Chapter 10

Lily's POV

I haven't talked to Sev ever sense the little "incident" last year.

I wonder how he's doing?

No! you don't want to know! He is a complete arse.

But, what if I want to talk to him and ask him how his life has been?

You can't do that! It's totally against nature!

How is it against nature?

From the start, he knew you could be in Gryffindor and he was definitely going to be in Slytherin; Slytherin and Gryffindor are obviously rivals. He knew that it wasn't going to be long once you guys got to Hogwarts that, you two would start growing apart and its obviously starting to show.

N-no! I—wait I'm fighting with myself. I can just stop whenever I want to. So take that Self! Oh, gosh I need to get outside more if I am fighting with myself.

I sat up out of bed, got my slippers on and went to the bath room to freshen up. I got dressed at put my hair up in a messy bun. I looked outside, it was a beautiful day. The sun was shining. The Birds were chirping and not a cloud in the sky. Too bad it was November and this would be going away very shortly, so I decided to go outside.

I had a muggle book I was reading so I grabbed it off of my trunk and walked outside. I sat down by the lake and started reading. Time was flying by so fast. Every now and then I looked up and scanned the grounds of Hogwarts. Just about everyone was outside. A bunch of first years were playing a muggle game called Hide and Seek. I looked up at the castle and coming out onto the grounds was the people that I really didn't not want to talk to; James, Sirius, Remus, and Peter. I went back to my book and started reading. Within a minute I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned to see the greasy, black haired, Slytherin boy; Severus Snape.

"Can I sit?" He asked very weakly.

"Sure." I said going back to my book. There was a couple moments of silence then he finally spoke up.

"So how has your year been so far?"

"It's been how a normal year at Hogwarts is supposed to be." I said with attitude.

"Oh, well um… I just wanted to say, er, that I'm sorry for what happened last year, I know it took a long time for me to say sorry, but—" I interrupted him.

"Save it, Snape, or whatever you want me to call you." I snapped.

"I want you to call me Sev, like you used to." He said. His eyes were tearing up.

"Nothing is like it used to be." I answered.

"Hey! Evans! Come here!" James called pushing his hand through his messy hair.

"Lily, don't go over there." Snape pleaded as I got up.

I started walking over there. I turned around to look at him.

"You have obviously chosen your path, now I am choosing mine." I closed my book and walked away, tears running down my face. I didn't look back at Snape until I got to where James and his group were. Once I got to them I turned around to see Sev with his head in his hands, sulking.

"Why were you talking to that sli—Are you crying?!" James shouted, acting defensively.

"I—um, yeah." I confessed.

"Why?! I punch that son of a bit—" James started putting up fists and pretending like he was punching someone and I interrupted him.

"It was my fault, I let my guard down." I felt ashamed.

"Was it that slime ball. Lily, please tell me it was that slime ball, I want a reason to punch him right in the gut." He looked so angry right now.

"D-did you just call me Lily?" I was so shocked he called me by my first name.

"Just tell me so I can go punch him!" James was yelling now.

"Jeesum, Prongs, calm your girl hormones." Sirius said with a laugh.

"Potter, calm down, and lower your voice, like I said it wasn't his fault—well it kinda was, he started it last year, but I just maybe finished our friendship, I don't know." I said walking back up to the castle. Well, I had planned a whole day to stay outside but now that I was crying, those plans were obviously ruined.

I didn't go to dinner but went straight to the common room to cool down and do some school work by the fire, it was Saturday night so people would be getting in late. I didn't go down to dinner, I wasn't hungry. The first person in was Mary. I haven't talked to her sense I saw her and James snogging. She came over to sit and saw that I was still ignoring her.

"Can you please just talk to me, I don't know what I did!?" She pleaded.

"You should have at least one idea why I am mad at you, when did I stop talking to you?" I said with attitude. "Think; if that's even possible for you."

"You stopped talking to me at the end of last year," She said, I nodded for her to keep going. "Around when me and James started dat—You can be serious?! You have not been bloody talking to me just because I was dating James Potter?" She was screaming now, luckily everyone was at dinner.

"You know I fancy him!" I screamed.

"Well, you sure weren't showing it, now were you."

"James Potter is a little arrogant bastard, but then there is the cute part of him, when we are alone! I have to show I cant stand him around his friends and you guys!" I was furious now if I was telling how cute Potter was.

"You have to be joking?!" She looked furious also.

"Why do I always 'have to be joking' whenever I say something," I said putting my hands is quotation marks around "have to be joking". "I am just about fed up with you, Mary, you never take me serious, you are never there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on like Marlene and Alice are. You bloody flirt with every guy you see. Ugh! I'm fed up!" The tears were starting to form in my eyes.

"Well, I am fed up with you too! You never appreciate what I do. You never just sit and relax, you're always on edge. You are such an arse to me all the time, and you know what? I am fed up with our friendship!" She fought. The tears were starting to fall down now. "and just to make you up to date, James and I broke up the other day, now you can run into his arms, he can sweep you up on his broom and you can finally tell him how you really feel and snogg his face off like you want to!"

She didn't seem any where close to crying, unlike Lily who the tears were streaming down her face. When mary was done yelling she stormed out of the common room. When I turned to go up to the girls dormitories, I saw at the top of the stairs, a two pairs of hazel eyes peering around the corner. One set belonged to James Potter, the other belonged to Sirius Black.