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Chapter 10: Uncertainty (Questions emerge)
Buffy sat in the corner, she was crouched facing the wall, her nails raking her head.
"Buffy, you've been here for days! What's wrong?" Angelus asked her. She shook her head.
"N-no." It was all she said.
"No what? Are you upset?" That was obvious, but Buffy viciously shook her head.
"No, no, no…"
"Ok, now you just seem crazy." Her sire sighed, standing up and walking away from what he thought was a lost cause. Spike walked over to him.
"Hey mate, can I try talking to her?"
"Sure, but you're not going to get anywhere, she's completely lost her mind." Angelus shook his head as he walked away. Spike walked over to the shaking girl and crouched next to her.
"It must have been hard." He said, looking down, "Pretending to still be yourself around your idle. It must have brought back some feelings and made you start to wonder about things." She nodded.
"Look here Goldy Locks, I know how that feels, I turned my mom once and ended up having to stake her." She raised an eyebrow at him. "Alright," He admitted, "It's not the same, but it's probably the closest you'll get here. Everything going to be fine."
"I-I'm not sure if I want to be here." Her voice came out hoarse from her days of only saying one word. Tears dripped down her pale face.
"You seemed fine before, what happened?" He rested his blue eyes on her and she felt compelled to answer.
"I guess I felt my slayer instincts, they're still here and everything felt…"
"Wrong?" Spike offered. She nodded. "Yeah, I understand. The everything feeling wrong part at least. If you need some time by yourself, you can find a place to stay for a few days, maybe even weeks until you sort things out."
"I don't want to be alone, but I don't want to be here." She sighed, a war going on inside her head from her slayer instinct that had remained intact and her newly adopted vampire instincts.
"If you want you can have one of us go with you?" He suggested.
She hid her face in her hands, uncertainty creeping up her spine. "Spike, I feel like a betrayed Sam."
"Sam?" He asked.
"Giles wasn't my idle, Sam was. She was like a mother to me." His eyes widened as he recognized the female she was talking about. If his heart had been beating, it would have stopped.
"Buffy, why don't you go outside with me and enjoy the night air?" She nodded her head slowly, the idea sounded delightful. She gasped in pain as she stood up. She'd been sitting in that same position for days.
She held onto Spike's arm to stable herself as they walked into the main room.
"I told you she was-" Angelus's eyes widened when he saw Buffy clinging to Spike's arm. "You got her to come out?"
"Yeah, we're going to head out for a bit, be back before sunrise."
"Want me to come?" He asked.
"No, we'll be fine on our own."
"Fine!" Jealousy spiked Angelus's voice. He wanted the slayer all to himself…
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Buffy loosened her grip on Spike's arm, apologizing for holding on so tightly. She looked at the ground as they walked in silence. She was the fist to break it, asking, "Hey, Spike, do you think I should change my name, like you did?"
"Well, it has been a tradition in this family, all of us did, except for Dru." He thought for another second, hand pressed to his face. "I think that you should do whatever you want, if changing your name makes you feel more free, then go for it, but if you like being just Buffy, then stick with it for at least ten years." She nodded, agreeing with what he had just said.
They walked another block before Spike questioned, "What would you want to be called anyway?"
"I don't know, maybe Elizabeth or something…"
"Elizabeth?" He asked, stopping to stare at him companion, a devilishly handsome grin spreading across his face.
"Well, I don't know!" She was now smiling too. "That was my name once when I became my Halloween costume and I liked it."
"If you went by that, then you know what I'd have to do." Buffy raised an eyebrow at him in confusion. "Call you Elizabuff!" He laughed and she joined in. It felt good, after all this time, she was finally just relaxed.
When they came to a garden like place, Buffy froze. "What is it?" Spike asked her anxiously.
"This reminds me of my old home in Cleveland." She said, staring at the structure of the building.
"If you want, we could find a shady place inside and stay here for the day." He offered. She nodded and entered silently.
When they found it empty, the plan was decided, they would stay there all day and to back to a very angry Angelus the next night. Buffy laid on the floor, cuddled up to Spike, her face buried in his chest as she dreamed about her life as the slayer.