A few months later, Natalie is 50 weeks old.

Natalie was playing on the blanket with her stuffed duck while Jay walked, the therapist holding him by his upper arm.

''Dada!'' Natalie sang as she hugged the ducky again and looked as her father was walking and Jay kept concentrating on walking. Soon after, therapy was over and the therapist lifted Natalie up.

''Aren't you a cutie.'' He said as the girl smiled at him, dropping the pacifier from her mouth and Jay kneeled down, sat down on the floor and cleaned it with a tissue from his pocket.

''Don't you have some others with you?'' The therapist asked worried but Jay shook his head.

''You make a big mistake, this girl is a princess and she needs to be treated like one and this is the only pacifier that is good enough for her.'' Jay smirked and when it was clean he got up again, handed it to his girl and walked to his wheelchair. He wish he could walk at the same time as his daughter, but Natalie was walking a lot faster than he was already. He took Natalie from the therapist leaned back, satisfied as she really did feel like a royal as she knew she could make daddy go everywhere she wanted.

After he changed from his sport clothes to his casual clothes she walked to the cafeteria, Jay wheeling slowly so she could keep up with him. Every now and then she looked up to make sure her daddy was still with her.

At the cafeteria he got a coffee for himself and a small plate of fries while Natalie looked at the strawberries in front of her and took one from the bowl and handed it to her daddy. Jay cut it in pieces and handed it to her and she ate them. She started to jabber to him, very serious as if she was actually telling him something while eating her lunch. Ever since they had given her a strawberry four weeks ago she couldn't stop eating them. When she saw on in an advert she would point and scream and the last week, as he always had a day off and therapy on Wednesday, he had lunch with her here and she had strawberries. He usually took her with him, as it was only for an hour and she enjoyed herself with her stuffed animal and toys.

They went home by bus. Natalie was talking to ducky on his lap and his phone rang. He of the bus and took the phone, holding Natalie with his other arm.

''Babe?'' Erin asked and Jay held the phone.

''I am here.''

''We are going on a raid...I just wanted to tell you, so you know.''

Erin always called him before going on a raid and on one hand he was happy she did because then he knew what was going on, but on the other hand it frightened him. He was awaiting the call that she was fine and when it took long he got even more worried.

''Be safe.'' He said and she promised that she would, as always and he held the phone by Natalie's ear. Erin talked to her for a little bit, Natalie smiling and Jay went inside. Inside the house he tried to walk as much as possible and Natalie followed him everywhere. Natalie then crawled to the rug she always played and Jay sat down next to her. Natalie grabbed her two favourite toys, the frozen dolls she had gotten from his mother and she handed the red haired one to Jay.

''Do you want to build a snowman?'' Jay asked with a silly voice as he held the doll in front of her. Natalie shouted out of laughter and carried on playing with the doll she was holding. Jay looked at the clock, absent. He worried so much when she was gone. He got up to grab some water in the kitchen. Leaning against the counter he drank some water as he looked at Natalie jabbering against the doll with a smile and he realized that she was okay. It was good that she had no idea what was going on. He wonder if that was what Laura felt every time Antonio went to do something dangerous. BUt he also knew she didn't perceive it as dangerous as he had done it before...it had just ended bad. But he also knew he would do the work again if he could.

Suddenly, he woke up on the floor and saw Natalie playing right in front of him, pushing the doll in his face and he tried to crawl up, his head beating and only now he realized he was on the kitchen floor.

Pulling himself up by the counter he realized he had a seizure and he made sure he hadn't dropped the glass, but it was still on the counter. Dazzled and confused he leaned against the counter again and he tried to keep from puking as he grabbed his phone. Luckily there was a call from Erin.

''How are you and Natalie?'' She asked and Jay was relieved she was okay.

''We are fine.'' He said then as he walked to the bathroom, Natalie following him.

''Sometimes daddy loses control for a second...and it's bad, I know. I wish you could stay forever this young, when you are too young to understand that your mom does dangerous things...and that your dad might be different from the other dads.'' Jay said as he took some medication for the headache, Natalie just standing behind him and he walked back with her, playing a little longer before they prepared dinner.

She stood on his lap and threw the spaghetti in the water and laughed proud as she did so and she hugged Jay tight as she was still standing. The front door opened and Erin entered, kissed Jay and lifted Natalie up.

''Are you preparing dinner, darling?'' She laughed as Natalie hugged her as well and as dinner was ready they took place by the dinner table.

''I had an attack today, second time in three months.'' Jay said and she caressed his hand.

''Are you going to ask for other medication?''

''Maybe.'' Jay said as he looked at Natalie, he hopes she would never see him having a seizure.

''You know Jay, I have been thinking. I know you need the wheelchair, but you use it outside and Natalie is crawling over the floor...maybe we could see if insurance covers a second one? For inside?'' Erin asked then but Jay shook his head.

''I asked, it doesn't. But i can walk around the house.''

''You get tired very easily.''

Jay nodded slowly as he knew it was true.

''But we can't afford it.'' Jay said then.

NOTE: Jay had some quality time with his daughter and while he is learning how to walk she is walking as well! Erin returned home safely but can they find a way to fix the problem with the money.

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