[being alive -company]
[singing in the shower]
Romance has never quite worked out for Padma. She could list on the fingers of her left hand the times she hasn't had her heart entirely broken by the boy she's fancied latest. They've been dating someone or started dating someone or started dating Padma's sister every damn time, leaving her belting cheesy Spellbound break-up songs in the shower. And finally, finally, romance and Padma worked toegether–
Padma ruined it.
Because she needs someone, she does. She needs someone to know her too well, someone who'll always be there, because she's never had that, not with her mother, not with her father, not with her sister, and every time she thinks some boy will be there for her, he leaves, leaves, leaves.
But not Dean. Padma ruined Dean.
If she ruined him, can she not repair him as well?
She picks up a quill.
She addresses a letter.
It begins.