Chapter 10
When Sharon opened her eyes, Andy wasn't with her. Andrea held her hand, looking at her carefully. Sharon looked around and realized that she wasn't in her office, she was in the restroom. She tried to get up but felt a slight pain in her belly and decided to lie some more. She remembered her fainting in the office and the fact that she'd fainted in Andy's arms. But now, she couldn't understand how she is here and why Andrea is with her.
"Sharon, honey, how are you feeling?" Andrea said quietly. Sharon took a deep breath and rubbed her belly confused.
"I'm fine, but why are you here? I mean you weren't here. I remember everything. I fainted in the office and Andy was beside me. But ... Where is he?" she asked immediately. Andrea sighed wearily and took her hand.
"Calm down. He led you here and now perhaps he is at a crime scene with the team. They got a new murder case while I was with you here." she explained hastily. Sharon closed her eyes for a moment and drops of tears streamed down her cheeks. She couldn't believe that Andy leave her alone in this state, especially after her fainting. Andrea wiped her tears and hugged her tightly.
"Sharon, why are you crying? Calm down." she said quietly, trying to calm her. Sharon wiped her tears and swallowed the lump in her throat, then looked at her friend.
"Andrea, I feel terrible. I no longer mean anything to Andy. He left me alone in this difficult time, after my fainting. He really hates me as before, even more." she said sadly. Andrea hushed and squeezed her shoulder.
"Sharon, you're wrong. Believe me, Andy was too scared when you fainted. He brought you here and I told him that I'll be with you as he has to attend the crime scene." she assured with a smile. Sharon shook her head and shrugged.
"I think I feel tired and I need a rest. I'll go home." she said quietly and stood up carefully.
"Sharon, you're not fine. I'll take you home, don't worry." Andrea said firmly. Sharon smiled softly.
"Andrea, believe me, I feel perfectly well and I can drive. I'll see you tomorrow." she said hastily and went to her office to pick up her purse and coat. She quickly got into her car and headed for home while Andrea was worried about her. Sharon drove slowly and thoughtfully. She thought for Andy and for her child. She hoped that Andy's the father, because otherwise she wouldn't have a chance to be with him again. Finally, she parked her car and quickly went home. She threw the keys and went into the living room where Rusty was waiting to talk to her. He already knew the truth, and he wanted to be sure that this is really true. Sharon came to him as he watched her coldly. She gave him a weak smile and stood before him.
"Rusty, are you okay? What's wrong?" she asked anxiously, seeing his look. Rusty sighed and took her hand.
"Sharon, I know everything. Today I spoke with Nicole and she told me the truth, but I wanted to see you. Is it true that this child is not Andy's?" he asked cautiously. Sharon took a deep breath and bit her lip. She wasn't surprise therefore that Rusty has learned the whole truth. At least, he didn't behave so rudely as in the beginning.
"Yes, what you knew is true. But still, this child might be Andy's. Look, Rusty, everyone makes mistakes, but I love Andy and I had relationship with him for months." she said thoughtfully, and sat on the couch. Rusty looked at her confused and sat beside her.
"Sharon, I know that you love Andy, but probably he is very hurt and angry." he noted sadly. Sharon shrugged and squeezed his shoulder.
"Yes, he is. But he is more hurt than angry. I know, everything that happened between me and Jack was a mistake, unforgivable mistake, but I sincerely hope that this is Andy's child. I want to give Andy a son. I want him to be happy, but I know that he'll never forgive me. It's over. " she admitted sadly and wiped her tears. Rusty hugged her without saying anything else. Sharon was grateful for his support.
"Sharon, whatever happens, I'll always be here to support you." he said firmly. Sharon nodded and smiled, saying, "I believe in this, thank you Rusty." Rusty was like her son and she was grateful that at least he is with him while Emily and Ricky were away. She would have preferred they not know about what is happening. She didn't want to worry her children with these things. Later, Sharon went into the nursery and sat down, looking at the crib. She wanted Andy to be here with her, but unfortunately everything was ruined. On the other hand, Andy was with Provenza at his home. Provenza had offered to stay with him because he didn't want to leave his friend alone. Andy was grateful that he has a friend like Provenza.
"Andy, I hope you feel better." he said quietly, sitting beside him. Andy nodded and smiled slightly.
"Thank you, Louie. You are my true friend. After this terrible case and after everything that happened so far, I really need your company." he admitted. Provenza nodded with a smile and squeezed his shoulder.
"Of course, that's why we're friends, right? Well, I'll give you of my pajamas tonight." he said, laughing and went into his bedroom. Andy took a deep breath and leaned back. He was worried about Sharon, especially after her fainting in her office, but he couldn't call her. For a moment he grabbed his phone, but he refused. He could not forget her lies and his pain. He was so accustomed to the idea of a son that he felt like a living corpse. As if he'd lost another son again. Sitting pensively at the nursery, Sharon felt something she hadn't felt long ago. She rubbed her belly slightly and smiled softly, feeling little kicks. This was a sign that her baby is all right.
