IT ALMOST FELT LIKE HOME

I wanted to get out of the house all by myself for a change.

I didn't want to visit anyone, I didn't want to crack jokes with James, talk to Al or anything really.

I just wanted to go back to my room in my own house and not feel like I'm being hung upside down.

But since I couldn't get into my house, at six in the morning I was sitting in front of the barrier staring at my house.

That would have been the ideal moment for me to be road kill.

Getting steadily tired of staring at the house I started walking back, and made it to walk along the Thames.

I stared at the river and the sun rising, I stopped for a second with my hands in my pockets, a second turned into minutes but I didn't want to leave.

I really did not want to pick between Al and James, recently every thought in my head came back to that one and it was too exhausting to think about.

It wasn't possible to like two boys at once, I mean come on that's just constipated to even think about.

Look I liked James, he was honest and stuff but he never took anything seriously or maybe he tried very hard not to.

Al according to me was made to be my boyfriend in my dreams not in a sarcastic way at all, the looks were an added bonus.

I groaned wondering why life just couldn't relax for a change.

I walked back home and was surprised to find that Grimmauld Place had disappeared, oh great I had wandered into the wrong street.

But I couldn't find the eluding house anywhere. What the hell? It was a huge house, it was extremely conspicuous, it couldn't have disappeared into thin air.

I was having a nightmare, obviously.

I rubbed my eyes. I even pinched myself only managing to hurt myself.

I waited staring between the two houses, where it should have been. I let out a breath of morning air when James emerged out of nowhere in his work robes I blinked trying to process what I just saw, he looked surprised to see me too "James?"

He nodded "Kayla"

I looked at him "Where did you come from? Did you apparate?"
He looked at me and grinned "No, I just stepped outside the house"
I didn't believe him "Stop lying, your house has disappeared"

He looked around him then whispered in my ear "The Headquarters of The Order of The Pheonix may be found at Number Twelve Grimmauld Place, London….memorize it and think about it"

I looked at him like he was daft but I did think about what he had said and then between house numbers eleven and thirteen a door emerged, James told me "There you go"

I asked "You're not coming inside?"

He shook his head "Work"

I nodded "Do well"

He nodded and I pulled the door open stepping in.

A house that existed in exactly nowhere was disconcerting.

It didn't make any sense but was still something.

The smell of crispy bacon wafted through the hallways and I made it to the kitchen eagerly awaiting breakfast.

Rose asked fixing me a plate "You're up early, where did you go?"

I sighed pulling the plate towards me and grabbing a fork "Went to see my house"

She looked at me sympathetically, I asked "I saw James leave no one else is up?"
She shook her head "No, I actually woke up to go to the bathroom but James asked me to make breakfast for him because he had to leave early today so I said okay, it's a rule in our house no one leaves this house hungry"

I smiled chewing steadily "I can help you if you like, you know make breakfast for them, now that Molly and Dominique moved into their flat closer to their respective work places and you have to do all the cooking around here"

She smiled "You any good in the kitchen"

I shook my head "No but I watch Grams and she's an excellent cook"

Rose nodded "Sure if you want to, feeding time for this lot is chaos"

I nodded, I'd seen them at feeding time.

Slowly the house awoke at around eight only Louis was up looking groggy "Uum good morning"

I sucked in a sharp breath catching sight of his bedhead, it was crime to look that good in the morning.

His tie wasn't done and his collar button was open beneath his black work robes I couldn't tear my eyes away from him.

Rose placed his breakfast in front of him "I hate work" he told us piercing his bacon passionately.

Rose shook her head "Yeah but you love it too"

He looked at her "Yeah I do that's why I hate it I think"
She exchanged a look with me, we left him to ponder his relationship with his work.

Lily and Roxanne graced us with their presence at around nine and Hugo half an hour after that.

