A/N: I know you guys want to continue with the murder mystery, but this chapter is a flashback about Liason's affair. This is the last one, I promise. It will begin in February 2007 when Elizabeth told Jason he is the father of her baby until December 2007 when Jason and Elizabeth agree to a secret affair. Next chapter will be back to the present.
Leens: Thanks for the review! No, there really haven't been any clues as to who the murderer(s) is/are, but the next chapter will reveal several candidates. I enjoy writing the tension between Jason and Elizabeth and it will continue to grow until it comes to a head. Question is will they continue to ignore it or give in to it? Yes, Jason will find out about Franco, but Sam won't be the one to tell him about his twin brother.
Twisted Musalih: Thanks for the review! Sorry for the cliffhanger, but that's what makes readers come back for more. Unfortunately, this chapter is a flashback chapter, so the current s/l won't be continued till Chapter 11.
Virgy15: Thanks for the review! There is a definite possibility are there are multiple killers. Ewen certainly does look guilty, but the suspects will be revealed next chapter. All characters will be in danger, so Jason saving Elizabeth could definitely be a possibility as well as Sam being in danger.
lrobinson01: Thanks for the review! This will be a flashback chapter, so Elizabeth knowing about Spinelli's death so quickly will be explained next chapter. Sam is single handily destroying her marriage, and it doesn't help that Jason is having dirty thoughts about a certain surgical nurse… hehe The killer(s) will be revealed in Chapter 12.
sherise: Thanks for the review! Thank you for your kind words!
DevilJolie: Thanks for the review! I think that on the show Elizabeth and Starr could be become good friends because there are both going through the same thing, so hopefully the new writers will capitalize on that. I'm not sure where TJ went in the show, and GH is lacking teenage characters, so I brought him back to bond with Cameron and Molly. He and Cameron share the bond of losing two father figures: TJ with his father and now Shawn and Cameron with Zander and Lucky. To clear something up, Spinelli wasn't digging up secrets about Ewen; he was looking into the murders of Shawn and Max.
Jynx0854: Thanks for the review! Yes, Jason and Elizabeth always try to make the right decision, and not what they want. Sometimes they are the same thing. Chapter 3 was rather depressing, but I gave you some Liason mourning, something we really didn't get on the show, only snippets here and there. Chapter 4 was Liason trying to move forward, which will continue to happen. I loved the bridge scene in the show, so I tried to convey the same feelings in Chapter 5. Yes, after everything Liason have been through together, they deserve to be together. Not right away, but slowly make there way back to one another, that's all I'm asking. I don't think it's too much to ask for, is it lol?
chawkchic: Thanks for the review! If you thought that was suspenseful, wait till Chapter 12, where everything is revealed!
QUEENADDEK: Thanks for the review! Glad you loved it! Hope you love this chapter as well.
Hellzz-on-Earth: Thanks for the review! ITA with you about Starr and Elizabeth. Their friendship would be awesome because they both lost a child and both are feisty characters. I didn't get the pleasure of watching the NOP live because I just started watching GH this past summer, but I do watch it on YouTube a lot, probably too much lol. Cameron will look up to TJ and it will give TJ a good opportunity to grow up and mature to be a good role model. John McBain will continue to be an integrate part of this story, especially in Chapter 12. The deaths of Spinelli and Olivia will be a big blow to residents of Port Charles, so look for the backlash in Chapter 11. Multiple people will be affected.
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters, just the storyline.
"Love that we can not have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest."
Chapter 10
Lost
~February 2007~
Elizabeth pulled away from the masked attacker, not that she couldn't move far. They were trapped in an elevator. She looked in horror as the man pulled off his mask as he was assuring her. Suddenly, she recognized his voice. It was Jason. He had carried her out of the lobby and brought her to the elevator. He saved her.
"Jason?"
"It's okay."
She pulled him close, grateful that he was there with her.
Jason pulled back to check her face for any marks of injuries, and then quickly scanned her body. He stopped when he reached her stomach, praying that her baby was okay.
They had talked for awhile. He constantly reassured that they were going to be okay and that help was on the way. She was grateful that of all the people to be trapped with in an elevator, it was Jason Morgan.
He was always so calm and collected in a crisis. They talked about the other inhabitants of the lobby, praying that each and every one was okay. Then he started to blame himself for the lobby blowing up. She was surprised at first, but then remembered that Jason assumed the responsibility of everyone's safety. She had to practically yell at him to make him understand that none of it was his fault. On the contrary, if he hadn't been there, they could all be dead right now. He gave her a small smile, and she went to return it. She stopped and looked at him in shock for a moment and reached for her stomach to caress it.
