I left like 8 message with um the people who might know where I can buy Escanflowne you know like anime stores, um someone in japan, Jackie Chan, no one would return my calls (kidding its a funny) And I still dont own it! :)

By the way I dont know if anyone will care or does care but I left a link to a video made that would really help a flash back in a portion of this chapter, consider it a bonus for people who liked this chapter even if it was short, ya thats it its a present for this short chapter!!!

Thanks for reading, I like to hear the feed back as this is slowly becomming a fun hobby for me, rather than just watching other animes all the time I really think Escanflowne is my fav series that I would like to see extended. And Vampire knight I like it too.

Which I do like ocassional lemon but thats all the Vampire knight fanfic is :P

Unless someone knows a good story that has more than sex in it with a Yukari and um the other guy vampire not Zero GAH his name eludes me! Ok enough of this Im going to be see the silly and rambling starts

Rentra sat in his study, the castle bustled with mixed emotions. Guards were preparing for a march with heightened anticipation of a battle on the horizon, servants scrambled to prepare for their Kings departure, and sorrow filled the village as brothers, sons, fathers left for battle. He was the only one content with all that was happen, acting concerned though was harder for him because of the edging happiness he was feeling. Orinia was but putty in his hands.

The woman was stubborn, and hard to bend, but every woman's happiness can be bought. Orinia only needed a plausible story to make her know she was better for Van than any other women, and the Tsuni was the worst option for Van. Orinia spent a lot of time with Rentra asking about Tsuni, and how she can help Van, he kept filling her head with untrue stories. It was working, his plan was working and no matter how Orinia carried out her will, it was going to benefit him in the end.

He overlooked Fanelia from his balcony, beyond the gates the armies forming to set course to Austria. He would be alone here at the castle, waiting for her, of course everyone thought his departure was in the morning, but he planned that so he would need to stay an extended amount of time. Once she was in his grasp he would get her to trust him. Trust is such a fickle thing; it can be earned easily with the right scenario. However, he never did settle for one plan, he had others.

He turned and walked to his desk, his fingers ran lightly over a beautifully carved wooden box bearing the symbol of two half moons and a dragon in the center spreading its wings as if flying to the heavens. He pulled the small latch on the front of the box relieving its inner contents. A thinly shaped metallic band rested on the black cushion formed to the box. It had three interweaving bands that formed a partial circle stopping evenly on either side. The front of the band pointed to a "v" with a lone blue emerald dangling from it.

A knock at his door caused him to shut the wooden box with a surprised force.

"Come in." He stated flatly walking to the door.

"King Rentra, King Van would like to see you in his study your Majesty." The young woman bowed deeply not meeting his gaze.

Rentra turned and grabbed his cloak latching it to his neck as he followed the girl. His eyes stealing one last look at the wooden box on the desk.

He followed the maid to the other side of the castle up grand stair cases and through long corridors. He did admire Van's taste in his castle. The carvings were marvelous, the space was incredible, and the stone was magnificent all made from the very land he owned. He was defiantly rich with resources Rentra envied. It didn't help his resources to his land were ran dry – by the previous wars his own country had inflicted on themselves and selfish acts of want from his nobility leaving his land almost barren.

Van was out on his balcony overlooking the scenery below as Rentra was doing moments before. Rentra retained a smirk as he knew his thoughts were more of satisfaction than Van's were at the moment he was sure.

"You wanted to see me your Majesty." He didn't bow, but dipped his head in respect. He thought he had played the part of a sincere Fanelia guest well. Always accepting, kind, and supportive – even though he wanted to at times beat a couple of the untrained servants from time to time. Van didn't know how to properly train the servants, which he despised.

"Rentra, I'm glad you made it, come sit." Vans lead him over to a small sitting area on the balcony.

"As you know I am leaving today – some of the words you spoke to me with our previous conversation couldn't have been truer." Van obviously didn't feel comfortable sitting with Rentra his eye contact was minimal.

