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"Damon…no…please stop." Bonnie said, frantically as she tried to push him off of her.
The smell of the liquor on his breath was choking her as he continued to kiss her. Damon began to unbutton his pants and Bonnie's panic kicked into overdrive. She didn't want to be with him, not like this. She felt so helpless; he was too strong and she couldn't get him off of her.
"Damon…please… don't do this." She cried, as tears fell from her scared green eyes.
"You're quite the little actress aren't you Elena, but I'm on to your little games…you fucking whore…your crocodile tears don't fool me!"
"Who is Elena...Damon, it's me Bonnie…it's me Bonnie…I'm Bonnie!" She screamed.
Damon stared down at her in confusion and then his mind cleared and his eyes widen in alarm. "Oh god, Bonnie…oh god, did I hurt you… I didn't mean to hurt you!" He choked out, pulling her to him, desperately clutching her to his chest.
Bonnie wrapped her arms around him, crying. "You didn't…you didn't hurt me, Damon."
Damon pulled back, searching her eyes and touching her face, making sure for himself that she was okay. "Baby, I'm so sorry…I didn't mean to scare you like that."
Bonnie nodded her head as tears of relief slipped down her face. She was so happy that he was himself again. "Damon, what happened to you…you called me Elena…who is she?" She asked, shakily.
Damon kissed her forehead. "She's no one baby."
Bonnie pulled back. "No, don't lie to me. Damon, you thought that I was her!"
Damon couldn't tell her about Elena. He refused to open that door to the past. It had cost him too much, and it was too painful to rehash everything that he'd lost because of her.
"Bonnie, stop it…I told you that she is nobody…now drop it!" He said, getting off the bed.
Bonnie closed her shirt, holding it tightly together in her hand. "How can you say that after what just happened?"
Damon wouldn't look at her. "I'm sorry for that, but I'm not discussing this." He said, walking into the bathroom, firmly closing the door.
Bonnie felt like she'd been hit by a bus. She had so many emotions running through her that she couldn't decipher one. What the hell just happened?
Bonnie sat on the bed and watched as Damon came out of the bathroom, freshly showered with a towel wrapped around his waist. Bonnie wanted answers and she knew that if she asked him direct questions about this Elena person he wouldn't answer her, so she decided to start off small and ask the obvious.
"Were you upset with me, is that why you were drinking…was it because of me?" she asked, quietly.
Damon sighed. "No Bonnie…it wasn't because of you…I just had a lot on my mind, wrestling with old demons, and I needed to unwind…I guess I had a little too much to drink and my mind started playing tricks on me."
"Do you want to talk about it, maybe I can help?" She said, getting off the bed.
"Thank you for the offer sweetie, but this is something that I have to handle on my own." He said, kissing her forehead.
"Why do you always shut me out…you can't keep shutting out the people who love you Damon." She said, hugging him.
Damon froze in her arms and pulled back to look into her eyes. "What did you just say?"
"What?" she asked confused.
"Nothing." He said, shaking his head. Damon looked intently into her earnest green eyes. "You're too good for me… you know that…I don't deserve you?"
"No, don't say that…you are the best thing that ever happened to me…I don't know what I'd do without you."
Damon kissed her just how he knew she liked it, and Bonnie moaned, melting against him. He wanted to make it up to her for scaring her earlier and took his time gently teasing and coaxing her until she started to kiss him back. He backed her to the bed, gently laying her down as his body covered hers. He knew he had a lot of groveling to do and what better way to worship at her altar than to kneel before her and play homage to her body by licking her pussy until she screamed for mercy. And, that's exactly what he did, leaving Bonnie trembling in ecstasy. He slowly entered her tightness and began to move within her. Bonnie wrapped her legs around his waist and held on as he increased his pace, screaming for dear life when he hit her sweet spot over and over again until she thought she'd die from the pleasure. Bonnie came so hard that she saw tiny blue and yellow stars floating around the room. When he pulled out of her, Bonnie was already falling asleep. She'd been so well and thoroughly satisfied that he'd literally put her to bed.
