Thanks for all the well wishes, I feel a bit better after reading them :) Sorry the last few chapters, including this one have been a bit short, but to be honest, I normally have no idea where I'm this. I'm normally just bored one day and write the first chapter then don't think about the story till I go to write the next chapter. I've got an idea of the next few chapters though. Also feel free to message me with any ideas or suggestions, feedback is always appreciated :) please review!
Ps: New naomily video up on youtube. My username is the same as my fanfiction one
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I've managed to walk all the way to Emily's, which is normally only about a 10 minute walk, but it's nearing 3am and I've been walking for half an hour, and I'll admit, very wobbly. I've fallen over a couple of times too. I hope I don't regret this.
I arrive at her house (finally) and decide that instead of knocking on the door and risking waking up the entire Fitch household, I'll ring Emily and tell her to come out. I look up and all the lights are off, so I assume she's asleep. I call her and it rings through.
"Hi, it's Emily, leave a message…"
"Fuck," I say to myself. I ring her a second time and she picks up on the second ring.
"Hello?" She mumbles.
"Emily!" I exclaim
"Naomi?" She whispers, "Where are you?"
"I'm outside! Come and see me!"
"Fuck sake…" She sighs, "I'll be down in a sec." She hangs up.
I go and sit down on the pathway while I wait for her to come out. A minute later she emerges wearing just her knickers and a singlet top.
"For God's sake, Naomi, what are you doing?"
"I came to see you!" I get off the sidewalk and run up to her and envelope her in a tight hug
"I love you!" I tell her and kiss her. She kisses back for a second or two before pulling away.
"Naomi, no. You're drunk."
"So?" I grin. "I love you. I need you. It's the truth."
"Where have you been?" She ignored what I've said.
"At the pub, with Connor." I mumble out.
"Right." I can see the disappointment in her eyes.
I cup her face and gently stroke her hair. "No, no. Not like that. He's got a girlfriend. I love you. I don't love him."
I lean in and kiss her deeply, again. She responds this time and we quickly melt into each other. She keeps her hands rested on my neck but I've got other plans. My hands run over every inch of her and finally find their way down to her knickers. Before I can get into them, god that sounded bad… before I can 'enter' she stops. Again.
"No. Stop it Naomi." I continue my attack on her lips until she has to forcefully push me away.
I sigh. "I don't get you, Emily. I love you. I love you so much and you say you love me too. But every time something happens between us you get freaked out and run."
She puts her hands around my waist and pulls me in close to her. "I do love you, Naomi. You know I do. It's just… hard."
"You don't think it's hard for me?" I stumble a little bit but Emily catches me. "I'm not even gay. I don't think about that. It's not that I'm a girl in love with a girl; I'm Naomi in love with Emily. And that's all the matters. You're gay, you've been here before, so why do you keep fighting it when it's what we both want?"
"Because with you, it's different."
"Why?!"
"Because you love me." She says simply. "The girls I've been with before, they haven't loved me. They didn't even know me. I didn't know them, but it didn't matter. It was just about the sex, yeah? It wouldn't matter when I'd wake up and find them gone, it wouldn't matter. I'd not lost anything. But what if that happens with you. I couldn't wake up and find you gone, Naomi, I couldn't."
"You wouldn't," I kiss her again but she fights me off. I sigh and fall into her arms again and find myself crying, again. Her hands fall on my waist again and I feel her fingers creep up my shirt and stroke against the small of my back.
And that's when I realize. I realize that I need her. And if I have to wait, I will. Because what we have, she won't be able to deny it for much longer. Because she needs me as much as I need her. She loves me. I just know it.
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