"I am leaving today – and I know you depart tomorrow Rentra – I am going to tell you this now, I am warning you – If it is Hitomi you seek, you will have to go through me to get her." Rentra grinned against his wording – he was threatening him – the young arrogant King dared threaten him.

"Your Majesty, I assure you my interest in Hitomi is for Gaea – I would never have her befall any harm – or force her to do anything she doesn't wish to do, but she will need me." Rentra stressed need with a hint of satisfaction.

Van met his eyes with a stern look; his fist clenched resisting from drawing his sword and carving his warning into Rentra's hide. "You will take my advice more seriously Rentra, you do not want to cross me, Im going after Dilandau, if he has Hitomi like you say -" Van's muscles shook with tension.

Rentra stood and dipped his head in respect "I understand your majesty." He turned and walked from Van's study, feeling his blazing gaze of fury on his back. He will be the first to fall at my hands thought Rentra as he headed back to his room.

Van shook off his fury with Rentra and made his way to the garden. Storius had informed him it was time to move his army – Van had to get his things in order. He entered the garden – more like a resting tome of peace for Escanflowne. He had come out here many times and set reminiscing. Mostly after dreams he had of Hitomi, he felt better near Escanflowne and under the Mystic Moon. It was like she wasn't that far from him.

Van pulled himself up on Escanflowne's knee, a placed his hand over the red encasement tracing the smooth jewel. He glanced down at the pulsing energist that had become increasingly brighter when it neared the encasement on Escanflowne's chest. He sighed deeply and placed his hand in the encasement releasing the jewel.

His eyes closed and he felt the warmth pulsing through him.

You're doing it again. Her voice was soft, and gentle.

"There's another war, I need you." He responded out loud to the voice that whispered in his ears.

You know, you could get lost again, I am. She was so real, he could picture her in his mind, and he strained harder to see her.

"I have you, I won't be lost." His free hand felt for the pendant that hung from his neck.

Im here, with you, always.

"Are you? Are you coming back?" His voice strained and he could feel a tear push between his closed eyes.

"Why don't you answer my question?" He was pushing the question and he wasn't sure he could handle something that wasn't what he wanted to hear.

It's been too long Van, who am I to make you wait? I love you, I've loved you along, just promise me – if you don't see me you'll keep breathing.

"I'll give anything Hitomi, but I won't give up." He opened his eyes and pulled his hand from Escanflowne's encasement.

The sound of mechanical gears working filled the garden as the cock pit opened to his seat. He jumped in effortlessly, as if he hadn't stopped doing it for the last 4 years.

"I'll keep breathing Hitomi, but I'm never letting you go." The cock pit shut and Van moved his arms and legs in position feeling the vibrant hum of Escanflowne's Energist. His legs pushed up with ease as Escanflowne stood to tower over the garden gazing below at Fanelia. He moved his way down the wide path built to walk Escanflowne up when he had decided that this would be the Gymelufs final place in Fanelia, or so he thought.

He stood, at the entrance of the palace; the city bustled to the streets in awe as they came to see their King and his infamous Gymeluf. The white suit of armor reflected the sun and his cape danced with the breeze behind him making his way through the town. His people cheered, and hollered their encouragements to him as he passed through the streets. As proud as he wanted to be right now – the feeling eluded; he was only filled with sorrow for all the things leading to this point that he couldn't rejoice.

Rentra had told him Dilandau had Hitomi – how or why Rentra knew this information was an answer he never received but it put him on caution with Rentra.

Van had Merle stay behind, and even though she pouted at the fact at first, she couldn't resist spying on a potential threat in the castle. If there was anything Rentra didn't want anyone to know, Merle would find out.

Van reached the outer edges of the palace walls that descended into the market portion of the city. He stood looking forward at the massing military before him.

