take the mum role because you aren't very deserving of it"

"I see your point Finn, but you do not know how hard it was to give up my little girl. I doubt that you will ever know how hard it is to give up a child." Finn looked at the crying woman with tears in his eyes as he thought back to Beth.

"I may not know what it feels like to give away a child, but I know what it is like to lose one, so don't play that card with me, because before Beth was yours or Noahs, she was mine. Quinn had told me that the child was mine and Rachel; was the only one with a big enough heart to tell me otherwise. I felt like I had lost a piece of my heart, a piece that I would never get back."

"I know the feeling. But I lost more than you think Finn. I lost a child, and a husband." Finn looked at her confused. He had no idea what was going on as Shelby let silent tears fall while looking over to Rachel, still sleeping on the lounge. The only thing keeping her from freezing to death being the light blue towel that was loosely wrapped around her body. Shelby grabbed onto Finn's hand and dragged him out into the hallway, scared that Rachel would wake up and hear what she was about to say. "You can't tell Rachel this because it will break her heart even more and I know that we have both done that to her plenty."

"What could you have possibly done to make things worse" Finn hissed, crossing his arms over his chest with a huff, trying to hide that fact that he wanted to cry.

"Rachel's dad Benny had died when I was six months pregnant with her. He was a taxi driver in New York and was held hostage by a passenger. They killed him after he took them where they wanted and I didn't know what to do. I was only twenty years old, I had lost my husband and father of my child and I couldn't stand living in the city without him, and having to raise a constant reminder of him. So I packed up and moved back to Lima to live with my brother. He told me that he would help to raise Rachel but I told him that I couldn't do it without Benny and he respected that. I met Leroy and Hiram at an adoption agency and they told me that they wanted a little girl more than anything. I told them my situation and told them that they could have Rachel and they said yes. We settled the agreement and I got some money and signed some papers and I was never the type of girl to read before signing so I didn't know that if I signed it I wouldn't be able to see her, even though I knew I wouldn't be able to do it with my state of mind anyway. My brother had gotten sick when I was in my last month and he had died a couple of days before my due date. Leroy and Hiram let me live with them until Rachel was due. I remember her little head turn to me and no one else, I was the first things she wanted to see and if you don't think that is a connection than fine, I don't care. But after she looked at me I knew giving her away was the wrong thing to do. I tried to get her back but Hiram and Leroy became forceful and locked her away and told me they would take me to court if I pushed harder. That's when they offered me more money, and choosing money over my little girl was the worst decision I ever made, I admit to that. But don't you dare come back into my house and call me a slut for giving her away because it wasn't that way and I can't let Rachel know any of this because she will want me to take her see his grave and I can't do that because it will hurt me too much. I haven't even been to his grave in years and I don't want to go back." Tears were streaming down from Shelby's eyes and Finn felt like the worst person in the world. He knew that hugging her wouldn't help to take away her pain in the long run, but he couldn't stop himself from wrapping his arms around her and holding her like he would always hold Rachel.

"I'm sorry" were the only words he could get out as he held her tighter. "Let's go back inside, I think it's a bit late and Beth needs to sleep because we don't want her tired and cranky tomorrow morning when she needs to get up for school. I want you to go clean up your make up and I'll get Beth ready for bed. Do you mind if I take Rachel home? I know she won't wake up because at our graduation party she had fallen asleep after we had um, maybe you don't want to know" Shelby rolled her eyes as she looked up to Finn, wiping the last few tears out of her eyes.

"Yeah, she had fallen asleep after you two had had sex, I get that Rachel is sexually active, she's an adult and she had told me all about how graduation night was so special because she had lost her virginity under the stars and you were so delicate and sweet with her and you were both sober at the time and how you were both so scared that her dads were going to walk out of the house and find you too in the little tree house that was missing it's roof and yell at you both. I still kind of don't see what would be so romantic about having sex in a tree house, I would just be thinking about the children that play in it. But anyway, keep on going with the story."

"Okay, well the music was blaring and we could hear it in the tree house like the DJ was right beside us. I was just lying there watching her breath, not being able to hear myself think as she slept soundly in my arms, not giving a crap what was going on around her. She didn't even wake up when Puck had found us in the tree house while leading Quinn up to do it and then I had to dress her with Quinn's help and carry her out to my car to the after party, thankfully she was awake for the after party after party because I wasn't going to carry her again, I can tell you that" Finn's tone of voice was casual as he looked down at Shelby who was confused at how he could go through so many emotions in so little time. She had only ever seen it in one other person and that was the small brunette wrapped in a towel on her lounge, sleeping through everything that was going on around her.

"Not that any of that didn't go straight over my head-"

"Are you making fun of my height?" Finn's voice was full of shock and anger as he looked at Shelby who just rolled her eyes and shook her head at him, secretly amused by how unaware he was.

"Any way, what is an after party after party?" Finn smirked as he thought of how many after party after parties he had gone to, all of them ending in him and Rachel getting smashed and ending the night in bed together. Not that he would ever tell Shelby any of that because he knew how awkward things would get if he mentioned all of the details and told her how many times he had inserted, as you could call it, into her daughter.

"Well Shelby" Finn started using the know it all voice Rachel had taught him to use, just to piss of the other members of glee club, and because she had found it amusing when he would try and use it on other people who thought they knew everything. "An after party after party is a party that comes after the after party. It is usually consistent of a small group of friends who hang out at one of their friend's houses when they are totally smashed and feel like getting even more smashed. It is usually someone who lives closest to the first after party, that way you don't have to drive and can walk to the after party after party"

"Why don't you just stay at the first after party?" Shelby looked at the tall boy who gave her a shocked look. "Forget I asked" She said while pulling a face. The two walked back into the apartment silently as they looked over to the lounge that Rachel had once occupied. He looked back over to in front of him and saw her standing in front of both him and Shelby, the tears in her eyes obvious to them both. He had no idea what was going on as he heard Shelby silently crying beside him.

"Why didn't you tell me mum?" Rachel said in a soft voice, tears still rolling down her cheeks. Shelby said nothing as she continued to cry beside Finn, hoping that Rachel would give up on it, but she knew that it would never happen. "WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?" Rachel yelled as she Shelby cried harder and harder, causing Rachel to cry harder and storm off to the bath room when she still got no answer. Finn looked at Shelby before walking over to Rachel and pulling her into his arms. He knew that they two of them needed to talk about it so he let go of his tiny girlfriend and went into Beth's room to get her ready for bed. "Why didn't you tell me that you didn't just give me away? How could you let me think that you didn't want me? Do you know how long I have been living my life thinking that everyone is going to leave me that no one is ever going to truly love me?"

"I'm sorry, I just couldn't. I can't live with all of that pain again."

"Do you think that I haven't had to live without any pain? Because I have, there has been so much pain in my life and it is all because you couldn't stand to see me. Nice to know you truly care" Shelby's tears stopped falling as she looked into her daughters eyes.

"You think I didn't want to see you? Giving you away was the worst decision of my life. I wanted to see you so much but your fathers wouldn't let me. I love you so much that you don't even know!" Rachel and Shelby both continued to cry as Rachel turned and walked to Beth's room and Shelby went into her own. Neither of them thought that things could go from happy, to extremely upsetting and tearful, but it had happened. Shelby buried her face into her pillows as Rachel buried her's into Finn's chest. Beth looked at her sister with concerned eyes as she wrapped her arms around Rachel's legs and whispered "I love you sis"

"I love you to Beth" She replied as she let go of Finn and knelt down to hug her little sister. "Now go give mum a big hug and tell her you love her okay? She's a little upset right now too" Beth nodded her head and left the room leaving the two standing alone in the little pink room. "Why would she tell you?" Rachel mumbled into Finn's shirt, anger clear in her voice.

"I don't know! But I want to take you somewhere if you don't mind. I know you hate me right now but I just really have to do this"

"I don't hate you" Finn felt a smile grow on his lips as she slowly let go of his body and looked up into his eyes. "So where are we going?"

End of flashback…

"Mr and Mrs Stevenson" A doctor said calmly as he walked out into the waiting room. The couple stood up happily as they walked back into the doctor's office hand in hand. It scared Rachel how two people could feel so happy about having a small child ruin their futures. She had a bright one before that stupid night and now she was blown up like a balloon and couldn't even go to work as she was on a long hiatus until the baby was born. She looked at Finn who was staring into space with a small grin. She cocked an eyebrow before shaking her head and looking back at her magazine.

"Why are you so happy?" She asked in an angry tone. Finn looked up to her with a smile as he moved his hand onto her stomach to rub soothing circles.

"Because I can't wait to be a dad. I just can't believe we're having a child, It's amazing" Rachel rolled her eyes before looking back to her magazine and sighing as she remembered she was on the last page. She pushed herself off the chair as best she could with her giant protruding stomach and walked over to the table to dump the magazine back onto the pile. She wished that Finn wasn't there and that she could just go to see the doctor on her own. It's not like it was important or anything, just a check up to see if everything was fine for her final month of pregnancy, definitely not something he needed to change his work schedule for. Rachel frowned as she felt that twinge of jealousy that she felt every time someone would bring up work. More specifically that she wasn't doing it and Finn was.

"Are you okay Rach?" Finn asked with concern in his voice. Rachel glared at him as she fell back down into her chair glad to not have to hold up the weight of her damn unborn child for that moment.

"No I'm not okay Finn! We have been here for an hour already and several people that got here after us have been going in first, I feel like vomiting every time I god damn stand up, My feet are killing me, I'm boiling hot in this damn stuffy, un-air conditioned room. My feet are killing me and not that I care or anything, but that damn receptionist keeps sending you flirtatious smiles and winking and it is just really annoying. So I don't care if you think I'm being foolish, but you're not the one that is carrying around a damn watermelon in your stomach and is scared about having to push some giant baby out of your lady. You try being a woman some time; it's not as great as it looks. Having to bleed for a whole week every month, get perved on continuously by men who just want to get in your pants and touch your breasts. Just get out all of those wondrous thoughts about how if you were a woman you could just stare at your breasts all day and that would be awesome, because there is always all the bad things that walk hand in hand among the female anatomy."

"Wow, okay then, I'm just going to be quiet now" Finn said with fear in his eyes. He had only ever seen that exact same look of anger once before and that was when he had slept with Santana. That look of pure anger, hatred and just raw emotion was one he had never wanted to see again. One he never wanted to put on her face again. "I'm sorry for asking" Rachel just nodded her head and turned on her seat so she didn't have to look at him. Nobody but the blonde, big boobed receptionist was in the room and both Finn and Rachel knew she was smirking.

"Our appointment was half an hour ago" Finn said as he noticed Rachel looking down to her watch impatiently.

"I knew that, I'm just wondering how long I have to sit in this damn room with you" She hissed as she looked him straight in the eyes. They were full of unawareness and sadness and she knew that look was very rare. The last time he had it was seven months ago, and that was a night she wished she could forget.

Seven months prior…

"Why are we in a cemetery?" Rachel asked as she looked at the different headstones around them. To their luck it had stopped raining on the taxi ride over and there was no need for the umbrella Finn had brought while looking for Rachel. He looked down at her and held onto her hand tighter and he pulled her closer to his side as he heard a loud howl from the forest beside the cemetery that had been strategically placed in the middle of nowhere and out of the city.

"Because I have to show you something. I was talking to Beth and she told me that Shelby had brought her here three Christmases ago to show her what I am about to show you." He squinted his eyes a little bit and leaned forward as he looked at each tombstone until he found the one he was looking for. "Read that tombstone" He said pointing to an old grave that had a single bunch of dead flowers placed right beside the old tombstone. She leaned in to read the name and felt tears in her eyes as she read the name. Benjamin Corcoran. The one person in her life that she had wanted to meet and would never get the chance.