Al and Scorp it seemed were snoring away to glory, Rose told me "We have to wake them up"

I asked hesitant "How? I've tried to wake up my brother it's always a disaster. Either he gets mad or one of us gets hurt"

She told me "Al wakes up pretty well, he'll groan and call you some choice names but he wakes up, Scorpius is like a dead walrus he doesn't budge"

The image of a dead walrus was slightly over the top but I found out she was right, no matter what she tried or I tried Scorpius Malfoy slept, Rose told me not bothering to whisper "It's all this waking up early these past few days which has him worn down, I don't know how Al wakes him up. Let's wake Al up, should be easier"

It was easy to wake Al up it turned out, he was unaffected by noise but very sensitive to touch.

Rose placed a hand on his shoulder, he groaned and rolled over pulling the blankets over his head.

I poked and prodded for a few seconds before he sat up groggily his hair looking like he'd stuck a hand in a live socket he blinked and let out a string of curses.

I didn't think it healthy to be that vile mouthed in the mornings.

The way he behaved when he was wide awake you'd never think Albus Potter even knew the meaning of half of the words he said but when I heard him speak like that I was surprised, Rose looked at me with a 'told you so' expression he looked at us glaring "Why are you waking me up at this ungodly hour, wait what's the time you freaks of nature?"
I answered "Almost ten"

He sighed "Oh, fine I'm awake now get lost" Well if that's not polite, I don't know what is.

Rose told him "Wake Scorpius up for us"

He looked at her "Last time I checked you were his girlfriend, haven't you woken up with him on several occasions?"

I hid my smirk, Rose blushed and said embarrassed "Shut up, I can't wake him up, just do it"

Al stretched "Just kick him off the bed, always works for me"

I asked feeling a bit bad for Scorpius "You kick him every morning?"

He looked at me yawning with glazed emerald eyes and a little part of me melted inside "Most mornings, sometimes I push him off the bed, he doesn't really mind, want to try? No? okay, your loss"

He got off his bed went over to the sleeping Scorpius and pushed him off the bed.

Scorpius rolled off and definitely woke up "Al you suck"

Al in question rolled his eyes "Yeah yeah, tell me something new"

Then he spread his arms out to us "There done"

He didn't wait for us to say anything, he just grabbed a towel and disappeared down the hallway to the bathroom.

Rose went over to Scorp "You're not hurt are you?"

He looked at her "I'm used to it"

I shook my head "This explains a lot"
He looked at me "What do you mean?"

I said thoughtfully "Head injury, makes sense"

He glared and rose laughed "Yeah haha, someone clap for the comedian Kayla"

I laughed and went out of the room leaving them there for their personalized morning greetings.

It was a boring day, Scorpius and Al got started on homework, and it was satisfying remembering that I finished mine.

I noticed that the subjects they learnt were nothing along the lines of what I had learnt in school.

They had potions, charms, transfiguration and the like. Just watching them do it made me want to be a wizard.

Rose said as I peeked over Al's shoulder into his essay, I noticed he had a scratchy yet legible handwriting that type that gives you the feeling that he's thinking so fast that his hand struggles to catch up with him.

His though was still better than mine, I had no talent for calligraphy whatsoever. There's this wrong assumption that girls have the better handwriting but it's not true especially if you take a look at mine.

It's as if I'm recording someone's heartbeat, no seriously sometimes I just discover my own language because there are points where I'm so out of writing my assignments that the writing becomes some languid wavy line. My teachers hate my handwriting, especially in History where there aren't numbers apart from dates to save my sorry ass.

Once I got a whole answer wrong because the sentence 'the people in the nineteenth century…' was read by my teacher as 'the pope in the ninth cellary…"

Yeah it's that bad.

Watching them do their homework, I saw they were counting words, and at one point Al exclaimed "Yes, two rolls of parchment exactly, what about you?"

Scorpius groaned "Half a roll left, I have run out of things to write, maybe if I allow more gaps between the words and enlarge my handwriting, you think he'll notice?"

I was confused, Al said "Just rewrite a few sentences and make the starting your conclusion, just yeah inconspicuously leave space"

I looked at Rose "Is this the way you do homework?"

She was apparently the only one who had finished all her homework in advance, she was stitching the hole in Hugo's pants, she was a great housekeeper "Yeah all the time"

I said "So much writing, the teacher would fail me, I'm horrible at writing"

She asked me threading the needle again "Why?"