With a single thought he was dancing on the back of Escanflowne, removed from the cock pit as the Gymeluf transformed its shape into a metallic white dragon. Van grabbed the two straps in both his hands and Escanflowne soared higher into the sky – the Gymeluf's shadow casted over the city – and he could faintly hear the people cheering louder.

He couldn't help but smirk as he tugged right holding his left strap firm and Escanflowne spun like a forming tornado. His heart beat faster and he released the firm hold he had on his straps and Escanflowne pivoted downward with increasing speed. Of course she was worth it; she would always be worth it.

He closed his eyes and there she was, pressed against his chest looking into his eyes with a smile that melted his heart. He was going to find her – save her – and finally be with her.

"I'm coming for you Hitomi." Van steered Escanflowne to the ground head of his army – to where Storius mounted speaking to his line of command.

"Pretty fancy flying your Majesty." Storius had a look of awe on his face, as did everyone else

Storius never had the pleasure of seeing Van use the metal armor – as he had peaceful place Escanflowne in the garden by that time, and Van didn't have much of a military at that point. He could feel an aura of confidence wash over him, his people loyal to their cause and courage in their hearts with Escanflowne at their side.

"We are ready to move Sire." Storius turned his black steed around, it danced restlessly to move forward.

Van nodded and pulled the straps up and Escanflowne lurched to the skies.

"So when are we going to Fanelia Allen?" Hitomi walked with him on the upper deck of the ship while she skimmed the hull for further damages that might have been overseen.

"Well if my inspection appears to be ok, we can lift off in just a few short hours." Allen looked back at her to see her reaction. She hadn't been impatient to the delay, which he felt was a good sign. The longer he had with her, maybe the more time he can get a feel for her. They had been walking around talking about things for the last 3 days – some stuff was related to the Mystic Moon which he really didn't understand. He truly felt content in her presence, a feeling of security washed over him, and a need to be around her increased every day.

She made him laugh, and sometimes not intentionally. She still was the Hitomi he remembered but with more life experiences to hold a conversation. Occasionally a remark of his would make her blush – and he liked it when he did that to her. It was a good sign to him. She had kept her questions of Van vague – which made his theory of her changing heart over the last 5 years be more accurate he thought. She mostly wondered how everyone had done after she left and how the rebuilding of Fanelia went. He told her everything he could keeping the van topic to a minimal – she still had some feelings for him he could see the way her eyes gazed at him when he did mention his name – but her other actions spoke otherwise.

She could still be fancied with him – her image of him stuck at her 16 year old self – it's hard to get over your true first love he understood.

Hitomi tried to keep herself distant, but it seemed she could feel Allen's sense of want without touch now, like it was growing. She tried to remain low key – not saying much but carrying on conversation with minimal length but it was hard. She liked Allen as a dear friend of hers, and for the last five years she had secluded herself from everyone, to be with Van would be like she was living again. Since she had returned to Gaea it felt like she wasn't living. Her own feelings were battling Allen's, but slowly at times she would feel herself leaning into him – being pushed and had to regain her composure. It was getting hard –to even be in the same room as him.

"I've had a hard five years myself Hitomi, I lost Selena." His head dipped down, he wanted to share this with someone – and he felt as if Hitomi was listening.

Hitomi looked at him – unsure of what to say to him. She had spent the last few weeks at the mercy of Dilanduo, his crazy eyes always gazing and his hate seeping into her every thought. Not once did it cross her mind that he was Selena, but then again she hadn't had a lot of time to adjust to the idea after they had defeated Dorkirk.

"I tried so hard for two years to find a cure, she started having nightmares, and then she started feeling pain. It was draining her, he was draining her. Some people told him that he was eating her soul – to devour her so he could have her body – others told me she had forever battling conflict of two people within her – he was trying to be as was she – and her body was losing strength fighting it." His eyes glisten with a glossy gaze, if she didn't know any better his eyes were starting to tear up.