"Are you okay?"
"The baby's kicking. Give me your hand."
Elizabeth reached out for his hand and placed it on top of her stomach. She carefully watched as his mouth turned up in an elated smile and his eyes sparkled with wonder and joy. She had never seen him like this, so surprised and happy.
"It thinks you're ridiculous too."
Jason chuckled as he kept his hand on her stomach, quite aware of the fact that her hand was still gripping his.
"Your baby thinks I'm ridiculous?"
He watched her quickly fade from happiness to sadness. He wanted to take back whatever he said to make her upset. He hated seeing Elizabeth upset. He removed his hand from her stomach and placed it on her shoulder. She looked up at him, tears in her eyes. He thought that she was just shocked about the lobby exploding, but he would have never predicted what she said next.
"You're the reason this baby is alive. Jason, Lucky's not the father of this baby... you are."
Jason quickly moved his hand away from her shoulder, as if it burned him. He stared at her, shocked to his core.
"I'm your baby's father?"
"Yes."
Tears were flowing down Elizabeth's cheeks, and Jason couldn't stop his own eyes from tearing up.
"Elizabeth, you've been traumatized...I don't think you know what you're saying-"
"This is not a mistake. I've known since I got the results back from the paternity test. Jason this is your baby."
Can I be dreaming once again?
I'm reaching helpless I descend
Jason took a breath of air and rubbed at his eyes, as if this was all a dream.
"Why...why didn't you tell me?"
You're leading deeper through this maze
I'm not afraid
She refused to look at him and he touched her shoulder again. The embarrassment and shame on her face hurt him to see.
"Were you afraid for the baby?"
"No."
"Is it because of my work, you didn't your child in danger? What?"
"No, Jason I know you would never let anything bad happen to our child."
He was soon becoming frustrated, something that he hated with Elizabeth because he could never stay mad at her.
"Then why?"
"You weren't here, remember? You had to leave town because you'd... I got the results back and by the time I had a chance to look at them, Sonny was standing right there and asked me who the father was. And I told him it was who I expected. I meant you."
He sighed in frustration as she played the 'you weren't here' card. He hated when she used it like that. She kept rambling, nervousness etched on her face.
"Then why...why not just say it?"
"Because Sonny starting talking about Lucky being the father and I realized that he had jumped to the wrong conclusion-"
"So you just let Sonny and everyone else believe...?"
"I didn't have a plan, okay Jason? I just found out I was carrying your child. And Sonny kept saying how it was a good thing that you weren't the father because now you wouldn't be torn in two and you wouldn't have to worry about your choices harming this kid."
"So you kept it a secret from me?"
"The night I found I was going to call and leave you a message. Then I realized it was something that I needed to do face-to-face."
"Carly got to me first."
"She jumped to the same conclusion as Sonny."
"When you came to see me, were you...were you going to tell me the baby was mine?"
"I wanted to, but you already thought that Lucky was the father and you said it was for the best."
"Okay, I thought you wanted Lucky to be the father?"
Elizabeth weakly smiled as he stood up, trying to put as much distance between them. He was furious that she had kept this secret, this damn secret, from him for this long. It had taken her being stranded in an elevator together with him to come out and say it. He figured that they had never had any real alone time. Someone or something was always interrupting them.
I'm lost in you everywhere I run
Everywhere I turn I'm finding something new
"I didn't know what I wanted! I thought I had lost lucky forever. The man I loved, the man I married, he would never lie to me or cheat on me. He would never sleep with another woman in my own bed. I didn't know who he was anymore. You are the Jason I've always known. You were my safe place and I needed you and we made a baby together...I will never ever regret that. But this is not something either us of intended to happen and I honestly believed that for everyone's sake that it would be better if you never knew."
I'm lost in you something I can't fight
I cannot escape
I can spend my life lost in you! Lost in you!
She was starting to yell and he knew he needed to calm her down. Getting her stressed would not help her baby…their baby. He turned around to face her, trying to keep his anger in check.
"If you thought you were protecting the baby...I'm angry, but I'm not going to judge you because that's exactly what Carly and I did for Michael, but if you thought you were protecting me... from wanting to take care of you or loving my own child...that just doesn't make any sense! I thought you knew me better than that."
"I'm so sorry."