I sighed watching Scorpius stretch and Al start on a different subject "Bad handwriting"

She smiled "Oh that's a shame I can tell you're very smart"

I nodded "Not to sound too proud but I am, I don't mind Maths because they're just numbers not complicated but the ones where there's a huge amount of writing I fail extraordinarily"

Rose said as a matter of fact "You'd be just as good as anyone else if they gave you more time so that you know you can write better"

I nodded "Yeah but that's not fair to the others"

She nodded.

Then she asked "So are you good at art?"

I snorted "I'm an insult to artists, I mean it has nothing to do with my handwriting but it's just that I can't do it"

Rose looked up pulling the needle through the cloth swiftly "That's okay you're good at other things"
I nodded hopefully "Yeah maybe"

She asked "What are your hobbies?"

I said what came to my mind "Reading"

She looked up at me "Nothing else?"

I shook my head, she looked surprised "You must get bored"

I looked away "Sometimes, I do actually but I don't really have an interest in anything else"

Al asked surprising both of us "Why not?'

I blushed "I just, I'm not very enthusiastic, that's my brother"

Al nodded smiling "It's not a bad thing you know to be enthusiastic?"

I brushed my hair aside "What can I be enthusiastic about except Science and books?"

Al told me "Flying, it's a good place to begin"

My eyes widened at what a plunge the conversation had taken "No way, never"

Rose looked at me grinning "Yeah Al, that's a great idea"

I think doomsday had arrived because there's no other reason. I had escaped James but I couldn't escape them, Scorp looked up throwing his quill down "I'm done with all the homework are you Al?"

Al nodded then Scorp looked at the three of us "What's going on?"

Rose told Scorpius excitedly "We're going to teach Kayla how to fly a broomstick"

Scorpius looked at my scared face "She looks like she's going to puke"

I thought that I just might. Last time when I flew that car I encountered a near death experience but this time this couldn't happen to me.

I kicked and screamed bloody mary as they dragged me to the backyard.

Hugo, Lily and Roxanne had gone to a friend's place which left me no help except Kreacher.

I screamed "KREACHER!"

Kreacher came bowing down as Rose and Scorp tried to keep from escaping and Al was holding me around the waist "Yes Miss?"

I panted "They're trying to kill me, they want me to fly a broomstick, please, heeeelp hee hee, Al that tickles! Kreacher please?!"

He looked at me helplessly and Al said "My orders are go back to whatever you were doing"

Kreacher said "Yes Master Albus" And he was gone with a loud crack.

I groaned "Please, please, pretty lease, I'll do whatever you want, just not this"

Scorp seemed to contemplate then said "Hmmm tempting but we rather see you overcome your fears"

I said angrily "Murderers, murderers, bloody insane murderers, just know that none of you are invited to my funeral none of you"

Rose asked as I was taken to the backyard giving up my struggle "How will you ensure that we don't come?"

The boys were chortling with laughter, I crossed my arms "It's the least bit of decency you can show me"

Al went over to the broom shed and brought out four brooms "Now listen, nothing is going to happen to you, we'll make sure of it, despite what you think we don't have plans of killing you"

He kept a broomstick at my feet and each one of them took a broom each, Al said "I don't know if 'up' applies to muggles but we can try"

I just stared trying to search for an escape.

Rose told me "Okay put your right hand over the broom and say 'up'"

I looked at her as if she was mad "What do you think is going to happen?"

She put her broom down and looked at me "This, up!"

The broom was in her hand in an instant, the whole time her eyes were locked on mine, when we were still staring at each other I pointed at myself and asked nervously "M-me?"

I looked at the broomstick, surely nothing was going to happen, I put my hand over the broom shakily "U-up?"

Nothing happened, where was the surprise in that?

Scorpius said "Keep your arm steady, be confident and say it forcefully, don't be a chicken a broom always senses it"

I told him imploringly "I am not a witch, it isn't going to work"
Al told me grabbing my attention "You can try believing that you are one for now, might help"

I looked away from him and at the broom then kept my quivering arm still and said as confidently as I could "Up!"

The broom leapt into my hand, much to my shock and to the others'.