"Why did you bring me here?" He could tell that she was crying by the week sound in her voice. He was unaware of what to do as he saw her look up to him with tears in her eyes, bringing so much sadness to himself as tears started to roll down his cheeks as well and all he could do was hold her as they both continued to cry, sitting on top of her biological father's grave. The rain started to slowly fall out of the sky again, but they didn't care, all they did was sit on the grass crying, their tears getting masked by the cold rain. "I'm pregnant" She mumbled into his chest, causing him to smile through his tears.

"I'm gonna be a dad?" His voice was full of hopefulness as she nodded into his chest and continued to cry for more reasons than he even knew.

Back to reality…

"Miss Berry and Mr Hudson, the doctor is ready for you" A nurse said as she walked through to the waiting room with a clip board in her hand. The pair both stood up and walked out to the back to the doctor's office. Rachel was walking a few steps in front, wanting to get into the room as quick as she can. When they walked through the door the nurse smiled as she helped Rachel up onto the chair. "You are an amazing actress and singer by the way. You should really consider getting into Broadway, you would be unstoppable" Rachel smiled as she rested her hands on her giant stomach.

"Thank you, I was really considering going back into Broadway after I have the baby. Broadway was the original dream anyway" The nurse smiled again as she looked to Finn and then back at Rachel.

"I remember when you were on Broadway, three years ago I think. Yeah, you were the understudy for Elphaba because they had already casted another girl for the role but when you had to go on the crowd loved you. Why did you leave any way?"

"Job offer from Child's Play" Finn interrupted with a smile. Rachel had been offered the role of Bridgette after the producer Gabriel had seen her acting as Fanny Brice in a Funny Girl stage production that had been made by a friend of his. Finn had been at the show with her and was currently not working when Rachel had gotten the offer. She had told them that Finn was an amazing Actor and Singer as well and he had gotten an audition and eventually the role.

"Well I'm sure whatever you do all of your fans will still love you" The nurse smiled at the pair one more time before leaving the room for the doctor to enter. Dr Clemingsdale smiled at the two of them as shook both of their hands.

"It is so nice to see you both again" She said with her smile still planted firmly on her lips. "So how are you feeling?" She looked down to Rachel, her blonde ponytail falling down the side of her neck.

"Oh, I'm great not much to complain about" Finn rolled his eyes as he sat down on the chair beside her with his hand instinctively grabbing onto hers, and she let him hold it, like every other time they came to see their child.

"So how about we see how your little girl is going, I'm guessing I don't have to tell you it'll be cold seeing as though you two have been coming once a month for seven months already" They both smiled at her as Rachel lifted up her shirt to show off her protruding stomach that was still perfectly tanned. Dr Clemingsdale squirted the cool gel onto Rachel's abdomen, causing her to squirm a little at how it was always cold no matter how much she tried to get used to it. The doctor put the transducer onto the gel. The image of their baby showed up on the screen, causing giant smiles to show up on both of their faces as they squeezed onto each other's hands happily.

"Seeing her never gets old" Finn whispered into Rachel's ear as she just nodded her head and continued to look at the image of life on the small screen in front of them. They stared at it for at least ten minutes while Dr Clemingsdale showed them the different parts of their child.

"So the baby is growing perfectly and you should expect for it to come almost exactly on the day she is due." The pair just smiled and Dr Clemingsdale handed Rachel a tissue to clean off her stomach as she printed off a set of pictures for them both. "I guess I'll see you three next month" She said as she switched off all of the machines in the room and opened the door for the pair. The walk back to their car was silent as neither one thought speaking was necessary in that very moment. Sure Rachel wanted to play with him to see what he did, but she still loved him, and even though Shelby had helped her with so many plans over the past seven months Finn had still stood by her no matter what, and that was not the outcome she had anticipated.

Flash back to six months and three weeks…

"Hey Quinn, can I borrow one of your dresses tonight?" Rachel shouted out as she ran from her room to her best friend's room. Finn was sat on the couch in casual jeans and a nice button up shirt while he and Puck played the latest Halo game that wasn't even available in stores yet. Rachel's hair was full of rollers as she ran through the apartment in her black matching bra and panties that was covered with a giant flannelette shirt that Rachel had gotten for Finn after ripping them all apart.

"Wear the short purple one, it will look super-hot" Puck called out over his shoulder while blowing off Finn's head and jumping up to do a joyful jig.

"Thanks Noah" Rachel called back over her shoulder as she ran into Quinn and Puck's room, closing the door behind her. Quinn was snuggled up on her bed with her laptop sitting beside her as she checked her face book and emails. As soon as the door shut Quinn made a quick move to change the page to hide something, hoping Rachel wouldn't see anything, but she didn't miss the 'Oh crap, I've been caught' look in Quinn's eyes. But knowing her best friend Rachel thought that she was probably just looking up apartments for her and Puck and didn't want her to know it. "Can I borrow that cute little purple dress of yours?"

"Yeah, you know where it is" Quinn's eyes were full of guilt as she looked at her best friend. The loud bleeping from a Facebook conversation erupted from the computer and Rachel turned to look at her friend with a giant smile as she found the dress in the cupboard.

"Thanks Quinn" She said while quickly leaving the room and running back to hers to turn on her laptop. Once it finally got onto Facebook she went down into the little chat box to see that none of their mutual friends were online and that got her suspicions rolling in full force. "I can't believe it" She mumbled under her breath as she logged out of face book. She thought Quinn had become a better person after the whole Sam debacle. The thought of Sam brought a smile to her face as she remembered the plan. Finn didn't know it yet, but Sam was the entertainment for the party and in his breaks there will be karaoke and a DJ, and in those breaks she will be on Sam's arm the entire time, dancing and flirting with him.

"Are you almost ready Rach? We have to be left here in half an hour" Finn called out from the couch causing Rachel to roll her eyes and remove Finn's shirt from her body.

"I'll be ready in a minute" Her voice was full of annoyance as she slipped into the body hugging dress that reached mid-thigh and showed just the right amount of cleavage. A minute later the hair rollers were gone and her hair fell down to sit perfectly on her shoulders. Her tall heels were on her feet and her small clutch was in her hand and she was completely ready as she stared at herself in the mirror. "You are a sexy confident woman who can do anything. This is one of your last chances to look sexy before you blow up like a balloon and you are going to work it and make Finn super crazy and possessive and make him look like a complete fool. Now get out there and make him fall more in-love with you then ever." Rachel smiled one last time as she finished her sentence and walked towards the door.

"Okay, let's go" Finn said as he jumped up and turned to see her, his jaw immediately dropping as he saw her. "You look stunning" were the only words he could say and no matter how hard she tried she couldn't help but smile as she walked towards the door, her hips swinging from side to side causing Puck to look her way as well.

"You look totally smokin Berry" He said with no regrets, getting him a soft kick and a glare from Finn as Rachel just continued to smile as she opened the door and waited for Finn while she leant against it.

"Well are we going?" Finn could tell that she was impatient by the way she looked down to her fingernails and rested her other hand on her hip. Puck looked up to his friend who was immediately running to her side, causing him to shake his head and quietly laugh, getting him a glare from the two standing in the doorway as Finn slipped on his coat.

"You so have him whipped Rach!"

"I know" the two shared a happy smile as she waved goodbye and waltzed out the door with her head held high.

"You're such a great friend Puck" the two gave each other a pissed off look before breaking out into a light laughter as he put his scarf around his neck. He knew that Puck was only trying to mess with him but not cause any damage, that's what he claims he was doing in high school, when it actually hurt him more than expected, but he had good reason to be hurt by what happened, anyone would be hurt if every single girlfriend you had cheated on you with your best friend.

"Hurry up Finn" He rolled his eyes at his hormonal girlfriend before quickly running out the door and slamming it behind him.

"Sorry babe!" He said as he tried to grab a hold of her hand, frowning when she moved it out of his reach and walked ahead of him, keeping a frown on her eyebrows as she moved her hips in a sensual motion. Finn knew she would get mad at him if she found him staring right at her behind, but he couldn't help it. A smile appeared on Rachel's lips as she knew Finn was watching her from behind, and her plan was starting to work already.

Ten minutes later...

"Are you ready?" Rachel asked Finn as she looked at him from across the seat in their limo. He just nodded his head as the door beside Rachel opened and she grabbed onto his hand and pulled him out onto the giant carpet that was surrounded by hundreds of fans of the show, the actors and the producer whose party was about to take place. A camera was immediately in their faces as they continued to smile and wave to their adoring fans. Finn had no idea it would be such a public event, if he had of then he would have dressed nicer and wouldn't be the black sheep among all of the guests. "Don't tell anyone about little us" Rachel whispered into his ear, getting a nod and a smile as they walked over to their fans. Rachel pulled two sharpies out of her small bag and handed one to Finn as they started to greet fans and sign photos.

"Anything you would like to say to the birthday boy?" A camera man asked as he stood in front of them, making sure to get the fans in the back ground.

"Happy birthday Gabe, we love you so much" Rachel said with a giant smile as Finn wrapped his arm around her waist and looked at the camera with a smile as well.

"Happy birthday man, hope you get totally smashed and have a great time." Finn winked at the camera as the fans started to cheer in the back ground and the camera man moved over to talk to Ashley and her husband. The two looked at each other and smiled before turning back to the crowd and signing more autographs. By the time they made it to the door it had been half an hour and the crowd had started to die down from a lack of guest arrival. "Tonight is going to be awesome. Gabe is totally awesome; I can't believe he's only like twenty nine and already producing a television serious"

"Alright, just don't get to drunk cause I'm not taking care of a drunk you with a baby in me, if you vomit, then I vomit. Got it?" Finn just nodded his head as Rachel dragged him over to Gabriel who was standing by the inside of the entrance greeting people. "Happy Birthday" Rachel said happily as she wrapped her arms around his neck and he lifted her up and twirled around, his girlfriend looking at Rachel as though she was going to steal Gabriel away from her. Everyone had known that his girlfriend was a snobby bitch from the first time they all met her at a company dinner. She had looked at them all like they were dirt and didn't communicate with anyone the whole night as she texted on her expensive phone that Gabe had gotten her.

"Thank you Rachy Boo." The pair shared a laughed as he used the name she was hoping he would not call her that nick name he had given her from the first day she was on set again. They were filming the very first scene ever of child's play and when she had to be running down the hospital corridor, he jumped out and scared her, causing her to scream and jump back, falling into a pot plant and knocking it over, sending dirt flying everywhere and knocking a painting off the wall. The pair sat on the floor in all of the mess laughing hysterically as all of the rest of the cast and crew just shook their heads with a small smile.

"Happy birthday man" Finn said as he took him into a big man hug, patting his back before both let go after a few seconds. Rachel pulled a card out of her bag and handed it to him with a smile and a kiss before Finn and her grabbed onto each other's hands again and waved goodbye while entering the party after waiting so long. "This party is gonna be awesome" Finn said as he let go off Rachel's hand to give her a quick peck on the lips. "Can I go hang out with some of the guys" he asked in a sweet voice, getting a nod from Rachel as she pushed him away, hoping that it would be easier to find Sam that way.

"Hey Rach, you ready to drive your man crazy?" Sam asked as he wrapped his arms around her waist from behind, whispering in her ear with a giant smile. All she did was nod as she put her arm in his and pulled him over towards Finn and the other guys, a giant smile on her face as she started to fake laugh as they got closer.