He shook his head and sat down. She hesitated before she sat down beside him, against the wall so she could face him. He braced his feet against the wall and pulled his knees up to his chest, elbows resting on his kneecaps. He warily looked over at her and she was still crying. He wanted to comfort her, he really did, but she was the cause of his anger.
"The night I found you shot in the chapel, I told you this was our baby. You were passed out, but your eyes opened for a minute, and I thought maybe you heard me."
Jason dryly chuckled as Elizabeth shared this story. He could remember her saying something to him right before he passed out. His anger was starting to ebb away, knowing that he could never stay mad at Elizabeth, he cared about her too much and their friendship for something stupid to throw it all away for her.
"I knew you said something important. When we got back to your studio, I asked you about it, remember?"
"Yeah and I should have told you. I wanted to so badly to talk to you, not just because you are the father, but because you're my friend. Because you've always been the voice of reason."
"All those conversations you started and stopped...it all makes sense now. And why you seemed so sad and why you couldn't make a clean break with Lucky, but you couldn't take him back either."
Elizabeth grimly nodded as she wiped the tears off her face. She knew the worst part was over.
"It kills me that I've had to lie to him, but he doesn't even know we've slept together. And I know I should have told him the morning after it happened, but he had just come back from his first NA meeting and he promised to turn his life around and I was so afraid it would send him back to pills...I guess I've been afraid ever since and I know that doesn't change the way I betrayed his trust or yours."
"I never should have asked you if was I was the father or not."
In true classic Jason form, he was taking the blame for everything. It was one of the very traits she fell in love with all those years ago.
"Don't make excuses for me."
"I'm not. I'm just trying to understand."
"Well, that makes two of us. Because all I've done is try to figure out what's best for this baby."
Jason looked over at her and reached out for one of her hands. He surprised her. She didn't know how quickly his anger had left him. He didn't want to waste any more time angry with the mother of his child. He couldn't.
"Maybe we could figure it out together."
Elizabeth gratefully smiled at him as he gave her hand a reassuring squeeze.
"I never had any doubt that you would be a good father. I just couldn't see how this baby would fit into your life."
Jason sighed as he tried to think of what to do next. All these newfound emotions were running through him and he had no idea what to do except think about the baby, their baby.
"We need to figure out what's right for this baby."
"But it isn't that simple. You love Sam and I love Lucky. I don't want to hurt him and I know you don't want to hurt her."
Once she had told him her baby was his, he knew it was inevitable that she would bring this up.
"It's going to be hard for Sam to hear that you're having my child, but I can't do anything to change it."
He couldn't even being to imagine the pain and betrayal Sam is going to feel when he tells her that Elizabeth is carrying his child. He knew how much Sam would want it to be her.
"Would you want to?"
Your whispers fill these empty halls
I'm searching for you as you call
Jason looked at her, surprised that she asked the question. He realized that she needed the reassurance that he always gave her.
"When Carly told me Lucky was the baby's father...I gotta be honest, I felt like I lost something. And every time I saw you, especially when you started to show, I'd have this moment where I'd think that could've been my child. And now you're telling me it is. I know all the reasons this is complicated and I'm sorry for everyone that's going to be hurt, but you and I made this baby together. I can't regret that miracle. I want our child. I want it more than anything."
Fresh tears started to roll down her face. He was alarmed at first and went to wipe them away, but she smiled and shook her head. They were happy tears. He smiled back, happy that he was helping her feel better about this situation.
"How do you feel?"
Elizabeth sighed and smiled at him.
"Relieved. I didn't want you to hate me."
He shook his head and gave her a serious look.
"I don't think I could ever hate you."
I'm bracing, chasing after you
I need you more
He could tell she was about to respond to his statement, but all of a sudden, the ceiling above them rumbled and he could hear rubble moving around. Thinking that the ceiling was going to collapse on him, he shielded her with his body. He wrapped her in his arms, holding tightly. Once he realized that it was safe, he regretfully let go of her.
Jason stood up and moved towards the door. He looked up to the ceiling and listened for any more movement.
"Hey, is anybody up there? There's a pregnant woman down here!"
They silently waited with baited breath for a whole minute, but no one responded.
"It's so quiet. Is that good or bad?"
"The cops knew you were in the lobby so half of Port Charles is out there searching for you."
She nodded her head as he sat back down next to her, back against the wall. They sat there in silence, thinking about their families.
"You're very reassuring to be around during a crisis, you know that? I can see why Alan thought you would have made a brilliant surgeon."
"I wonder if Alan's going to be alright."
He thought of his father, knowing that he had suffered multiple heart attacks during the hostage crisis.
