L: Damn you real life! Keeping me from my FANS!

Hiei...

I was in the office, trying to get some work done, knowing that Christmas was just around the corner. I can't tell you just how much I hate this time of year. As I continued to type away, I saw the clock read 8. I should get going. I packed up my desk in order to leave and tried to be as organized as I could. I was preparing myself to ask Miss Sai to come back home with me again. Yukina said she didn't want her to spend the holidays alone.

I sighed and rubbed the bridge of my nose. I heard the faint knock on the door and was about to give my usual what, but the door opened without my response. I saw the tiny slip of a girl slide into my office. She was wearing that Gothic Lolita outfit Naoko gave her. I said nothing, just stared in wonder, the lock of the door clicked into place before she walked over to me.

Her face was flushed red, her eyes wide, pupils dilated, her breathing heavy as if she had just ran. She stood in front of me, not saying a word to me. All I could mutter was, "What are you doing, Miss Sai?"

She said nothing as she wrapped her thin little arms around me, pressing her face against my chest, her heavy breathing becoming more and more rapid. I swallowed to make the dryness of my mouth leave, but it only made it worse. She looked up to me with those dark blue eyes, and I couldn't help but bring my mouth down to hers. When she responded, I gathered her up into my arms.

I couldn't think as her delicate little mouth gave way and let me slide my tongue inside. She gave a small whimper as she shuddered under my touch as I desperately tried to remove some of her clothing, wanting nothing more than to rip them off of her. I laid her on top of my desk, her breathless moans were intoxicating as I placed my hand over her mouth to keep her from being too loud, not wanting the rest of the office to know. I started to rub the bundle of nerves she had between her legs through her panties, the same ones she wore that night, the frilly black and blue.

She started to quiver and shake, trying to close her legs, whether from embarrassment or rapture, I didn't care. I pried them back apart, forced her to wrap her legs around me. I ripped the piece of cloth off of her, needing to touch her. She arched her back and moaned aloud as I plunged a digit inside of her. The first was easy enough to get in, her slick walls allowing for enough lubrication, but the next finger was far more difficult. She was just so incredibly tight that I could barely force my way through.

Once I was able to fit three inside of her, I pumped softly, not yet wanting to break her. I looked up to her face, my hand still covering her mouth, her long black hair splayed about my desk like a curtain, her left hand was placed delicately upon mine, holding it there, her eyes rolled to the back of her head looking to make sense of what I had been doing to her, and her other hand was held above her head trying to grasp at the air.

I stopped my mentruations, not wanting to let her finish just yet. She whimpered her dislike, pining for me to continue, but instead I bent over her, uncovering her tiny mouth to place a kiss before unzipping myself. It spilled out hard and fully erect. I was so desperate to be inside of her. I looked down to her, her face still a flushed red, she was panting for air, her chest rising and falling rapidly, her eyes were halfway closed and seemed to be clouded in a haze of bliss as she waited patiently for me to continue. I gave her an endearing smile and then I woke up.

My eyes slowly fluttered open. I looked to the side to see my clock read 5:59. I woke up a minute before my alarm was supposed to go off. Fuck me. I laid there in bed, the pain of my erection throbbed and pulsed. Once the clock did go off I smashed the button to turn it off then ripped the device from my wall before throwing it across the room.

I'm not angry at the fact that I had a dream with my employee in it, oh no, I'm angry at the fact that I didn't get to finish it. What's incredibly infuriating is that I can't even talk to her anymore because of Naoko. I've become more and more frustrated with everything, mentally, physically, sexually. If there's one thing I hate more than anything else in this entire fucking world, it's being told what to do, and god damn it if I'm not the type that does the opposite of what I'm told. Now that she's off limits, I want her. I want her because she is off limits. It's so moronic, but I just can't help myself. I tried to go with what Naoko wanted, for about a week now. I've tried talking to her less, I've told Yukina to piss off whenever she brings her up, I've even been calling on Botan to do most of the reports and filing, but I still want her. I want her more than I've wanted any other woman, more than those street whores and more than even Mukuro, and that actually scares me.

Sitsumi...

"Are you sure it's okay if I spend Christmas with you and your brother?" I asked Yukina over the phone. "I mean, I don't want to intrude. It is supposed to be shared with family and all."

"Tsumi-chan, you are family! Besides, I didn't spend all this money on Christmas decorations and presents just so you couldn't be there to enjoy them." She said.

"I don't know, Kina-chan. I mean I really don't think your brother would want me there."

"Are you kidding? He would LOVE to have you over."

I sighed. "Somehow I really doubt that. He's been so distant recently. He won't even talk to me at work anymore. He gets Botan to do everything now, and he doesn't look at me the same, and it's weird."

"What do you mean?"

That blazing soul wrenching glare that he usually gives me is now not even a glance in my direction, but I couldn't tell her that! "I just think he wants to spend the holidays with his little sister, and not his little sister's friend."

"Nonsense! He likes spending time with you, he... said so himself!"

I was very taken aback. "He... he did?"

"Uh... yeah!"

"Well... If he says it's okay, then I guess I can come over."

"YAY! I'll be sure to tell him the good news! Later Tsumi-chan."

"Later, Kina-chan." I said before hanging up. this boss employee relationship may just be getting out of hand. I really thought we were becoming friends. I mean, he's been pretty distant before, but not to this point. I don't know why I even care so much, I mean, it's not like he wanted me to be there in the first place. I know he was just being nice to me for his sister's sake. I just... I don't know. I guess I just thought that we could be friends.

I guess... I just feel lonely.

TBC...

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