"Sam, you are so funny. Oh, Finn. Did you know that Sam is the entertainment for tonight? How cool is that?" His eyes immediately went wide as he saw his girlfriend pressed against the one man in the world he found intimidating. He had no idea what to do and just shook his head with a blank stare, wishing he had said something as the two turned and walked away to the dance floor to join Ashley and the other girls.

"So that must be the Sam you are always talking about. Sorry to say but I think your girl is going to drop you for him if you don't pick up your game" Finn turned to see Adriane who played Bridgett's boyfriend in the show. He had a look of awe as he saw all of the girls feeling Sam's muscles. Finn simply punched him in the arm before taking a long drink of his beer, hoping that Rachel wouldn't leave him for Sam, taking away his first child in the process. It wasn't until Rachel started to feel his muscles that he felt the jealousy rush through him, but what could he do without looking like a total jerk?

"Do you think it's working?" Rachel whispered in Sam's ear as she started to move her body to the rhythm of the music. Sam put his hands on her hips and turned her around so he could face Finn and saw the same look that every other man would get when Sam goes near their girlfriend... Jealousy. A smile appeared as he nodded his head at the small brunette that continued to move her body around his. He knew that none of it meant anything and he would never get anywhere near her after this. But they were friends, and friends helped each other out when they needed it. But Finn hadn't really been his favourite person in the world, ever.

Two hours later…

"Okay, now time to get into a little karaoke. Who wants to go first?" Sam said with a giant smile, when no one immediately put their hands up he took it upon himself to choose the best singer in the entire building. "How about we get good old Rachel Berry up here to start us off" Everyone cheered loudly as Ashley pushed her towards the stage, wanting to hear her beautiful voice. "We all know who her perfect singing partner is, so why don't you get yourself up here Finn and help get this started" Without second thought Finn ran up to the stage, wanting to sing with her after so long.

"Oh, I think maybe someone else should start, how about the birthday boy?" Rachel looked at Sam with anger as she spoke into the microphone. She thought Sam had been on her side, but getting her to sing with Finn wasn't a part of the plan, if they sang together sho would want to love him because when he opened his mouth to sing she just couldn't resist.

"NO, I WANT YOU TO SING" Gabe shouted over to loud noise around the room, his smile causing her to roll her to sigh as she walked over and started to whispered to the DJ as Gabe put up his thumbs, grabbing onto his beer, wanting to see the two fall back in love, because if they didn't have the real life love in the back ground of their characters, then there would be no chemistry in the show and without that chemistry the ratings would go down and everyone knows that's how a show gets cancelled.

"You ready?" Finn asked and all Rachel could do was nod as they looked into each other's eyes before moving to the microphone stand in front of them, only Rachel knowing what song was about to blast out of the speakers.

You know that my heart is true

And I never lie to you

We try each and everyday

Still there's something in the way

Rachel started with a smile on her face, hoping Finn would get the message already, but instead he just smiled at her as she sang.

I like moonlight, simple things

Now you want a diamond ring

I got news for you

Baby I'm leaving you

Rachel sang the first line while placing her hands on her hips, ready to sing the next line, but instead Finn took over. He knew exactly what she was doing, and he wasn't going to give her the satisfaction because he wanted to make her love him all over again.

We both want a love that last

Girl you're moving away too fast

I live for your fantasy

A real love is what I need

Finn continued to sing as Rachel crossed her arms and looked away, not wanting to make eye contact.

You should be happy, tell you friends

This is where the movie ends

I got news for you

Baby I'm leaving you

Rachel finally took over again, singing into the microphone with a smile on her face as she looked up to see Finn staring at her, but as soon as she saw him staring her smile disappeared as he nudged her with his elbow and pulled her into his arms, not letting go no matter how hard she tried. Everyone in the crowd cheered louder as he started to sway them back and forth, a giant smile planted firmly on his face.

Let me tell you girl

I hear what you say, I see what you're doing girl

I don't wanna play

We're livin' in two different worlds

He twirled her out as he sung his next line, playfully snapping his fingers in a Z formation while he placed his free hand on his hip. A bigger smile formed as he heard her small laugh as she shook her head, moving back over to the microphone with him.

Tell me boy it ain't true

The rumours that I hear about you

About all the girls you knew before

Who come and go right out your door

Rachel tilted her head to the side as she looked to Finn who just shrugged his shoulders as she sang, looking over at him with every word that left her mouth.

I like moonlight, simple things

Go out and get a diamond ring

I got news for you

Baby I'm leaving you, baby I'm leaving you

Rachel continued on to sing the first line, letting Finn take over for the next like they had at the beginning, but this Time she joined back in for the last lines in the verse.

Gone

I got news for you

The two shared a smile as they sang the last note of the song, getting them an overly excited crowd as they took their bows and made their way off the stage. Sam smirked as Rachel approached him with a glare planted firmly on her face and her hands on her hips.

"Why did you make me sing with him?"

"Because he came to me first" Sam smiled and waved at Finn from across the room. The two air high fived before going back to their private conversations as Rachel looked back and forth between the pair with a shocked expression. "He's a better actor then you think Rachel, and a great guy. I suggest that you get over this and raise that little baby of yours with love and care because you two are perfect for each other and I know that baby will be perfect."

"I don't care what you think Sam, I am not letting this go, even if it takes my whole life" Rachel spoke with tears forming in her eyes as she looked at the big mouthed boy in front of her. Before he could respond she turned her back to him and walked away, giving a quick goodbye to Gabe as she made her way to the door, not looking back as Finn's entire face fell and Sam fell back into the chair behind him, resting a towel over his eyes. Their plan had failed and there was nothing they could do about it, nothing at all.

End Flashback…

"Do you have to do that, it is so irritating?" Rachel said as she glared over at him from the passenger side of the car.

"Do what? You have been telling me to stop since we got into the damn elevator and you still haven't told me what it is I'm doing" Rachel rolled her eyes as she looked over to him as though he was the biggest idiot in the world. He had become overly obnoxious since she was six months along and she just wanted him to go die in a hole.

"Stop breathing so loud, oh and at night can you try not to talk in your sleep because that really gets on my nerves, I swear you go out of your way to talk extremely loud"

"I can't help that fact that I talk in my sleep" Finn spoke incredulously. All he saw was her rolling her eyes before the elevator doors opened and she walked out as fast as she could, Finn running close behind knowing that she would start a fight if he didn't. "So do you want to go out to lunch?" He immediately regrated asking the question as soon as he saw the glare she sent him. Fear ran through him as he knew she would yell at him repeatedly, at least that's usually what she did when he asked 'stupid' questions. But instead she just ignored him and stood by the car door, folding her arms over her chest and resting them on her giant stomach. "I take that as a no" Finn mumbled as he unlocked the door and slipped into the driver's seat.

Four months ago...

"I hate not working" Rachel complained as she rested her head on Quinn's lap, rubbing her growing stomach as the two watched an old episode of child's play. Quinn caressed her best friends hair as they both saw Rachel come up on the screen her uniform covered in mud, twigs in her messed up pony tail and dirt all over her face.

"What happened to you?" Quinn and Rachel said in unison as Ashley's character Amy walked up and pulled a twig out of Rachel's hair. Quinn smiled down at her best friend who watched herself on the TV, upset that Finn was out earning money and doing what they both loved while she was stuck at home watching old re-runs.

"I ah, well It's a long story" The on-screen Rachel dumped her bag on the floor as she slapped Ashley's hand away and moved over to the kitchen table to kiss her mother on the cheek.

"How was your day?" She asked in a sweet voice, Quinn and Rachel continued to say every line in the scene as they lay in the dark room, just having a lazy day while their men went out to work.

"That cat is still after me" The two shrieked at the same time as Rachel's on-screen mother did, the two continued to laugh as the woman ran from the kitchen, a foil hat sat firmly on her head as Rachel and Ashley shared a look before she walked over to the fridge, leaving a mud stain as she pulled out a cold bottle of vitamin water. Quinn and Rachel jumped as the phone abruptly rang, the small brunette reached across to the table and picked up, taking her head off of Quinn's lap as she did.

"Hello?" She asked, her face contorting as a deep unknown voice rang in her ear. Quinn cocked her eye brow as Rachel continued to look towards the now paused television screen. "Oh, so you're calling for Quinn? Yeah, she's here, I'll get her for you" Rachel tossed the phone to Quinn who gave her a question look to which she only got a shrug in reply. "Said something about your car?" Quinn's eyes widened as she leapt from the lounge and ran to the kitchen, giving the immediate impression that it was a personal call. But nobody knew Rachel Berry to mind her own business.

"I told you not to call here, I said I'd call you to meet up" Rachel sat down against the wall outside the kitchen door, her bump getting in the way, stopping her knee's from completely sitting against her chest as she did her best to hide from her best friends sight. "Puck can't know about this ok, no one can because it will get me a reputation of being a slut" The small brunette's eyes widened as she leant in closer to the door way, needing more than wanting to hear the conversation displaying before her. She would have picked up the other phone if it hadn't of been strategically placed in the kitchen, the one place she couldn't enter. "I can't wait to see it. I will look totally hot in it. We both know it" Quinn slightly giggled, causing Rachel to gag, knowing that she was talking about lingerie. She wished she could hear the entire other side of the conversation and that she could just reach the phone, but she knew she couldn't and that her wish would never become a reality. At that very moment the small being inside of her decided to kick like crazy, causing a giant smirk to appear on Rachel's lips.

"Sorry to interrupt but my baby needs food" Rachel said as she walked into the room, rubbing her stomach as Quinn covered her other ear and exited the room, just like Rachel had wanted. That started the rush like a mad woman to reach the phone on the opposite side of the room.

"So when can I expect to see you next?" the deep voice asked. Rachel held her hand over her mouth to stop her breath from being heard as she knew Quinn had super hearing and could detect anything a mile away.

"Um, is tonight okay with you?"

"Yeah! Where we met last, same time, got it?"

"Yep, I'll see you then" The pair hung up the phone as Rachel slowly made a move to place it back on the hook, anger rising within her. Her best friend was cheating on Puck and she seemed like she didn't even care. Everyone had thought the pair was perfect, but obviously Quinn's needs hadn't been satisfied by the one man that truly loved her. Rachel heard Quinn's footsteps coming towards the kitchen and made a quick movement to open the fridge and start browsing the items inside.

"Do we have any left over pasta from last night?" Rachel asked as she saw Quinn's shadow appear on the wall beside her.

"Yeah, it should be in the blue container on the top shelf. You want me to heat some up?" Rachel simply nodded her head and passed the container to her best friend. She had no idea how Quinn could cheat on Puck, and act like nothing is going on, it hurt her more then she had ever anticipated it to, and what makes it even strange was that it wasn't even her relationship on the line. "Don't you have to send Finn that text, for your 'annoy Finn one day at a time' thing?" Quinn asked with an innocent look. Rachel just rolled her eyes and pulled her black berry out of her pocket, her mind racing a million miles per hour with so many different things she could send to Finn. A smile appeared on her lips as she started to type.

Hey Finny, the baby just kicked again, I can't believe you keep missing it. Sucks so much:(

A smile played at her lips as she hit the send button, put her phone on silent and tossed it onto the couch, not caring what he had to reply back.

End Flashback...

"So, what do you want to do for the rest of the day?" Finn asked with a hesitant voice as he navigated his way through the full car park. Ever since Puck and Quinn had moved out it was just him and Rachel which resulted in a million fights and him sleeping on the couch almost every night.

