Diary of Starlight Master

It's been three days since Jasmine forgave Jeremy and Nico. It was one week until her mother's death. Everything was fine for Jasmine… Until everyone fell asleep, that is.

XxX

A splash was heard and so were many branches being stepped on. Nico couldn't sleep. Something wasn't right. He got out of bed and just started aimlessly walking. Soon he saw a hooded figure. It was obviously a girl, with her hello kitty pajamas. He decided to follow the girl. There was something about her presence that felt so familiar…

The hooded figure stopped, then bolted. Nico followed. But it was hard. The figure was fast. Nico caught sight of her front. She was gripping her stomach…He followed her to a cave. Nico was tired, but there was something about this figure. She slowed down and took something out of her jacket. Nico guessed it was what she was clutching earlier. Before Nico could see her face, he blanked out from exhaustion.

XxX

I always thought that suicide was a coward's escape. I never thought I would even think about attempting it. Boy was I wrong.

I knew depression was serious, but I also thought it was stupid. Perhaps it was because I grew up in a sheltered home. Loved and Protected from the darkness of the world. With all this, depression, suicide, and cutting didn't seem real. It wasn't real to me; until it hit home.

'Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me' is a lie. Perhaps the biggest lie. Words can hurt much more than a puny little twig. They've been used to describe you and even worse; You've used them to describe them back. Face it, words hurt. Some have scars to prove it. 'Sticks and stones may break my bones, but humanity will be what kills you'

I Never once thought I would get to this point. I thought cutting was stupid. Anorexia was even more stupid and suicide was for cowards. But now, I'm the stupid Coward. Did I rely on her that much? It's been a month since she left for New York. The week she left, I haven't spoken a word. Pathetic, huh? The girl who made fun of the depressed boy that sat in the back of the class and called him 'emo' is now depressed herself.

I thought I could stop when I wanted; I couldn't. It was an addiction. It was a drug. A stupid mistake. I know how it feels now. I'm the biggest loser. I hate it, but I deserve every bit of it. If I could turn back time and take back every joke, comment, and insult I've ever said, I would. But, this is real life, and in real life, there is no clear resolution.

Good Bye world, It was a great life. They say Karma's a bitch. I was the bitch, and now… Karma hit me; hard. I'm sorry to everyone I insulted, teased and ignore. I'm sorry to Nico Di Angelo for making fun of you. I'm sorry to my parents for acting out. And I'm sorry to Jasmine Bays for putting you through everything. I don't know how you put up with me, but you did. You're the best friend ever.

I'm Sorry…. Good Bye

-Starlight Master

Jasmine read the last page of Star's diary. The diary was a regular black and white composition notebook. When Jasmine opened it, she realized it was more than just a diary. It was Star's life. The first half of the notebook was filled. There were pictures, and stories of their journeys. But the more Jasmine read, she realized that the more depressing it got. The other half of the book was empty. The first day Jasmine got it, she found a post it note on the page right after Star's last entry ; This is my diary as much as it is yours.

Tears started streaming down Jasmine's face. It was her fault her best friend died. No one could ever convince her otherwise. 'Tomorrow is not a promise, it's a chance' Jasmine read. She sadly smiled. It was a quote said by Rachel Joy Scott; Jasmine's Idol.

Jasmine took out her pen, and got up the courage to finally fill in the blank pages.

"I have a theory that if one person goes out of their way to show compassion, then it will start a chain reaction of the same"-Rachel Joy Scott. Jasmine smiled and added. "People will never know how far a little kindness can go"

She spotted a mesh of dark black hair right outside the cave. Her eyes widened and dragged the idiot into the cave.

xXx

Nico felt pressure on his forehead and jolted awake. He looked into a pair of brown hypnotizing eyes that could only belong to one person; Jasmine.

"Thank the God s you're awake! Don't scare me like that!"

"Uh…" Nico groggily got up. "Where am I?"

"We're in the forest…" Jasmine replied. Nico observed his surroundings and smirked.

"In a cave?" asked Nico

"Yeah…" Jasmine started putting the pieces together.

Injured Nico, + forest, + cave =The Hunger Games cave moment. And the fact that Jasmine was still hovering above him didn't help much.

"Shut Up…" Jasmine weakly pouted and sat next to her injured friend.

Nico just laughed. "What happened?" he asked. Jasmine couldn't help but notice how sexy his voice was as he just woke up.

"I don't know. I just saw you outside unconscious." Explained Jasmine.

"And you brought me in?"

"You're my friend…"

"Even after all I've done to you?" Nico asked

"…Yeah" Jasmine smiled.

Nico laughed. "I knew you wanted me…"

Jasmine playfully punched his arm, but laughed none the less. "Shut up"

"No, it's okay. I know I'm irresistible" Nico boasted

"I begged to differ" Jasmine muttered. Nico Laughed. He glanced down to Jasmine's lips for a quick second. Jasmine blushed and Nico smirked. His hand crept to Jasmine's waist and started tickling her. She rolled on to her back and soon Nico was hovering right above her with a glorious smirk.

"You Suck." Jasmine said but smiled. Nico just smirked and helped her up.

"I'm glad we're friends" Nico stated.

"Yeah… Me too" Jasmine muttered to herself. Nico just barely heard and smiled.