"I was told to take her to this temple of monks – whose powers were beyond imagination – they might be able to cast out his soul – or being. When I got there, they warned me, they told me they might not be able to save her – he might be the more powerful entity, but I didn't believe them." Hitomi couldn't help but take his hand, she didn't even think about her issues anymore – he was in pain.

"He lives Hitomi, Dilandou lives, my sister is gone, and I have spent three years accepting it, wondering how he is able to live – and my sister had to die. The thought of justice in this makes me crazy with anger – there was none? My sister was little when she was taken and experimented on!" His hand closed around Hitomis squeezing them.

"They wouldn't let me kill him, they basically planned on trying to make him a righteous person – Monks and their terrible sense of judgment." A lone tear trickled down his cheek.

Hitomi reach up and wiped her thumb against his face, taking the tear away. Her eyes sympathetic to his needs, her body screamed to move closer to him, and her mind warned her to run. She hadn't seen Allen like this ever, conflicted she could feel it, he fought back the sadness. He quickly wrapped his arms around her pulling her closer to him. She closed her eyes to try and focus, it was so hard. The pain in her chest throbbed but her body heightened with need of drawing him in, it pushed her. She tried to think – think of anything except these emotions that were telling her to do things she knew she didn't want to do.

Her mind raced, trying to focus like when she ran – visioning the end, her end was Van. She thought of his hair, his eyes, his lips, and his voice. Im going to war, without you but for you Hitom, I'm using Escanflowne. She felt a wave of guilt flash over her. She could see him – she could see him standing on Escaneflowne, his hand placed in Escanflowne casing – glowing. You're doing it again? She wanted to scream it; her mind lurched away from him as she felt Allen shift away, giving space between them. She almost stepped into him; her body willing her to be closer, goose bumps began to form on her arms. She opened her eyes and look at Allen, and they pulled her in. She could feel the urge to kiss him becoming stronger, powerful, and she couldn't resist. He was inching towards her and all she could do was close her eyes try and break free of his eyes.

Her mind tried to pull her back to Van but she could feel Allen pushing her forward. She held her breath, her body screamed at her to pull him in, feel his lips, and taste him. Her eyes shot open – he was close breathing on her face, his warm breath heating her skin to degrees she didn't think she could stand without shedding the dress.

"I….Allen." She tried to speak, she wanted to tell him no, but her heart was racing so fast she could barley breath, the need was overwhelming her.

"Hitomi…I need you." That was her undoing, she tried to fight, how she tried. She couldn't find her own feeling, her mind was scolding her as his lips found hers. Her eyes wide staring at the man that was sending the waves of sensations through her body, her body was responding with heat and urges she didn't want to recognize.

The ground shifted harshly and she lost her footing, and fell from Allen's grasp – his emotion hold on her released and she gasped for air. Serantisan loomed over her, barring her teeth at Allen. Allen drew his sword instinctively and stood defensive with his footing regained balance.

She quickly regained her balance and scrambled to Serantisan, crawling up the dragon. She had to get out of here, Serantisan turned – rocking the Levi ship more and pushed off, causing Allen to step back trying to hold his stand on the deck.

"Hitomi!!!" Allen yelled after her running to the edge of the ship – she tore her gaze away and closed her eyes hugging the dragon's neck tightly.

Theres another war Hitomi, I need you. He needed her, guilt washed through her, tears pooled from her eyes. She loved him – the pain in her chest was real – and it was hers You know, you could get lost again, I am. She thought seeing him again- his darn onyx hair hanging playfully in his eyes, his broad shoulders and determined eyes. More waves of guilt flushed through her, she felt like she betrayed him.

I have you, I wont be lost.

"Im here, with you, always." Her soft whisper choked as tears welled in her eyes, if that were true her will power would have been stronger to control Allen's emotions. She never felt for Allen, she realized that day on the bridge.

The coldness of the water dripped heavily off hear face. She didn't know why she was walking in the rain, numbness she could feel it was cold but didn't feel cold. Her whole body pulse with a sadness she couldn't place. His words hurt; he never made her feel like a tool.