Scorpius said quietly and as if this was a dream "I think Hogwarts missed a letter"

I stared at the wooden broom in my hand as still as it was on the ground "This is kind of wrong, right? This shouldn't have happened"

Rose got over her shock "Maybe you actually really believe in magic maybe that's a kind of magic in itself, I've heard of that kind of magic, you believe so hard in something that it actually happens"

I wondered sadly, then why wasn't my Grandpa still alive, when I was told that he died I had not believed it I thought they were all fooling me, I really believed he was still alive so why wasn't he?

I said with sudden force "No, that's bullshit, anyway now what? What do I have to do?"

Seeing that something was off the other three exchanged looks getting to teach me how to ride a broom, it was not as easy as they thought it would be.

First of all the broom was quite heavy, I could barely get off the ground without feeling scared.

I knew how to ride a broom in theory by that point but I couldn't do the practical part of it.

There was something uncertain about it, something about the way my brain was wired by society that made me think that this couldn't work.

But then I thought about Copernicus how he had been afraid that the church wouldn't accept his theory so he left his theory with Rheticus and left the burden of the job of telling the world to him and died. Only if he had a little more faith in his theory and a little courage, according to me he was a bigger coward than I was.

So for a minute forgetting that a world without magic was reality I let myself into the fictional world and actually kicked off the ground.

What I didn't expect was to be shot into the sky like a cannon ball, I must have kicked off hard because the wind was whipping my face as I screamed and the sun was oddly coming closer and closer.

Al screamed from somewhere behind me "Remember to control the broom, go on! Come on Kayla, bend it and be slow, no jerks remember!?"

I barely heard him and tried to shut my mouth, I struggled to control the broom, the blasted thing had a mind of its own.

As soon as I'd rocketed into the sky I was plummeting to the ground, I felt tears prickling at the corners of my eyes I cried "Make it stop! Please!"

I shut my eyes giving up as soon as I'd found some courage, but after a while I felt myself sitting upright floating through the air somehow just flying, I opened my eyes slowly assuming I must have died or something because it was all very peaceful, my knuckles were white from gripping the broom stick handle I saw another larger hand in front of both of mine, it was Al's I looked to my side and saw Al flying beside me controlling my broom as well as his.

I sniffed "Thanks, by the way you're really good if you can control two brooms at once"

He looked at me relieved but also like he was recovering from a heart attack "It's no big deal, it's important to stay calm, just make the broom your friend"

I looked at it "Huh, why not? A broomstick for a friend, yeah I'm definitely climbing up the social ladder now"

He laughed "No you have to trust the broomstick so that it can trust you too, I'm going to take my hand off now"

I put my hand over his and stopped him gasping "Don't!"

His green eyes locked on mine "Trust it, it'll be fine I'm right here anyway and Scorpius and Rose are behind you, don't worry"

I looked over my shoulder and saw them and rose smiled encouragingly and Scorpius said "Keep your eyes in front I see a tree there"

I whipped in front to see only sky and I gritted my teeth "I wish I could punch you Malfoy"

The three of them were laughing and Al slowly drew his hand out letting go of my handle and I gripped the broom tight, I said trying to be calm "Good broomstick, I love you you love me we are a happy family, with a great big kiss and a hug from me to you won't you say you love me too?"

I patted the broom soothingly and I saw Al shaking with laughter I told him "Laugh all you want it's the only way I'm trusting this non-living thing"
It wasn't that hard I figured, yes at times the broom swerved or jerked but it was mostly comfortable and being on the top of the world wasn't such a bad thing.

I got comfortable enough on a broom to dabble in a bit of broomstick tag and also catching the quaffle while the others went easy on me. I wasn't feeling bad that they were, in fact it just gave me the advantage when they underestimated me.

So when I took the quaffle from Al for the eighth time in a row to put it through the hoop past Rose, Al said "Okay that's it no more easy for you"

I just smirked cunningly.