"Well Finn, I want to go home, lock myself in our room and sleep. Is that okay wi—" Finn Quickly swerved out of the way as a car backed out, almost hitting them in the process. "What a jerk"

"Agreed" Finn continued to drive, Rachel completely forgetting that she they were having a conversation before Finn avoided an accident. The two sat in silence as they came closer and closer to the exit, waiting eagerly for the radio to start working again to stop the awkwardness between them. They both knew that the only thing keeping them together was the small baby girl Rachel was carrying and that if she hadn't of been conceived the two would probably already be with someone else, forgetting all of the amazing things about the relationship they once had. As soon as the car entered the light of the outside world the radio kicked in.

Cause this is the last night of our lives,

Yeah we're gonna make it last forever.

And if they try to stop us now,

All we have is each other,

Just one another,

That'll help us through our troubled lives.

Cause it'll always be,

Just you and me.

So let's make it last forever.

"Santana's really making a name for herself don't you think?" Finn asked as the pair listened to their friends beautiful voice blasting from the cars stereo. No one had ever expected for Santana to be the one to write a soulful, moving ballad, or to at least get out of Lima. But she had shocked everyone when she became the opening act for Miley Cyrus's concert, and getting an encore, causing the actual concert to start almost an hour late just for the fact that Santana was a better singer then Miley Cyrus. (A/N: Sorry Miley fans, I don't mean to offend anyone!) But they were all proud of her because she had caused a rivalry with the brunette Disney born star.

"Yeah, I just don't get how she couldn't write a song like this for glee club" Finn let out a small laugh as Rachel smiled at him for the first time that day, causing his heart to melt as he remembered all of the reasons he loved her. Ranging from her Beautiful smile, to her amazing voice, ending with her amazing personality that he wished he had. She was always so nice to people no matter who they were or what they did and most people were envious of that.

"I just really love you!" He said in a soft, calm and loving tone, causing a blush to appear on his girlfriend's cheeks. She knew that without little Finchel there would be no them, everyone did. But it still made her heart beat fast when she heard those words escape his lips, it was something she just couldn't stop and she had no idea why!

Two months ago...

"I feel like I've been pregnant forever!" Rachel groaned as she walked out into the lounge room, glaring at Quinn who sat in Puck's arms, kissing his lips happily, acting as though she wasn't cheating on him behind his back.

"It's only been six months Rach, it'll be over soon any way and then we will have our beautiful baby Finchel and everything will be totally awesome" Rachel rolled her eyes as Finn wrapped his arms around her waist, resting his warm hands on her protruding stomach that wasn't yet finished growing.

"You try being the pregnant one Finn; it isn't a walk in the park." Quinn and Puck looked up to the pair with smiles on their faces, causing Finn and Rachel to roll their eyes and walk over to them by the couch. For the past few months the fiancés had been working on their wedding, getting everything that needed to be organized done. "Are you two smiling because you got your save the date photo's back and you look amazing and in-love and everyone else will be jealous?" Quinn immediately nodded with a giant smile on her face, holding up the pile of photo's the first looking amazing as Quinn's beautiful blonde hair sat on her shoulders in light curls, while Puck's Mohawk had finally been shaven off, just for Quinn.

"Don't we look perfect?" She asked while staring down at the photos with full admiration, Puck wrapping his arm around her waist a giant smile appearing on his lips as he watched the woman he loved almost in tears at how amazing they looked together. "I can't wait to send these out to everyone"

"Well Quinny, I can't wait til the Forth of September so I can finally marry you"

"I'll be back" Rachel said as she pushed herself of the floor, resting her hand on the small of her back and struggling to get to her feet. She missed being able to do things with ease, but everything would be back to normal in three months, just like Finn said. She made her way to the kitchen and leant against the fridge, closing her eyes as she rested her hands on the bottom of her abdomen. She wanted to tell Puck about Quinn's adultery so badly, but she knew it would kill him inside and he was one of her best friends in the entire world, and she couldn't break his heart, that was something Quinn had to do.

"Are you ok Rach?" Finn's voice broke the silence as he stepped into the kitchen, concern lacing his features as he continued to walk towards her. "Is something bugging you?"

"I'm fine! Do you know how long til Kurt gets here to go baby shopping?" The two shared a look that said everything. Using his tall lankiness, Finn reached up to the top shelf and grabbed down Rachel's favourite cereal, offering it to her with a crocked grin. "I thought we could get something to eat on the way to the store, if you don't mind?"

"Sounds great mum to be" The pair jumped at the sound of a certain soprano that had been a no show for so long. A smile appeared on Finn's face as he pulled his brother into a tight hug. He would never admit it, but he loved Kurt more then he led on. He was the best brother he had ever had, mainly because he was the only brother he had, and ever will have. "We need to finish planning this baby shower of yours because everyone is already organising the trip up here just for little baby Finchel" Kurt said with a baby voice as he pulled the brunette girl in front of him into a giant hug.

"We have a bit over a month to plan Kurt, everything will be ok"

"Finn, everything has to be perfect for my little niece or nephew and, oh that reminds me, when are you finding out the sex?" Kurt looked at the pair expectantly, his arms crossed over his chest and his foot tapping silently on the tiled floor. Fear took over them as they slowly moved closer together, not wanting to tell Kurt that they had found out a month ago, because he had demanded he be the first they tell. "Well, do you know?"

"Ah, yeah tell him Rachel" Finn said moving his girlfriend to stand in front of him, knowing that Kurt wouldn't go crazy at a pregnant woman. Rachel rolled her eyes as she looked back to Finn who was still full of fear. She had never known him to back down, but there was always time to start and Finn chose this very moment to do so.

"Coward" She mumbled as she pushed his hands off her shoulders and walked over to Kurt. "You might want to take a seat."

"Why, is it bad, you're not having a hermaphrodite are you? Oh gosh, how am I going to shop for this kid, it's neither female nor male... Yellow, that's it. Yellow is a neutral colour." Kurt's face was completely white as he started to pace the room, unsure of what he was going to do.

"Kurt it's not a hermaphrodite, and so what if it was, we would all love it the same no matter what. The reason I told you to sit is because we're having a girl and I have had to put up with all of your rants about how much you would love to have a niece and..." Rachel's sentence was cut short as Kurt fell to the floor, completely drained of colour, but a smile on his face as he lay unconscious. Rachel had expected him to be excited, but fainting was an extreme. Finn fanned his brother's face until he woke up; looking at the pair hovering above him, complete embarrassment on all of his features.

"Ok, we have to go and start shopping right now" Before Finn or Rachel could reply Kurt grabbed onto their hands and led them out of their apartment, giving Quinn and Puck a quick goodbye. Rachel really didn't want to go out into public. She had gone on a couple of public outings just for Robert who had made the valid point that if she became a hermit during her pregnancy people won't know what to think when she finally comes back out into the public with a baby. Finn smiled down at her as Kurt pushed them into a cab, not caring how squishy it got or that people were watching them curiously.

One hour later...

"So I think this colour would look absolutely adorable" Kurt said while holding up a tiny pink onesie with a giant smile on his face. Rachel slowly rubbed her stomach as she looked at all of the overly frilly and lacy baby clothes around her, knowing that she didn't want to dress her child in any of them. The horrified look on Finn's face showed her that he was too scared to even look at them, afraid that it would turn him to stone, just like they clothes were medusa in clash of the titans.

"Can we try a different shop, these clothes are kind of burning my eyes" Rachel whispered into Kurt's ear as she shoved the onesie he was ready to take to the check-out back on the rack. Kurt glared at her as he took it back off the rack and made his way to the check-out again.

"It's designer and baby Finchel deserves the best." Kurt handed it to the woman at the front desk with a smile and handed her his credit card. "Savings please" She smiled back flirtatiously; not catching on that Kurt was gay. As he aged his feminine features got slightly more manly, giving him a hot and rugged look that got woman to swoon over him and develop crushes that only he knew would lead nowhere. He quickly typed in his pin code and took the bag from her, sending one last smile as he grabbed onto Rachel's hand and left without another word.

"You have to stop leading on these women Kurt, it isn't fair"

"It's just a little fun, it's not like I'm ever going to see her again" The two rolled their eyes as Finn slowly walked behind them, staying out of the conversation between the pair, but both of them knew he thought she was hot, It wouldn't take a genius to figure that out. She was tall, blonde, and beautiful and had an excessive amount of cleavage.

"It's not like she was that good looking" Finn said with an innocent voice, causing the two in front of him to stop and turn around to face him. It wasn't that they were shocked at what he said; it was that they both knew he was lying through his teeth to ensure that Rachel didn't hate him even more then she already did. "I like a girl that is natural, you know? Comfortable with her own style and doesn't need to shove her breasts in a man's face to get noticed. That's why I love you so much Rachel" The first thing that came to both Kurt and Rachel's minds was sophomore year at McKinley high when he had stated the exact same thing. He pulled her back into his arms and kissed the top of her head as they continued to walk, Rachel still in his arms as Kurt continued to lead the way. Camera's immediately starting to flash like crazy as the pair was seen snuggled up against each other in the street.

"Am I going to be in magazines with you guys?" Kurt was completely giddy as he smiled at the pair and gave a little skip before kicking his heels, all because he was just so excited to be seen in a magazine. A smirk took over Rachel's face as Finn whispered that he loved her. This was her moment to put plan public humiliation into play. It was a little something she and Santana had concocted over emails a few weeks back and she had been waiting for the perfect moment to strike. She pushed his arms of her and slapped his left cheek with as much force as her tiny body would allow. Camera's immediately started to flash again as she looked at him with fake tears in her eyes and her other hand on her stomach.

"Why are you always such a jerk Finn? This day was perfect until you decided to ruin it, just leave me alone" Kurt and Finn looked at each other confused by the scene playing out before them. Before he could reply she took off down the street, fast for a six month pregnant woman, and didn't look back once. The false tears continued to fall until she was in a taxi and no one could see it was all an act.

Back to reality...

"You don't love me Finn"

"If you don't believe me then open the glove box" Rachel cocked her eyebrow, but did as he instructed none the less. "Now move the little plastic thing at the bottom and pull out what's in there" Rachel moved the plastic bottom and searched in the small space until she found the small velvet box. A gasp escaped her lips as she pulled it out into full view. She wasn't expecting him to ever propose in her entire life because she was sure he wanted nothing to do with her, but obviously she had been wrong because of the one piece of evidence that rested in her hand, showing that maybe, just maybe he did still love her.

"Is this you proposing?" She was more hopeful for him to say yes then she ever expected. She felt like her sixteen year old self dreaming about her and Finn's marriage when they were twenty-five and she had won several tony awards and was ready to finally have sex and have children... well obviously the waiting to have children was already out the window, but there was still the chance for her and Finn to get married, and that thought brought a smile to her face, forcing her to forget how much she wanted him gone.

"No... I was going to propose, about a year ago but I changed my mind because I was mad and thought you didn't love me. I just kept the ring because I hoped that one day I would see the love you used to have for me again. I could always tell by your eyes, that was the dead giveaway when you loved someone and I know you still have it because every time we see baby Finchel you always get that same look, you can deny it all you want, but it's there."

"What made you think I didn't love you?"

"The way you looked at Jesse!" Finn looked away from the road for a split second to see a single tear running down Rachel's cheek. But before he could ask what was wrong the worst happened. One thing Finn never anticipated could ever happen in his life.

"FINN" Rachel screamed as a taxi crashed into her side of the car. He wanted it to be exactly like the movies when everything goes black and you don't have to listen to the pain and hurt of the one you loved. But no, he had to live in reality where he sat upside down in the driver's seat, hearing Rachel scream out in pain, hysterical crying present in her voice and all he wanted was for it all too just end.