Damon laid there and watched her sleep. He moved the hair out of her eyes so that he could see her beautiful face. He would never forgive himself for what he'd almost done to her. He had come so close to hurting her, all because of that dirty, filthy bitch. He wouldn't allow Elena to reach from beyond the grave to ruin his relationship with Bonnie. He wouldn't let her poison the happiness he'd found in this beautiful girl sleeping before him. Bonnie was nothing like Elena and as long as he remembered that then everything would be alright.
Elena had been a manipulating gold digging bitch who used him to climb her way out of the tailor park. He'd lost his family and had been disowned because of her. He'd been so blind that he couldn't see that Elena didn't really love him, only his money and what he could do for her. And, all the while she'd been sneaking around his back and fucking anything with a dick. Elena had ruined him, to the point where he didn't trust a woman to save his life. And, when she was killed in a car accident, there was a part of him that was relieved she was gone so that he could be freed from the hold she had over him. So, to make sure that he never got played that way again by any woman, he became the player and vowed never to put himself in a position where a woman had that much power over him.
But, then he'd met Bonnie and that hardness that had surrounded his heart had started to soften and he'd began to smile and laugh like he used to before he met Elena. Bonnie brought that sense of lightness that had been missing from his life. He was able to joke around again and find the little pleasures in life that everyone took for granted. He'd spent more time with her in these last few months than he had with any woman he'd been with after Elena had died. Bonnie had become important to him and he didn't want to lose her. He wanted her to be a part of his life. Even with their arguments, these last couple of days she'd been with him had been the best of his life in a long time. He loved waking up to her laying on top him, feeling her heartbeat against his chest as she snored softly in her sleep. He loved cooking for her and watching her face when she ate his food, he especially loved when she particularly like something how she'd get out of her seat and kiss him, telling him it was the best she'd ever had. He loved her smile and especially her laugh. She was fun to be with even when they were just relaxing on the sofa watching television. He just loved being with her period. He loved her…he loved her. Damn.
Bonnie woke up to the smell of bacon, and she smiled that secret smile every woman does after a pleasurable night in the arms of her man. She rolled over and giggled when she thought about the things he'd done to her. But, her smile started to fade some when the name Elena floated through her thoughts, stealing some of her happiness. Who was she? And, why did Damon hate her so much? He'd called her a whore. Bonnie shivered as she thought about how scary and out of control Damon had been when he thought she was her. Bonnie got out of bed and went into the bathroom to shower. Twenty minutes later, she was walking into the kitchen. Damon stood in front of the stove, and Bonnie walked up to him, putting her slender arms around his waist.
"And, what deliciousness are you cooking up this morning along with the bacon I smell?" she asked, kissing his muscled arm.
"First, good morning and second…we are having eggs and homemade waffles, along with the delicious bacon you smell already cooking." He said, turning around in her arms to kiss her.
"Mmmm…that's sounds great." Bonnie said, letting go of him and going to the refrigerator to get some juice.
Damon watched her, his eyes worried. "Bonnie, about last night…I know that I freaked you out, and I'm sorry about that okay." He said.
"I know that Damon…and I also know that you would never hurt me." She said, standing in front of him.
He stroked her cheek, his eyes solemn as he looked at her. "Do you forgive me?"
"You don't even have to ask…don't you know that I'd forgive you anything because I…"
Damon kissed her mouth, silencing her. He didn't want her to tell him that she loved him; he didn't deserve her love. He pulled away from her. "Sit down and I'll fix you plate." He told her. Bonnie nodded her head and did what he said.
As they were sitting down, Bonnie heard her phone going off in the living room and jumped up to get it.
"That's probably Caroline, checking in." Bonnie said. She smiled when she saw Caroline's name on her screen.
"I knew it was you before I even picked up the phone." Bonnie said, by way of hello.