"Hey, you. Maybe you want to tell me that your father is Andy? Maybe you want to calm your mother and tell her that everything will be fine." she murmured sadly to the baby inside her, and she went into her bedroom back, for a good sleep - somewhat. All night, however, neither Sharon nor Andy hadn't slept. The parting was terrible for them. The next morning, Sharon prepare breakfast for Rusty, but she didn't eat anything and this made Rusty to worry. He squeezed her hand.
"Sharon, don't tell me that you won't eat. Well, maybe I'm just a teenager about you but I know that pregnant women should eat healthily. Andy taught me this and ..." He suddenly stopped, seeing that Sharon began to feel bad, referring to Andy again.
"Rusty, I understand, but I promise. I'll eat when I want." she assured him and took her purse ready to go to work. She kissed Rusty's forehead and warned him to go to college on time. Rusty took a deep breath and shook his head sadly. He wanted Sharon and Andy make out, but he knew it would be quite difficult. On the other hand, Andy and Provenza already had breakfast. They sat in their seats, working hard as ever. Provenza was drinking his morning coffee while Andy was concentrating on his work. Provenza like this, but knowing that he's doing this to forget about Sharon and his problems made him feel worse. He left his glass on his desk and looked at his friend more closely.
"Andy, what the hell are you doing? Stop working like a robot!" he protested. Andy rolled his eyes, angry and unhappy and looked at him.
"What do want old man? I just want to focus on my work. Why you stop me?" he almost shouted and the entire team looked at them. Provenza gritted his teeth in anger and decided not to give any response, as there was no point. Several hours later, Sharon arrived at work. The entire team could feel the coldness between her and Andy, but she knew that Andy is absolutely right to behave this way with her. While all were in the lunch break, in the department there wre only Sharon and Andy, but they didn't talk to each other. Somehow, Jack suddenly came there and Andy walked away angrily. Sharon couldn't believe that Jack has the courage to come here.
"Jack, I can't believe that you have the courage to come here again!" she shouted loudly. Jack looked at her with anger and grabbed her hand.
"I came to understand only one thing Sharon. Is this child is mine." he said firmly. Sharon stepped back and looked at him angrily.
"What does it matter? You've never been a good father, neither for Emily nor Ricky. What do you want now?" she asked angrily. Jack took her hand again, looking at her green eyes.
"Stop playing games with me! Tell me the truth. This is my child or Andy's?" he asked several times. Sharon stepped back and took a deep breath, putting her hand on her belly.
"How many times do I have to tell you I don't know? I have no idea. But sincerely want Andy to be the father, because I know what kind of father you are!" she shouted and expelled him from the department. When Jack left, Sharon went into her office and began to cry. She could no longer tolerate this. It was like a nightmare without end. At this point, Andy came back and hearing her crying, he quickly rushed into Sharon's office. Sharon quickly wiped her tears while Andy watched her anxiously. He approached her, but kept his distance.
"Sharon, are you okay?" he asked sternly. Sharon took a deep breath and nodded slightly.
"Everything is fine. Andy, please, leave me alone." she asked, shunning his eyes. Andy agreed unhappy somehow, but he came out of her office and returned to his desk. All afternoon, Sharon didn't talk to anyone and it made Andy feel bad. Somehow, he was worried about her and even for her baby even though he knew that it wasn't his child. Whatever happens, however, he couldn't forget about her deception and the pain she'd caused. Several hours later, Sharon came home and while Rusty was studying for his exam, she decided to call Andrea and talk to her.
"Can you imagine Andrea? Jack came asking me stupid questions. But frankly, I'm afraid that this child is his. I'm afraid that this child is not Andy's and that I will lose him forever. I love Andy and I don't want to lose him. " she confessed and took a deep breath. Andrea hushed quietly and squeezed her hand.
"Sharon, calm down. The probability Jack to be the father is almost 20%. You had a relationship with Andy for months. Don't you think that's weird you to be pregnant with Jack's child?" she pressed lightly. Sharon closed her eyes for a moment and shrugged sadly.
"Andrea, believe me, I have no idea. Inside me there is only hope. Hope that this is our son with Andy. Hope that Andy's the father. But the uncertainty began to scare me, and I fear that I will meet with bitter reality . " she said softly. Andrea shook her head and smiled encouragingly.
"Sharon, stop to think about it. Now the only important thing is the baby. Let everyone think what they want. After the birth, we'll do a DNA test and find out who the father is, although I know that this is Andy from the start." she said firmly. Sharon nodded and hugged her tightly. To have such a loyal friend as Andrea was the best consolation. At night, Sharon sat on her bed and wrote in her diary. She just needed to share her feelings.
"I'm afraid. I have a terrible fear. My fear grows with every hour, with every minute and as if I'm in a maze with no exit. The only thing I want is to know the truth. I've committed a terrible sin, a mortal sin. I'm afraid. I sincerely hope Andy is the father of my child, but the fact that Jack may also be the father makes me feel terrible. I know that Andy will never forgive me, and he is right. I hurt him a lot and undeserved. He loved me very much and he still loves me but I hate this coldness between us. I hope that this child is Andy's. I want to have a happy family with Andy and give him a chance to be a father again. He's already lost one son, I can't let him lose another one. Even if he never forgive me, let it be Andy's child ... Let this child be ours ... Let this be a result of our great love, love that will always be as strong as before ..."
~~~ TBC ~~~