Even though Victoria hadn't turned up at Forks for a long time, Sam was still on alert, telling me that they would be on the lookout for the red headed vampire from now on. Ever since out chat, the communication between us had shifted to only the phone since I had been busy packing for college and sorting out things with Jacob which I had slowly repaired. While things were still slightly strained between the two of us, Jacob had hugged me and wished me luck for college, promising to call. I wish, somehow, I could have returned his feelings for me, but I could only see him as a friend. I think deep down, he knew that. Also finding out I was sleeping with his pack leader may have ruined it for him anyway.

I had been thinking about Sam constantly, about what the hell I should do. How was one girl able to discover vampires and wolves in the span of a year? He had been telling me some things throughout the week- he was the Alpha and the first to phase.

He had killed four vampires, including Laurent.

The pack could also communicate in their minds when they phased.

Sam also thinks there will be more boys to phase, making the pack grow.

All this information overload made me avoid the more pressing issues between Sam and I.

If it was a good idea to throw myself back into that world again.

I'm leaving tomorrow, I realise.

Charlie walked in as I was putting the last of my clothes in a suitcase. "Are you picking up Jessica tomorrow morning?"

I nod- I was giving Jessica a lift to the airport on the way to college. I was sure we would be crying like idiots the entire way.

Charlie was about to leave, but he saw my conflicted face and sighed, sitting down on the bed.

"Is this about Sam?"

I blink in surprise at his perceptiveness. "Yeah." I looked at him hesitantly, not sure to continue. We never really talked together about this stuff. "I guess I'm just wondering if we should stay together… or if I should start over at college."

Of course that wasn't the actual issue, but there was no way I was going to tell Charlie that Sam was a wolf. Dad, is it a good idea to date a wolf after I've dated a vampire? Yeah right.

Charlie looks confused. "Why? Did he hurt you?"

"What? No! Of course not. I'm just thinking maybe I should be by myself for a bit."

"I think that's a good idea."

I roll my eyes. "Of course you do, any father wants his daughter to stay single."

"Hey, I like Sam. I'm just saying… you're only eighteen, Bella. You don't have to have it all figured out. You're allowed to take your time. Go to college, be single. Maybe later down the track Sam might come back into your life."

He pats my arm awkwardly, but I toss his advice over in my head. "Thanks Dad." I say, feeling touched. "Is it all right if I pop out for a bit? I'll be home for dinner."

"Sure kid."

I drive fast to Sam's house, nervously taping on my steering wheel. I have no idea what I'm going to say to him, how I'm going to word my thoughts out loud. When he opens the door and I look at his face, my chest tightens and I feel as though I'm about to cry.

When he sees my face, he pulls me in for a hug. "Oh, Bella. I know what you are about to say."

We sit on his couch.

"How's your hand?" he asks.

I smile. "Healing, how's your mirror?"

"Err… not so lucky…," he stroked my hair. "I'm sorry I said those things to you."

I shrugged. "I'm sorry about your mirror."

To be honest I had completely forgotten about that fight. Sam being a wolf had definitely overshadowed everything.

"Sam, I'm so sorry." I began, tears already flowing. "I'm so confused right now. I'm about to go to college and I've barely had time to comprehend the whole wolf thing…. I just think its best if I'm by myself for a while, so I can figure out what it is that I want."

He wipes a tear from my cheek and gives me a sad smile. "I understand. It's not exactly a quality girl's look for, is it?"

I laughed hollowly, "Don't be crazy, you're a catch. Sam... I want to be with you, but I need to tie up my life. Does that make sense?"

There is a beat of silence. Then Sam suddenly grabs my hand and squeezes. "I'm going to miss you like crazy, Bella."

He walks me to his door and I hesitate on the threshold. Suddenly, I feel hands wrap around me, and I push myself against him, savouring the feeling.

"Sam..." I began slowly.

I turn and kiss him roughly and he kisses me back just as much. We are both desperate for each other. I was walking backwards until I felt my shoulders hit a wall. My open mouth gasped and Sam took the opportunity to slip in his tongue. He pulled back and both of us panted, staring into our glazed over eyes. Sam leaned down, his fingers playing with my hair, "Can you stay a little longer?"