"You helped him to the door when Craig released him, didn't you?"
He sullenly looked at her, seeing comfort in her eyes as she grasped his hand in hers. This time she was reassuring her.
"Yeah."
"That must have been hard on you."
"You know, it's strange, the first time I remember thinking that this is my father and now I'm...I'm gonna be a father too."
She didn't know what to say to that, so they sat in a comfortable silence. Then Jason finally broke it, surprising her just as she had did to him.
"Last fall I asked you how you'd feel about sharing my life. You know, if my business was too dangerous for you and the children...have you thought about it any more?"
"A lot."
"What did you decide?"
"I know you would do everything you could to protect me and the children. And while I'm not crazy about all the secrecy, I can now accept that's how your business works. That doesn't change how much I trust you."
She could remember four years ago when they had tried to date, but he had lied to her about Sonny's death. The betrayal she felt towards him was so severe, and it had almost ruined their friendship. They had eventually found their way back to each other. Elizabeth knew now what Jason's life meant and knew that if he wasn't telling her something, it was for her own safety. She had come to terms with it and accepted it.
"So you think you might be able to handle a life with me because I want...I want this child to have the best life that we can give it."
"Jason, you're emotional right now. You haven't had time to-"
"How can I think about anything else? This baby changes everything. I told you I would marry you. I meant it. We can make this work. Just marry me."
~August 2007~
He had never felt this nervous in his life. Never had his heart felt so vulnerable and so anxious. He never knew he could feel this way about anyone. As she walked closer to him, he swallowed his anxiety as she reached him.
"I'm glad you wanted to meet."
When she had called him earlier, wanting to meet with him, he knew this was his chance. It was his chance to fight for her, to tell her how he really felt.
"Listen, something happened that I want you-"
"Can I go first? Because if I don't say this right now, I probably never will."
Elizabeth can tell how nervous Jason is, something that she could never picture with him. She nods her head as he takes her hands in his, forcing her to look into his electric blue eyes, the same eyes as their son.
"I love Jake more than my own life. I wanna be his father and I wanna be with him, all the time. I just…uh, I just wanna be Jake's dad. I don't wanna lie anymore, Elizabeth. I don't want Jake to grow up believing that somebody else is his own father. I don't want him to find out years from now that the two people who loved him the most didn't tell him the truth because that can make him lose faith everything."
Elizabeth knew how much pride he was swallowing by saying this, but he had to know why she had originally asked him to meet with her.
"Jason-"
He nervously smiled as he put a finger to her lips and took a breath.
"Okay, just hold on, please? Just let me finish, okay? I know how dangerous my life is. I can't change the things I've done or the choices I've made, but I swear to you I will protect you and your kids. I just think we can make a home together, okay? I promise you I will never bring my business into our home. I'm not gonna involve you in any way because I trust you and I know you trust me. I think that we can build on that trust. I think that we could have a life together. I guess I'm just asking you if you wanna try."
Tears erupted in her eyes and that was not the reaction he was hoping for. He had pictured her smiling and squealing as she jumped into her arms and he could hold her forever.
"I was bringing the boys to see you today-"
"Elizabeth, I...I need to know what you think. I need you to answer."
"Two men stopped me in the park. I had Cameron by my side and Jake in my stroller. They said that they were going to take us and use us as leverage against you."
Just like that, Jason's whole world came crashing down on him. The hope of having a family with Elizabeth was gone in an instant, like blowing the light from a candle.
"Wait, did they hurt you or the boys?"
Elizabeth ran both of her hands through her hair as she stepped away from Jason. He followed her and touched her shoulder, forcing her to look at him.
"No, Sam showed up with a gun before they could do anything."
"Sam?"
"I don't know what I would have done otherwise. I couldn't stop thinking what if they had grabbed one of the boys?"
The fear was evident on her face and his heart was breaking at the sight. He knew he was the reason for her fear. It was one of the worst feelings in the world.
"I'm sorry."
"No, I am because what you said was beautiful about the life we could have together, but you're going to take it all back, aren't you?"
"I just thought that we might be able to make this work, but it's too late...I always was."
Both of their hearts were breaking, knowing that this was the end. the anger he was feeling for the men that harmed Elizabeth and her boys was almost uncontrollable.
"Im gonna find the men who came after you in the park."
"The police are already-"
"I'm gonna find them! But I'm gonna send guards to watch you, okay? That means that you and the boys will be protected, but that also shows that you are important to me. That's the most dangerous thing of all."
