What if Cullen was in there? What could I have done? I had wanted to shoot him.. I frowned. How silly. I wish it were Jacob she had married. I wouldn't mind them sleeping in the same bed. I wouldn't even mind if Bells got pregnant with his baby.
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But I write when I get the chance to! Somebody asked why Bella is
still living with Charlie. Because Edward and Bella are fighting and
she didn't want to stay at the Cullen's house. They have a house
somewhere else, but that's for when Bella wants to be changed. If she
gets changed.. Someone guessed Edward will be coming back. You'll
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reading. I accept anon reviews so please, don't be shy! I have to
apologize.. In this chapter Bella goes to the doctor, but I've never
been pregnant so I really don't know how that goes. I looked up as
much information as I could, and I hope I got it somewhat right..
Tell me if something about the doctor part is wrong. Please? Sorry
again! Here you go. Chapter ten: Telling Charlie.
Broken. That's the only way I could describe my life. The only good thing I had now was Charlie. Sometimes I wonder if Eli is really a blessing or a curse. I know I can't be mad at him, but how could I love something that pushed both my husband, and my best friend away?
No. That's wrong. I pushed them away.
Soon enough I would have to tell Charlie -alone- that I'm pregnant. He'll assume it's Edward's child, and be angry when I tell him Edward left. Then, I'll have to tell him it's not Edward's. It's Jacob's.
When I tell Renee I can almost hear her.
"Put him up for adoption, Bella. It's to hard to be a single parent. Believe me, I know!"
But I already made my decision. I'm going to keep Eli. Raise him on my own.
Before I could plan anything else, I needed to see a doctor. I hadn't gone once.. Though, I have no clue what I'll do. Especially since my own personal doctor isn't an option.
The Cullen's.. I wonder what they think of me now.
I know what Rosalie will say. Nothing. She didn't like me before, she must hate me now. She's always wanted a baby, and now I have one. And it wasn't even planned.
I gripped my stomach and rub very gently, small circles.
"It's okay." I coo to nobody. I know the baby is to small to hear me, but it's nice to hope he hears me. "I love you."
It's amazing that I'm not crying right now. I cry so much now.
The sun is all the way out. It must be around nine in the morning. I've been sitting in my old room for hours just thinking. How I'll tell Charlie. When I'll go to the doctors. I could use my college fund money. I have no intentions on college anymore.
I tried my hardest to put the thoughts of the two men I love aside for now. I didn't want to cry anymore today. I want to be happy. If it's even possible..
With a long sigh I sit up from my bed and turn my computer on. It growled and moaned at me. The temptation to kick it once was hard to ignore, but I did.
While I waited, I walked over to my closet and pulled out a blue shirt that went down to my waist. It had big blue buttons on the sleeves, and polka dots all over it. I also pull out a pair of blue jeans and frown. Blue was his favorite color on me.
I put the two back and grabbed a beautiful white sun dress. I put it on and it flowed delicately down to my knee's. I looked at myself in the reflection of my mirror and sighed. My hair is knotted up on top of my head, and I had no idea what to do about it except a shower.
After my shower I jumped back out and got re-dressed. My hair brushes easily into a strait line, curling lightly at the bottom to the right. It was fine, since Alice wouldn't be around to complain.
When I get back to the computer, it was wheezing loudly, and pop ups were all over the screen. It takes five minutes to exit them all out, but when I was done I opened the Internet.
I typed in 'Doctors in Forks, Washington' with trembling fingers. It took all the strength I had, and one look down towards my stomach to hit enter, but when I did three links came up.
I hit the first one and read for a little while. It sounded fine. Dr. Christina Lewis. After printing the directions out I grabbed my keys, and ran to my truck in the pouring rain.
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Jacob Black's point of view:
I wake up to the sound of the front door slamming. To my surprise, it's not my front door but Bella's. I think back to how I'd gotten here and frown remembering our fight. Rain drops fall down through the leaves of the tree I was sleeping under and hit my in my face.
Bella runs to her truck and jumps in quickly. The roar of the engine makes me jump, and makes me curious as to where she could be going.
After she pulls out I stand up and run after her, always sticking to the shadows that the tall green trees provide me. It's not hard to keep up with her, because her ancient truck doesn't allow much speed.
Slowly, she pulls into a small area with a few buildings. I notice almost instantly the one that says 'Doctor Lewis's office.' She was going to a doctor without me?
She walked in and I followed after her. I hid in a chair, and listened carefully to what she told the lady at the front.
"I need to see Doctor Lewis, please. It's an emergency." She begged and the woman looked up at her. Her expression looked bored.
"It's always an emergency, sweetie. Fill out these forms and I'll be with you in a bit." She handed Bella a clip board with some papers on it and Bella set it down carefully.
