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This chapter is kinda boring at the begining because its just her feelings mostly.

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Chapter 10:

I stayed in the closet for a really long time.

By a really long time, I mean a few hours, but they felt like months to me.

Why was everything so utterly wrong?

Why wasn't it completely right?

Right wasn't going to solve a thing though.

Everything was going to be bad, eitherway.

Me and Paul were imprints, so why couldn't we act like Jared and Kim? Or Quil and Clair? Or Sam and Emily?

Why is fate so against us right now?

Is it our tempers?

Our lives?

Our baby?

Our relationship?

How we met?

Or my Uncle?

Everythings just really crazy right now. I tried to get my brain to accept that.

But I knew I couldn't accept it.

Everythings not how I expected it to be.

I never expected to have a fioncee at 17.

I never expected to have killed a baby and have another on the way.

I never expected to see my- Sams mom die.

I never expected to be in LaPush.

I never expected to be a rockstar.

I never expected to live with my brother, and not have anywhere else to go.

I never expected to feel like nobody loved me at all.

I never expected my favorite Uncle was a vampire.

I never expected to have this entire life.

Was it my life?

Or somebody elses?

Has Kim ever felt this way with Jared?

Has Claire ever felt this way with Quil.

Has Emily ever felt this with Sam?

I felt alone, without anyone, even though I had so many people around me.

But no one understood what I'm going through.

I quit phasing, which isn't very hard, since I didn't want to be a werewolf anymore.

I couldn't quit being part vampire, and sometimes want to kill someone.

I just want to be human.

Like Kim.

Like Claire.

Like Emily.

Human means normal.

I just want to be normal.

If I could give it all up -being a vampire/werewolf freak- I would. I'd take that chance in a heartbeat.

But not the imprint.

Even though it seems Paul hates me right now, I love him.

Alot.

It hurts to even think of being separated from him.

I need to clean up my act.

Nothing bad.

Nothing illegal.

No more tattoos.

Just focus on being normal.

To not go back to teaching, even though La Push basically made me take the job, and I said yes because it made me feel special.

To just go back for senior year.

To just forget everything that happened to me in the last year, everything stupid.

I just wanna be normal, and thats what I'm going to be.

Not the freaky weird girl of La Push.

~Sophie&Paul~

I started to get hungry around 6, so I got up from my closet and into my room.

I didn't see the room I called mine for almost a year now, I just walked out of it and into the hallway. I managed to cross the short distance that it was to the stairs.

My feet took them one at a time, not rushing, taking in the normalness of it all.

For once I felt normal, just walking down the stairs, not very fast.

Not in a rush.

But it all shattered when I reached the bottom.

I entered the kitchen and saw all the girls. And Jared, Paul, Sam, Embry and Quil.

They were talking.

I knew it was about me.

It made me feel really awful, knowing that I totally screwed up in some way, probubly not letting Paul comfort me.

It didn't help that the guys stiffened when I walked in, none of them wanting to look at me.

Tears welled up in my eyes at the situation I'd put myself into.

I just crossed the kitchen, walking fast, my rushed pace returning, and went to the door that lead outside.

My fingers fumbled to find my keys that were on the rack of keys.

The keys clanged together as I tried my hardest to see my keys in the dark. The sun had went down.

I finally found mine and was about to open the door when Sam spoke.

"Where are you going, Sophie?"

His voice was hard, commanding.

A tear fell down my cheek.

The tone hurt, alot.

My body froze for a second, and I turned my head a bit in the other direction as I gathered courage to say something.

A few seconds I mustered up an ounce of courage, and turned my head to face him. My cheeks were red from crying.

"Why do care where I'm going Sam?" I asked him.

Nobody spoke.

Sam didn't even look at me.

I couldn't take the ackwardness I knew I was causing, so I pushed the door open, and headed outside to my car.

Footsteps followed mine.

"Sophie. Get back here, now." Sam ordered.

It made me stop when I got to my car.

"Why, Sam?" I asked him, turning to face him as he walked over to me. "Nobody cares. They won't even look at me. I screwed up, bigtime. And I don't want it anymore."

I was trembling, and Paul finally looked up at me.

He wanted to come comfort me, but he was still kinda pissed.

"What are you talking about Sophie? We all care." Sam said. I knew he wasn't lying, but it felt that way.

"Sam, it sure doesn't feel that way, and I'm done. Everythings not how it needs to be. I don't wanna be like this. A wolf, a vampire. I wanna be like them." I said, pointing to the 3 girls standing beside the 3 wolves. "I wanna be human, I wanna be normal."

He looked absolutely shocked.

"I don't wanna teach school, I wanna be a student. I don't wanna have a vampire Uncle, or be a rockstar, or even think about being grown up. I wanna be young, I wanna be normal. Just normal."

He didn't say anything as we had a staring contest.

I don't think he knew what to say.

Not a single word.

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