I felt slender cold arms wrap around me whispering soothing words to me. They didn't help at all. Edward left once, for a week after my birthday I mangaed to get him to come back, I think of it as him never really leaving at all, yeah right. I was so angry at Edward for what he was saying, but I was upset that even though he claimed to love me that he never really did at all, I mean if he did, he wouldn't have hurt me the ways he has, okay sure he saved my life too many times for me to ignroe but he'd hurt me enough times too. It all came crashing over me at that moment and I realised I actually didn't love him anymore, I didn't want to be near him anymore. I swallowed hard and sat up wiping my arms.
"Edward... Did you ever love me?" I asked gulping back my tears caused by the unwelcome mix of anger, hormones, Edward and bad memories.
"Of course I did Bella." Edward answered as if I was missing something. I nodded.
"Do you still love me?" I asked about to get to the point. I noted that he hesitated before answering.
"Yes." he said and I nodded.
"Then let me live my life with Jake, let me be happy. I know he's your enemy but if Esme, Carlisle, Em, Alice and Jazz can all be happy for me and still care about me even though I'm dating a werewolf then can't you at least be happy that I'm happy? Edward I loved you once, but after everything that's happened since. I'm talking about James, the fights, the rows, the fact that ever since Jake changed into a werewolf so close to my birthday you've been protective bordering on possesive Edward. I know you were expecting me to bring up the party for my birthday, but that's different, I cut myself around vampires Edward, what else did you expect? But I never was angry with anyone for that, I was angry at myself for not being careful." I said to him in a strong voice considering my crying jag just now. I turned to Alice and Jazz who were kneeling beside me.
"you two are my best friends and no matter what happens with Edward and me I never want to lose you or any of the others. Jazz lately I've felt like I know you a lot more than I ever did, you're like the brother I never had. Ali you're like my sister you know that." I said to them giving them a small hug each.
"Bella what's going on? you're not making any sense girl." Edward snapped and I let go of Jazz and Ali and stood up and walked up to Edward.
"I have a feeling that something's going to happen, something involving my ex trying to take away my friends and I want them to know that I don't want them to leave, they're not like you." I sighed.
"Bee, he won't do anything, none of us will allow it. As much as Rose really isn't happy with you right now she's even more angry and upset with my dear brother here. He's putting Jazz through hell with his moodswings. we won't go anywhere away from you." Ali promised and she even managed to get me to smile.
"They do kind of give you whiplash." I chuckled lightly and sighed. "I'm off to bed before Charlie comes home, Jazz can you get Edward to leave, besides I want to talk to Ali about something." I said to them and Jazz nodded.
"Bro come on before I get Emmett to help me." I heard Jazz say as I started to yawn going up to bed.
"Why do I see me and you enjoying shopping and dragging my poor Jasper around the shops?" Alice asked with her trademark pixie grin. I had to laugh.
"Baby shopping Alice. I want to go and start getting some things for the baby. Besides I have this instinct that the baby's going to be perfect." I smiled.
"Isabella Swan going shopping? you must definitely have the infamous baby brain." she laughed causing me to laugh harder.
"Oh shush Alice, you want me to go shopping and you'd have dragged me along anyway." I laughed. I got in bed and started to sleep.
"Ali? Thank you for everything." I murmured before sleep took me. As I slept I had a few dreams of being a child and hanging around with Jake, then a new dream entered my subconcious.
I was stood in La Push at the edge of the woods with Emily waiting for Jake and Sam. I saw a pale figure stood nearby and Jake in his russet wolf form stood between the pale figure and Emily and myself. as the figure walked forward I noticed it was Edward. He lunged at Jake and I screamed.
"No Edward Don't! Leave him out of this!" I screamed. I lunged for the fighting pair with Emily holding me back. I fought against her grip then slumped into her arms.
"Not him." I cried. I watched as Sam tried to help Jake before Edward killed him. I sobbed on the ground.
"JAKE!" I screamed out.
It was at that moment that I was aware of being shaken. I woke up my face wet with tears as I realised I was shaking myself.
"Bella, honey are you alright?" Charlie asked. I nodded not trusting my voice. Charlie nodded and left my room. I picked up my phone and texted Jake telling him everything about the confrontation last night, the appointment earlier in the day, the dream.