Chapter 10: Count on Me
Rachel walked home with tears. He loves me. He loves her. The man who ruined my dreams but gave me my precious star. What's going on with me? Why do I feel like I still love Finn when he doesn't really want me back?
She barges in Finn's house making Carole and Kurt jump. The little girls hid behind Finn's back. "Rachel..." Finn said.
"You gave him your blessing? You thought we would fall in love? You're thinking about getting a divorce?!" She screamed.
The girls held their ears. Rachel Berry never yells in front of her daughter. Kurt and Carole take the girls away to let the two young parents handle their situation.
"Just calm down, Rachel!" Finn yelled.
"No, I'm not calming down! How could you be thinking about getting a divorce so soon? All I want is you!" Rachel was convincing herself that she would not fall in love with Noah. Rachel decides to take a seat down on the couch. "I'm scared to love him." She finally admits.
"I'm scared to love him because he's the father of my child. I'm scared to get too close to him.." Rachel began to cry.
Oh, great. I'm crying yet again.
"How was the dinner?" Finn asked.
"Finn, how could you?" Rachel chokes.
"Do I have to explain myself again, Rachel? We weren't in love to begin with. Do you remember all our arguments we had back then before we got married? I'm tired of pretending to be happy. Our marriage was never real. It only happened because of Emily."
Rachel shook her head. She covers her ears with her hands. "Stop it, stop it, stop it!"
Finn slowly held their shoulders. "Rachel? You know I'm right. I know you love me and I love you but what we have is only for Emily. Emily is wonderful. She's a beautiful little star. She deserves what's best for her. She deserves her daddy in her life. I'm not her daddy. She deserves happy parent who shares their DNA with her. Can you believe me?"
Ew. I probably look gross and horrible now. There's snot all over my face from crying. I can't believe what I'm hearing. Our marriage isn't real. Our marriage is real!
"Rachel?" Finn asked.
"I love you so much." Rachel says giving Finn one last kiss. She covers her hands as she continues to sob even more.
She lies down on the couch crying as she hides her face from him.
Finn couldn't leave her like this until Puck comes back. He decides to sing a song for her while playing his guitar. He isn't as great as Puck but at least he could try. He sits by the end of the couch where Rachel lies.
If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,
I'll be the light to guide you.
She wonders why he decided to sing her a song if he didn't want to be with her anymore. She promised herself she wouldn't look up at him. She would just stay in the same position.
Find out what we're made of
When we are called to help our friends in need
All she wants is to be alone. All she wants is the singing to stop. All she wants is for him to leave.
You can count on me like 1, 2, 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4, 3, 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do yeah
Friends? They could still be friends? Rachel Berry doesn't want to be just friends with her first husband. She strongly feels what they had was more than friends.
Wooh, woooh
Yeah, yeah.
Please stop this...She wanted to shout.
If you ever toss and turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song
beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Every day I will
Remind you
These lyrics aren't true if we're getting a divorce. He won't be besides me. He won't remind me how much I really meant to him, he won't.
Ooh
Find out what we're made of
When we are called to help our friends in need
All we had was love. Real love. That love is now crushed into pieces. He needs to stop before I fall down on my knees and collapse.
You can count on me like 1,2, 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4,3, 2
You'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah.
Finally! He stopped singing and stopped playing the guitar. I didn't want to listen but I listened to the chorus.
It's never easy after a couple divorces. Maybe his message was true. Maybe he still wants to be friends after all and I can still count on him like 1, 2, 3.
And He'll be there.
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