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"we errr still need to talk." Dean weakly said sounding shaky when Cas pulled away.

"so talk." Cas told him trying to sound as innocent as humanly possible whilst giving Dean the biggest puppy eyes ever, bigger then Sam and his baby browns, they were dare he say it…cute, where as Cas' were simply irresistibly hot. At the sight of this Dean launched himself onto Cas, so he was on top of his lover but managed to regain control and stop mere inches from Cas.

"about when, like, if we, can we…huh." Dean was trying so hard to talk serious really he was. It was Cas, he kept kissing and licking Dean's neck that was so exposed so close to him turning Dean into an incoherent stuttering mess of horny adolescent hormones. "Huh, dam it Cas." Dean told Cas with a slight smile as he closed his eyes and dropped his head, as Cas sat underneath Dean on the front seat whilst smirking with his mouth but dieing with his eyes, they were screaming with pain. Cas needed to forget for at least a little while, Cas needed to forget everything, Dean was the best and only way Cas could see to do this.

"Please Dean, stop talking."

Dean was a little taken back by Cas' request and he felt like an idiot for wanting put a break on things. Dean returned to his seat and stared at the stirring wheel. Cas sat frozen in a confused state, not too sure of what was happening.

"Cas you know how much I want to lay my hands on you, but will that solve anything?"

Cas' eyes fell to the floor of Dean's classic surprisingly well maintained car eyes filling with tears, knowing that Dean was right and hating him for it. So yes they needed to talk they did, there was simply too many things that had been left unsaid, that didn't mean Cas liked the question that was swelling in his mind taunting him with the possible answers.

"what are you going to do with Anna?"

"I don't know."

"will you marry her?"

"What! No, I'll be there for the kid but I'm not going to live the rest of my life with someone I don't love, it would ruin all our lives." Dean looked over to Cas and cupped his far cheek softly with a shaky hand, turned the boys head to face Dean. "Cas…"

Dean was unable to finish as a knock came from outside the car, both boys hurt too much on all levels possible to bother to jump or stop touching or staring at each other. "Dean" came a voice a young voice, Sam's voice, Dean jerked around to find his baby brother staring in on the two having the worst domestic anyone could ever have.

"What do you want Sammy?" Dean asked in his usual big brother so obey and worship me tone.

After catching sight of the fresh bruises and wiped blood on the faces on both boys as well as obvious red eyes Sam spoke to Dean through the glass. "…Dad's pissed." With that he ran inside. Dean rolled his eyes remembering the circumstances in which he left the house not even two hours previous. Dean shifted in his seat and opened his car door, climbed and in a very manly way limped to the other side and opened the door for Cas who remained in place.

"You coming?" Cas was still staring at the floor as he slowly shook his head as each strand of scruffy hair moved it split Deans heart slowly down the middle. "why?" Dean asked completely confused sounding desperate and feeling himself begin to anger, his voice was slightly more high pitched then normal obviously holding back tears.

"Because Dean." Cas was close to yelling as he clambered out the car to stand opposite Dean ready to deliver some home truths. "You've done the thing I told you not to do. What I didn't want, I didn't want love Dean, the last thing I want is that." A silent tear fell down Dean's face as he listen to Cas angrily wheeze out his heart wrenching words.

"But isn't that what we've always had?" Dean pleaded as he tried to touch Cas' face desperately wanted to feel that warmth Cas always carried around with him. Cas took hold of Dean's hand and led it away from his face and dropped it back by the boys side, deciding to ignore Dean's troubling question he continued.

"you got me fighting. I don't fight."

"you did it for a good reason."

"You made me walk out of my parents!"

"I didn't make you; you wanted to do that just as much as I wanted to kill the basted."

"I don't want love to destroy me like it has done my father."

"baby our love is real its pure and it could never bo used to destroy anything, trust me"

"how can I? You got Anna pregnant and well Sam he didn't seem surprised you were, touching me in such an intimate way so I'm guessing he knows. You've done everything perfectly for me to hate you to want to walk out and never look at you ever again you've destroyed any trust between us." Cas walked away from Dean unable to stand his hurtful tear filled gaze a moment later, Dean soon found his way back by his side putting a hand of Cas' stiff shoulder he could not believe what was coming from his mouth.

"I know. But I don't want to hurt you Cas. Fuck that is the last thing I would ever want to do believe me, I want you happy, but I won't stop fighting for you. I will never stop baby. But If that's what it will take to see you smile, then go."

"I cant you absolute idiot don't you get it!" Cas angry exclaimed as he spun around and grabbed Dean's arm. "Even though you did all that in the space of a day, And even though looking at you gives me violent urges and I wouldn't trust you with my goldfish let alone my heart. If I tried, even for an eternity I still wouldn't be able to leave your side. I left my parents for you Dean, because you promised me it would be okay, despite everything I threw away everything, my whole world. And I did it all of it for you, and now it seems I lost everything for nothing, because I really, really hate you right now."

Cas spoke through gritted teeth as he felt himself begin to break down, Dean pulled Cas inwards him and wrapped his arms around him, not caring whether Cas wanted a hug because fuck he needed one. Dean slowly rocked Cas in his arms as his kissed Cas' forehead.

"I know, I know. I hate me too."

Cas unintentionally snorted out a quiet and weak snigger of amusement.

"Was that a laugh Mr Novak."

"It certainly was not Winchester."

Dean smirked as he felt Cas smile slightly as he put his arms around him. Dean couldn't help but think that maybe, love really is enough.

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