Once Magnus hugged him, his self-control collapsed and he broke down, the tears he held back for so long falling, as he fought to breathe through broken sobs. His sweet words only made him cry harder, not believing that was really happening. Alec hugged him back, holding on to him, for as long as he would be allowed to… He felt anguished, guilty, happy but also in more pain, hearing that Magnus had been hurt like that too. And he wanted to tell him… 'You… I need you… Please, please stay with me…' But he couldn't do that… Magnus was just being kind to him… It's not like he felt anything more.

"I'm sorry…" He said instead. "I… I'm so sorry… I'm only causing you trouble…"

"You aren't… When are you going to understand that? How can I make you see that?" Magnus hugs him even tighter.

"I don't… I can't… I'm sorry…" 'Not even you could make me understand…' Alec thinks. "How could I be anything else than…" He knows he should pull it together. He should just lie and tell him he's okay… But being in his arms is all he ever wanted and he can't find the strength to move…

"It's okay, I get it…" Magnus mutters, staying like that for a bit longer.

'There must be someone else. Not that girl but someone who lives in his heart… But where are they now? Why aren't they comforting him? I wish I was them…' The very thought hurts like a bitch but what else can he do?

"I'm so sorry…" Alec mutters again, losing himself in his touch, inhaling his scent, trying to empty his head. Finally he manages to calm down, and tells him, still not letting go completely. "Thank you… For everything… I'm sorry… And… I'm sorry… You were so sad too…"

"I told you I don't matter right now. Just… cheer up. For me?" Squeezes Alec before letting him go.

He rubs his eyes, with the back of his hand, immediately missing Magnus' touch, and looks up at him, trying to smile. "Of course you matter…" He says, and adds, smiling a bit more. "Thank you… For being so kind to me… I really don't deserve it…"

"You do." Magnus smiles back, tenderly. "You are my precious assistant, after all, and I need you in top shape."

His smile warms Alec's heart and he chuckles at his words. "Right. I promise I will be… I won't cause you any more trouble."

"Great… But first eat your breakfast, it's getting cold." Magnus half-scolds him.

"Oh… I'm sorry…" Alec smiles, genuinely now, looking down at his plate. "It looks amazing…"

"I'm a man of many talents." The man winks at him. "Bon appétit, sayang."

He blushes at that and looks down hastily, taking a bite. His eyes widen. "Wow… It is amazing! What does sayang mean?"

"You know, that's a really good question…" Magnus says smirking. "One I'd love to answer but it's getting late and I need to get ready to work~"

Alec's eyes widen with realisation. "I'm sorry! I wasted too much of your time with my shenanigans! Ah… should I go home? Or come along in that suit?" He makes a mildly disgusted face at the thought. "What do you want me to wear at work?"

"Nah, I'll take you home with my Porsche so you can get some clean and perfectly ironed clothes."

"But you shouldn't go out of your way for me… You're going to be late…"

Sighing, Magnus sips his coffee. "Well, you are my assistant, Alec… You're the only one who can change my schedule so~"

"I'm still amazed that you don't want to fire me after everything…" He chuckles.

"I know, I'm too benevolent… Thank me later." Magnus winks at him before putting the cup in the sink. "I'll go look for the car keys. I'm not used to driving so I'm not sure where I put them last time I did."

Alec looks at him lovingly once he turns his back, but then he remembers and calls after him. "Uh… shouldn't I go change too?"

"Or you could go naked… Not that I'd mind." The man smiles playfully before disappearing into his room.

Blushing crimson at his teasing, Alec calls after him. "I would mind!" Then runs off embarrassed to change.

Magnus is laughing openly now, then goes back to the living room where Alec is almost done. "I prefer you like that, you know?"

Alec is still blushing when he turns to face him. Magnus is wearing an elegant maroon suit, his hair is styled in spikes and his gorgeous eyes are emphasized by dark eyeliner once more. As always, he is breathtaking. "Like… what?" Alec finally manages to ask after remembering how to breathe.

"Smiling, joking, looking at me like you want to eat me." Magnus grins.

Blushing even more, Alec tries to joke his way out of it. "Eating you doesn't sound like a very nice thing to do after all you did for me… Not to mention your fans would have my head if I harmed you!" He chuckles nervously.

"Oh, but it would make a very ni~ce compensation…" Magnus sighs dramatically and winks at him. "Come on now, Snow White. We have a carriage to take and so little time…"

Alec cocks his head to the side looking at him confused. "Compensation?" He mutters, and then adds, "Don't laugh at me…"

"Oh, darling, you have so much to learn…" Shakes his head, making his way to the front door.

Alec follows him out hastily not wanting to make him run late.

Magnus suddenly grabs him by the arm. "Don't run, I don't want you falling down the stairs…"

Looking up at him surprised, Alec's heart skips a beat, and then to hide his true feelings, he pouts, muttering,. "I'm not that clumsy…"

"Right…" Magnus mutters while slowly letting him go. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to overstep our boundaries…"

Alec can't help but laugh at that. "Seriously? You call that overstepping our boundaries? After all I did?" Suddenly he comes back to his senses, blushing. "Oh God… And I did it again… I'm really sorry… I don't know what's gotten into me…"

Biting his lower lip, Magnus tries hard not to laugh. "Oh, boy… You never cease to amaze me."

Alec blushes harder dropping his eyes to the floor. "I'm sorry…"

"Why? It's funnier that way."

"Funnier? I'm being rude and disrespectful…"

"No, right now you're being a party pooper."

Alec drops his head more then, torn. He loves talking to him freely but he knows he shouldn't. It's not his place to do so, after all. Even if Magnus doesn't seem to mind… He sighs. "I'm really sorry… please tell me what you want me to do…"

"Just be yourself, Alexander. I hate seeing you act like you have no soul. You aren't a puppet…"

Hearing that, Alec almost laughs again, thinking, 'Be myself…? So should I push you against a wall and kiss you, like I wanted to do since the first second we met…?'