He walked away from her and placed his hands on the railing. He couldn't look at her, his heart hurt too much. He could feel her presence move behind him and felt her cheek rest against his shoulder blade. He couldn't physically turn around to comfort her. It hurt too much.
"I was a fool to think that this could work. The safest thing for you and your sons are to be out of my life. I mean I...I'd rather have you with me and try with the security guards and the cameras, but then you could come to me and tell me Jake has been kidnapped for the second time...and it was because of me. I can't take that risk. So the best way to love...my son is to let him go. And that means letting you go."
She grasped his forearm and forced him to turn around. He held both of her hands, tears welling up in his eyes.
"Sorry, I should be better at this."
She grimly smiled as she wiped away at her own tears.
"Saying goodbye?"
"Every time I've had to leave someone I love, I tell myself its best for them and that I could do it. It's just different with Jake. You know, since the day you told me he was mine I couldn't stay away, no matter how many time you told me it was what you wanted-"
"It was never what I wanted. It was always out of fear of all the bad things that could happen."
"And they did happen. And now they're going to stop. But you have to promise me that if you ever think that Jake needs me for anything, will you call me?"
Elizabeth nodded as he took his chance to wipe at his eyes. Jason was known for being a man that could show no mercy or emotion, but Elizabeth was the exception to him. He couldn't hide his emotions around her; she actually brought them out of him.
"Yeah I promise."
"I'm sorry this took so long to figure out."
"I'm really sorry I hurt you."
This was his chance. He had planned to tell her this, but not in this way.
"I love you. I should've told you before."
I'm lost in you everywhere I run
Everywhere I turn I'm finding something new
He had never told her before, not in the nine years that he'd known her. He had felt this way for a long time and never knew when he started to fall in love with her. he didn't care when, he just knew that he loved her and he owed it to her to be honest with her.
"Well, now's when it matters. I love you and I always will."
He met her lips in a tearful embrace. It was far too short, but he had to remain strong for her. Their foreheads touched and he took a breath at their closeness. He could smell her vanilla perfume. It had always been appealing to him and she always smelled good. He felt like he was in one of those cheesy romantic movies that Carly forced him to watch, but in this movie, the boy and the girl don't end up together and it's not a happy ending.
Jason reluctantly moves his forehead away from hers, knowing that he didn't have a choice.
"You need to leave."
She laid her head on his chest for one last time and wrapped her arms around his large frame. He squeezed his eyes shut, knowing that the both of them were trying to etch this scene to their memories. He felt her let go and walk away, but the pain made it unbearable to watch her leave.
~September 2007~
Jason stood in the barn, patiently waiting for her to show up. He had rarely seen her since their heartbreaking goodbye. Their shared long and angst glances in the hospital, but that was it. He had found some new information and knew that she had a right to know about it.
Elizabeth strutted into the barn and he could tell she was mad.
"You told Sam that you're Jake's father?"
He smiled inside, always loving when her feisty side came out to play.
"No, she overheard us in the hospital; remember when you were thanking me for letting Lucky raise my son?"
"So she's known since May?"
She crossed her arms over her chest in anger and he warily watched her, making sure she didn't get too angry.
"Yes, but I didn't find out till after Jake was kidnapped, when Amelia came to see me-"
"Amelia...Amelia Joffe?"
Jason sighed as he confessed to the information he withheld from her, knowing how pissed she was going to get.
"Yeah, Sam got really drunk the night she found out Jake was my son and she told Amelia everything."
"So Sam and her television producer have known for months that you're Jake's father and you're only telling me this now?"
Jason cringed under her 'if looks could kill' stare.
"Does anyone else know about Jake?"
Jason hesitated before he answered her question. She crossed her arms once again, and he knew he couldn't back out now.
"Yeah um, Sonny, Lulu, Spinelli, Milo and Diane. And Emily suspects it, but I wouldn't confirm it."
Elizabeth dryly smiled and threw her hands up in the air.
"Oh that's it?"
Jason tried to backtrack and defend himself against her frustration.
"Spinelli found out by accident. He was messing around on the hospital mainframe and he pulled up the paternity test-"
"And he told Lulu?"
"Right, and Lulu wanted to tell Lucky, but I talked her out of it."
Elizabeth incredulously looked at him, the horror evident on her face if Lulu had told her brother that his own son wasn't his.
"Well, of course now it makes sense why she's been upset with me."
"Lulu understands that things are complicated with you and Lucky...and you and me. She's not gonna say anything and Diane, she can't."
"And Amelia Joffe?"
