-1AN1: Okay this is a bit more lengthy and nothing liked I planned on in the being but it sorta just wrote itself. I have addressed the issues I planned on a few thing's I've left unanswered but they will be shortly.
AN2: I've also changed the rating because although this chapter has nothing too graphic, the next one may not be suitable for the younger ones.
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Chapter 10 - Obstacles overcome
"Ok well first off I just need to say something. Catherine I love you, I really do, I never thought I'd get the change to tell you, so now I have the chance I plan on telling you as much as possible…… But there's so many things we need to address before we can be together……… I mean if that's what you want….I"
"Sara please don't ever doubt that I love you and I want to be with you too. But I don't really know how or even what our options are there's so many things we need to discuss. But know that I do want to be with you, I want to give us a go more than anything. I just don't know how we go about it. I mean I could come visit you when I'm off work you could come and visit me at holidays……… but I don't know if that will be enough."
"I feel the same I mean we can do the long distance relationship thing, and I'm so happy that you want us to be together, to give us a go……… I know this is selfish but I want to be with you everyday…… I want to wake up with you in my arms in the morning, I want to come home to you after a bad day at work and be held by you, I want to……… go to bed with you at night and sleep with you in my arms….. Among other things. But I know how much your job means to you and how much you have in Vegas and I could never expect you to leave that behind"
"Sara I know I have family and friends in Vegas but the 2 people I love the most are here in Boston. I can't say I'm going to up and leave but I want to. I'll do anything to be with you……."
Both women now began to sob, Sara pulled Catherine into her arms and held the smaller women to her.
"Sara I need to tell you something"
Sara wiped her eyes and looked down at the blonde"
"I leave for Vegas tomorrow night………… but if you want me to I want to stay on an extra week, I told Grissom I didn't have a definite time frame for how long I'd be here so if it's ok with you I'd like to stay the week see how things go between us"
Sara smiled down at Catherine and placed a kiss on the Sara's lips
"I want that more than anything, I want you to stay for as long as possible"
Catherine kissed the women back
"I'm so happy to hear you say that"
"Catherine there's more things we need to talk about………… I think I need to take Lizzie to Vegas I think I need to introduce her to Grissom"
Catherine was gob smacked she didn't know what to say, she knew the child need to see her father, she deserved that right
"Sara your right, he does need to see her, I know it's really stupid my reaction to Grissom it's just that I'm….. in all honesty I'm jealous of him and I know you love me it's just that you and Grissom always had a connection and I know you explained all that to me it's just that I know he loves you and I know that you love me but Lizzie…….. Lizzie is his daughter and the amount of times I took Eddie back for Lindsey's sake scares me because I think that if you see him again and you see how good he is with Lizzie then you may change your mind about us"
Sara was shocked, 'Catherine is jealous of Grissom how can she be, how could she think that I would want to be back with him, I love her what can I do to show her I love her and only her'
"Catherine I love you and only you. I don't want to be with Grissom if I did I would have gone back to Vegas when I knew I was pregnant with Lizzie and made a go of things I would have told him then, but I didn't Catherine because I love you not him, I could never be with him Catherine ever, I lived that lie for so long and I will never ever go back there again, the only person I want to be with is you"
Sara pulled Catherine even tighter to her so that the blonde women was practically in her lap
"Catherine I know that seeing Grissom will be hard for both of us, but there's no chance that I will go back to him. I want you. I belong to you and no one else. I think that if you want we should see Grissom together I will explain everything to him, but that's up to you, if you will feel happier being there when I tell him then that's your choice but it'd like to think that you trust me. That you'll believe me when I tell you I love you and only you"
Catherine spoke to Sara through her sobs
"Sara I do trust you. I trust you more than I've ever trusted anyone but I don't trust him…… If he even loves you a fraction as much as I love you I know he'll put up a fight for you"
"Catherine there will be no fight because there is nothing in this world that could make me want to be with Grissom instead of you"
"Did I tell you I love you Sara Sidle" The blonde smiled through her tears
Sara smiled down at her
"I think you may have mentioned something but I don't mind hearing it again"
Sara pulled Catherine's head towards her own and inched her mouth as close to Catherine's as possible without touching
"I Sara Sidle love you Catherine Willows" She whispered as she brought her lips to meet Catherine's, Catherine encouraged the kiss and opened her mouth as a willing invitation for Sara's tongue. Sara smiled into the kiss as she felt Catherine's mouth open, not wanting to disappoint she teasingly licked her way over Catherine's teeth before she felt Catherine's tongue fight back and duel for control of the kiss. Catherine quickly changed her position so that instead of resting against Sara she was now facing the brunette straddling her lap.
Sara pulled Catherine closer and broke the kiss to look into Catherine's eyes she saw a reflection of her own desire behind the blue eyes. She kissed the blondes forehead, then the blondes nose, then each of the blondes cheeks before kissing the blondes mouth, Catherine fought to extend the kiss but Sara managed to stay in control and escape the kiss, Sara kissed along Catherine's jaw line and neck, planting tiny kisses until she reached Catherine pulse point, when she found her goal she increased the pressure of began to gently bite, lick and kiss the point. Sara's body heat surged as she felt the blonde quiver under her touch and she almost lost control when she heard a moan escape from the blondes lips as she threw her head back.
"Sara please…………….. Sara"
Sara didn't listen to the blonde as she continued her attack on Catherine's neck, the blonde women began to moan more loudly and pull Sara's head closer to her neck.
"Sara please….. We need to stop Sara……….. Sara stop"
Sara stopped in her actions and looked up at Catherine. She was worried that she'd done something to upset Catherine, her worries and concerns where squashed when she looked up to see Catherine, panting hard, hair messed and eyes filled with desire that made Sara want to take her right there on the sofa.
