Damn. I haven't written in so long. Its almost scary! Well I just started high school this week and im having HELLA homework. Ill try to write more too I swear. Ok, so I wasn't planning on continuing but since someone reviewed and said pretty please with cherrys on top I just HAD to do another chapter. I love cherries to much:] love always,

Ellie

Bpov

Stupid.

That's how I felt. Stupid because I broke down my barriers. Stupid because I believed he was different.

Stupid because I went behind my rules.

And what did I end up with? A broken heart and some boxers.

I went up to my room and didn't bother shed another tear. I wouldn't shed another tear for Edward cullen.

The past month had gone by and fuckward cullen kept knocking on my door asking to talk to me.

Fuck him and his little family too.

I went to school. I came home. I went to sleep.

That's all I did.

But no matter how hard I tried, I knew I was irrevocably in love with fuckward cullen. Or Edward as his real name is.

But fuckward just seemed so temping as something to call him. I called him it in my thoughts, my writings, and to his face.

And I don't think it fazed him one bit. I tried to not think about him, I tried to make my mind numb of him, but things never did go according to my plan did they?

I don't even think I got more than 2 hours of sleep at night because I was having constant nightmares. Of someone hurting him.

I haven't touched food either. But that's not un ordinary.

I was now at school in the lunchroom and he was sitting with his family and jasper and rose.

I wanted to go over and sit.

dont waste your time Isabella.

My mind kept chanting. Although I hated the name Isabella my conscious just kept nagging at me hoping to annoy me to a point I go insane.

So I didn't waste my time. I sat down at a empty table and drank some water. I felt eyes on me so I got up to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror.

My eyes had deep and dark circles, my cheeks very hollow and my face paled out. I don't think even my blush would color my face anymore.

My lips were almost the color of my skin, but with a slightly blue/purple tone.

But what I noticed most was my pupils.

They have completely covered the browns in my eyes. my eyes were just black and dull. I think I need that checked.

Don't waste your time Isabella.

Sweat started to gather in my palms as paranoia crept on me. I had become paranoid ever since Edward said those words to me. I felt my walls were down for good and anything could hit me at any moment.

I closed my eyes tight and put my hands in fists.

"bella?" I heard a voice call. I opened my eyes fast at her.

"rose." I say.

"c-come sit with us." She says almost in a whisper.

I looked down.

"you know I cant."

"please! Please bella! I miss you! Jasper misses you! Emmet! Alice! And even Edward!" she says tears in her eyes. Edward.

Edward.

Edward.

He didn't miss me.

No.

He didn't want me.

"bella, I cant stand this. I cant stand the…the uncloseness if that's even a word! I feel a huge gap because of all this! You don't look like you anymore! I swear if you go one more week like this you wont be seeing daylight any further!" she says crying.

I began shedding tears fast and crying.

"rose I cant sleep, i-I hurts rose. It hurts so bad." I whimper and she hugs me as we cry.

"I know bella. I know." She whispers.

She then goes to her bag and pulls out some food.

"eat please."

I looked at the plain sandwhich and my mouth watered. And i looked up at rose who had hope in her eyes.

I would do it for her.

I took the food slowly and nibbled at it. I kept nibbling at It as she smiled and wrapped her arm around my shoulder and walked out of the bathroom.

I could feel the eyes on me again and that stupid paranoia crept up on me.

She sat me down at a table and sat next to me.

"im going to sit with you today." she says. And now I felt bad.

"no. I don't want you to sit with me because of pity." I say embarrassed.

"im sitting here because its my free choice and don't ever expect me of all people to PITY you." She says.

That's true. She doesn't pity well.

I nod and finish half of the sandwich. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket.

It was an unknown number.

'wanna go out with me?'

i txt back immediately asking who it was.

'mike. Now ill pick you up at 8 tomorrow.'

Douche bag much?

'no thanks.' I said.

He didn't reply back and I took that as a good thing. The bell rang and I had to get to biology with…fuckward.

My chest tightened even at his nickname. Imagine if I thought his real name.

I was about to get something out of my bag when I was pushed up against the lockers. Ouch.

"listen you stupid little slut your going out with me tomorrow." Mike growled.

"no!" I screamed.

He then slapped me. hard. At this point id do almost anything he wanted me too just to make the pain stop.

"ok! Please just make it go away!" I screamed.

He then let go of his strong and hard hold of me and I dropped to the floor grasping my cheek.

"ill pick you up at 8." He says smiling. Fucker.

I cried silently and nodded.

I tried to get up but failed miserably and sprained my ankle. I limped my way to biology and opened the door, keeping my head down.

I sat next to fuckward and put my forehead on the desk hoping I didn't have any bruises on my cheek.

The tears poured down my cheek as I felt the teachers hand touch my upper back asking me if I was okay. I nodded and said I had a head ache.

i could already feel the bruises on my back form being slammed into the locker.

"b-bella?" I heard fuckward says.

I didn't make any move.

"bella im taking you home." He said. I shake my head.

I pulled my sleeve of my shirt down more covering almost my whole hand other than my finger tips. I did this when I got nervous.

"please look at me." that smooth voice was by my ear now.

I looked up at him and he gasped as he seen my face.

The hallow sick face I had. The black eyes. the bruised cheek.

He saw everything he had done to me.

Well apart from mike hitting me.

"what happened to your cheek?" he asks.

Omfg a cliffy! Ok so did you like it? It was a really depressing chapter to write but I think im really going to try to continue this story! Well review!

ellie