"You can't be serious."
"What do ya want me to say Raph? I can't…This isn't gonna work out if…" She sighed for a moment ending her pace back and forth in front of her large bedroom window where he stood. "I can't explain it, I love you I really do but somethin' just doesn't feel right with us lately ya know?"
"With us or with you?" He asked narrowing his eyes slightly as she ran a hand through her dark burgundy hair.
"Fine Raph, it's me. Alright? Ya happy? I'm the one that wants this. I can't be with you and have a normal life! You know that I and I know that!"
"Where the fuck is this comin' from? I told ya a month ago that if you wanted to get serious wit' me you'd have to give up a lotta shit. You were fine wit' it then!" He yelled stepping in from the window and slamming it shut.
"You told me all this while you were plowin' me into next week! I'd agree to anythin' durin' that!" She yelled back as he growled and clenched his fists, turning his face down tearing a whole into her red carpet with his glare.
"Are you seein' someone?" He asked in a low tone as she crossed her arms over her chest avoiding eye contact. It was silent for a moment as Raphael rose his eyes to her. She adjusted her weight on another foot before looking back at him. She sighed, rolling her eyes and threw her arms out before placing them at her hips.
"What do ya want me to say Raph?"
"The truth!" He nearly screamed as she sighed looking away from him.
"Fine! Yes! I am, ya happy? I didn't wanna tell ya because I didn't want to make you… Where are you goin'?" She asked as he stormed out of her bedroom.
"Is he here?" He asked opening a closet door as slamming it.
"No! Will ya knock it off, I had 'im leave before you got here. Just stop!" She said grabbing his by the bicep as he took in a slow breath turning towards her. "I didn't want ya to get hurt Raph…" She said softly as he pulled his arm away.
"Too late for that ain't it?" He asked glaring at her darkly before he nudged past her, back to her room.
"You asked! You wanted to know!" She yelled as he turned around quickly, she had to stop herself from running into his plastron.
"Yeah every guys wants to know when their girlfriend is cheatin' on them! Jesus, Mere what the fuck! What the hell happened to not givin' a shit 'bout what I am? You told me when we first met that you weren't use to normal anyway! I thought right then that this might at least work for more than two fuckin' months!"
"You don't think I thought that too? I was scared and alone when we first met and I just wanted somethin'…"
"So that's all I was to you? Just some fuckin' filler for when you found what ya really wanted?"
"No! I loved…"
"Don't even finish that fuckin' sentence! I hope you and Mr. Right are good for one another. Sorry ya had to be burdened with me for this long." He said climbing out of her window as she grabbed his arm again.
"Raph, wait! We should talk so you can settle down, an'…"
"An' what ?I can forget 'bout you?" He asked harshly as she took a slow step back. He sighed to himself as it slowly turned into a growl punching the chipped wooden windowpane before turning back towards her. "You ever meant it when ya said you loved me?" He asked softly as she rose her face to his, tears streaming from her eyes. Her bottom lip quivered and she pressed them together to stop it. "Yes or no." He growled as she sniffed for a moment shaking her head. His eyes widened a bit, as it was quickly replaced by anger rushing through his system. "I take it back." He said his voice husked from fighting the tears that burned behind his crimson mask. "I hope he finds out what you really are an' you use 'em like you used me. To think, I always thought I was the monster in this relationship." He said glancing at her once more before leaping up the fire escape to her roof top.
He could still hear her sobbing from below as he looked out towards the lit city before him. He could feel his heart slowly breaking itself down inside his chest but, ignore it. He clenched his eyes, as his fists balled and pushed and shoved everything inside him. He couldn't let some 'bitch' get to him. He was a warrior, he couldn't afford to get this heart broken. He heard the soft slid and click of her window as the crying ceased. He could still feel her hands on his body and he wanted to vomit. His mind was racing with her naked body in front of him, the way she moved when he was on top of her, the feel of her skin against his lips and face, her smell.
He leaned forward catching himself on the concrete ledge as he braced his arms. His breathing increased as he could feel his throat coating itself for the bile that was raising in his stomach. He growled, punching the ledge in front of him as he looked around quickly before leaping, and catching onto a fire escape of a neighboring building and climbing that to the roof tops.