My mind was going sluggish as he hands ran along my sides, "Yes," I breath out.

At first it was a haze- deep kisses and desperate hands groping each other, his teeth grazing against my neck. Suddenly I was being pushed into his bedroom and onto his bed. Sam pressed himself against me and kisses me senseless- his shirt was completely unbuttoned and my dress was hiked up, my legs around his waist. I heard his zipper going down. I moan shamelessly into his mouth as he pushes my legs further apart, setting himself between them. My dress came off easily and Sam was pleasantly surprised that I wasn't wearing a bra. Sam dove in to take a nipple in his mouth and I gasp, closing my eyes as his tongue moved. Without warning, his fingers slipped into my underwear and began to tease.

He holds onto both my hips as he licks a trail down my bare stomach, his fingers tugging if my underwear. He places both of my legs over his shoulders. Taking his time, he pressed his tongue flat against me and licked up, making me jerk violently at the contact. He moved at a slow pace, driving me crazy, making me grip the sheets.

His lips were suddenly gone and I could feel a finger slowly push into the entrance, than another. He curled them up, hitting the roof, and my back arches towards his movements. He leaned down to lick me at the same time and it pushes me over the edge. As I came he trailed kisses up my stomach and up my neck to my face.

I hook a leg around his waist and flip him on his back, pinning his wrists either side of his head. I slowly unbuttons his pants and he springs free.

Straddling him, I reach below and aligned with Sam. I slowly slide down and let out a loud moan.

"Bella," he says, running his hands up my thighs.

I rock my hips forward, relishing in the feeling. Sam holds onto me with a grip so tight, as though I was about to fly away. He helped bring me up and slam back down, hitting me just at the right angle to make me cry out louder.

"Kiss me."

His request was barely heard over my moans, but I lean down and kiss him. Everything slows down as his fingers trailed up my back. His touches are gentle, and he presses kisses down my face, over my cheekbones and eyelids. He stops and looks at me, cupping my face delicately, and he whispers, "I love you, Bella Swan."

I draw back slightly, my heart skipping a beat.

Without a warning, Sam locks his arms around my waist and flips me on my back, thrusting into me hard, knocking the wind out of my lungs.

There was an overwhelming pleasure that rushed through my body as he continued to thrust into me, making me lightheaded. "Sam… don't stop," I manage to get out.

There was a crashing noise.

"Oh my god, the headboard broke!" I cry out.

It was down on the floor between the wall and the bed, and Sam and I laugh.

"I have nothing to hold onto now," I say.

"Hold on to me," Sam replied, offering me his arms.

Jessica sees my red eyes and sighs, giving me a hug, but thankfully says nothing. While I had been crying because I had just said goodbye to Charlie, I couldn't say all the tears were all for him. I make Jessica drive us, feeling too nervous and emotionally drained to concentrate. We are barely driving for five minutes before she says, "Are you sure you made the right decision with Sam?"

I nod once, swallowing hard. "Yeah… I mean, its only for now. I might end up with him again in couple of years, after college."

Jessica shakes her head and sighs. "Or you could just be with him now if you really want to. Save yourself the emotional trauma."

Deep down, I wasn't sure at all abut my decision last night. But my mind could only focus on college for now, otherwise I would break down into a mess. Leaving Sam's house last night was physically painful to do, as though I had left a part of me behind.

"Well," Jessica says. "The two of us are both leaving Forks as single ladies!"

She honks the horn and laughs, but I can only manage a small smile.

We pass the reservation and an idea springs to my mind.

"I need to do something quickly."

Jessica slows down out front of Sam's house and I spot him, his back towards me as he talks to Jared and Embry. The two of the boys gesture to me and Sam spins around, locking eyes with me.

"Sam!" I call out the window. "You still owe me a cliff dive!"

He blinks, momentarily confused, but then he laughs, remembering. "You'll just have to come back then!" he calls back as Jessica begins to pull away. He lifts a hand to wave.

I stick half my body out the window as we leave, my heart pumping, and scream as loudly as I can, 'I love you, Sam Uley!"

His face splits into a grin, and I wave to him, feeling almost certain that one day I will make my way back to him.