"Amelia owes me for saving her life. Besides she likes when Sam gets all upset over this because it makes her very happy and she has no intent on telling anybody."
"Okay, here's the obvious question. Sam and Lucky are already sleeping together, why shouldn't she tell him Jake is really yours?"
She patiently waited for him to answer and he really didn't want to answer her question because it would lead to a disastrous conclusion.
"Because she would be facing criminal charges. Sam watched Marlene kidnap Jake...and then she paid those men to threaten you in the park."
Jason thought he had seen Elizabeth mad before, but when he told her Sam had let Jake get kidnapped and hired men to threaten her and her boys, she was downright enraged. He walked closer to her and grasped her shoulders, but she walked away from him, livid.
"If you've known all this time that Sam would be a threat to Jake, how could you not warn me?"
"I've handled it."
"She watched our son get kidnapped! She hired men to terrorize us! Jason, they had guns! God, she should be arrested!"
"You can't go to the cops!"
"Why not? She threatened our son!"
"Elizabeth, trust me. When I say Sam's been handled..."
He trailed off from his sentence, hoping she would get his point. He had threatened to kill Sam, a real threat and she knows that he meant it. Elizabeth sat down in exhaustion and Jason squatted in front of her, a comforting hand resting on her shoulder.
"This is all my fault. This entire sick and twisted, hateful lie...now I can't find my way out."
"It's going to be okay."
He could tell she was still furious, but he knew she wasn't angry at him. She was starting to finally calm down.
"I know I have no right to criticize, but God I wish you had handled things differently."
"Okay, if I give Sam up as an accessory in Jake's kidnapping, it would have come out that I'm his father. You didn't want that at the time."
"Well, did she at least say why? Why she hired those men to terrorize me and my two very small children?"
"Because she wanted to frighten you and your kids away from me."
Elizabeth sighs as she stands up and walks away from. Jason stands up and goes to follow her. With her back to him, he rests a tentative hand on her hip. She doesn't move away from him, and he takes it as a good sign.
"Then her timing is flawless."
Jason smiled as he slowly turns her around, both hands now on her hips. She rests her hands on his chest, reveling in their closeness. Her anger was almost gone and she was finally enjoying their alone time together.
"I miss you all the time. When Jake smiles I see your smile."
Jason smiles on cue, and Elizabeth giggles as she touches his lip with one finger.
"You know, I've got this picture of you and Jake...I look at it way more than I should."
"Why are you telling me all of this right now?"
"Because I don't know when I'm going to see you again and I don't want any secrets between us. Whatever you decide for yourself, Cam and our son, I'm going to support you in any way I can."
I'm lost in you something I can't fight
I cannot escape
I can spend my life lost in you!
Elizabeth smiles as she leans up for a long and deep kiss. They know how precious life is and don't waste a minute of it. They finally break away to take a breath. Jason pulls a strand of her hair behind her ear and she smiles. His arms lock around her waist refusing to let go as her hands rest around his neck, kneading through his growing hair.
"You know I love you."
Elizabeth nods as she rests her head against his chest, listening to his heartbeat. It calms her down again, and she could almost forget the anger she had just been feeling.
"I love you too. That's what gets me through this."
~November 2007~
She had been surprised to see him sitting in her living room in the dark. Her cheeks were still stained with the hot tears that had been running down her face during Emily's service. She hung up her jacket and walked over to him. He opened his arms and she gratefully walked into them and hugged him tightly. He held her just as close, knowing how short their time together was.
She pulled back to look at him. They both realized what was about to happen and knew that they both needed it. She quietly led him upstairs to her room and closed the door behind her.
Elizabeth pulled off Jason's black jacket and laid it on the chair next to her bed. He pulled her to him and stared down into her blue eyes. She ran a hand through his long hair and pulled his lips down to hers.
They were close again for one night, a night similar to the night Jake had been conceived. He made love to her as they both mourned the loss of Emily.
He leaned against her headboard as Elizabeth sat against his chest. He held one of her hands in his, fingers entwined. His other hand gently combed through her hair. Her free hand rested on his knee, gently rubbing circles.
"I wish we could stay together all night. Gram is bringing the boys home soon."
"That's okay. Thank you for what you said today. I know it wasn't easy."
"Didn't it show how badly I wanted to throw up?"
Jason shook his head, but he realized she wasn't looking at him.
"You looked beautiful."
He heard her low chuckle and could practically feel her blushing. He had caught her by surprise.