He couldn't remember what thought he had at the moment as the wind forced over his body from the power his legs were pushing him away from that horrible place and that horrible memory. He was running from her, from their relationship, from everything they shared. He just wanted it to go away and be out of his head. Casey. He thought to himself as he would taste the sweet taste of alcohol and the sweet release of all thought it would give him.
Raphael stood on a roof top looking over the streets below. Music from the night clubs around him vibrated through the buildings as people stumbled to their taxis, and train stations. He crouched down, with an intense glare on the streets, looking for anything, straining his hearing over the music and laughter for anything out of the ordinary.
Furrowing his brow he noticed a girl coming out a of club, stumbling a bit with a smile on her face. He felt his stomach drop as the girl flipped her long burgundy hair over a shoulder.
She walked down the street, past a cab that was waiting on the side of the street and turned a corner. Raphael quickly stood, backing up and leaping over a roof top over the street, using a power line for leverage. Seeing the same girl host her oversize purse on her shoulder she quickly looked behind her as Raphael followed her line of sight seeing a shadow come from the streets into her alleyway. He growled slightly waiting for the man to get closer to her.
"I told ya, I didn't need anyone to walk me home." She said, that voice sending shivers slowly up Raphael's spine. The man said nothing and ran at her, grabbing her around the middle, forcing her arms to the nearest grimy wall of the alleyway as she went to scream.
Before she had to the man's body was ripped from her and she just gasped, letting the breath out of her lungs harboring from the almost scream. She saw the man get thrown against the opposite alleyway wall. His body slumped and slid to the ground as she started shaking slightly, staring at the shadow before her.
Furrowing her brow, she felt her body start to calm down as she looked at the large shadow, hearing the familiar heavy breathing. Stepping away from the wall she tired to get a better look, but he kept back to the shadows.
"Raph?" She asked softly as he clenched his eyes shut, trying to keep in the dark, feeling the need to just run.
"What were ya doin'? It's late and ya walkin' home this late? What the fuck is wrong wit you?" He asked all of his anger he has been burring over the past years coming to the surface.
"What do you care?" She snapped back as Raphael nearly growled.
"I don't!"
"Then you shoulda let me get raped!" She screamed back, tears starting to stream down her face as he watched her. She looked at him for a moment sobbing as quietly as she could, grabbing her bag that she had dropped and started for the streets. He sighed and stepped forward.
"Meredith wait." He called as she froze. Turning slowly she looked towards his shadow wiping her tears. "H-How are you?" He asked as she smiled meekly.
"Could be betta." She said adjusting the strap of her small black cocktail dress.
"Yeah…" He said awkwardly before she took a step towards him. The light from the streets hid his form in the shadows as he took a step back. "Let me walk ya home." He said keeping to the shadows as she stepped forward once more.
"Raph…" She said meekly, taking another step, her body in the cover of darkness now as she noticed the outline of his form. "Ya don't hafta hide from me."
"I ain't hidin' from ya." He said crossing his arms. "I just want to see that ya get home alright."
"Fine, whatever." She said walking towards the streets as Raph shook his head with a growl, climbing the nearest fire escape to the roof tops.
Going the familiar way he remembered for those months, looking over the ledge every now and again to make sure she got into her apartment building safely. Leaping onto her fire escape he waited for her. Seeing her open her door and step inside, locking it with her three locks on her door she looked over her shoulder seeing him on her fire escape.
Opening her window for him he stepped in taking in the scent of her apartment. It was the same as he remember it from before, same set up, same smells. She closed the window behind him, playing with her hair nervously as she walked towards the kitchen.
"You uh, you wanna beer?" She asked over her shoulder as he shrugged.
"If ya offerin'." He said leaning against the wall to her kitchen. She nodded her head, reaching into her stainless steal fridge and grabbing two beers and handing him one. He eyed it for a moment before twisting off the bottle cap. "When the hell did ya start drinkin' Heineken?" She smirked a little taking a swig.