Two weeks earlier...

"Baby shower, baby shower, baby shower" Kurt chanted as he placed food on the dinner table that had been laced in the corner. "I am so excited" Rachel just shook her head with a giant smile as she walked out into the lounge room in her skinny jeans and a tank top that hugged her stomach. "I am so excited for baby Finchel to come along. She is going to be so cute and adorable and I might steal her if you're not careful"

"You can't have my baby!" Kurt, Quinn, Finn and Puck all turned to Rachel who was hugging her stomach protectively in an attempt to keep her step-brother in law away from her first child. Kurt had been overly excited about his little niece ever since he heard the news about Rachel's pregnancy.

"Have you too got a name for her yet?" Quinn asked with an innocent smile. The truth still hadn't come out about her affair with the mysterious deep voiced man, and the wedding was still getting closer and closer, Puck not suspecting a thing and happier than ever. Rachel knew she had to talk to her about it, but how do you ask someone if they are cheating on their fiancé? You can't just straight out ask then... Can't you?

"We were thinking that we might call her Emily" Finn's smile was a mile wide as everyone nodded their heads in approval.

"Quinn can we talk in private?" The blonde nodded her head and led Rachel into her and Finn's bedroom. A smile still on her face as she looked down to her shorter friend. Rachel had no idea how she was going to ask. 'Hey Quinn, I know you're having an affair so we're cool right?' or maybe 'I know you're cheating on Puck you slut, if you don't tell him I will. You don't want to take that chance do you?'

"So what did you want to ask?" Quinn asked, happiness lacing her words. The way she had to word this particular sentence was very important. She couldn't be over casual about it, but she also couldn't be too angry about it. It had to be in the very middle, casual but mad. A smile appeared on Rachel's face as she looked at her best friend who just smiled back and sat down on the end of her bed.

"Are you cheating on Puck?"

"No Rachel, that is the stupidest thing I've ever heard" The small brunette gritted her teeth together as she crossed her arms over her chest and took a step closer to her best friend. She couldn't believe that Quinn was lying right to her face. They had made a pact to tell each other the truth about everything, because that's what friends do. They don't keep things from each other, especially something as big as cheating on the one person they love.

"I know that you are cheating on Puck. You are always acting strange and hiding things. Every second Friday you are always going out and none of us know where. Oh and also, you are always making arrangements to meet up with that deep voiced guy who is always supposedly fixing you're car. I'm not an idiot Quinn"

"Do you really want to know what's going on?" Rachel immediately nodded her head and sat down next to Quinn who was staring at her best friend's stomach with a small smile. "First of all, I am not cheating on Puck with Rick... Rick is the deep voiced guy by the way, and the reason I'm always going out every second Friday is because I'm taking a sex class to impress Puck for our honey moon. Plenty of women take it and Rick teaches us all how to satisfy our man's wants. I was going to ask you to come with me but you were having troubles with Finn and then the pregnancy and I figured you're not going to want to come to some stupid little class."

"I'm sorry Quinn" She was expecting for Quinn to yell at her like the old high school Queen bee, bitch that would rip you to shreds if you even looked at her. But surprisingly all she did was smile and shake her head before helping her friend up off the bed.

"You didn't know, I would have thought the same thing if it was you. Now let's go back out into the living room cause I think I can hear people arriving" The two walked back out to join everyone to see almost all of the guests had arrived while they were speaking. "Gee they all got here quick" the two shared a smile as Rachel walked over to Carol, Burt and the twos seven year old daughter Annabelle who were in the process of talking to Finn who had the largest smile on his face.

"Hey" Rachel said as she lightly tickled Anna, causing her to jump at the sudden touch. She quickly hugged them all before wrapping her arm around Finn's waist and leaning against him. "I'm so glad you guys could make it"

"We wouldn't have missed this for the world. How are you holding up?" Carol quickly scooped up Rachel's arm in her own and led her away from the two men and Anna. The two smiled at each other before continuing on with a conversation about little baby Finchel.

"I'm so glad Rach and Mum get along"

"Same, I would hate to see what would happen if she hated her. Shit would hit the fan" Burt and Finn shared a quiet laugh as Anna looked around the room confused and lost. She hated being the only child out of all of Finn's friends that had children, well at least children that weren't babies.

"Hey Anna, do you want to meet Aunty Tina and Uncle Mike's baby boy?" Kurt asked the young girl who just rolled her eyes and nodded her head. She was sick to death of babies. Everyone was having them lately and it annoyed her that she had to meet them all when none of them were never going to remember who she was.

"Sure Kurt" As she made her way over to her brother the front door swung open as a small blond girl entered, shortly followed by a brunette woman who looked remarkably like Rachel. It didn't take long for her to realise that it was her to realise who it was and smiled as she saw them hugging Rachel who was now talking to Santana and Brittany. "Who's the young blonde girl?"

"That's Beth, Rachel's little sister that is actually the daughter of Quinn and Puck who had her when they were sixteen and she was adopted by Rachel's mum. It's all really confusing, but was the biggest scandal back in the day" Anna smiled as Kurt ruffled her hair and smiled down at her.

"Why was it such a scandal?"

"Well young Anna, Quinn had been dating Finn at the time and she cheated on him with Puck and got pregnant. She ten told Finn that the baby was his and he believed her even though they hadn't had sex before that and he was a virgin. Rachel had figured it out and told Finn and he got super mad and everything was terrible. Luckily he's over it now, and is in-love with Rachel otherwise everything would be really awkward." Kurt smiled at her one last time before grabbing her hand and leading her over to Beth. "You can meet baby James later, I want you to meet Beth. I'm sure you will be great friends"

One hour later...

"Open mine now." Brittany said as she jumped up and down in her seat. Rachel picked up the large box covered in duck wrapping paper. Santana took James out of Brittany's arms as she saw the scared look in Tina and Mikes faces. Everyone knew Brittany loved babies more than anything in the world and always knew the best clothes and toys to get them. But she didn't realise how breakable they were and that she had to be super careful with them. It's not like she trow them around the place, but she would make little mistakes that could lead to the worst. As Rachel peeled the wrapping paper off baby Finchel started to kick, bringing a smile to her face.

"I think she's excited Britt, she's kicking like crazy" Everyone lightly laughed as Finn helped Rachel with the rest of the paper, ravelling a duck play set for babies three months old too three years old. "Thanks Britt" The two said in unison, getting a smile from all of their family and friends.

Ten minutes later...

"Okay everyone, now we're going to play a little game called Pin the sperm on the egg." Rachel's eye brows immediately shot up as she looked over to her brother in-law who just smiled back. Quinn was in a fit of hysterics as Kurt pulled the giant Velcro vagina and stuck it up on the wall. The two parents to be thought it couldn't get any worse that is until Kurt pulled out the bag of Velcro sperm. Almost everyone was either laughing or snickering as Rachel became light headed and looked to Finn with wide eyes.

"Am I the only one who didn't know this game existed?" All of the women except for Quinn nodded their heads while Quinn fell to the floor from laughing so hard. "You could have told me about this game prior to today Kurt"

"It wouldn't have been fun that way. So the way you play is just like pin the tail on the donkey, but instead it's a sperm and you have to get it right on this egg" Kurt pointed to the egg that was stuck to the side of the uterus and smiled as he handed out the sperm to everyone in the room. "I am so glad that Beth and Anna are playing in your room, this would be awkward explaining everything"

"It's already awkward Kurt. Quinn's on the floor laughing hysterically while playing with her sperm like she's a little child and making silly noises. Oh and there is a giant Vagina on my wall which just adds to the awkwardness" Finn continued to stare at Quinn while he spoke. Amazed at how she was so grown up and mature, but when she is handed a Velcro sperm she becomes this child again. But a child who knows what sperm is and pretends that it is in the middle of a horse race.

"You'll get over it" Rachel smiled at Kurt as she took a sperm out of the bag and patted Finn on the head. "It's not like he is going to permanently leave the lady up on our wall" Finn couldn't help but smile at her innocence and the fact that she still continued to call it a lady after so many years.

"I'm so going first" Quinn called out as she jumped up from the floor and slipped the sleeping mask over her face. Kurt spun her around three times and set her off for the first attempt at pinning the sperm on the egg. After she finally reached the wall she place the sperm down a meter away from where it was supposed to be and sliding down the wall till it reached the ground. She eagerly pulled off the mask to see she wasn't even close and let out a soft laugh as she picked it back up and tossed it in the bag, not wanting anymore distractions.

Ten minutes later...

"I think it's safe to say Sam is the winner of this one" Kurt spoke with a smile and pulling down the giant vagina. "Finn can you go get his prize out of the freezer?"

"Yes, I get a popsicle" Mercedes smiled at how immature her boyfriend was, and couldn't help but laugh when Finn came back into the room with a sperm penetrating an egg on a popsicle stick. The two boys just looking at it strange, wondering how Kurt actually managed to create a Popsicle in that shape.

"I brought them in town this morning at the baby shop, I'm not a genius"

"They taste good too" Rachel said as she walked back out of the kitchen, sucking on a green penis shaped Popsicle, trying her hardest not to laugh as everyone looked to her shocked at the action she was creating. " Don't judge me" Finn shook his head and smiled as she sat down on his lap and looked over to Kurt, waiting for the next game to be announced. He wrapped his arms around her waist and took in her scent with a large grin. He had always loved the way she smelt of berries, and the fact that it was completely ironic for things to play out that way.

"Why is it a penis?" Kurt asked mortified as took a closer look at the Popsicle he hadn't brought.

"Oh, Puck got these from the sex shop before he and Quinn moved out, I didn't think anyone would notice it wasn't the same" Puck smirked as everyone sat their awkwardly not knowing what to do as Rachel continued to eat her penis popsicle.

"So next we are all going to play how well do you know mummy to be?" Quinn quickly handed out the hundreds of pieces of paper and pens to everyone in the room as Kurt smiled at how much everyone was enjoying themselves. He thought that the males in the room would have been bored out of their minds, but surprisingly they were all having fun, wanting to have one of the popsicles that Sam had overly enjoyed and didn't even share with Mercedes because he loved it so much. "Now in this game you have the column with all of the attributes, then the mum column and the dad column. So the way this works is you have to tick either the mummy or daddy box for each attribute and the one you tick has to be the one you think Rachel wants that attribute to come from. Got it?" Everyone nodded as they started to tick the boxes, taking their time to think over their answers.

Five minutes later...

"So the way I want you to answer is say the attribute then either Finn or Rachel" Kurt said with a smile as Santana made her way to the front of the room.

"Eyes Rachel, Ears Finn, Nose Finn, Legs Rachel, Hair Rachel, Smile Finn, Intelligence Rachel, Voice Rachel and Humour Rachel." She sent everyone an 'I'm gonna win this' smirk before taking her seat beside Brittany again. She knew that that was everything Rachel wanted for her little girl because it would make her completely perfect in every way.

Ten minutes later...

"So eyes Finn, Ears Finn, Nose Finn, Legs Rachel, Hair Rachel, Smile Finn, Intelligence Rachel, Voice Rachel and Humour Finn" Puck sent them all a salute as he re-took his seat on the lounge arm closest to the kitchen, hoping he could sneak into the kitchen and get a popsicle. "Your turn Rachel" Everyone looked to the mum to be and smiled as Finn helped her up out of her seated position and made her way to the front of the room.