"Standing up there didn't even feel real. How could Emily be in that coffin? How could she be gone from the world? I didn't want to come home tonight. I didn't want to walk in that door and into the rest of my life knowing Em was never going to call or she was never going to stop by or make me laugh. Then I saw you, waiting and I know its crazy, but I thought she did this. She knew how much I needed you."
"As soon as I left that church, I knew I had to see you. I love you and I thank God every day for you and for Jake."
Elizabeth smiled as he brought their joined hands up to his lips and kissed her knuckles. She heard a car door close outside and Jason let out a breath. He knew their time together was over.
"That's my Gram."
"You want me to leave?"
Elizabeth pulled away so she could look him in the eye.
"I want you to stay."
I could never be the same here
Something that I never could erase
He smiled as he kissed her lightly and followed her down the steps, the whole way holding hands. He stopped at the front door and let her out to get her sons. Jason sat down on the couch and silently waited. Cameron came racing in towards him and practically ran into the couch. Jason laughed as he could tell the little boy was hyper.
Elizabeth closed the door behind her with baby Jake in her arms. She watched Jason interact with her eldest son and it broke her heart knowing that if they had been given the chance of being a family, Jason would love Cameron as his own son, no questions asked.
"Whoa, what have you been eating?"
Cameron smiled as he hopped up and down.
"Chocolate!"
"Chocolate?"
"Apparently Gram thought he wouldn't miss Em as much if he had a big piece of chocolate cake."
Jason smiled as he looked up at the mother of his child holding their son. He motioned for Cameron to join him on the couch.
"You know what, Emily loved chocolate cake. She used to get one of the cooks at the Quartermaine's to bake her this big chocolate cake about once a week. I bet you'd like that, wouldn't you?"
Cameron enthusiastically nodded his head and Elizabeth laughed as she shifted Jake to her other hip.
"He told me he's going to miss all the puppet shows he and Emily used to put on."
"Puppet shows?"
"Yeah, he has this big basket of puppets in his room and the two of them would make up these stories. Your favorite was the falcon and the prince, right?"
Cameron nodded his head at his mother.
"Maybe you could show me sometime?"
"Yeah!"
"That would be fun, but right now its bath time so let's go upstairs buddy."
She looked at Jason, then to Jake.
"Do you think you could watch him?"
"Yeah."
Elizabeth hands Jake to Jason and immediately the boy rested his head against his father's shoulder. Jason pats his back and it almost brought Elizabeth to tears. She led Cameron to the steps, but stops when she hears Jason gently talking to his son.
"Jake, Emily won't be here to watch you grow up. I'm sorry because you would have loved her."
Elizabeth smiles as she follows Cameron upstairs. Once he's tucked in and asleep, she quietly walks downstairs. Jason is kneeling by Jake's playpen, peering inside with wonder in his eyes. Elizabeth kneels beside him and he wraps an arm around her shoulders.
"He's got my hands."
Elizabeth playfully smiles at him and he rolls his eyes.
"What?"
"Jake...I look at his hands and I see mine. That doesn't make any sense, does it?"
"I think it's very sweet."
Jason laughs as Elizabeth rests her head against his shoulder. They watch their son sleep for a few minutes, savoring the quiet time together.
"He obviously fell asleep. I wanted to carry him upstairs, but I didn't want to wake him up."
"That's okay; he can stay down here for awhile."
"I just love to watch him sleep."
"I know. He's so angelic with those pink little cheeks and those long lashes."
Jason stood up, knowing that every good thing comes to an end. He couldn't stay any longer or it would look suspicious. Elizabeth realized this and stood up with him.
"It's so peaceful here. I'm not really used to that."
"I'm glad you're here tonight."
"I didn't know where else to go."
The words mirrored the same words she had said to him the night they had first made love and conceive their son.
"Emily would have wanted us to be there for each other."
"I don't- I don't know what happens next."
"And neither do I, but I know I love you."
"I love you too."
~December 2007~
He practically pulled the door off of its hinges to see her sitting on the bed. He rushed over to her, but she stood up with a playful look in her eyes.
"Are you okay?"
"I asked you here because I love you and I need to be with you."
Jason took a breath at what she was saying. They hadn't been together for a month and he missed her, almost too much for his heart to take.
He gathered her and they wasted no time. He threw her onto the bed and quickly began to ravage her. It wasn't like last time when they both needed each other because Emily had just died. This time is was because they loved each other.