When we came down to the ground though I head a shaky landing I was proud of myself "This is a new achievement for me"

Al gave me a high five and so did the others, Scorpius laughed in Rose's face "Who knew having Kayla on the team will help me thrash you both"

Rose rolled her eyes "We were going easy on you if you didn't know, so we could boost your confidence"

I said imitating May when she throws attitude on the track when someone is a sore looser "Whatever helps you sleep at night"

Rose gaped at me and Scorpius laughed slinging his hand over my shoulder "That's my partner"

Al told us "Yeah yeah, we'll see in our next match"

I told him again imitating May because I didn't know myself how to give it back to competition especially in sports "Bring your best and we'll bring ours"

Al was surprised "Where did you learn to be competitive? I thought you're all 'better luck next time' and 'I'm sorry this was just beginner's luck'"

Scorpius stuck his tongue out at Al and I blushed "I used to go down to see some of my brother's matches and May running track, these are the dialogues they always throw so I just took a leaf out of May's book"

Al nodded "Well then you better get some more leaves because you're going to need them"

I looked at Scorp, what do you say to that? Scorp said "It's alright sour grapes will be sour"

I nodded smiling.

It was not unexpected that we spent the rest of the day competing and dare I say that I was good.

There wasn't a sporty bone in my body but suddenly I was all aggression and adrenaline.

I swore loudly when Al scored another goal forgetting May's and Kian's attitude I yelled at Scoprius in the scorching afternoon sun "Having a heat stroke Scorpius?! Pull yourself together and block the damned goals!"

Scorpius looked at me shocked, even Al who was flying back to his end was taken aback, Scorp yelled "I'm supposed to be a beater you genius, I'm not a keeper"
I told him "You're getting creamed by your girlfriend, so stop complaining"
He didn't have anything to say and I slapped a hand over my mouth "Sorry, sorry, that was mean, sorry" Yeah not everything about me had changed as yet, Scorpius looked determined suddenly "The game starts now"

He glared at Rose who was studying her nails in front of the hoops and Scorpius told me "Thanks for that Kayla"

I hesitated "Um, your welcome I guess"

We won three times in a row and this time I told Albus when we came down for a break "Ahem, still going easy on us?"
We were all sweating profusely, my hands felt like jelly because that quaffle was heavy and my left hand was cramped from holding the handle for ages "Don't get cocky" he warned me.

I told him honestly "Thanks I didn't think I'd be able to do this, ever, seriously"

He smiled "No problem I'm glad we got to see a side of you we never thought you had"

I asked whispering "You did go easy on me didn't you?"

He leaned downwards "Just a bit, but don't tell Scorp"

I nodded "Yes let it be a secret"

It had been pretty obvious both of them had gone easy on me, not on Scorp but on me because to be frank I wasn't that good, it was my first time flying, miracles didn't happen in real life.

I didn't think flying would leave me so tired but it did and for the first time I knew what adrenaline and exercise meant, two things I only knew from biology textbooks and the internet nothing that had happened to me.

If I had ever really perspired before this historic moment was because of heat, no other reason.

I was the strong follower of the 'No brain no gain' philosophy not the 'No pain no gain' one.

James was early that evening, when I took cold water out of the fridge to fight my perspiration he stepped in stinking he asked "What did you do? Why do you look like you spent the day in the sauna?"

I smelt myself "Ew I smell like you"

He nodded "No joke"

He asked "So what made you move your limbs and exercise, my fitness conscious cousins didn't push you to do anything did they?"

I laughed "Not technically"

He raised his eyebrows nicking my glass of cold water and I swatted his shoulder "Hey! You thief!"

He just grinned and licked the entire rim of the jar and offered it to me "You can have it back if you want?"

I cringed and pulled back "I'll just pour myself another one, I can do without your germs"

He laughed "What do you mean by 'Not technically'?"

I turned around to pour myself another glass "They forced me to get on a broomstick and fly it"

He didn't reply and when I began sipping on the cold water I felt much better he gave me a tight smile "Oh nice, how come I could never get you to on your own?"

My heart fell and I said back "I didn't agree that easily, I thrashed and screamed and also I think I might have bit Socrpius too, should apologize for that now that I think about it"
He didn't say much he asked "Liked it?"

