"Jayden"

I looked at my cellphone, 3:29. I sighed and got out of my truck. I looked at Mimi's house and frowned. I never felt akward going to visit her until today. I had alot to apologize for. I haven't seen Angel or Meems in 5 days. I've tried calling, texting, emailing. Hell, I even facebook messaged them. No answer. I honestly don't blame them though.

I leaned against my truck and let myself relive that day for the millionth time in the past hour.

I rung the doorbell and ran my hand over my hair. Mimi opened the door and I smiled. She invited me in and I told her we needed to talk.

"Whats up/" She asked. I sat next to her and put my hand on her thigh. She was wearing a denim mini skirt so I was touching bare skin. She looked down at my hand confused. I smiled as I felt the rush of the cocaine hit my system.

"I know you like me mimi." I leaned in so my face was inches from hers. "You don't have to pretend anymore." I kissed her. She pulled away and slapped me across my face. Even the drugs pumping through my veins couldn't mask the pain. The sound of the slap was enough to send Angel rushing in from the other room. He saw me and instantly knew what happened. He looked pissed.

"Look Jayden." Mimi looked me dead in the eyes. Her brown eyes didn't sparkle like they used to. "I know you like me and that's fine but there are a million and one reasons why we won't be together. And if you think you can kiss me whenever you damn well please you have so serious issues." I glanced at Angel who till that moment apparently didn't know I kissed her. I took a step towards the door. "Yeah. I'm not done." I stopped. "We are never gonna happen. Not now and not ever so get that through your thick skull." I stormed out. The drugs made my temper worse then usual. I felt my pockets and realized I didn't have my keys. I turned around and Angel was there.

"Looking for these?" He dangled the keys in front of me. I reached for them and he put them in his pocket. "We're gonna talk. Right now." Mimi looked out the window and yelled at Angel to come inside. He of course ignored her.

"You stay away from this house. I don't want to see your face abck here until you learn to control yourself. Do you think thsi is what Jimmy meant by taking care of Mimi/ Trying to get with her?" I glanced back at the window. Mimi left as soon as he said Jimmy. She slammed the door shut and I could hear here stamp up the stairs.

"You think you're so much better then me. Why? Because you're gay and don't see Mimi like every other guy does? Or because you're trying so hard to be Jimmy. You're not Jimmy," I tried so hard ot calm myself down but the coke had other plans. "You're not her brother and you never will be so you can stop being such a bitch towards everyone who trys to get within a foot of her." He smiled smugly at me.

"I don't think I'm better then you, I know I am. And no it's not because I'm gay. It's because I think before I do things. And just so you know. Jimmy wasn't Mimi's brother. Mimi was adopted, She has a brother and I've spent the past two weeks trying to track him down. Well, guess who else was adopted and turns out is her brother." I could feel my jaw drop. "Me." He threw the keys at me. "So before you open your mouth how about you actually think." He started to walk away.

"'I'm getting a lesson on how to behave from a queer? Really?" The words came flying out before I could stop them. I didn't know why I even thought them. I think it't the drugs. Before I could blink I felt a fist full force against my cheek. Instantly I tasted blood and felt a hole where my wisdom tooth was.

"This is why I'm better then you." He said calmly. "Because even though you just treated me like I was shit. I'm still worried about you." He turned away and walked back inside slamming the door behind him.

I sighed and walked to the front door. I felt awful for how I acted not to mention my jaw is still sore from where he punched me. Angel opened the door. I offered him a smile but he frowned.

"Who is it?" Mimi called.

"Carlo." He lied flawlessly, never taking his eyes off me. '"I got it."

"Okay." Mimi laughed. "I'll be in the basement."

"Okay." He shut the door behind him and stepped outside.

"I need to apologize." His expression softened.

"Really?" I nodded.

"Yes." I looked down. "I was way out of line kissing Mimi and what I said to you was not only unforgivable but cruel and hurtful. I had no right to do anything I did. I treated you both like shit. I was a stupid, insecure..." He stopped me.

"If you're here to call yourself names just go home."

"I'm not here to call myself anything. I'm here to apologize and ask for forgiveness even though I don't deserve it.'

"No you don't. Do you even remember what happened?" I nodded.

"I've relived it at least a hundred times since I left my house to come here." I looked back up at him. "What I did was unacceptable and I'd never be able to live with myself if I didn't try to make things better."

He nodded. We stood in silence until a question struck me.

"Is it true what you said about mimi being your...?" He shushed me and looked at the door.

"You can't tell a soul! Mimi doesn't even know." I nodded.

'I won't." I smiled and he smiled back. We hugged and as he pulled away it was like a boulder was lifted off my shoulders. Now I just have to talk to Mimi.

"You wanna go talk to...?" He gestured to the door.

"Yeah. Do you think she'll handle it okay?" He laughed.

"When does anyone ever know how Mimi will act?" I laughed and he opened the door. We both walked through the house till we got to the basement stairs.

"Holler if she tries to kill you." He smiled. "I'll give you a moment in private." I walked down the stairs slowly trying to be as quiet as possible.

"How's Carlo?" She laughed. She was rummaging through her bookshelf so her back was towards me. I sighed silently. She thought i was Angel.

"Hi Meems." She turned around as soon as she heard my voice.

"Angel!" She yelled.

He knows I'm here." I took a step away from her. "I came to apologize. I just want to say I'm sorry for the way I behaved. It was so not appropriate and I had no right to..." She put her hand on my cheek and I flinched. It was still sore to the touch.

'What happened?" She looked up at me. I sighed and looked down.

"Angel punched me." She rolled her eyes.

"Did you deserve it?"

"Yes." I looked back up at her and she smiled. She kissed my cheek.

"I forgive you." She hugged me. "None of us have been ourselves lately and the stress is making us do crazy things. Myself included." She pulled away and frowned. She looked at me knowingly. I had a sudden urge to cover the small but visible needle markings on my arm. Somehow I think she knew. "Let's just leave it as something that never happened." She smiled.

"Okay. You wanna see Angel come flying?" She laughed and nodded.

"Angel! OW!" I yelled. He ran down the stairs.

"Mimi, don't kill him." She started laughing and she rolled her eyes. I felt alot better now that I knew my "family" didn't hate me. Mimi tucked herself under my arm.

"Damn!" Angel smiled.

"What?" Mimi and I both asked.

"I got you good." He tapped my cheek. "Not too bad for a queer." I frowned. He just smiled.

"It's all good." He said. Mimi squeezed me and we all walked upstairs.