Her heart was filled with hurt, confusion, and doubt. All the fighting, the visions, and the feeling within those visions. She felt the pain of people hurting, the sadness for lost loved one, and the heartbreak for star crossed lovers.

I want your power! Stay….dont leave… for the power. I want you. Bits of Van's comments from earlier kept haunting her. Why did her heart swell in size and her body warm; sending her skin tingling when… he asked her to stay. Her cheeks flush with red, blushing, and her pulse quickening.

She ran from him, its all she could do. At least the river provided an ease that she needed. As she neared the top of the bridge she saw something from the corner of her eye catch her attention, slowly turning her gaze to it she gasped "Allen…"

She wasn't sure she said it, she felt like she did. His gaze locked with hers, he seemed surprise confused too.

She was confused, she thought she loved Allen, but she never felt this pulsing hurt with him; that kiss with Mellernia, and then there was Chid. She recalled how she did feel comforted when she was last in his embrace. Protected yes, but not drawn to him. All the times she felt these pulsating emotions was with Van, and it all came down to how she felt this moment. Allen reminded her of Amona so much, his smell, face, the body tone, and height. She thought Amona was her first love, feeling giddy, and eager to feel it. Allen reminded her of that too. He stepped closer slowly reaching his hand to her shoulder. He must have seen the hurt through her eyes, because she could see it in his.

He came closer to her, she started to look up, not sure if she wanted to look into his eyes, with the torn feelings she was having. He slowly inched down, it felt like it was happening so fast, she couldn't think, trying to figure it out. The thunder was too loud and she couldn't think, she saw his mouth twitch slightly, he mouthed her name. His eyes closed and his lips drew into her. Hitomi locked her star to his face, watching him ease more towards her, his breath was on her skin. She took in a breath and her vision went black as she quickly shut her eyes. Brightness dance in her eyelids and the lightning crackled across the sky. It sent a chill down her spine that caused her body to quiver and he pulled her in. She could feel her body warm as the rain slowly faded away, her body relaxed to the sun's rays' against her back. Why wasn't her body pulsating like it did with van anytime her gaze met hers, or their hands mistakenly touched.

She opened her eyes.

There she stood seeing the light pour into the forest floor, the same rays that were warming her, as Van's back faced her. Those were her arms tightly wrapped around him. She was seeing her past before her eyes, these weren't future she already felt them, lived them. She walked to see his face, his eyes, they were deep with care and he embraced her. She felt her skin pulsing again seeing the sight, he was Van.

The scene faded, quickly and she turned around as the vision came clear behind her from above. This room she had been here to, she was scared, she was alone, and he called her. Van had come for her, she could hear him. The honey-tinted glass burst and shattering below as van appeared. His wings spread wide slowing him as her dived towards her, pulling her into his embrace she ran to him with her arms folding over his shoulders around his neck. She could feel his heart racing as she was pulled against him. He was warm and his firm grip on her, she breathed him in and her body tingled sensing heat waves throughout. .

The feel of him disappeared and she felt her feet touch the ground lurching forward. Her arms swayed – she was running the wind was in her hair. She was feeling the strange feeling of déjà vu all over again, the light was bright, she was running through it. A quickly descending shadow came from above, Van lowered down, his hand held out to her. The shimmering dragon slowed as she jumped up to grab his hand. Her heart raced faster, her heart rejoiced at seeing him. She desperately wanted to go with him, he was her life. He pulled her up, his voice heavy and quiet, but he said it "Hitomi… Ill never let you go again.." She pulled into his chest, his skin was soft and his smells engulfed her senses. She nuzzled her head against his and his hand pulled her closer, squeezing her shirt in his fist.