"If ya don't want it give it back." She said holding out her hand as he shot a glare at her, taking a swig. She put her hand back down and rolled her eyes. "I've always liked Heineken." She said arching a brow. "I just always bought Sam's because you liked it."
"That's because it doesn't taste like skunk piss." He said making a grimace taking another swig. She rolled her eyes snatching the beer from his hand and going back into the fridge. She slammed the door shut and handing him a Sam Adam's as he smirked twisting off the cap.
"Happy jackass?" She asked kicking out a chair at her kitchen table and taking a seat. She pushed another chair out from the table with her foot pointing to it as she took a swig of her beer. Raphael looked at it for a moment before sitting. "So, how have you been?" She asked with a breath as he raised his eyes to her after sipping his beer.
"Alright. Uh…You?"
"Fine." She said softly.
"What happened to that Timmy…"
"Tommy." She corrected as he rolled his eyes.
"Whateva."
"We broke up awhile ago." She said taking a swig of her beer. Raph looked over at her as she kept her face down on the table.
"What hap…"
"He was cheatin' on me." She said harshly as Raph arched an eye ridge, looking down at his hand that laid at his belt. "Go ahead say it." She said after a moment as Raph looked back up at her.
"Say what?"
"You were right. I got what I deserved." She said softly, sinking down in her chair as Raph shook his head.
"I don't hafta, you already know." He shrugged.
"You're not gonna say anythin' 'bout it?"
"What do ya want me to say? I ain't sorry that it happened. You did deserve it."
"I really didn't mean to hurt you Raph." She said softly looking towards him. He sighed and shook his head.
"I didn't come here to hear you apologize to me. I don't need ya sympathy."
"I'm not givin' you any." She shrugged. "I just…"
"Don't flatter yaself. Ya didn't hurt me that bad." He said gruffly, taking another swig of his beer. She nodded her head slowly, sipping hers.
"Have you uh…Have you met anyone since…"
"No." He said keeping his eyes on her table. "Didn't have a need to. I was busy." He shrugged.
"Yeah I heard." She smirked a little as he furrowed his brow, looking at her. "Oh please, because it was so hard to figure out you were the Nightwatcher." She said rolling her eyes as he smirked for a moment looking back down at the table.
"I dunno what ya talkin' 'bout." He said looking towards her window. He placed his empty beer bottle on the table and got from the table. "It's gettin' late." He said as she stood up as well grabbing his arm.
"Raph wait…" She pleaded as he did, turning back towards her as her hand crawled its way slowly up his emerald skin. He watched it before looking back down in her green eyes. "I was wrong when I said I didn't love you." She said softly looking back down at her small hand move over the curve of his muscle. "I did, a lot. I think…" She sighed softly. "I think I was just scared of this."
"Then why'd you say it?" He asked, his voice taking its husked tone as her eyes raised back to his.
"Like I said Raphie, I was scared." She said, her body turned into his as her other hand started working it's way to his shoulder. He felt his stomach fill with heat as her familiar softness rain down on his senses. He took in a slow breath, smelling her sweet vanilla and honey scent. "I missed how safe I felt in your arms." She whispered softly as she placed her head to rest on his shoulder. He closed his eyes for a moment as his hands wrapped around the small of her back. "Will you stay with me tonight?" She asked softly looking back up into his eyes as he hesitated for a moment. His hands slowly slid from her body as he took a step from her. Her brow furrowed as he stepped from her arms.
"What are you doin'?" He asked narrowing his eyes as she kept her confused expression.
"Nothin'…I just, I missed you an'…"
"You missed me?"
"Yeah…" She said with a small smile as he shook his head with a sigh.
"How?" He asked keeping his eyes narrowed as she smiled wider, moving back towards him. He didn't move, he just let her walk towards him almost as if she was stalking her pray. Placing her hands back on his body as her hands searched up his plastron to his chest and shoulders, hooking them together behind his neck. Her chest pressed against his and he tired to not look down at the perfectly round forming cleavage seeming as though they wanted to slip free.
"You were always good to me." She said softly as her fingers played with the ends of his bandana. "And, you always knew what I liked." She smirked again, looking back up into his amber eyes as he caught a smell of her liquor coated tongue.