I got excited "Loved it"

And he smiled sadly pulling out a chair and sitting down "Knew you would"

I sat down in another one "I'm pretty good if I say so myself, I can see why you made it a career. I could be up there all the time"

He smiled a real smile "We should play some time"

I nodded "Yeah but you'll have to go easy on me I'm still no prodigy"

He laughed "You are, wait how did the broom agree to let you fly, you did the 'up' exercise?"

I nodded and shrugged "It leapt into my hand like it was meant to be there"

He looked at me suspiciously "Are you sure you're not a witch?"

I laughed "Quite sure, no magical moments in my life"

He said "Except with me"

I rolled my eyes "You're so full of yourself"

He gave a non-committed shrug "So when do you plan to go on another adventure with me?"
I leaned back in my chair "When you're not working I guess? For the record every conversation is an adventure with you James"
He laughed and when we fell into silence he finally asked seriously "I've been meaning to ask what pissed you off that day on the Ferris wheel"

I tensed and fidgeted uncomfortably suddenly shutting off "It was nothing"

He asked completely serious with no humor "It was about your Grandpa wasn't it?"

I nodded after a lot of deliberation, he sighed "You could have told me"

I could have but I didn't want to, I said "I wasn't thinking straight, I find it hard to talk about him…"

James seemed to understand that but I knew in my mind what I had left out '…except with Al'.

James said smiling "You were close to him I'm guessing"

My throat constricted it was like talking to those people at the funeral, you feel like running away and not wanting to speak to anybody, it was like being stuffed inside a carton with no oxygen, I nodded gripping my glass hard in my hands.

James said his chair scraping across the kitchen floor as he moved closer to me "Hey it's alright…."

I looked at James hard in the eye "Alright? What's alright? Are you frikking kidding me? It's not alright. Why'd you have to bring it up? You want me to believe that it's alright he's dead. He believed in magic in the existence of people like you, he believed so much in it. I remember all the more while I'm here. Either let him be dead or let him be alive in my heart you can't make me feel better by talking about him and saying it's alright"

James didn't flinch he let me rant "I was only saying that it's alright to talk about him, because it's the only way you can feel happy for yourself you shouldn't have to miss him and pretend like you don't"

I wilted and just looked at the table "I just can't talk about him…..not to you"
I waited for him to say something "Why?" I answered "Because you help me forget, you're helping me be a new person and it's nice not being the sappy me around you, you know how to help me not take life seriously and it's nice to escape"

He smiled "I'm glad, but even I know you can't keep hiding from your problems it's what I mostly do"

I looked up at him "You'd have never understood my Grandpa, he loved to think not talk, you love to talk not think"

James said eyes lighting up "There you spoke about him"

I laughed "You're a nut"
James looked at me "I won't ask, but it would be nice if you could tell"
I asked him "What about you?"

He looked so serious suddenly it was scary "What do you want me to tell?"

I answered "Anything"

He didn't smile "Give me time"

I nodded, with Al he would have said instantly with Al I wouldn't have bitten him if he asked about Grandpa and the best part was he didn't even have to ask.

Why was it so shaky and difficult with James?

Why was it so easy with Al?

I found Al in his room later on and hesitating, I knocked on the door, from inside he said "Come in"

I pushed the door back and entered, he was reading, I saw the posters on his wall of Quidditch teams, the books piled all over the place.

I stood there and h said "If you had a fight with Rose, I don't want to hear, if you just kissed Rose I don't want to hear, if you don't know where to take her for the next date, get out"

I let out a laugh and he looked up turning red "Oh sorry….I thought it was Scorp….uh, sit…if you want….um wait are you calling me for something?"
I smiled at his flustered behavior, I sat the end of his bed "Just wanted to talk"

He immediately put his book done marking his page with a bookmark "Begin"

I looked at him "Why do I find it so easy to talk about Grandpa with you?"

He looked confused "You should know that shouldn't you?"

I looked at my palms "I don't know you don't even have to ask about him to know about him and I find it really curious"

He asked "Maybe I'm just awesome and perfect and you love me?"

I looked at him unimpressed and he shrugged "What a bloke can hope can't he?"