He rolled over onto his side and got up once she had fallen asleep. He pulled the blanket over her and got up to get dressed. He didn't want to leave the bed, but he knew that he was needed somewhere else. He pulled on his clothes and quietly watched her naked form sleep. He sat back down on the bed and felt her stir. She smiled as she sat up and he pulled her closer to her, his hand resting on her bare back, his fingers gently rubbing up and down her spine. His other hand held one of her own, fingers gently playing with each other. Her free hand combed through his long, soft hair. They stared at each other, refusing to look away.
I could never look away
I lost myself in you!
It's all over now!
"I am so sorry that I have to go. And I'm glad you called me."
"Well I had to see you. I heard about Georgie."
Jason grimly nodded as he thought about her murder. Spinelli had been taking it especially hard. He couldn't imagine how Mac, Maxie or Robin were feeling.
"Yeah Spinelli told me he's the one who found her."
"I was at the desk when they brought Maxie in. She was hysterical and then Mac came out to break the news to Robin, it was like Emily all over again."
Jason nodded as he moved his hand to brush through her long locks.
"Actually Georgie and Spinelli were good friends. He is devastated."
"She was such a kind and thoughtful person who had a lifetime full of promise and possibility, gone."
"I know, there's just no way to make sense of it."
"When I heard about Georgie, I know this sounds selfish, but all I could think about was you and how much I loved you and how much I needed you. And how terrible it would be if I never saw you again. We can't take this for granted. We have to find a way to be together."
Jason gave her a look and she just gave it right back.
"Are you saying we should just tell everyone that Jake is my son and not Lucky's?"
Elizabeth groaned at his question and he gave her a small smile.
"Sometimes I just wish you would make that decision for me. Claim Jake as your own and insist that we become a family-"
"And I would...I would if the situation was different, but you're his mother and I respect your decision."
"Then we're back to where we started. The boys will be safer with Lucky as their father. Do you still agree?"
Jason reluctantly nodded.
"Yeah, but I will always miss Jake."
"But we could throw caution to the wind and do what makes us happy. You, me, Jake and Cameron living together under one roof. It would be wonderful, but God forbid if something ever happened to Jake because of the life you live and we would never forgive ourselves. And the rest of our lives we would regret the choice we made."
"Right now the Zaccharas are after me and Sonny. He's known for targeting families."
"So I suppose we should make a clean break...but I don't wanna give you up."
"So what do we do?"
Neither answered his question, both just holding onto each other, dreading when he had to leave.
"My divorce is final. I'm a free woman and you're a free man..."
"Yeah, but I'm pretty much taken at the moment."
He grinned as he pulled her in for a light kiss.
"So what's to stop us from seeing each other in secret?"
"You mean...?"
"Like an affair. Nobody has to know. We could meet here and spend some time together...and go back to our lives. I know it sounds scandalous and so not me, but it's not like were hurting anyone, right?"
Jason smiled at the idea. He knew he couldn't bare seeing her and not being able to touch her, and he knew she felt the exact same way.
"Right."
"And the only person I would want to tell is Emily..."
"And I think she'd be happy for us."
"She wanted us to admit our feelings to each other. So here I am, telling you that I love you and that you will always be a part of me."
He smiled as he held both of her hands in his, confident with their decision.
"I love you. And if this is what you want, let's do it."
She grinned and pulled him in for another kiss. One thing led to another, and to his clothes being taken off once again. He knew he had to leave, but it was practically impossible to leave the bed. Finally, they had both gotten dressed and out of that damn bed.
Jason stood nervously near the door as Elizabeth clipped her necklace back on.
"Should I go first? Maybe I should go first so nobody see us leave together."
"I feel almost illicit, and I know we haven't done anything wrong."
"We just have a secret."
"Keeping the secret of Jake's paternity has been hard. I know because you love him as much as I do. It doesn't seem fair that I'm a part of his life and you're not. But I guess this secret is different. Something we can hold on to till the next time we can be together."
Jason nodded his head as he held her close to him.
"Thank you for being with me."
"I know it's not perfect."
"It's perfect enough."
"I know I've already told you a dozen times tonight, but I never get tired of saying it. I love you Jason."
Lost in you! Everywhere I run
Lost in you! Everywhere I run!
"I love you so much."
They both knew they had lost so much, but now have gained so much more.
Lost in you!
Lost in you!
A/N: Whew, that was a whopper! Hopefully, y'all enjoyed all the Liason goodiness. Those were some of my favorite moments of 2007. Since Liason aren't together in the current s/l, I decided to give you guys some Liason from the past. Lyrics to 'Lost' by Red. Let me know what you think in a review and what you want to happen. Until next time! Viva Liason!