A/N: Sorry this took a while. The chapter was basically finished, but then I started working on other fics (which I'm still writing on). And then there was school and work and blah. Oh and the choosing of the song to use in this chapter. I need to vamp up Jude's part of the album. I practically have every song I want to use for Tommy, but like two for Jude. I need to think of some good music for her.

Anyway…

I think the next chapter is done…or really close so I'll take a look at it in a few minutes and if its good then I'll probably post it too. It might make up for the lack of laughs in this chapter. Sorry!

THANKS:

chocolateelephantz: LMAO! I could never do that to Sadie. I like her now! Tommy's funny when he wants to be. I thought the room fit him. It will always remind him of his roots. I think everyone should get checked. Especially celebrities…you don't know where they been. Thank you for loving this. It's not boring. I'm glad you liked it. THANK YOU!

charley07: Thank you for loving this. I think they fit both of them since they seem somewhat adamant about forgetting where they came from…in a sense.

ForbiddenWords: LOL. Aww…its good. But I like the first one better. Oh. Well, that always sucks. I'm sorry. I'm using a bit of the second book in this fic so if you get your hands on it, you might find out the storyline. Thank you!

HopelessRomantic984: Thank you! That's what I want them to do. They can't keep it hidden forever. And soon it'll be out in the open (I just don't remember the chapter off hand). :D There is one. Even after all the years apart…they still know each other. He does! That's the first sign. Thank you!

bbybty9: LOL. Maybe they will. Maybe they won't. Only time will tell. :D

modernxxmyth: LMAO. His eyes do it for me. And it was a split second decision. I just started writing and thought of him randomly. Plus in a way, I think it fits. He's been associated with everyone under the moon, so why not Jude too? I'm glad you approve of the choice. ;D

modernxxmyth: Yes. I hope so. Thank you!

letitrain810: LOL. Very true. There's always more. Thank you. I'm glad you are starting to fall in love. :D

Disclaimer: Nothing.

R&R or R&L please.

THANKS MUCHO!

ROCK 'N' ROLL SINGER: The Uncensored Confessions

Chapter Eight

"The First Song"

So surprise surprise, I'm here early. Really early.

Like before Quincy.

I know. Something's wrong with me, right?

Well, not exactly. I just didn't want to do this in front of him. I don't want him to ask. Cause I don't know what I'd say.

So that's why I'm here.

I need to get something off of my chest. Something that has been bothering me for a while but that finally catapulted last night. Or this morning, however you want to look at it.

For awhile now, and I think you all know this, I've been using other songwriter's songs and using them as my own. Not like plagiarizing or anything, but the songs I've been singing haven't been mine.

If you've ever looked at the liner notes to my albums, the last three to be exact, you'll see that there are a total of maybe three or four songs that I've had a hand in writing.

But if you look at any of my albums from before that, they're all me.

I know you're probably thinking, "And this matters because?"

Because it does.

And this is why I even bother bringing it up.

Because this morning, I finally wrote a song. I know that's not exciting news because that's what I do, but it came at the weirdest time.

I came back from Distrikt, with Sadie and I was really tired. Usually I'm wired beyond belief, but I wasn't so I went to bed. Well, tried to. But as soon as my head hit the pillow, I got a burst of inspiration so I got up and decided to write.

I didn't go to sleep, I was so anxious. I just kept playing the night over and over in my head, but it was the usual. I don't get why it mattered. I guess that's why the song came out the way it did.

I haven't felt like that since…since I was writing my first album.

You know how they say that a runner's high is like one of the best natural highs you can get? Well, "they" have never written a song.

A song that didn't have someone else's input, that didn't have someone else's pen marks on my page.

This was all mine.

And can I just say, if felt so fucking good to have that.

I needed it.

When I first started in the business, I was all about my own stuff, never wanting to do covers or having someone else write for me.

And I loved it.

Then after a couple albums, I became a full-fledged celebrity. And that in it of itself was a full-time job.

Music became second string.

And…it is with a heavy heart that I admit that I fucked up.

Last night/this morning, I had clarity unlike any other.

I was proud of what I wrote. I believed in it. I loved it.

It's been such a long time since I've felt connected to my music.

And I don't ever want to go back.

So what I'm trying to say is that not only will this album kick ass, but I will have written it. At least some of it.

Or most of it, depending on how cooperative Quincy is.

I think I'm gonna play a part of it, just so that you a get a feel for what this album will sound like. I like to think of it as dirty rock.

I think that should be a new genre.

That'd be pretty interesting, but then I think there are some things I wouldn't want out in the music world, so maybe that's not the best idea.

Eh. Who knows?

I'll just play the damn song.

Let me get my guitar.

Hold on.

Alright. I'm good.

Here it is.

You're always on display
For everyone to watch and learn from
Don't you know by now you can't turn back?
Because this road is all you'll ever have

And it's obvious that you're dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera's lying
And open wide, cause this is your night
So smile, cause you'll go out in style
You'll go out in style

Hope you liked it.

A/N:Next Chapter: The Bad Boy – The Writing Process

Tom talks about writing with Jude…in whispers.

(OH! Song credit: Fences by Paramore. I've been in love with it since Riot! came out. It's snappy. :D I was so glad they played it when I went to go see them.)