I told him "I'm being serious"

He grumbled "So am I" But I ignored him, he then said "Maybe I'm just easy to talk to and I don't put you under a microscope that's why, also you feel like I won't judge you or not understand"
I nodded "That makes more sense, but it's so weird, I don't talk about him to my own parents"

Al scooted loser to me "It's okay not to, I wouldn't take Scorpius to my grandparent's grave either"

I was surprised at that "Really?"

He nodded truthfully and I asked "Maybe it was because you felt like you needed to give me something back for talking about my Grandpa?"

He looked at me as if I was insane "Of course not! But anyways, I just thought you'd get it better than all of them"

I smiled "That's pretty nice"

He grinned "Somehow I always seem to say the right things to you, I've never been this good at conversation"

I asked not believing him "Really?"

He nodded "Yeah I'm not very good with conversing, this is the first time I'm actually making the effort….with you"

And then I realized why I could talk about Grandpa to him "You're just like him"

Al looked confused "Like who?"
I didn't answer "No wonder it's so easy"

He asked the gears of his mind working "Are you saying….I'm like your Grandpa?"

I nodded "Yes"

He smiled contented "I'm honored"

I smiled back "This realization makes me like you more"

His eyes widened and I could slap myself "More than you used to like me or more than James?"

I hit him and stood up "That's quite enough for one day"

He told me "Do you….do you…talk to him…..James…about …..?"

He didn't have to say who, I stood wondering and I closed my eyes and shook my head.

I opened them and was surprised I didn't find a satisfied or proud look on Al's face just an understanding one he said "I don't know what sort of connection you both share and I'm not going to critic it, he makes you happy that much I know so…."

I walked over to the door "Give me time" I clutched the knob.

Silence filled the room and he asked not daring to believe it "You're actually going to choose?"
My heart broke as I said "I'm no goddess or an exception to human feelings, I can't like two people at one time and I'm not going to pretend to. I'm starting to like one of you a lot, I just have to be sure who I really liked from the start, I've realized something I just want to be sure"

Al didn't say anything and I left the room to walk straight into James, he looked guilty and I froze.

I said my voice shaking "J-James?"

I didn't see Al's expression, James looked at me looking sorry and I felt my fists shaking, now I was angry.

He must have seen it because he said "Kayla I…."

I walked away furiously, if he couldn't respect me then he didn't need me.

I didn't go to Rose's room where Rose and Scorpius would be snogging, I went to the attic and started kicking the wall, hard. I was itching to punch something really hard.

I was crying in minutes and I even hurt my fist on the wall.

In my rage I dialed Kian's number, he picked up "Uhhh, bedhead, don't call too many times it's weird for me"

I said my voice cracking "K-kian, I want to come home"

I could hear him breathe and then he asked worried "What did they do Kayla? What happened?"
I cried "They didn't do anything! I just can't stay here, it's too much"

He didn't understand me "Kayla? You have to tell me what happened so I can help you"

I sobbed breathlessly, and he didn't hang up or keep asking any questions for which I was thankful, when I eased up a little he said quietly "Kay, give me the address, I'll be there by tomorrow"

I thought about it and I told him blindly, for some reason it felt really comforting, the idea of having Kian here. Maybe we did have a twin connection.

I still to this day don't know why I called him and not Grams or May in my moment of weakness, maybe sharing a womb did make a difference.

When I'd narrated the address he told me "Hang in there Kay, I'm telling Grams and leaving as soon as I can, should I tell Mum and Dad?"

I said sniffing "Don't, please, just don't. Call me if you can't find the house and just take care"

He laughed but there was no humor in it "I should be telling you to take care, see you tomorrow morning Kay, I got my driving license I'll drive Grams's car down yeah?"

I laughed wiping my nose on my sleeve sloppily "Nice ride"

He said "Shut up, I'm doing this for you"

I waited for a second "Thanks Kian"

He was silent "The gods are watching, this is an auspicious day"

I rolled my eyes "Bye"

He hung up probably rushing around his room to collect the things he needed for the journey.

I didn't know what happened but before I knew it I was asleep on the dusty attic floor, my brother was coming and it almost felt like home.

AN: This chapter is so different from the others and longer. Please review! For the effort, come on!

Thanks for reading!

Sahitya Poonacha :)