A/n: Ok people please do not kill me!! I am sooooo sorry that I haven't updated in a while, well actually since last year. No I did not forget about the story, I was just on vacation sooooo, yeah!

(Sorry I've been forgetting these) Disclaimer: I own Stephenie Meyer so I own Edward! Ha Ha! –Sees an angry mob- Hey! I was just kidding! Stephenie Meyer owns it all! –Angry mob stamples her into the ground- Owww…

Chapter 10: The 5 Stages of Death

BPOV:

Despair. It is an interesting emotion indeed. The feeling of hopelessness, like everything you hold true to you is gone, it will never come back. You know that it is silly to think like that, and that it won't help the situation, but still you do it. At times like this I wish I was Jasper so I could feel the tenor of that emotion.

It sounds crazy right? To think of despair like it is interesting, but I can't help it. Everything is gone! You will never see Edward again, never hold him in your arms or see him blush, or smile, or laugh. Those words brought the feelings; the feelings that are so interesting.

I had no idea where we were going, and frankly I did not want anyone to come after me. I did not want them to be in danger, especially Edward. I thought about my Edward, nothing else.

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They say when some one tells you that you are going to die you go through 5 phases.

Shock

Disbelief

Anger

Reasoning

Acceptance

I never knew that this was true until I found out for myself.

(Flashback)

I could feel the air getting colder in my lungs so I guess that they were taking me to somewhere in Antarctica.

We reached and igloo hut, they dragged me inside and opened a trap door that led to an underground house.

I was taken into a room; it was warm inside the house. The room was decorated in all gold with a giant bed in the center. A couch and a futon were the only furniture in this room.

They left me to go hunt. I cautiously explored my surroundings. I opened the closet but that was a big mistake. All that was in there were various pieces of lingerie.

I stepped through another door that led into a small bathroom. There was only one problem, there was no shower; only a bath tub. How odd. There were no windows that I could escape from since we were under ground.

Even though there was no one in the house, I could not escape. I knew that Laurent was right outside the igloo hut, waiting to see if I would make a run for it.

I decided to take a bath.

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A few hours later James came back. "I know you think that you can escape, but you cannot. I took you not to be my mate as I projected to your mind, but so that I could mess with you, and then I will kill you"

(End Flashback)

I was immediately thrown in to the first stage of shock. There was no way he would kill me! He was bluffing! Wait, he just wants to use me once and then kill me! There is no way that he will be my first. No stinking way!

I still don't believe I am going to die. He wouldn't do that. No, be strong you are going to live…I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM GOING TO DIE! I finally found someone and now, I just can't believe this!

He will not do this to me! I will wring his ugly little vampire neck. I will tear him apart limb from limb and then I will burn the rest, maybe save some ashes as a memoir. I HATE that stupid little creature.

He stole me away from my Edward!

Maybe I could offer him something in return for him releasing me. What would he want though? Maybe I could convince him that I didn't have to die. He could have his fun and then I could go back home. No I could offer my life time partnership for my survival and one day I could slip away.

I could tell him that my family wouldn't come after him if I was alive. There has to be something he would bargain for with me!

Just then James walked through the door. I said the first thing that came to my mind, "I thought Victoria liked you?" It was true, last time I was here Victoria was crushing on James like that Jessica from school would crush on Mike.

He just laughed, "Apparently not since she and Laurent got married last year, but you wouldn't know would you because you were too busy playing with that human!"

I decided I should try and reason with him now. "Look, isn't there anything I can give you so you will keep me alive?"

He looked amused, "No, not really. I stole you mainly so I could have the fun of killing you because you rejected me, but my idea of messing with you makes the revenge even better."

The 5th stage, acceptance. I was going to die. At least I would e out of the hands of this tyrant. Maybe Edward would join me wherever I would go… maybe I would go to heaven. Maybe I would be able to watch Edward being happy from wherever I would go.

I sighed. James looked deep in thought, "Though, if you were willing to marry me, till death do us part, then I suppose you could live."

What! I was going to live! Yes, I would see Edward again, and my family.

"Well if we are going to do it the proper way then, we don't have to do…what you want to do until after the marriage right?" I asked hopefully.

He just sneered, "We'll see, right now you look pretty darn tempting, and think of the fun we could have." His sleazy voice was really getting on my nerves. I was glad when moments later he left the room.

My thoughts turned to my family again. I wondered what they were doing, were they searching for me.

EPOV:

It had been 2 days since I told the Cullens the direction they took Bella in, they were able to trail it up to Antarctica, but then a snowstorm washed away all hope of ever catching the scent again.

Carlisle had given me a doctor's note so I didn't have to go to school in the state I was in. It was easy to convince Charlie, just one look at me and no one doubted if I was sick or not.

I was torn inside. My poor sweet Bella, who loves me. Who is a vampire, but I love her still. I still wasn't used to the whole family of vampire's thing; I don't think I'd ever get used to it.

I missed her so horribly, so awfully. I didn't know if she was safe or if se would come back. Every thought I had was of Bella, I curled up on my side on my bed, only eating the meals that Charlie would occasionally bring up to me.

Bella, Bella, Bella, Bella, Bella, Bella, Bella, Bella, Bella, Bella…

A/n: Sorry that EPoV is so short, but I don't want to give away what happens in the next chapter sooooo… Yeah. I need 15 reviews again, you guys are lucky that I lost count because I don't' think it was 15 reviews, so you better get it right this time!