There was complete silence. "Bonnie, there's been an accident…Bonnie, it's Matt…he died last night."
"W-What…No…that can't be right…it's got to be some stupid prank…you know how Matt is always joking around…he's probably somewhere with Jeremy and Tyler laughing his ass off about how he fooled everyone …no…I don't believe that…I don't believe it." Bonnie said, shaking her head vehemently.
"Bonnie…listen to me…they were all up at Jeremy's parents lake house…they'd been drinking and Matty went for a late night swim and drowned…no one even knew that he'd left the house…they found his body floating in the water this morning." Caroline said, sniffing as the tears ran down her face.
"No, no, no, no, no, no…" Bonnie cried, dropping to her knees. Damon was holding her in his arms in seconds, rocking her as Bonnie sobbed into his chest.
Damon picked up the phone that Bonnie had dropped to the floor and asked Caroline what happened. His heart ached for Bonnie. He knew what it was like to lose a friend to death so he held Bonnie tighter, letting her know that he was there for her, that she wasn't alone.
Bonnie felt numb as she sat out on the deck gazing at the ocean. She'd last talked to Matt in school on Friday. He'd asked to borrow her World History notes so that he could make a cheat sheet for the test he'd be taking that afternoon. Bonnie had scolded him, but he'd only laughed and said that it was expected because he was a jock. When she'd relented and given him the notes, he'd quickly kissed her cheek before running down the hall to the library.
Damon walked out onto the deck and handed Bonnie a mug of coffee laced with a shot of bourbon. He sat down beside her and wiped away the silent tears rolling down her face. "Bonnie, drink some of this…it will help calm you." He said, gently pushing the mug to her mouth.
Bonnie didn't drink, she was lost in her memories of the first time she met Matt. "Matty lived across the street from me. I remember when we first moved into our house I was sitting on the lawn, trying to stay out of the way of the movers when this little blonde haired blue eyed boy ran up to me. He asked if I had any brothers and when I told him no, that I was an only child, he was so pissed. Bonnie laughed softly, wiping her nose with a tissue. He was the only boy our age on our street, and he said that he was tired of playing with girls all of the time, that we were no fun and didn't know how to do anything. Well, of course I took offense to this and told him that I could do anything that he could only better. He narrowed his blue eyes and challenged me to a race. You should have seen his eyes when I beat him. Bonnie laughed. He was so shocked that a girl had actually beaten him at anything, especially racing. And, everyday he would come to my house with a new challenge until finally he won. And, once he did, he begrudging told me that I was alright for a girl but that I'll never be better than him." Bonnie said, her laughter turning into fresh tears.
Bonnie looked at Damon, her green eyes red rimmed from crying. "Do you know he was like my brother? He looked out for me…he even got in a fight over me once. I had caught Stefan cheating on me with some girl at a party. I was so upset and tried to leave, but Stefan wouldn't let me go until he explained himself. But, I didn't want to hear anything he had to say, so I kept pushing at him to release me and he wouldn't. And, out of nowhere Matt pushes Stefan off me and the next thing I see are the two of them on the ground fighting. All I could think was that Stefan was going to kill Matt. So, I panicked and jumped on Stefan's back, pulling at his hair, trying to get him off of Matty. Then all of a sudden, Caroline jumps in and she's on Stefan and Matty takes advantages of the situation and sucker punches Stefan." Bonnie laughed, remembering. It had been so crazy.
Damon rubbed her back as she talked, smiling at her memories. "I just don't understand…why Matty…why did it have to be him…he never hurt anyone." Bonnie cried.
Damon pulled Bonnie out of her chair, sitting her in his lap and held her close to his chest. "I don't know baby…I don't know." Damon said, kissing her head.
"Why do I always lose the people I love…I lose everybody." She sobbed.
"You've got me Bonnie…and I'm not going anywhere." He said, holding her tighter.
"You promise." She said, shuddering.
"I promise."