12/12/12! Yes there are 12 exclamation points. Or marks or whatever you call them. So I was training all day for a 5K that I am not excited for...yay? So sorry this is so late.

Funny story. I was in English today and I was working on my fanfiction because that's what is I do during class and the girl who sits across from me asked what I was doing and I said I write stories and post them to FanFiction. She's like do people actually read them? And I said yeah I get a pretty good response and I have some loyal followers. And she goes: "Really? That's surprising. You suck at writing." So I replied. "Well that was great for my self confidence." Yeah so my story actually wasn't that funny :D

Yay! Okay this chapter is dedicated to: briorca18, BTRlover98, and Crazygurl5and11.

Songs Used: Broke but not Broken by Artist Verses Poet.

Warnings: Katie's really delusional. :/

Disclaimer:: still own nothing.

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Chapter 10: Broke but Not Broken

Like the mirror I stare into distorting my own view of how I see myself, so untraceable to everybody else shattered pieces fell as I tell myself that everything is alright as I stand here left with nothing. I'm broke, but I'm not broken like the mirror, that's my rear view distorting my own views of how I see myself, it's not erasable, I'm miserable as hell as the pages turn, I begin to learn that I have every reason to resent myself. I'm broke, but I'm not broken

(Kendall POV)

I hate hospitals. I really do. As soon as I walked in, Katie was taken from me. I would be allowed to see her in a few hours. Then the nurses wanted to check out my injuries. I told them I was fine, just a little tired and bruised.

I slumped over in the chair next to the guys.

"Tired Kendall?" James asked me.

"Insanely." I grumped. "I've been up forever."

"Take a nap." James told me. "That's what Logan's doing." He gestured to our sleeping friend.

"No way. What if the doctor comes and tells us we can see Katie and I'm asleep?"

"Fine, then don't sleep." James grumbled.

Carlos leaned forward. "Tell us what happened after we left in the house."

"Okay." I agreed. "After you guys left my dad and I got into a fist fight, and that's how I got the bloody nose."

"Ouch." Carlos said.

"You sound like Katie." I smiled, that was exactly what she said when she saw my bloody nose.

James looked bored. "Then what happened?"

"Oh then I managed to give him a black eye, and he didn't really like that too much. Then he asked how Katie would feel if I fell out the window. And he pushed me farther and farther out the window, when I was like one push away from falling, he collapsed. Robbie, my cousin the boy who's been taking care of Katie, hit him on the head and knocked him out. Then I left."

Carlos' eyes widened. "Wow!"

"Now tell me what happened when you brought Katie to the car." I told them.

James perked up. "So as soon as I brought her out of the house I buckled her up into her seat and she kinda just kept giving me these dirty looks. She asked me where you were every few seconds. Then if I tried to start a conversation with her all she would say was Kendall. Then when Carlos and Logan came she asked if they were Kendall."

"So I climbed into the car with her and tried to make her smile or say something else but she just glared at me." Carlos smiled. I remembered watching Carlos trying to get her to laugh.

"How was the car ride back?" James asked me.

"Not bad. A little strange though." I said, thinking back.

"How so?" Carlos asked.

"She was playing with my fingers nonstop, but she wouldn't smile when she was doing it, she would be all serious." I mused. "Then I put my arm around her so she could lean on me to watch a movie and she put her head on me then pulled away and asked if it was okay. Okay was like the only thing she said for a few hours. She was delirious for majority of the car ride, but she refused to talk to anyone but me. Then when the pain kicked in she got insanely uncomfortable. So I gave her a sugar pill and made her lay down, but she wouldn't put her feet on Carlos."

"Why not?" Carlos was quick to interrupt.

"I'm not sure, she got pretty shy, she was probably use to living around Robbie and my Dad, where she didn't touch them." I said.

There was some random silence that I was grateful for I checked my phone and saw that I had a text from my mother.

Mom: HOW IS EVERYTHING?

Kendall: OK WE'RE IN THE HOSPITAL WAITING ROOM NOW.

Mom: HOSPITAL?

Kendall: YEAH, WHEN WILL U B HERE?

Mom: AROUND NOON, MAYB LATER LOOKING FOR A GET WELL SOON PRESENT FOR KATIE.

Kendall: K C U SOON.

Carlos leaned over. "Who was that?"

"My mom." I switched off my phone and put it back in my pocket. "She'll be here in a few hours."

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(Katie POV)

A bleary white light took over my vision, my head was pounding and my leg stung. I couldn't move my left arm. When I tried to talk my tongue felt heavy. I was tired and in pain. This sucks.

"Hi Katie," A voice said. "How do you feel?"

"Kendall?" I asked hopefully.

"No I'm your doctor." The voice told me.

"I want Kendall." I pouted.

"Okay, I can go get him; I'll be back in a minute." The doctor said; then left.

"Kendall." I pouted.

The door opened across the room and four boys walked in, but there was only one I really cared about.

