If Everything is Alright
A/N: Real short, I know, but I think it speaks volumes about her.
Based off the idea that Veld left Elfé to explore the house and she found old pictures, plus her own photo album.
A quick explination. When I play/write for Elfé, I write under the impression that she really can't remember much of her life before the expiriments. Other RPers (and I) also run it that she suffers from PTSD, with certain things triggering responses (ie: her name triggering the summoning of Zirconiade). That being said, she deals with grief completely different than say...me.
I couldn't be Elfé, not in real life.
She knew her father was starting to regret leaving her to her own devices. She worried him because when she was alone, she allowed herself to think. And the darkness crept up on her then, and it was like she was sleeping, dreaming, yet still awake.
This time, she's sitting on the ground in the study, legs crossed, photo album open in her lap. She's staring at a few pictures. There's one of her father and mother, together. One of them at their wedding. Them kissing…There's the family picture her father has in his wallet. Her as a little girl. There's her mother and her.
She's envious.
That's new.
She's envious of herself. Of the life she used to have.
She flips back to the wedding picture.
Is that love? She's trying to learn. To be human. And it hurts.
Love. Someone told her she was bound to experience it. She doubts it. Yeah, it'll never happen.
She's envious. She wants a family. Children. Someone to love her and to love back.
To be human
it's not possible…
Not now.
The pictures in her lap show three people. One has his arms around two of them. The man on the far left looks like he wants to kill the man on the far right.
She's in the middle there. She's smiling. Fuhito wants to kill Shears (you did, Fu. you did). Shears is just laughing (I killed you…Fuhito may have struck out but I'm the one who killed you).
In the next, it's her and Shalua and Chelsea. They're in traditional Comsian dress. She's blushing. The other two girls are laughing.
She looks at another. It's her and Rufus Shinra. Of all people. Rufus is wearing a uniform that makes him a member of AVALANCHE.
The photo album ends up crashing into the decorative mirror on the wall. Elfe doesn't remember throwing it. She just sits there, staring at the broken pieces of her life in the shards of glass.