"You're drunk." He said looking at her.
"So?" She shrugged slightly. "You gonna feel bad that ya took advantage of me?" Arching a brow she slid her hands from his strong shoulders and started to slid her top from her body. He felt words work their way in this throat to stop her and just leave as the small fabric fell to the floor. She placed her hands at her breasts as her fingers started to undo the small clasp between them. He sighed shaking his head as all he could do was watch, his body refusing him to move.
Sliding the straps from her shoulders, the lacy red bra falling to the ground at his feet as he kept his eyes locked on hers. She bit her lip playfully as she started for the button at her pants, the button coming undone as she moved her thumb and index fingers slowly down the front of the middle of her body. She let the dark jeans fall, pooling at her feet as she slid her fingers into the sides of her black thong. She let a smile come to her face as his eyes darted from hers and over her body once more as she pulled the string from her body, rolling her hips slightly as she took a step back into the hallway that led to her bedroom.
"You can't say you don't want it." She said in a low tone as he rose his eyes back to hers. He nodded his head slowly as she smiled wider, keeping the thong on. "Follow me, big guy." She winked as he finally felt his legs move him towards her.
She opened her bedroom door as he watched her milky skinned backside in the moonlight pooling in from the large bay window. She drew her curtains as he started taking off his gear. She turned towards him with a smile, walking back towards him and helped him, kneeling down in front of him as she pulled down his knee pad. She looked back up at him as he felt her hands move along his inner thighs, slowly. He let his eyes close as he felt the softness of her warm lips kiss along where her hands just were on his thigh muscle. Her hair rubbing against his skin as he felt her pull away. He looked down at her as she got back up on her feet and they both looked at each other for a moment.
"Tell me you want me Raph." She said softly as he kept looking at her, not able to say anything.
"Ya really loved me?" He asked after a moment, his voice covered in husk from it not working because of the lust that rolled through his body. She nodded her head slowly as he took in a slow breath. "You want me?" He asked back as she bit her lip and nodded her head once more. He took one step towards her, pulling her body harshly into his as their lips met. He could taste the strong hard liquor in her mouth but ignore it as a moan escaped her lips.
"Tell me." She said in between their harsh kiss as he nodded his head, keeping his mouth on hers. "I… Want, to hear it." She said trying to separate his lips from hers as he growled and picked her up in his arms tossing her body effortlessly onto her bed.
"I want ya." He nearly growled as he laid his body down on hers. He kissed along her stomach as she arched her body into him.
The room was quiet besides her gasping breaths and his mouth, biting and sucking against her skin. The sound of vibrations against her hardwood floor made him lean up from her body as she looked over at him. He leaned off the bed and picked up his Shell Cell, opening it and seeing Felicia's number. She narrowed her eyes leaning up on her elbows.
"What are ya…"
"Sh!" He said as the phone slid open. "Raphael." He said, his voice still low and husked as he cleared it.
"Hi Raph, I know it's late but um Izzy already got a cab and I kinda told her it was alright for her to go ahead since my building is walkin' distance and stuff. It's just late and I don't really want…"
"I'll be there, give me a couple of minuets." He said getting from the bed and reaching down grabbing his gear and sliding it on.
"Oh, thank you so much Raphie!" She said as he smiled a little.
"No problem Fee." He said softly, turning away from Meredith as she narrowed her eyes getting from the bed and crossing her arms. He hung up his phone as he slid it in his belt after he tied it at his waist. "I gotta go." He said without looking at her.
"Who's Fee?" She asked mockingly at her name as Raph shook his head.
"Why the fuck do you care?"
"I thought we were…"
"What? Gonna fuck because you're too wasted ya know the difference? Nah, not anymore I got more important shit to do. Someone worth my time." He said looking at her as he watched her face fall slowly and take an honest expression of hurt. He smirked a little at his. "Dun worry though, I'm sure Timmy is doin' the same." He said opening her window and leaping up her fire escape.
"It's Tommy!" She yelled back as he chuckled to himself from her roof leaping to another.