"You don't understand. I'm pregnant, and I need to see the doctor." She tried again. The woman pushed the papers closer to her and looked back down to her magazine. I felt my anger flare and stood up to defend her.
"Excuse me, we need the doctor. Now. Jacob and Isabella Black" I said, my voice full of authority. She looked up and stared, wide eyed. Both Bella and the woman at the desk. Bella glared up at me then gaped. It was our baby after all. She didn't have to act like using my name was such a big deal.
"Err, sure. Sorry." She whispered looking me from head to foot. There was always something good about being so tall.
"Thanks. And it's Cullen. Isabella Cullen." Bella said nodding to the woman at the desk and turned away from me. She stomped over to a chair and sat down with a humph completely ignoring me. It stung, but I ignored the pain.
Stubborn Bella.
"Bells, you're welcome." I joked trying to lighten the mood. She wasn't amused. She continued ignoring me.
"Come on.. Why are you so mad at me? I'm sorry I left okay.. It was wrong. You told me you didn't want me there though! So I didn't stay.." I said and I could see her eyes fill with tears. She uncrossed her arms and jumped from her chair to my lap, wrapping her tiny arms around my neck.
"Jacob, I'm sorry!" She pleaded gripping my neck tightly. I was sure if I was all human I wouldn't be able to breath.
"Shh, it's okay, Bells. I understand. Shh.." I whispered again and again. She cried more into my shirt and finally calmed down when somebody called for us.
"Isabella and Jacob Cullen?" She called and Bella laughed hoarsely. I just scowled.
I stood up and carried Bella in my arms to where the woman emerged into her office. Doctor Lewis's office.
When I saw her I felt safe. Bella must have to. Her face was warm and inviting. She had brown short hair, and glasses. Her eyes were a light gray and glowed when she put her eyes on Bella.
"Ah, Isabella. Chief Swan's daughter, right?" She asked and Bella's expression turned from calm to horror.
"Yes." I answered for her and the doctor nodded.
"Well, why are you here today, sweetie?" She asked again and Bella was still frozen in my arms. I set her down on the bed and the paper made crinkling noises under her light weight.
"Well- I.. Eli.." She said and Doctor Lewis rose an eyebrow at her. Then she looked at me and waited for me to answer with something she could understand.
"She's pregnant." I said and Doctor Lewis smiled warmly. Bella seemed to calm down a little but the horror written all over her face never disappeared.
"Ah. I see." She said and walked over to Bella. She rubbed Bella lightly on the shoulder.
"Everything will be okay. We won't tell your father. That's your job. Now, let's check on the baby!" She cooed excitedly.
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Bella's point of view:
Everything considering the baby was healthy. Everything. Jacob even stayed to hold my hand through the whole thing. I was so happy. He didn't leave. I felt happy tears pooling up in my eyes and Jacob squeezed my hand once, reassuringly.
I pulled the picture of the ultrasound out of my pocket. It was folded over eight times now and my eyes lit up every time I saw it.
"It's so beautiful!" I whispered and Jacob looked down at it. His face scrunched up and he frowned.
"I still don't see it.." He whispered sadly. How could he not see it? It was so bold. It was practically glowing..
"Right there." I pointed to the small shape in the middle of the picture.
"Oh!" Jacob exclaimed. He took the picture from my hand and pulled it to his face. "Oh.." He said sadly. I looked at him questioningly.
"It looks like a peanut.." He said and I smacked his arm.
"Our baby doesn't look like a peanut!" In truth it did, but I wouldn't admit it.
I was only six weeks and four days in. The doctor said morning sickness would most likely stop in about five months.. She also said I would be getting bad headache's at about thirteen weeks.
When we got back to Jacob's house I fell down onto his couch. I gripped my stomach and sighed.
"What?" He asked. I looked at him and smiled.
"Jacob. Charlie's going to kick me out when he finds out I'm pregnant. Now I have no where to go except back with my mother." I began to cry. Jacob surprised me when he laughed.
"What am I? Only the babies father. My couch is always open, just like you once told me yours was!" He said and my tears stopped. I smiled and he grinned ear to ear.
"Thanks." I said and frowned again. "Maybe we should tell Charlie today." I suggested and Jacob's smile disappeared with mine.
"I guess. Billy too?" I nodded.
Jacob Black's point of view:
"Maybe we should tell Charlie today." Bella said. My smile disappeared. That was probably the scariest part of the whole pregnancy thing.
"I guess. Billy too?" I said trying to sound brave. In reality, I was scared. Horrified.
"Okay.. When?" I asked and Bella smiled, trying to be brave just like me.
"Now." She said. I stared. She seemed serious enough..
We decided that Billy would be first since we were already at my house. He took it.. Kind of well..?