"So Finn and I worked on this together and it makes our perfect little girl. So we want her to have my eyes, Finn's ears and nose, well obviously his nose because I really hope she isn't stuck with mine." Everyone let out a small laugh as Rachel looked to Finn for their next few choices.

"My legs cause Rachel said she wants tall kids, Rachel's hair, and a mixture of our smiles if we can choose that, Rachel's intelligence, her voice and her humour."

"So I guess that makes Shelby the winner" Kurt said with a giant smile, handing her a red baby booty Popsicle. He had expected that either Shelby or Carol would have won it because the two parents were their children, even though Shelby hadn't raised Rachel it didn't change anything.

Half an hour later...

"Ok so the last game is celebrity baby game. It is pretty simple, so we have one sheet of cardboard with baby bodies and celebrities heads, with another sheet with the baby heads and celebrities bodies. So the whole idea is that you all have to guess which celebrity head goes with which body" Quinn handed everyone a note pad and pen while Kurt Blue tacked the two pieces of cardboard to the wall. "We have some familiar faces today" Kurt said with a giant smile as everyone saw Rachel, Finn, Sam, Mercedes and Santana's faces stuck on five of the ten baby bodies. Finn was the only one not laughing at how ridiculous they all looked on baby bodies. He was more afraid that he would get it all wrong and look like a complete idiot in front of people he had known most of his life so far.

Ten minutes later...

"So we've had everyone except Rachel and Finn, our two parents. How about you go first Rachel?" All she could do was nod as Kurt let her take the front of the room. She was afraid that she would get them all wrong and look like a complete fool, not knowing what her body looks like.

"Um so one and nine is Sam, Two and Eight is Beyoncé, Three and One is Santana, Four and ten is Finn, I would know cause I see his body all the time which you would all know was the start of the reason we are all here today." Finn smiled at her as she nervously looked back down to her note pad. He could tell that she was just as scared as he was about getting them wrong, but he thought it was completely adorable when she got nervous like she was now. "Five and three are Mercedes, Six and Two are Barbara Streisand, seven and five are Angelina Jolie, Eight and Six are Patti LuPone, Nine and Seven is me I think, well I'm hoping, and Ten and Four Miley Cyrus" Santana let out a soft growl at the name of her arch nemesis.

"Okay, well everyone was right except for Rachel who got Miley Cyrus and her own body mixed up" Kurt handed out popsicles to everyone except Rachel who laughed a little to hide the fact that she was completely embarrassed.

"I guess I just haven't seen my body like that in a long time. I got to pee so I'll be back" Everyone continued on with eating their popsicles as Rachel raced off to the bathroom, trying to hide the fact that her hormones had kicked in and she was about to cry like a baby. Throughout her pregnancy so far she had been really good with holding back her hormones and not ripping people to shreds or blubbering like a child. But there was always that little slip up where it would escape and she could do nothing about it... This was one of those moments!

"Why are you crying Rachel? You have no need to cry" She asked herself in a stern voice, looking at herself in the mirror. Her gaze moved down to her giant stomach as she turned to her side almost bursting into tears as she remembered that the amazing figure she had had since she was sixteen was gone forever and now all she would have is baby fat and stretch marks. She softly rested a hand on her stomach, trying her hardest not to cry to loud or everyone would hear her and become curious and nosey about what was going on.

"Hey babe, are you ok?" Finn asked as he pushed open the door, quickly closing it behind him to stop people from noticing what was going on. As soon as he saw the tears rolling down her cheeks he immediately pulled her into his arms without second thought. He didn't care if she hated him and wanted nothing to do with him, but she was the love of his life and he would do anything to make her happy. "Are you crying because you got your own body wrong in the game, because if you are it was a mistake that anyone could have made, and no one actually cares becau—"

"It's more than that Finn. I'm never going to look the same again and I'm afraid people are going to judge me on that. I just wish things would go back to the way they were when we were more in-love than ever and everything was happy and innocent with no babies and fighting." Her tears continued to fall as she wrapped her arms around his body, not wanting him to leave her at that very moment. As much as she hated him most of the time she couldn't deny the fact that she loved him more than anything in the world. "Can you answer a question for me?"

"Sure babe"

"If I died, who do you think would be the next woman you love in the world?" Finn looked down into Rachel's teary eyes and couldn't help but smile at how beautiful she looked.

"Do you want me to be truthful?" All Rachel could do was nod her head as Finn let go of her tiny body and knelt down in front of her, placing his big hands on her growing stomach. "Our Daughter" Before he could say anything else Rachel pressed her lips to his, kissing him with more passion than any other kiss that they had shared in their entire relationship. "I love you"

"I love you too"

Back to reality...

"RACHEL, RACHEL. WHERE'S RACHEL?" Finn shouted from his hospital bed. He was covered in scratches and bruises, with the biggest and worst wound being the extremely long and deep cut up his leg that had been stitched up two hours prior while they had him knocked out. He hadn't seen Rachel since they had been split up at the scene. He had been harder to get out of the car then her and because of her condition she was rushed to hospital while they worked on getting him out, the Jaws of Life being the only thing saving him from the death trap that held so many memories that were now just scrap mental in a junk heap.

"Miss Berry is in surgery Mr Hudson. We will take you too see her as soon as she regains consciousness." A nurse stated as soon as she entered the room, placing a food tray down in front of him with a giant smile. But her smile did nothing for her what she just said, causing Finn to become completely and utterly concerned.

"Surgery, why is she in surgery? Is the baby fine, please tell me our little girl didn't die?" His words came out a million miles an hour, but as soon as soon as she pulled the 'I'm so sorry' face he knew that he had lost his little girl. Without second thought he tossed the food tray at the wall in a fit of anger, just missing the nurse as she stepped out of the way just in the nick of time. Tears immediately started to fall as he ran his hands through his hair and fell back to his pillow, turning away from the nurse and just staring out the window at the depressing amount of rain that decided to fall at the perfect movie moment.

"Are you alright sir?"

"Just go away please" Without questioning his want she immediately left the room, leaving just him and his thoughts to ponder over the greatest loss in his entire life.

-GLEE-

"FINN, WHERE'S FINN? Rachel screamed out as they closed the ambulance doors. She had no idea what was going on around her as paramedics started to check her using different tools that scared her even more. All she could remember was hanging upside in her seat, constant pain shooting through her body while Finn tried to calm her down. He had tried everything from telling her things would be ok, to I love you, but nothing worked. Losing baby Finchel was a certain, she knew it was going to happen and it wasn't until she was in the ambulance that she felt the instant wetness of blood between her legs. "I've lost her haven't I?" No one would answer her question as they rushed around the ambulance, not even paying attention to what she was saying.

"We have to go straight to surgery" A tall blonde man called out to the second paramedic as he saw the blood soaking through her jeans. As much as she wanted to cry nothing came out and she was left lying in a small puddle of her blood, knowing she was carrying a dead child. But still, no tears came.

-GLEE-

"Rachel is out of surgery if you want to see her" Quinn said as she walked into Finn's room. Puck closely followed behind with Quinn's laptop bag hung over his shoulder. "We also got you some pizza because the food here sucks"

"I want to see her... I have to see her" Finn's voice was soft as tears continued to fall. He had been staring at the wall for almost two hours, waiting for Rachel to wake up. Every time a nurse would come in to do a check-up he would always ask if he could see Rachel, but he would always get either "She's still in surgery" or "She isn't conscious yet". It killed him inside every time they said no because he loved her more than anything in the world and all he wanted to do was hold her in his arms and mourn together over the loss of their little girl.

"Have some pizza first. The nurse told us you weren't eating and can't leave this room until you do" Puck forced a slice into his hand while placing the box down on the table. Quinn could see the hurt and anger etched onto Finn's face and immediately knew he didn't want to eat. If she was in the same position she would do anything in her power to get to Puck and hold him while he cried and hurt. Puck just rolled his eyes and took the pizza out of Finn's hand, chucking it back into the box and moving the table out of the way.

"Do you have a wheel chair or something?" Finn nodded his head and pointed to the corner of the room. He would have yelled and complained about having to use a wheel chair, but everything was different when Rachel was concerned. They needed each other more than anything, especially now and he would do anything just to see her eyes staring into his, just so he knew that she was alright and everything could eventually go back to the way things were.

-GLEE-

"I already told you a million times, I'M NOT HUNGRY" Rachel screamed as she heard a slight knock on the door. Seeing the pasta sauce dripping down the wall in almost the exact same place as Finn's immediately warned the three that she was as aggressive as Finn was and they all knew that she wasn't calming down soon by the loud bellowing of her voice.

"I'm so sorry" Finn immediately apologized as he saw her eyes turning to look his way, tear stains evident on her cheeks. The first thing they all noticed was the lack of a baby bump, almost bringing tears to all of their eyes. But Finn felt as though he had to be strong for the both of them, to let Rachel know that things were going to be alright, even though he felt like curling up into a ball and crying for a million years.

"Don't apologize, it was that damn taxi driver who killed our daughter, not you" Without warning Finn's emotions took over and tears began to fall for the hundredth time that day. Just the mere mention of his little girl made him cry like a baby, but the first thing he noticed was that she wasn't crying, not in any way or form. He had thought that she would have fallen to pieces of the loss of baby Finchel, but instead she showed no emotion. Her voice stayed on one tone and her face blank.

"How's your arm?" Quinn asked trying to break the silence. Rachel's arm had been broken in two places and she was forced into a cast for four to six months.

"It's fine, just hurts a little" Finn wheeled himself to the side of her bed and took her un harmed hand in his while the other two continued to stand in the door way, tears forming in their eyes at the sight of their two best friends. They knew that if it had of been Beth that died back in high school they would have never stopped crying, but things seemed different with Finn and Rachel. He was crying like a baby and breaking down right in front of them all, while she just stared at the wall, not emotion daring to show. It was if the roles were reversed and she was the one that tried to be strong for the one she loved, even though she was dying inside over the loss of her first child. "Can you two just go please?"

"Yeah" Puck said without hesitation. He had no idea what it felt like to go through the loss of a child, but he knew that he would want to be alone as well. "I feel so bad for them"

"I know right, I'd say I wish it would happen to someone else, but I would never wish the death of a child on anyone... ever" Puck just nodded his head as he pulled his now crying fiancé into his big strong arms, hoping that this was all just a dream and none of it ever actually happened.

-GLEE-

"Rachel, Rachel, Rachel... How are you feeling?"

"Do you know who the driver of the second car was?"

"How are you dealing with the loss of your child?" As the last paparazzi called out his question, Rachel couldn't help but not ignore them. She had known that they asked personal questions, but asking about her dead child was going too far.

"You really want to know how I'm feeling." She asked in a kind voice, causing the large crowd around her to immediately nod their heads and murmur yes's. "Well whoever asked how I'm feeling, I feel like crap... The person who asked who the second driver is, well I haven't been told even though I begged to know his name. And last but not least, how I'm coping with the loss of my little girl... Well my answer to that is GO FUCK YOURSELF!" While everyone was still standing in shock of what just happen Rachel just walked off, her arms crossed over her chest, leaving the hospital and just walking down the street from a lack of a car and not wanting to take a taxi for obvious reasons.

"Hey Rach, sorry I'm late" Quinn apologized as she pulled up beside her friend. Finn was sat in the back seat with Puck. All three of them just watched as she continued to walk down the street, her eyes glued to her feet, not watching where she was going. "I guess she just wants to be alone."

"Why me? Why did this have to happen to me?"