Felicia bounced from foot to foot as she stood outside Willow's apartment building. Riley and Mikey hadn't come back yet to let her in and Izzy went home long ago in the taxi. Her apartment was only four blocks away but, there was no way she walking that alone. She sighed feeling the cooler wind from the ending summer roll across her shoulders as she bouncing again, looking up at the sky and then down the streets around her.
"Hey." She almost jumped to the sound of his voice behind her. She turned quickly to him with a smile on his face, leaning against the brick wall of the alleyway.
"Hi." She smiled a little tucking her bangs behind her ear. "I didn't mean to disturb your evenin' I was just…"
"Dun worry 'bout it. It wasn't anythin' important anyways." He shrugged. "Just an old mistake." He said mostly to himself as she leaned in.
"What?"
"Nothin'. C'mon I'll take ya home." He said as she nodded and followed him into the alleyway. As he turned she caught the faintest scent of vanilla against his skin. She furrowed her brow slowly feeling the slightly ache of jealous hit her stomach.
"So um, when I called ya what were ya doin'?" She asked softly as they walked in silence for a moment.
"Visitin' someone." He said gruffly as she nodded.
"Who?"
"I don't wanna talk 'bout it." He answered back turning down another alleyway as she nodded again keeping beside him. She bit her lip trying to keep herself from voicing all the thoughts that rolled through her head.
I know Willow mentioned years ago how a girl really hurt him. It couldn't have been her? Did he have a new girlfriend that he was seeing? Why would he ditch her for me? She at least smells nice. She thought sarcastically as she arched a brow to herself.
She bumped into his arm as he turned to look up her fire escape that led to her bedroom window. He looked over at her as she smiled meekly, her face flushing with embarrassment.
"Isn't that why you got these?" He asked tapping her thick rimmed glasses. She just kept her smile as her face grew warmer.
"Yeah, sorry." She said in a nervous chuckle as he smirked for a moment arching a brow at her. He shook his head before leaping up at the ladder, pulling it down with his weight. He held it there for her as she smiled again. "Thanks." He nodded as she climbed the ladder and he followed after. He smiled to himself as he watched her backside in front of him, but shook his head trying to get rid of the left over excitement that was still lingering from moments ago with her.
Felicia climbed over the railing of her fire escape and took out her keys in her bag that strapped around her shoulder. She unlocked her window and slid it open as she turned towards Raph who looked around quickly before back at her. She smiled over her shoulder at him as he returned it, following her inside her apartment.
"You want a beer?" She called to him as she made her way into her kitchen. He furrowed his brow to the question.
"You drink beer?" He chuckled, leaning against her door frame to her kitchen as she made a face at him as if she was offended. "I usually just see you drinkin' hard shit." He shrugged.
"You callin' me a lush?" She chuckled as he smiled a little.
"Nah, I just…" She handed him a Sam Adam's as his thoughts were cut off slightly.
"You just what?" She asked sipping her own as he looked back up at her shaking his head.
"Nothin'. If anyone is a lush outta you girls its Iz." He chuckled as Felicia followed.
"She's Irish, that's just her nature." She said in a laugh as he nodded. "So, have ya seen Mikey and Leo?" She asked softly as he rose his eyes to hers. He completely forgot about the serum and his brothers transformation.
"Yeah."
"What do ya think 'bout that?" She asked taking a seat at her bar stool that she had for her small island that played off as her kitchen table and counter. He sat next to her as he shrugged slightly.
"I think it's kinda retarded. They're puttin' poisin' into their systems to be human. We are what we are if people don't like it it's their problem. I think Leo is just as retarded for doin' this for some party."
"It's not just some party. It's Willow's and his wedding. Willow has a lot of family that means a lot to her and most of those people wouldn't be very accepting of yours. It's sad, but true. She wasn't exactly thrilled when she saw him." She shrugged as Raph rose his head to hers.
"What?"
"Yeah she was screamin' at him 'bout how he's an idiot for doin' something like that for her."
"He said, since she put up with so much she deserves this." Raph shrugged.
"You don't think she does?"
"If anyone does it's Will." He said in slight defense as Felicia nodded her head.
