10. I love that I can look into your eyes and see right through you
She has a wall. Well, not in the literal sense of the word, but she has a wall. It's made out of the toughest materials known to man and it's hard to break. But that's not enough. She also has a small army guarding that wall. And before you get to the army you still have to manage to cross a river too deep for anyone to dare to cross. That's the best way he has to describe how hard it is to see through his partner.
She is so used to keep everyone at arm's length that he's sure she doesn't even notice she's doing it anymore. It's sort of her defense mechanism and he understands why she does it. After everything that she has gone through it's absolutely normal to try to avoid getting hurt. That's why she does it. He knows about her father, about Jack, about her previous partner…he can't imagine what it feels like for her to trust someone.
However, he knows that having her trust is a huge privilege. Callen and Sam have it and he's sure they treasure it like it is the most valuable thing on this world. He knows he would if she trusted him as much as she trusts them.
The day she tells him she trusts him he almost jumps in pure joy. But one look into her eyes is enough to make him realize that he's not all the way in yet. He has managed to cross the river and take down the not-so-small army but the wall is still there. She's still blocking him out. She's still trying to keep all the hurt outside her world but that also means she hasn't let him in yet. So he keeps trying.
A few months later he looks at her while she's talking about Jack once again. She is keeping her emotions well hidden inside of her but for the first time he sees what she's feeling just by looking into her eyes. For the first time he sees the same thing Callen and Sam must see when they exchange those knowing looks on a day in which she's particularly silent.
She has let him in.
And now he can say that he loves that he can look into her eyes and see right through her.
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Okay, I know that these chapters are not very good but this story is very helpful for me to just relax after a long day of school. Whenever I don't feel like doing anything else I write a chapter to this story. I'm trying to share my point of view when it comes to their relationship. I know some of you don't like it but I promise you there will be some Kensi/Deeks romance very soon. And updates will start to come by a lot more often.
Review anyway please…