"I don't Know" Rachel jumped at the sudden voice. No one had ever answered her questions in life, and it made her wonder why someone would start now. She had always asked herself if there was someone who cared enough to answer them for her. It had all started when Shelby had disowned her for Beth, and then there were all of the times her and Finn broke up, then when her dad's died and now her first child not even getting the chance to live.

"Jesse" Her words came out full of tears as she wrapped her arms around his torso, not giving a damn if anyone saw. He was the only one who truly got her, ever since high school when they had dated the first time. All of the times she and Finn would break up or fight he would be there to hold her while she cried, and then everything would be ok because she knew he was there and he would comfort her better than anyone else. "Please comfort me"

"I don't know how"

"Lie to me, tell me that everything is going to be ok and life will still go on" Her tears didn't dare stop falling as she let it all out, crying for the first time in days. She would always say that she and Quinn were best friends, and they were, but if she had a gun to her head and had to tell the complete truth, she would have to say that Jesse St James was her best friend in the entire world. So all of those times Finn thought she was in-love with Jesse, she was... But like a brother. He was the sibling she had never had, and it took a lot for her to consider you family because she had been left behind by so many people.

"I don't want to lie to you with this one Rach" Their eyes locked onto one another as she continued to cry, not caring that the paparazzi were taking pictures from across the street. They shared a powerful connection that no one could steal from them, and just that one look was all it took for her to feel like it was ok. "I'd rather tell you the truth"

"I don't care what you tell me, just please say something" Jesse took in a deep breath as he let go of her and rested his hands on her shoulder. Letting words come out of his mouth was easy, but figuring out what to say was a whole other story. His wording had to be perfect to prevent her from breaking down right in the middle of the street, making storylines that would just hurt her even more.

"Life's going to suck. It'll suck for a long time, but then everything will be great again. You and Finn will get married; have more children who you can tell about their little sister. You'll be happy again, and you and Finn will grow old together and watch your children grow up and have their own children who you can spoil and love. What I'm trying to tell you is that life will still go on and everything will work out in time, you just have to be patient"

"Thank you Jesse, you are my best friend in the whole world." Rachel's words were still full of tears as she hugged him again. The two didn't care that people were watching them, because they were together and things felt right. They had always helped each other with their problems and somehow he felt as though all of the times they helped each other out ultimately led to this moment, the moment that proved they needed each other for stability and friendship. But more importantly love.

-GLEE-

"I just don't get it" Finn said in his drunken state. "Why take away my kid, I mean I'm up to scratch, I'd be a good parent. But no, that stupid taxi driver had to take my kid's life. I hate him with all of my body and soul." Jonathan (A/N: Remember him from a couple of chapters back?) looked at him from across the bar. Finn had been going to the pub a lot since baby Finchel died a little over two months ago. He figured that if Rachel doesn't like to show her emotions and is a soulless automaton then he can grieve the best way he knows how... Drinking his troubles away.

"Why aren't you with Rachel right now? Instead of drinking away your pain, you could be comforting each other"

"She doesn't want me around, she told me that... A couple of times actually, I'm just obeying her" Finn rolled his eyes before downing his drink and placing it down on the bar. "Can I get another one of these" He knew that getting smashed every night wasn't good for his body, but it was the only thing he could do to actually feel good, and it got him out of the apartment where is mother, Quinn and Kurt were all camping out to help out with everything and support the couple after their loss. But it wasn't like they ever saw them because Rachel was either always at work or locked in their bedroom, only coming out for food, water and the bathroom. While Finn worked all day and stayed out all night. He thought that they all would have gotten the point after staying in the apartment for two months, waiting for them to actually open up and come to terms with what happened. But only Finn and Rachel knew that it wasn't happening anytime soon.

"Sorry but the bar's closed, you got to go home"

-GLEE-

"Rachel, please come out, Carol made dinner and it's really yummy" Quinn begged as she pounded on the door. Everyone was sitting around the lounge room eating the lasagne that Carol had made with the help of Kurt. They had made it specifically for Rachel who had given up on being a vegan when she found out about her baby, and even after baby Finchel had died she didn't care too much to pick back up on it.

"I told you that I'm not hungry and will be staying in my room for the rest of the night. If you do not like it I understand, but please respect it. I just want to be alone ok?" Everyone looked at her with sad eyes before she slammed the door in Quinn's face. She just placed the plate of lasagne down by the door, knowing that Rachel hadn't eaten in almost twenty-four hours and would appreciate the food. Without seconds going by she re-opened the door and took the plate, just looking Quinn in the eyes, a blank stare evident in her eyes.

"Do you want to talk?" All Rachel could do was nod as she dragged her friend into the room, everyone still looking their way. Tina, Mercedes, Santana and Brittany had all come over to see how the two were doing, only to find Finn not home and Rachel locked up by her own free will. It wasn't the best of visits, but they had expected it to be this way from the circumstances of everyone coming to New York. "So what do you want to talk about?"

"Finn. I want to talk about Finn. Before I continue this isn't going to be like our high school conversations when he and I would break up and I would be inconsolable for weeks until we got back together. This is a serious conversation that stays in this room. Do you understand?" Quinn just nodded her head as Rachel paced the room in front of her. "I feel like everything has turned to shit ever since baby Finchel died and Finn and I just hate each other even more. We can't even stand to be in the same room together. Even Child's play's writers are making our characters fight because we just hate each other so much, I was told that our characters are going to break up soon, that's how bad it's gotten."

"Everything has turned to shit because you lost your child. Eventually things will be normal again so don't worry about it, and please don't do something drastic" Quinn's entire face became full of concern. She didn't want Rachel and Finn to break up. They had been her and Pucks role models for their relationship and if they broke up then there was a certainty that her and Puck would soon follow in their footsteps.

"What makes you think I'm going to do something drastic?"

"Because you're Rachel Berry, everything you do is drastic" The smile on Quinn's face showed that she wasn't trying to be mean, she was just telling the truth and that made Rachel happy to know that they still kept their pact to be truthful to one another no matter what. Rachel sat down next to Quinn on the bed and rested her head on her shoulder. The fact that she was just there for her made everything seem alright because she had two of the best friends in the world that would do anything to make her feel better.

"Rachel, open this door now" Finn called out as he started to pound his fist loudly against the door. It was obvious to everyone in the apartment that he was drunk, but everyone was too afraid of what he would do if they tried to stop him. He was known to get violent when he was mad, and adding on the fact that he was drunk meant he had no control over his actions and could lead to hitting someone that he would never actually hit while sober. "I mean it, we need to talk"

"About what?" Rachel swung the door open and leant against the door frame, a frown glued to her face as she looked him up and down. She had always hated him when he was drunk; always staring at her like she was nothing, acting as though he had all the power, like he was the alpha male. It sickened her that he acted that way, and didn't even remember anything he did when he woke up the next morning, only caring about the hangover he had induced himself.

"You haven't shown that you care about her daughter dying in two months... Two fucking months Rachel. It makes me wonder if you ever loved her to begin with"

"Of course I loved her you stupid asshole. Did you ever think that I did cry, but not around you because I wanted to be strong for the both of us. Every time I felt like crying I would hold it in just for you, because I didn't want to see you that way." Finn looked down into her eyes, a frown appearing on his face as well.

"I didn't want you to be strong, all I wanted was for you to cry with me because the best thing we could do was work through it together, but now because you wanted to do it alone we hate each other more than ever. I really want to love you, but I can't"

"Thanks Finn, that was the nicest thing you have ever said to me in years" Without second thought she slammed the door in his face, locking it before he had the chance to reopen it. Quinn just sat on the bed, watching as her best friend pulled her suitcase out from under the bed and started to pack her clothes into it. Tears were rushing down her cheeks as she shoved everything she owned into the small bag, sitting on it so she could at least get the zip closed.

"Do you want to stay with me?" Quinn asked in an innocent voice. All Rachel could do was shake her head before giving her a long lasting hug. She couldn't stay with her because it would be the first place Finn would go to find her. She had to go somewhere he wouldn't think off. That immediately ruled out her mother and her other friends that lived in New York were all in her lounge room, while Sam would call Finn to tell him that she was there.

"If Finn tries to follow me please stop him, I just really can't put up with him anymore. So can you please keep him away until I can get far enough away?"

"Of course I can, what are best friends for?" The two shared one last hug before smiling at each other. Without thinking about it Rachel placed her lips to Quinn's cheek, kissing her for the first time in their whole friendship. She would never give someone the pleasure of feeling her lips on their cheek unless they were family or close enough. Rachel smiled at her one last time while resting her hands on her best friend's shoulders.

"Quinn you're not my best friend... You are my sister, and I love you" Tears couldn't help but find their way out again, this time Quinn letting a few silent tears fall.

"Come on, I'll distract Finn while you can get out without him knowing"

-GLEE-

"Are you sure you don't mind me staying here?" Rachel asked Jesse as he led her through to the living room. She knew Finn would check here, but Jesse loved her enough and hated Finn enough to lie about her whereabouts.

"No we don't mind, you are loved here and this is a Finn free zone" Paul, Jesse's boyfriend said as he exited the tiny kitchen, a tray of coffee's in his hand. The two had met back in college before Jesse even knew he was gay. They had fallen in-love during their music class when they were paired up for a musical number. Rachel had always found their story cute and loved to hear it whenever she got the chance.

"If it's a no Finn zone then why do we have fish?" Jesse asked with a confused look on his face. He looked at the large fish tank that trailed the wall. Before he could tap on the cool glass for the millionth time since they had brought the fish, Paul grabbed onto his hand and pushed him away from his precious fish.

"I told you that my fish are the only thing keeping me sane, besides, you told me you loved fish on out first date." Paul pouted at his boyfriend who just rolled his eyes and looked over to a smiling Rachel.

"I only told you I loved fish because our date was turning out crappy because we had nothing in common... But now I love you" The two shared a long kiss as Rachel continued to just watch them interact. It always made her smile that no matter what their differences they always ended each day as in-love as they were the day before.

She would never admit it but she had always wanted what they had, but knew it wasn't coming. Finn wasn't really the romantic type, he would try but everything would fail and would turn into a huge giant mess that took him along time to clean up.

"So what has lover boy done this time?" Jesse asked while draping his arm around Pauls shoulder. She knew it would sound silly if she told them the whole story because it had all started with Finn thinking Rachel and Jesse were in-love, and for obvious reasons they weren't, but Finn didn't know that, no one did. They all thought that Jesse and Paul were just roommates because that is how the pair wanted it to be, at least until they came out to their parents who were known, loud and proud homophobes.

"Well he accused me for not caring about our daughter dying"

"Oh what a jerk, I think you need boo's more than coffee right now" Rachel smiled as Paul rose from his seat, rushing towards the kitchen to grab the bottle of vodka sitting on the kitchen bench left behind from Jesse and Pauls little party from the night before. It wasn't a big party, just the pair of them doing body shots and body slammers off each other to celebrate four year anniversary.

"I don't really want to get drunk, sorry Paul"

"Do you have to work tomorrow?" Jesse's face was full of concern as he knew that she and Finn did nearly every single scene together and also because he didn't want her to get a massive hangover before she has to get up extremely early to go shoot scenes. Paul leant against the doorway with the vodka in his hand, not going any further until he knew whether she was drinking or not.

"No, I don't have any scenes for the next two days, but I don't really want to drink because I just want to go to sleep. Is that alright with you guys?" Paul and Jesse just nodded their heads while she got up and made her way to the guest room, slightly tapping on the glass fish tank for Jesse who just put up his thumbs and smiled at her. She knew that he got restless without tormenting the fish, and wouldn't sleep until he tapped on the glass. It was the main cause of his insomnia the previous year, and he had felt like a complete idiot when the doctor figured it out, but it made matters worse when Rachel sat in the seat next to him, stifling her laughter as everyone else sat in silence. "I love you guys" She said one last time before walking into the room, trying not to cry as she remembered how much they reminded her of her dads.