"Dad.." I
said stepping into his bedroom. He smiled and nodded. Bella squeezed
my hand and when I looked over her expression shadowed mine. "I
have to- WE have to talk to you." He finally turned his attention
to us and raised an eyebrow. "Yes?" He asked. He turned
his chair to face us and I sighed. Might as well get it over
with. "Bella's pregnant." I said. The weirdest thing
happened.. He smiled. "Congratulations, sweetie!" He
chirped and I shook my head. He noticed and frowned. He looked back
and fourth from the two of us then at our intertwined hands. He
gasped and his face turned red. He calmed himself quickly. "Oh."
Was all he said. Bella was frozen next to me. So was I. "Okay then.
Err. Does Charlie know?" I shook my head and he clicked his
tongue. "Kay." Kay? Kay? That's it? "Goodbye." He said
turning his attention back at the TV screen. Nothing was on. He must
just want us gone.. I know I'll be getting yelled at later when Bella
isn't here, though.. We left the room and Bella took a large
breath like she had been holding it the whole time. "That
went well." She said smiling up at me. I nodded and smiled at her.
It was a fake smile though. She had no idea..
The door open and wind blew through the house. Bella shivered, but most likely not from the cold. She looked up at me and I smiled before kissing her once on the forehead. She smiled back and blushed.
"Bella?" Charlie called. Bella froze again.
"We're here." I spoke for her again, and she let out a moan.
"Oh, hey Jacob." Charlie said coming around the corner into the living room. His smile was large at the fact that I was here. He looked around for the bloodsucker and his smile grew when he realized he wasn't here. "Good day!" He said and I laughed without humor. Bella laughed next to me, but it didn't sound right. Charlie noticed.
"You okay, Bells?" He said taking his jacket off to reveal his gun on his hip. She moaned again and curled up into my side, hiding her face.
"We have to talk to you, Charlie. Err. Dad." Bella whispered and I could feel tears on my side soaking through my shirt.
"Okay, what is it? You okay?" He asked looking directly at her. She nodded and I nodded too. Charlie looked at me with curiosity written all over his face. Then he smiled largely. The biggest smile I'd ever seen him make.
"Is this about you two?" He asked with hope. I knew what he meant and I couldn't help blushing. He thought Bella left Edward for me. I smiled a small smile than shrugged.
"Sort of.." Charlie's smile grew bigger yet again.
"So what is i-" He started but Bella cut him off.
"Dad, I'm pregnant." She said and cuddled closer to me. Charlie's smile was gone instantly. He froze in his spot, and it looked like he was having a hard time breathing.
"What!" He yelled directly at Bella. I wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her closer. She whimpered and dug her face deeper into my side. "What!" Charlie repeated.
"Charlie-" I started but he cut me off.
"Jacob, this is none of your business! If you don't mind I'd like to talk to my daughter alone." He hissed and Bella finally looked up. Her eyes were red from crying.
"No, dad. I want Jacob here." She said and Charlie's face turned a darker red.
"Where's Edward? I'm going to kill him." He said and turned towards the window.
"Charlie.." Bella started but he stopped her words by turning and glaring.
"I don't care if you two are married. You are eighteen Bella!" He yelled and Bella winced. He seemed to notice he was making Bella cry more so he calmed down slightly.
"Why is Jacob here, when it's Edward's child?" He asked looking at me.
"No, sir." I called him sir, to afraid to call him Charlie. I kept my eyes on the gun on his hip where I hoped it would stay. "It's mine."
His face lightened up to a dark red. Not as bad as before, but not good either.
He was at a loss for words. Probably to relieved to know it wasn't the bloodsuckers. A lot less relieved than I was.
"But.. Does Edward know?" He asked glaring down at Bella's little stomach. It wouldn't be little for long..
"Yes." She whispered quietly. I wanted to wipe the remainder of her tears away that he had put onto her face.
"And?" Charlie hungered for more information.
"He's gone. He left me, dad." She whispered and I could feel her heart break. Mine soared, but the high that I was feeling was gone when I saw the fresh tears on her eyelashes. "He's gone."
Charlie's face was no longer dark red, but pink. He winced and shook his head.
"I'm going to Billy's." Charlie said before taking one last look at Bella's stomach. Then he left without another word.
Bella broke down in my arms.
"He left! Just like Edward! Just like you did!" She said. I shuttered.
"I didn't leave. Well, I did.. But I came back!" I reminded her. I was stunned. The bloodsucker really did leave her. Maybe there was hope for us.
This is for a matter a fact my least favorite chapter of all the stories I've ever made! Hopefully you don't feel that way about it. It was hardest, though, because I had to keep re-writing the doctor thing.. It was so hard. Hope you all like it..
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Chapter Eleven preview:
"Well.. Since you're already pregnant we could.. You know." He said winking. I gaped.
I smacked him on the arm with as much force as I could, sending him to the ground.
"Dude, You broke my arm! I was kidding, gees." He defended himself. I just growled once and turned away from him.
"Whatever." I scowled and blushed.