"Kendall!" I squealed.

"Hey Katie." He whispered.

"Kendall." I said.

"What?" He asked.

"Kendall." I said a little louder.

He looked confused. He glanced at one of the boys with brown hair. The boy gave him a push towards me.

"Kendall." I smiled. He gave me a hug then sat on the edge of my bed.

"Cool cast." The smallest of the three boys said and came forward. I didn't take my attention off of Kendall.

"Katie, can you say hi to Carlos, Logan and James?" My brother asked me.

I shook my head, staring straight at my big brother, who was sitting next to me on the bed. The three boys came and sat down in the chairs. The one with hazel eyes was watching me intently.

"Logan? Is this normal?" Kendall asked one of the boys.

"Why do you always ask Logan questions?" The smallest boy pouted.

"Because he's the smart one."

"Well," A brown haired boy said. "It's quite possible she doesn't remember us."

"Why wouldn't she?" Kendall asked.

"Because after her concussion the only thing she was focusing on is you, and we probably slipped her little mind." The medium sized boy answered.

"Katie," My brother turned towards me. "Do you know who they are?"

"Maybe." I answered.

"What if I told you that one of them is Logan, can you tell me which one he is?" Kendall asked leaning back so I could see the three boys.

"That one!" I pointed to the boy with hazel eyes.

"I'm not Logan!" The boy said, sounding disgusted.

"Hey!" Another boy protested. "What's wrong with being Logan?"

"Have you seen the way you dress?" The hazel eyed boy shot back.

Kendall groaned. "Katie, which one is Logan?"

"That one?" I pointed to the boy that had been arguing earlier.

He nodded. "Yup, I'm Logan, now which one is Carlos?"

"Uhh, him?" I pointed at the boy with hazel eyes again.

"Really?" He shrieked. I giggled.

"You know," Logan said. "She might just be doing this to get a reaction out of you."

"I think Logan's right." Kendall said. "She's smarter than we realize."

"She's like a baby!" The boy with the helmet smiled.

"Shut up!" I growled at him.

"Katie, calm down." Kendall put his arm around me. "He didn't mean it like that."

"How did he mean it?" I grumbled.

"He just meant that people with concussions have the same characteristics as a baby." I gave him a confused look.

"I wanna go home." I pouted.

"I know you do." My brother told me. "Logan? Did the doctor say how long she had to stay here?"

The hazel eyed boy spoke instead. "Keeping her overnight for observations, one of us can stay with her throughout the night."

"You aren't Logan." I told him.

"That's right, I'm not." The boy said. "Who am I?"

I thought for a second. "James."

The room erupted into cheers.

"Then who am I?" The last boy asked.

"Carlos." I answered quickly.

More cheers.

"Ow!" I whimpered. "That hurts my head!"

The room immediately quieted down.

The door opened again and someone stepped in.

"Mom!" I called.

"Katie!" She smiled and walked further into the room. "I wasn't allowed to bring in your get well soon present so it will be in your room when you get home."

"Okay." I smiled.

My mom walked over to Kendall to give him a hug. "Kendall your nose is all bloody."

"Ouch," I said, causing Kendall to smile and squeeze my hand. The boys all laughed.

"Stiiill?" He groaned.

"Yes still, what happened?" My mom told him.

My face lit up. "He and Daddy had a disagreement."

Kendall put his hand over my mouth before I could say anymore. I licked his hand, but he still didn't move it. I licked it again.

"Katie, stop." He told me. I licked his palm again. "Katie I'm serious."

I pouted. He removed his hand.

"What was she doing?" James asked.

"Licking me." Kendall rubbed his hand on Logan.

"Thank you for that." Logan said; his voice was dripping in sarcasm.

I smiled and leaned against Kendall.

"What did she mean you and Dad had a disagreement?" My mom asked sitting at the edge of the bed.

"After we got Katie out of the house Dad hit me a couple times." Kendall said.

I was intrigued. "Go on."

He looked down at me. "Not for Katie's ears."

I pouted.

"At least go get the blood off your face." My mom said.

"Later." Kendall said.

I was watching with interest.

"Katie who do you want to spend the night with you tonight?" My mom asked me.

It was pretty obvious who I wanted but I took a few seconds to pretend to think about it. "Kendall."

"Oh! Shocker!" James laughed.

"Shut up!" Kendall said sliding off the bed throwing fake punches at James. I wanted to join them so badly.

"You, face, now, go." My mom said, pointing first at Kendall then the door.

"Fine! I'll be back in a minute Katie." Then with one ruffle of James' hair he ran off.

"KENDALL!" James yelled and ran after him.

Yeah, everything was back to normal.

Yeah so that was it! I will be back on Friday for the oneshot Show Me the Way. And I'll be back on the 17th because I changed my mind and decided to update on Monday next week because I'm that nice. Hahaha so stay tuned for Chasing Cars. XOXO~Tay

PS. I know fire's bad!

njoy!