-GLEE-

"Rachel... Where's Rachel?" Finn called out, waking up everyone in the whole apartment. They had all known this moment was coming, and had dreaded it all night. How could they tell him that Rachel had left? That she wanted nothing to do with him? That she was gone forever and wasn't coming back? He held his head and staggered out of his bedroom, not even noticing as everyone stared at him walking right through to the kitchen. Quinn knew it was up to her to tell him where she was and answer his questions, she was Rachel's best friend and the one she had ranted to about him, so why wouldn't it be? She snuck up behind him as he rummaged through the fridge for the bottle of water he had put in there last night before he went out drinking.

"She's gone you ass hole" She shouted in his ear, causing him to jump and whack his head into the fridge door, worsening his hang over. He looked up to the blonde in front of him with squinted eyes as he slipped down onto the floor, holding his head in his hands.

"Who's gone?"

"Rachel, she left you because you were being a total jerk to her last night. Don't try to ask me where she went because I don't know, she didn't tell anyone. Also, she isn't coming back for you because I'm pretty sure she hates you, so don't try looking for her ok? Now go get back in bed I'll bring you that cold bottle of water, some aspirin and I'll make you a big greasy breakfast." Quinn pulled him up from the floor and pushed him towards the exit, hoping he would just go back to bed and stay there all day while everyone else cleared up and went home. She knew it was bad to think that he deserved to be alone, but frankly he did. He was a total jerk to Rachel and anyone that hurt her family deserved nothing in life because her family was the most important thing in the world.

"So did you tell him?" Santana asked as she walked through the kitchen door, letting out a quick yawn before leaning against the bench. Quinn just nodded her head before turning towards the fridge and getting out the bacon, two eggs and the olive oil, ready to make his breakfast. "Whoa, whoa, whoa. Back up a second Quinny. You are not making him breakfast are you?"

"He has a hangover and we both know how much they suck, I'm just trying to help him get rid of it so we can get out of here quicker."

"Whatever you say, I'm just going to eat the last of their cheerio's and then me and Britt's are gone... Remember back in high school when we didn't eat cheerio's cause we felt as though we were eating our own kind?" Quinn nodded her head with a smile, causing Santana to let out a small grin before pushing of the bench and folding her arms. "We were extremely stupid back then"

"Agreed" The two shared a laugh before Santana pulled her in for a hug. It amazed her that no matter how much of a bitch Santana could be, they would always share something, she wasn't sure what, that kept them friends. "San, I've wanted to ask you something for a really long time, but can you be one of my bride's maids?" A yes wasn't needed as she heard the porcelain bowel in Santana's hand fall the ground.

"Yes, yes, yes, I would love that" She screamed out before jumping up and wrapping her legs around Quinn's waist, hugging her like there was no tomorrow. "Who else is on your bridal party?"

"Well there is Rachel who of course is my maid of honour, Abigail from work, then you, Britt who I told not to tell you until I could ask you to be a part of it. Um, then I have to put my sister Nancy in it cause mum said It is only fair because Nancy put me in hers, um and I think that's all."

"And what about Puck's?" Santana was now extremely curious to know whether Finn and Rachel would have to associate with each other on the big day, because she would never admit it but she was a big sucker for drama. She loved when people made a scene and ruined everything, secretly she wanted Rachel and Finn to start a fight at the reception and slightly ruin things, it would be hilarious to her and she wanted, more than needed entertainment in that category. Quinn immediately became nervous as she remembered exactly who Puck had chosen.

"Well his groomsmen are Mike, Sam, Artie, Barney from at the work shop and his best man is Finn... But I'm sure he and Rachel will be over everything by the time the wedding comes and won't start a scene of some sort." Her final sentence was extremely fast and everyone knew that when Quinn was nervous about something her speech rate would rapidly increase and she would start to sweat. A smirk appeared on Santana's face as she saw Quinn wipe the sweat from her forehead, and she knew that Quinn didn't want Rachel and Finn to ruin her wedding, but knowing them everything was overly dramatic and nothing turned out the way it's planned when they are concerned.

"Well I can't wait for the wedding, call me when we are going to get our dress fittings." Santana left the room with a smirk and a bowel of cheerio's, knowing that Quinn's wedding day would turn upside down in an instant if Rachel and Finn are put in the same room as each other.

-GLEE-

Rachel popped her head out the door way, looking both ways before slowly stepping out. She was content on going for a run through central park without having any distractions, and if Jesse or Paul knew she was going out they would immediately want to come with her. She took a few slow steps, hoping that the floor boards below would stay as silent as they were before, but just to her luck, right in front of the door came a loud creak, one loud enough to wake up Jesse. He had always had super hearing and he hated it. He would wake up at the sound of a feather falling and would take a long time to fall asleep again, but sometimes it was a blessing, like now for instances.

"Where are you going?" He questioned as he stepped out of the room, clad in only his boxers that showed off his toned body with great pride. He knew what she was doing by the tight tank top, short shorts and runners she wore, telling everyone she was going out for a run. "Ok, that was a stupid question because I know you're going out to run, but watch out for those creepy guys that try and pick up girls like you, they will try really hard and won't give up unless you stand your ground. So be your big brave self and stand up to them ok?"

"Ok dad" She hadn't thought about the words she had just said, but found herself not crying about the loss of her fathers. Jesse's eyes were full of worry, knowing that every time someone said or referred to the word dad, she would burst into tears and cry for hours, but his worry immediately disappeared as he saw the smile on her lips, bringing an almost mirror image to his.

"I'm just looking after you daughter, now go out and exercise" The two shared a laugh as they both opened their doors at the same time, Rachel exiting the apartment while Jesse entered his room again, ready to be intimate with the one he loved.

-GLEE-

"Finn, breakfast" Quinn shouted while kicking the door twice because her hands were full with his tray full of hang over cure. "It's getting cold" She kicked another two times, getting no answer again.

"He already left Quinn, he said he was going to talk to Rachel and make everything right again" Tina's words were calm as she slowly rocked her son back and forth, Mike and Puck now in the room after Quinn had called them to come talk to Finn. She was sat between her husband's legs while he made silly faces at his little child that continued to laugh hysterically. "I have no idea where she is or how he'll find her though"

"Every Saturday morning she runs through central park, remember babe, she hasn't not gone for as long as we've lived in New York" Puck smiled as he finally became the smart one in their relationship. Quinn was always the one with the smart ideas that actually worked out, and knew where everything and everyone was at any time of day. But she would always be asleep when Rachel went out for her run and still be sleeping when she came back, but finally the harsh hours of being a mechanic in New York city paid off for Puck because every Saturday morning Rachel would get him up for work when she got up for her run and his work shop was on the way to central park so to keep up with his exercise Puck would walk with her every Saturday.

"Should we go stop him?"

"He's probably already there, all we can do is wait for him to come back and question him about the outcomes" Quinn smiled to herself, hoping that was the right thing to do. But from the look on Carol's face she knew everything was going to turn out worse than it already was. It wasn't the thought that things would turn out crappy that scared Quinn, it was the fact that Carol knew they would.

-GLEE-

Take me by the tongue

And I'll know you

Kiss me till you're drunk

And I'll show you

You want the moves like jagger

I've got the moves like jagger

I've got the mooooooves... like jagger

I don't need try to control you

Look into my eyes and I'll own you

With them the moves like jagger

I've got the moves like jagger

I've got the mooooooves... like jagger

Rachel took in several perfectly timed breaths as she ran down the path way, passing a young couple who were laughing and running together. She regrated not inviting Jesse to join her because she didn't realise how much she would hate just running alone with her iPod. She had never ran on her own because Jesse and or Paul were always at her side, talking and mucking around. But now she was all alone, only her, the music and her thoughts.

"Hey Rach" She immediately pulled her head phones out as she felt a light tap at her shoulder. Before she even realised who it was she stopped running and paused her music. Her face was red from the hour run she had already done; she was on her second lap around the entire park. Most people would think she was crazy, but when she needed to clear her mind running was the only thing she could rely on. "Why did you leave?" Those four words immediately gave away who it was stopping her run, placing a glare on her face as she placed her hands on her hips.

"What do you want?"

"For you to come back home. You can't just leave without telling me, I deserve to know that you're breaking up with me" Finn looked down at his now ex-girlfriend who he thought looked super-hot in her exercise gear. He usually loved her hair down, but seeing it up in a ponytail, her bags sitting lightly on her forehead.

"I don't owe you anything Finn. All I know is that you are a jerk and I can't love you after everything we've been through. I'd be an idiot if I did"

"So this is how it all ends" Finn's voice was croaky, as though tear were about to let themselves out, not caring that he was in public and there was no doubt that the paparazzi were hiding in the bushes, waiting for the perfect moment to strike and get their cover story. Anyone would think that now would be the perfect moment for their story because of the raw, unnameable emotion in Rachel's eyes and the tears ready to spill out of Finn's eyes. But the paparazzi were smart; they would be taking pictures of everything that happens, waiting for the perfect one to appear.

"Things ended two months ago Finn, I was just stupid enough to stick around, hoping things would get better. But it didn't, it just got worse, we hit rock bottom." Finn kicked at the grass nervously, hoping that Rachel would just give in and admit that she still loved him, but her jaw remained clenched as she crossed her arms over her chest, standing her ground.

"When you hit rock bottom the only place you can go is up"

"Why won't you give up? We are over and there is no chance of us getting back together. I just want you to let me live my life without you; can't you just give me that?" Her voice was full of anger, but her eyes deceived her, projecting sadness that he had only ever seen when her fathers died.

"I'm not giving up because I love you" Finn said with tears now running down his cheeks. "I don't care if you want nothing to do with me because I'm not giving up, we have so much history that I could open up a museum all about us. We belong together"

Rachel felt tears falling from her eyes as she took in a deep breath. "I don't care if we have history, it's the past and all I want to think about is the future. But I can't live my life with you tagging along, it just isn't fair. I want to meet new people; I want to have the chance to date other guys because in my whole life I have only ever dated you. I want to get married and have children, but obviously that isn't working out with you Finn." Before he could say anything Rachel placed her finger to his lips shushing him without a care in the world. "I can't love you anymore. I can't put up with all of this anymore; I just can't do us anymore. Our relationship is going nowhere so please just drop it and move on."

"This is because of Jesse isn't it? You're in-love with Jesse"

"Are you that stupid Finn? Jesse is gay; he and Paul are a couple. I have never been in-love with him, it was always you. But you know what, you messed that up with this paranoia that Jesse and I must be in-love and are having an affair behind your back, and all of this has ended up messing with my head Finn, you messed me up and all I can say about that is THANK YOU VERY FUCKING MUCH" A smile took its rightful place on her lips as she turned away from Finn, the one big problem in her life. She quickly picked up her pace into a light sprint, running away, leaving all of her problems behind. Her fathers had always told her that it is never a good thing to run away from your problems, but she knew that with this one, they would make an exception. "Life is going to get better Rachel, you just wait" She mumbled to herself smiling before pressing lay on her iPod, not even looking back to see Finn watching after her, tears rushing down his cheeks.

"I will always love you Rachel" He mumbled to himself before walking in the opposite direction. Giving up on her would end up being the worst decision in his life, but when you loved someone, you would do whatever it takes to make them happy, even if that means letting them go.

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