The ground seemed to give under her, slowly and the vision blurred to a blinding light then total darkness, she was falling and he was gone again. The wind whipped against her ears as a shadow loomed ahead of her. She was frightened, she remembered this, she was falling, and there was a darkness forming. A hand, his hand came into view, and his muscular tone to his body ducked in and out of the shadows, outlining his features. Two large wings protruded from his back, like wings she had seen in books, glistening white feathers. He grabbed her, hold her wrist firmly pulling his towards her, her heart raced, he was saving her, the first time she had ever seen his wings.

His fingers wrapped around the palm and tugged her forward she whispered "Van… You're an Angel… ", her vision blurred again, no he was beautiful, she didn't want her sight to change. The ground slowly came to her feet and she felt the ground forming faster and she sat with her knees to her chest. She pulled them closer, she felt cold.

His voice, her eyes opened "Hitomi… I want you to stay with me from now on..." again his voice was deep, serious, and heavy. She saw him below, polishing the arm of the Gymeluf Escanflowne. "Van… What did you just say?" She repeated it again this time hoping to get a different response. The pain the first time was crushing, maybe this time it would be different and she wouldn't leave this vision ever. He stood, and waited. She stared hoping, hoping it was true waiting for him to answer.

She waited but her vision left; she blinked trying to refocus the blur, and his face, Allen's face smiled back at her. No wait, she wanted to go back to van what if he answered differently! She push her gaze away from Allen, what had she just done. Why did she kiss Allen, she hurt for Van, she wanted him there, not Allen.

"Uh… I…" She turned completely away, she wanted to tell him she didn't want this, she didn't want him. She felt badly, she kissed him she should want him!

"Hitomi." Allen said simply and huskily.

Her shoulders flinched in response to his hands on her shoulder, she was just kissing him! But she was visioning all her times with Van, why would she do that when she was receiving her first kiss? She looked up and his look. Van stood there, limp, staring with eyes wide with shock. He expression changed with the eyes met, his deepened, with pain. She tried to step forward but was pulled back by Allen's grasp. He turned; she tried to hold up her arm to pull forward but started walking, and then just sprinted when his gaze was completely gone from hers.

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Before you continue I wanted to show you a video with my favorite song (well one of them anyways haha) But it may help you vision the writing I just did on that seriously long flashback within flashback within flashback haha)

I hope it was okay tho maybe you could feel it deeper reading??" Or maybe my song choice rocks! :P Either way just thought I would add to it.

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CONTUINE!

"Are you coming back?" Her focus came back, she remembered that moment, how everything had collided so fast. She wouldn't come back, she didn't deserve him. She could leave Gaea again, but the war, Dilandau, what would she do if she left knowing Van would be in a world her would have died trying to save without her. It was her power, she had to fix Gaea for him, so he could live, it was the least she could do. He loved her, and she couldn't accept that she had kissed Allen with that knowledge.

Why don't you answer my question? He wanted to tell him, she wanted to let him know she loved him, but it was okay for him to move on from her.

"It's been too long Van, who am I to make you wait? I love you, I've loved you along, just promise me – if you don't see me you'll keep breathing?" It was all she could ask, she didn't want him to give up, and he deserved to live. He was there, standing before Escanflowne. His eyes focused with pride as the armor came to life. I'll give anything Hitomi, but I won't give up on you He jumped into the cockpit in one swift moment as it began to close he looked up at the Mystic moon's silhouette I'll keep breathing Hitomi, but I'm never letting you go.

She felt the tears falling from her face, the wind took them away. "Take them to him…" she told the wind as Serantisan flew higher away from the conflict of emotion she wish she could leave there, but it followed.

"Your not helping his fate any." Serantisan growled, but her voice seemed to be concerned.

"Oh Serantisan I tried, I tried to fight." The tears that trickled now flowed smoothly down her face – scattering to the wind at the end of her chin.

"I know Tsuni – I felt it, I felt you will your own, but I was far – I flew with all my being." Her neck twisted her glassy blue eyes to cast a gaze over Hitomi.

"Thank you…" Hitomi whispered.