"Cat I'm sorry…."
Catherine looked at Sara and could see the doubt in her face, she brought the brunets lips to meet her own and kissed her passionately for several minutes until both women where breathing heavily
"You have nothing to be sorry for…… But if I didn't stop you kissing me like that….. Making me feel so good I wouldn't have been able to stop myself"
Sara looked at the other women Blankley
"You have no idea what I'm talking about do you……….Let me see if I can help jog your memory"
Catherine kissed Sara on the lips until she felt Sara give into the kiss and fight for control, then she stopped kissing Sara and kiss her nose then along her jaw, finally she began to kiss along Sara's neck repeating the actions that Sara had just practiced on her, when she felt Sara's body react she increased the kissing and biting and brought a hand behind Sara's head for support as she continued her assault, once Sara was moaning uncontrollably Catherine decided to take things on step further with her free hand she slipped her hand under Sara's shirt. She let the hand roam Sara's toned stomach for a while before bringing the hand up to Sara's Chest slowly. Until she felt Sara's hand encourage her movement, Sara placed Catherine's hand over her right breast she gently let her hand roam over Sara's breast purposely avoiding the delicate nipple that she knew Sara wanted her to touch the most. Eventually she gave in to Sara's moaning and gently racked her finger nails over the erect nipple through the material of Sara's bra. By this time Sara was moaning uncontrollably and grinding her body into Catherine.
At that point Catherine fought the urge to continue exploration and forced herself to bring her hands and mouth away from Sara's quivering body. Catherine pulled her body back and lent away from Sara. When she felt Sara's hand attach to her knees she jumped off Sara's lap and sat beside her on the couch a grin plastered across her face.
"See that is why we can't continue" Catherine said looked at Sara
"Catherine why did you stop…….. Why did you make me stop, that was amazing I don't understand?"
Catherine moved closer to Sara on the sofa and brought Sara's hands around her waste and into her own hands
"because if we continue neither of us will be able to control ourselves. How I made you feel just then is how you made me feel a few minutes ago"
"And why is that a bad things?" Sara said as she tried to free her hands to explore Catherine's body
"because I don't want to make love to you tonight"
Sara was hurt by Catherine's words and she could feel Sara's body tense. Catherine let go of Sara's hands and sat back into Sara's lap
"Sara No! I'm saying I don't want to make love with you. I want that Sara so much, the way you make me feel, the way my body reacts to you, I want you so bad……. But I don't want to rush things. Within a minute you had me practically begging you. You have no idea how much I want to take you upstairs and make love to you all night long, but I can't………. I want to wait….. Do things right"
"I understand……. Sorry I over reacted I just thought I'd done something wrong, sorry I know I'm just being stupid. I mean it felt so good and I just got carried away, I've just wanted you for so long………. I'm sorry"
"Sara stop saying sorry and know that I want you to, you don't know how many nights I've dreamed of being with you, how many different ways….. Ok this is not a good way to control my hormones"
Sara smiled and entwined Catherine's fingers with her own
"So you've thought about us…. Together, what exactly do you think about?" Sara smirked
"Sara stop it!, we need to stop this discussion now before I can't control myself and I just have to take you right here right now"
Sara was taken back by Catherine's words and couldn't stop the moan escape her throat
"Well Miss Sidle I suggest your questioning now end, we can discuss this another time when you can make some of my fantasies a reality"
Sara still could speak she felt tingles run through her body
Catherine lent over and placed a kiss on the younger women's lips
"I think I better get back to the hotel……. Plus I think I need a long cold shower" Catherine smiled
"Erm Cat if you want I mean…. Please. Stay here tonight I don't want you walking the streets alone at night and I can't take you because Lizzie's sleeping so please just stay"
"Sara thank you for the offer but I don't think staying here's a good idea especially after what just happened"
"Please Cat I just want to know your safe you can stay in the guest room………… I promise not to attack you in the night" Both women smiled
"I have nothing to sleep in…."
"You can wear something of mine"
"Ok then if your sure that's ok"
"yes it is come on I'll show you to the guest room" Sara took Catherine's hand and led her upstairs to the room across from hers.
"My rooms facing and Lizzie's as you know is next to mine if you need anything just wake me up"
Sara blushed as she saw Catherine smile at her statement
"Sorry Sara my mind is now out of the gutter"
Both women smiled
"Right we better get some sleep"
"we had" Both women stood on the landing neither knowing what to say or do
"Oh you need something to sleep in. What do you usually sleep in?"
Catherine smiled and raised an eye brow. Sara inwardly groaned and felt her desire burning once again.
"Cat please stop doing this to me or else I'll never sleep" At that point Sara had an idea to play Catherine at her own game
She walked into her room took a t shirt from her drawer and walked back to Catherine handing her the t shirt
"Actually I know the perfect way I'll be able to sleep…… thoughts of you have always been enough to……… bring me to release before" Sara whispered as she let her fingers roam Catherine's back and kissed the blonde on the mouth
"SARA!"
"What?" Sara said innocently "I was mealy saying that I can go to sleep and dream about you…….. Holding my hand"
"Sure you where Sidle anyway I think it's time to sleep……."
"Yes it is good night Cath" Sara said as she leaned into the blonde and kissed the older women's lips
"I love you"
"And I love you more"
Catherine closed the door and walked into the guest room. Once she closed the door she took a deep breath and lent her back to the door. Sara walked into her room and dove onto the bed, sighing a huge sigh.
"Catherine willows you will be the death of me" She whispered to herself.
Across the hall Catherine stood still resting against the door
"Sara Sidle what you do to me"
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