Home's Despair by Demon'smoonlightlover

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Chapter 10: Telling truths

Kagome went to sit beside Sesshomaru, turning to face him. She was determined to hear this; she was well aware that it would have something to do with their latest argument. Kagome could not lie to herself and was forced to admit: she was afraid.

'What if he's decided to just give up on this whole thing? What if he doesn't want to change? It would be my fault. Wouldn't it? Have I been pushing him too far?'

With all these thoughts in mind, she began to worry and fidget where she sat. She hoped he wouldn't notice. He'd know then that she was afraid of their conversation.

Sesshomaru noticed. He could always tell by looking in her eyes, just what she was feeling. He could see her fidgeting; her eyes lowed to the ground. It would seem she was doing everything she could to not stare him in the face and he could understand. He didn't want to see the pain and fear he knew she was feeling, but needed to get this underway. He reached his hand out to grasp her chin, lifting her head up until their eyes met.

"I don't want you to feel nervous." He started, making sure he still had her attention. "I want to apologize for last night. I shouldn't have attack you like that. It was difficult to listen to your accusations especially when you were correct. I needed to get my priorities in line. I never knew how wrong I could possibly be until now. I love you. I love our family and I don't want that taken away from me."

Sesshomaru let down his barriers. For this moment, knowing all that rested on it, he let his mask fall and let his innermost emotions shine through on his angled face. Pain, hope, and more were plainly written in his face. And for the first time ever, the ever brave and stoic Sesshomaru looked afraid.

Kagome was at a loss for words. She did not know how to respond to it at first. She was not used to an open attitude from him. Not sure how to continue, she went with the first thing that went through her mind, the same argument she always made.

"Sessho, if you care about us so much, why are you hardly home? We are your family, and yet work seems to call you more sweetly than I ever could. We miss you; if you're willing we want you back." Kagome leaned over to peck him on the lips before getting up. "It is up to you to choose which one means the most to you."

Kagome began to walk out of the kitchen, but before she could exit, Sesshomaru grasped her wrist gently, but firm enough to stop her.

"I have made my decision." Sesshomaru got up and moved to stand close in front of her. "I will change. I don't want to lose you." Kagome's eyes shined with unshed tears and hope. He really didn't want them to go. Being overwhelmed with emotion, Kagome began to cry.

Without a second hesitation, she enveloped him in a hug and gently kissed his lips. "I love you so much." She whispered against his lips.

Sesshomaru wrapped his arms around Kagome's waist, pulling her close. "And I you." He kissed her with all his pent up passion, letting her know how much he had missed this, their closeness. Then Kagome gasped under the sensual assault and Sesshomaru took advantage slipping his tongue into her hot, moist cavern. He moaned at the taste of her.

'Too long,' he thought as he pulled her even closer, molding her body to his. Sesshomaru groaned into the kiss, Kagome moaned in turn, both voicing their want and need of the other.

Sesshomaru's kiss began to detour from her mouth down her cheeks to her neck, near her pulse, sucking and nipping at the tender skin. Kagome moved her head to the side, giving him more access.

"Mmm..Sessho...more please." Kagome moaned and was about to take it further-

"Mommy?" Rin curious voice echoed in the kitchen causing her parents to freeze in their actions.

They didn't know what to do.

"Daddy, why are you eating mommy?"

Kagome blushed with embarrassment. 'Great! How do you explain this to your 4 year old daughter?' she inwardly groaned.

They broke apart, straightening their clothes before focusing their attention on their daughter, who was standing in the kitchen doorway in her favorite 'Hello Kitty' pajama set, complete with fluffy slippers.

"Umm," Kagome looked to Sesshomaru, who was as calm as ever. She cursed him for his lack of embarrassment, failing to see as she turned to address her daughter, the slight pinkish glow that graced his cheeks.

"No sweetheart. Your father was not eating me."

"Then, what was he doing?" Rin tipped her head adorably to the side in question.

Kagome turned to Sesshomaru for help. The only response she received was a lifted eyebrow. She narrowed her eyes as if to threaten him. After a good 30 seconds, Sesshomaru sighed and turned to Rin, gaining her attention.

"I was showing you mother affection." He said it like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

Rin's cute reply, "affe-shon?"

He chuckled. "Affec-tion. It like showing some one you care about them."

Kagome decide to join in the conversation.
"Yes, Rin, like when I kiss you on the cheek. I'm showing you affection."

"Which means you care about me."

"Yep. Now, to bed with you. Come on." Kagome grabbed Rin's hand and left up the stairs, leaving Sesshomaru to stare after them.

'Was I really willing to lose my family because of my work?'

For the first time in two years, he felt truly relaxed in his home, with his family. Nothing and no one was going to take that away from him. That includes his wife's 'friend', Ryu, most definitely not Ryu.

'And I will make that known to him the next time I see him.' Sesshomaru promised himself and the empty air of the living room. Then he turned to the stairs and followed his wife and child.

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