"I agree, so do you still think it's retarded?"
"Not for him. Mikey just wanted to try it because, well he's Mike. He'll do anythin' once. An' Don, well, he'll do it for the science and get off just from that." He chuckled as Felicia did a little too.
"Graphic, thanks." She said arching a brow as he chuckled harder. "And you?"
"Like I said, I think it's retarded." He shrugged.
"Nothin' wrong with that." She said shrugging herself. He looked over at her for a moment as she took a swig of her beer, looking straight ahead.
"What's that mean?" He asked furrowed his brow, not in a defensive tone but genially confused.
"It means that there is nothin' wrong with wantin' to not change yourself." She shrugged again. "You're fine the way you are. It's society that's fucked up." His eyes widened slightly. That was the first time he's ever heard something so harsh come from sweet, innocent Felicia.
"Ya really think that?" He asked softly as she turned towards him hearing the soft distance in his voice. Nodding her head he nodded his and looked ahead of him to swig his beer. "It's late." He said putting his empty bottle on the counter.
"Yeah, thanks for the walk." She smiled taking his beer and putting them in her sink.
"Any time." He smiled.
"Again, really I'm sorry if I interrupted somethin'." She said softly as he shook his head.
"It wasn't nothin' like I said." He shrugged. "Actually was a good thing ya call me." He smiled slightly.
"What happened…I know you don't wanna talk 'bout it but, maybe it'll make you feel better?" She shrugged as he sighed. "Was it your ex?" She asked nervously as he lifted his eyes to hers in confusion.
"How did…"
"You smell like a woman's perfume." She said leaning against her sink. He sighed and shook his head.
"It was just a mistake."
"It's none of my business but, did you…Two…Um…"
"Almost." He said looking down at his hands. "That's where you come in." He said in a small smile. "She was drunk and walkin' home from a club, alone. She almost got herself raped but I stopped the guy. I walked her home and she offered me a beer. I took it and we started talkin'. Wasn't till I was close enough to her that I realized she was trashed."
"Must have known her to be drunk a lot if you didn't notice any change in her character?" Felicia mused as he shrugged.
"Guess so."
"I thought that she really hurt you thou…"
"She didn't hurt me." He correctly softly. She nodded her head and chewed on her bottom lip as silence settling slowly over them. "I'm over it. Tonight helped a lot, and I have to thank you for that." He said looking back up at Felicia as she felt her face become warm again. "If ya didn't call I would have done somethin' really stupid. I've done a lotta stupid shit in my day but this woulda been up there."
"You always act on instinct." She said almost soft enough to be to herself as he looked at her.
"No wonder Donnie likes ya, ya really smart." He said getting from his seat as she blushed all over again.
"Donnie likes me?" She asked confused as he chuckled.
"Oh, nah. Not like that. No offense I mean ya hot, but I'm pretty sure it's simply a friendship thing." He shrugged. She chuckled a little.
"None taken, and thanks." She said following him back to her fire escape. He turned towards her giving her body a once over as she smiled at him.
"Not a problem." He said softly as she felt her heart leap to his tone for a moment. She swallowed hard and nodded her head.
"Be safe." She smiled as he opened her window.
"Always." He said stepping into the cooler air. "Night." He said as she smiled and nodded.
"Night." He leaped over the railing and she heard him slid down the ladder as it slammed loudly against his hinges. She giggled softly to herself sliding her window shut and turning towards the hallway to her room. Sighing softly to herself with a smile she changed into a tank top and shorts, sliding into bed. She giggled softly to herself once more as her eyes closed and she saw his face, and strong arms, beautiful emerald colored skin. She sighed softly as her body slowly settled against the mattress.
"I don't like him..." She said softly to herself. "He's just a friend." She shrugged slightly as she rolled onto her side and sighed softly again. "Oh god..." She said her eyes shooting open as her body froze. "No, no, no. It's Raph..." She said sitting up in her bed. "I can't..." She thought for a moment as she ran a hand through her short, choppy layered hair. "Oh no..." She groaned rolling her eyes and laying back down hasrshly against her mattress.